Forgotten

2012-02-14T03:53:00.001-08:00

@Jessie: WENT TO SEE THE DOCTOR :D Hopefully too but before that I should record a single I sound like Bang Yong Guk. I WILL SING SOON.

@celine: HAHA NOT THE FIRST TIME :D :D I love my Sunny spammer I feel joy everytime I see that she's tagged.

I don't know any exact dates but I can confidently say: soon. I've been incredibly distracted. Seriously, tripping down the stairs in the LT and getting a mild abrasion because my eyes were playing tricks? (Or rather: my mind playing tricks. My eyes knew what they were seeing.) I'm going crazy.

Wore a heart on my sleeve today, and ran around with a sloppy French braid (it was the sloppiest of French braids) :D It was coordinate with Jessie but she did a side braid, but normal braids don't work with my hair.

My sore throat manifested itself in the worst way possible today, I sounded like Bang Yong Guk except pitchy. Like when I was talking to Jin Kiat every 2 sentences my voice would suddenly pitch up (lol LIKE A PLANE) and fade off and he was like "OKAY, STOP TALKING. Seriously. Do you want water???" HAHA MY VOICE IS SO FUCKED. Some conversations were just weird 'cos I just went as far as I could purely using charades, then when absolutely necessary I spoke and everyone's reaction was "OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR VOICE" and it's worse than it was yesterday at training lol ide. What is happening.

On the other hand I went to the doctor's so yes. I have 4 diff medicine but only 6 of each pill LOL but yea he says it'll be gone in 3 days so! YES.

13.02.2012

What happened? OH YES HOUSE CIP. Haha it was quite funny 'cos me Anisa Nat Alvin were FOREVER ALOOOONE HAHA we didn't have any buddies! Anisa got REJECTED. BY THREE PEOPLE HAHA. Ended up as 'bodyguards' for Mun Lin's buddy HAHA QUITE FUNNY. Also played a different version of the Seagull Soup game, it was the man with a stick in a desert. It was REALLY STUPID when I got it oh sigh. Also, the MRT thing (I go Boon Lay, then I go Marina Bay, where do I go next?) WHICH WAS EVEN MORE STUPID. Oh BW12♥

Also lunch at Far East! Ate at BK and talked with Weiqi Jessie VIVIAN CHEWWW. Girl gonna miss you so much ♥ Also: GOSSIPPING AND BULLSHITTING AND PROVING THAT VIVIAN CHEW KNOWS EVERYONE. Haha oh gosh ♥ PLATOONMATES I LOVE YOU. We must ALL go out one day!

Training was spend mostly just spending time talking to platoonmates, a bit OOPS but ah well ♥ Also I may never go for training again because my timetable sucks HAHA but ah well. I'm getting over it.

14.02.2012

Got a free hug and heart from Aletheia! ♥ I LOVE YOU TOOOO ♥

Lessons started proper today. Had Civics, which was okay. Econs was the mad fast teacher again BUT I KIND OF LOVE HOW CRAZY SHE IS, HAVE I MENTIONED. Took a while to get the thing about price though, but Glor is a genius and got it :D 2 free blocks after, so I went to... the library to mug |: The kind of student I've become lol guys you wouldn't tell it was the same me in sec1. After that had chem, which oh my god. I don't get anything and I'm going to take so long to finally get to handling chem even. Let alone do even half-well :/ Also bio lectures, but well. We did presentations on proteins and it was mostly educational but partially confusing because of time constraints. Also writing notes when no one else is again, oops, but seriously writing helps me stay up. Then GP, where we had a Surprise Diagnostic Test and like seriously, WORST ESSAY I HAD EVER WRITTEN, hated my points structure and diction. On the bright side: got home early! :D

Since I'm on writing: I've been so down about my skills lately it's not even funny it's just sad :/ Sigh. Why?

Got home, and. Well. Read fanfiction. I HAD THE URGE, OKAY. And all my favourites updated! And I was all "Ugh need fandom NOW" and then I decided to do so and. Well. Guess where all my time went. DOWN THE DRAAAAIN. OH WELL it's okay there isn't anything to do (besides SRP RIP Econs) SO.

Also just saying I'm signing up for SRP but the chances of getting in are like 0%, especially because I have a bad track record of having contributed nothing to the school. I'm just trying out for it for fun anyway, and sort of to let fate decide where I go after this.

Anyway: THANKS FOR ALL THOSE WHO GAVE VALENTINE'S GIFTS ♥ I don't approve of Valentine's as a holiday but still the people who gave out stuff were super sweet, so thanks :D♥

Also: kind of impressed by Stamford's aesthetic. It's empty now so I have no idea how it will serve in terms of functionality, but it's form is kind of amazing for an intranet.

I'm going to chiong out some homework now so that I may sleep peacefully tomorrow :D♥ Then maybe I will read more fic. HAHA OKAY. I AM PRODUCTIVE.

Gudbai ♥

2012-02-13T05:31:00.000-08:00

The worst of illnesses omg.

I'll blog tomorrow I'M SO FUCKING TIRED.

SO MANY THINGS I REGRET IN SUCH A SHORT TIME.

Also omg I can't it's midnight and I'm acting like it's 3am.

2012-02-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

Shit I actually think the business leaders and the techonology enrichment programmes are cool ):

Also I can't install MS Office because of the lack of space in my C:/ drive. Oh life. Okay uninstalled OpenOffice this had better work or I'm going to cry. Having no MS Office and OpenOffice will just about kill me. Why the fuck is MS Office so big anyway!? Plus I don't want it on like my D:/ drive or my HDD 'cos. WELL YOU CAN'T INSTALL MS OFFICE ON A HDD. I mean you can but SERIOUSLY?

OH YEA IT'S INSTALLED. Fuck to the yeahhhh. MS WORD YAAAAAAAAAAY ♥

Went to Jessie's house today! Was supposed to lunch with her and Weiqi but there was miscoomm between me and my mom o.o Anyway I ate lunch with my fmaily then went over! Played Risk which I SUCK AT HAHA but it was funny! And then HAD A DANCE PARTY AND THEY TAUGHT ME TO DO THE BOYS, WHICH I SUCK AT. WELL. Not surprising lololol. BUT YEA IT WAS HILARIOOOOUS. Played Band Hero and Sing It, the HSM version! I HAVE TOTALLY BEEN ON A HSM KICK LATELY LOL.

Also guys this is basically my entire life encapsulated into one scenario:
"GUYS GUYS LET'S SING STICK TO THE STATUS QUO omg I've been singing it all the time because I saw 'status quo' in my econs notes and was like "STICK TO THE STATUS QUO OH WHOOOOOOA OH!!!!!!!!!!!!" AHHHH."

Ate dinner with Weiqi after that :D

IT WAS FUN GUYS MISS YOU ♥

Okay gonna do Bio project work and then econs and then I SHALL SLEEP LATE TONIGHT since it's only CIP tomorrow :D And training! Yep. AND PLATOON REUNION LOL tbh I have a mini platoon reunion every school day BUT YEA. EXCITED. Also ramen at Far East!

Okay guys I am SERIOUSLY on a HSM kick now and SHARPAY IS BASICALLY PERFECT.

OKAY I AM GOING TO DO STUFF DAMMIT.

LOLOL YOUTUBE. Never gonna hear I Don't Dance the same way ever again.

2012-02-11T07:47:00.000-08:00

FUCKING TIRED.

Woke up INADVERTENTLY at 0900 today, like, what in the actual fuck? My alarm was set to 1000! Ughh. I was supposed to sleep until Sunday. Or well at least until I have to fly. (Lolol the many ways to read that.) BUT YEA BASICALLY: I NEEDS MORE SLEEPS.

Anyway since I was up so early I finished Aldous Huxley's Brave New World!

Um okay it was. Okay la. I read it more as a concept than as a book, and I must say the concept is interesting! It's kind of amazing to see how social conditioning can affect one's psyche and thus their actions and reactions. Biologically it was a little extreme, but I could see it I suppose? And the caste system is fucked as wow.

I think it's possible. Not now, and probably not in the near future, but basically, things like this can happen and it's nowhere less likely than 1984.

Writing-wise... didn't like it. It was too much purple prose and oddness in diction and flow? And I didn't like the flow of the story either, it felt odd. The book I borrowed was annotated, so I saw some things and found the links between text and plot, but sometimes it just felt forced and redundant. Idk. I didn't write the book.

IN GENERAL: a good book, but not amazinggg. I'd only recommend it if you love dystopians because I do, I always love to think about dystopias and that's why I enjoyed the concept this much.

Also: the power of words, as illustrated through John's empowerment was nice (: But the Shakespeare quotes threw me off lol I was like, WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY SPEAKING IN OLD ENGLISH AGAIN. STOP.

ALSO TO NOTE: Aldous Huxley wrote this book in freaking 1932. So yea, I shouldn't judge on the language too much, and also that is some thought, because he was very scientifical in his plot which is really cool :D

Sortie 9 today, and siiiiiigh.

Flew Foxtrot, which I. Idk HAHA I won't say much. Also somehow me and Craig like totally switched instructors and plane and the board was full of cancellations, so I ended up flying with Ken Chew.

Anyway it was. Bad. Checks was okay, R/T was SOMEWHAT OKAY, but the handling! Idk it was super windy though but seriously like EXCUSES, EXCUSES. I'm just. Bad at this sigh ): I seriously sincerely hope I improve because I really want this la. And it's dumb to miss out when I've been given so many extra chances. JUST. JIAYOU.

Okay the non-technical parts of flight I shall blog about (technical areas I have typed into my phone straight after flight, it's a thing I always do now). Went to Echo 3 today to clear circuits for civil planes! Kind of cool, was in A50 bay and just stared. There were like, 4 civil plane takeoffs? One when I was at W3, 2 in the middle of my flight, and 1 after or something like that. Yea wasted a lot of time actually 'cos had to wait for them, but yea quite cool seeing medium-sized planes take-off I thought! Just. I'VE NEVER BEEN IN A COMMERCIAL PLANE OKAY.

But yea basically, quite cool. And the flight itself, WELL I'M A WRECK LA and I seriously need to improve before one day I seriously crash the plane :/ Jiayou Huixiannnn. You will. Somehow bumble through this and if you don't make it there's always next time.

Also js didn't land in the end, Ken Chew would take over controls for base and finals and for good reason lol. I SUCK AT THIS.

Went for OG dinner after! Played lots of stupid games and just caught up in general and ♥ BASICALLY. I mean I don't hang with them much but like, I do like them la and I'm glad to have spent time with them! Also they are super STUPID HAHA I LOVE THEM ♥

Me: -hoarse- I HAVE A SORE THROAT
Parents: Okay. Here have strepsils and water and while we're at it WOULD YOU LIKE FRIED FOOD.

WHUT. My throat hasn't recovered and it's been fucked since Friday? Thursday? Fucking pissed god.

Going to Jessie's tomorrow! :D Haven't done ANY HOMEWORK THOUGH and I think I haven't fandommed in a week? OKAY SINCE MONDAY. YEA. Lots of catching up to dooo. I am. A lazy pok. And already lagging behind! AFTER THE FIRST WEEK. I blame flights tho. AND SLEEPINESS.

Also omg you've changed so much I can't stand it. If you think you know the system that well I'd like to see you beat it. But you won't, because your understanding is shallow and stupid. Stop thinking that everyone is exactly like you because we're not and gosh I just. Really dislike the way you've become and yes, people change, I know, but for the worse? And in this way? And because of that? Idk. And I think it's better for both of us if we just avoid this for now, and maybe just avoid each other. I think there's a clear reason why I'm excluding you, and I would never have wanted to in the past but right now there's a divide and I'm sorry, genuinely, but like well fuck.

Fuck - the word to encompass all my agitation.

LET ME JUST. TALK ABOUT FANDOM OKAY?

Omg I just want to talk about Jin and Meisa honestly BUT THAT SHALL COME WHEN I FANDOM POST. Possibly on Monday, if I'm not chionging homework.

LET ME DISTRACT YOU GUYS WITH KID!JUN VS NOW!JUN. Oh gosh so adorablllle. THE LEFT FRAMES, HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME IN THEM. What! I AM 17. Jun was 16 when Arashi debuted and this was from junior years so AH GOSH SO TINY. Can't believe they've been working since they were SO YOUNG. Oh gosh now I'm getting emotional and WOULD I HAVE HAD BEEN A SUCCESSFUL PERSON AT 13, NO!!! Actually fuck that: AM I A SUCCESSFUL PERSON AT 17, STILL NO. Oh sigh.

Also guys I love that Arashi are their own FC members like ahhh ♥ Also: AIBA'S FC NUMBER IS 1. I just. I love these people. LIKE BURNING OKAY.

Was going to save this for later but basically Matsumiya dance with Kimura Tae to Born This Way, and UM JUN + NINO + GAGA? I'll take it. Also I WANT TO SEE THEM DANCE TOGETHER mainly because their styles are so different. ALSO IT WAS THE HOT SCREENCAP I ONCE MENTIONED SOOO.

UM OKAY RIDICULOUSLY ATTRACTIVE. LOL they actions fit the lyrics IT'S KINDA AWK. Omg I'm going to have to watch them one by one. NINO'S FRINGE = ALWAYS THE PERFECT LENGTH THO. Kimura looks to old here! HAHA OH GOSH SO CUTE. HAHA. OKAY OKAY HAVE TO WATCH THIS AGAIN IT'S SO SHORT. Jun is smiling! LIKE. Just barely hiding it. He and Nino do dance really differently tho. Lol some movements are just AWKWARD. Not even 'cos they're guys and don't match it or anything, OKAY ACTUALLY SOMEWHAT THAT, but they just don't match the song HAHA. It's so much random improve here. Also Matsumiya have inherent coordination! Like their arms are always at the EXACT SAME ANGLE. 13 years people!! Kimura's a bit off from them but WHO CAN BLAME HER. Um can I just. NINO'S EYES. Tae looks like she's struggling to memorise the steps lol. She's a bit stiff! Yea she missed a few steps. SHIT HAHA I ABSOLUTELY ADORE THE SASSY HIP COCK THEY DO. IT'S SO. RIDICULOUS. Also Tae's primarily and actress so seriously this isn't bad! Omg I am gonna watch the fuoll ep where they PRACTISE. NINO'S EYES EVERYWHERE. Why is your face so perfect.

This isn't as bad because it's evident Nino and Jun are doing the same dance but the feel when they do it is different, idk people say they're similar but in my eyes they've always been very very different in terms of style, not just in dance but also in singing and stuff! Like they both have crazy nasal voices but idk Jun's focus is on technique while Nino just feels, which is why Jun focuses during rehearsals and Nino just wings his way through them, doing the bare minimum, then letting his emotions cover up later. (I do fan too much.)

AMOUNT OF NONSENSE I AM SPOUTING: A LOT. Also guys why is it that Nino's face is perfect? I've asked this before. This isn't the first post in which I mentioned his face and its inherent perfection btw. JUST. THOSE EYES. That aura. Work it bb. And Jun is also gorgeous, the undulation of his whole body, ide think I can do that and female bodies are biologically more flexible. Just. Oh Jun ♥

Also Aiba imitating that Nino not-dance. PEOPLE I LOVE: ALL OF ARASHI, ALL OF THEM.

I have been so crazy over Kaze Trio lately. BUT I LOVE THEM. A LOT.

2012-02-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

Wha fuuuuck. I have this horrible combination of a sore throat (and subsequent loss of voice), a cough, and slight flu. So everytime I cough or sneeze it's like, SWALLOWING FUCKING SANDPAPER.

Flight tomorrow, 4th wave! Praying it's. Not like. Idk. Terrible HAHA.

Haven't blogged in a while! But omg basically like. I AM RUINING MY OWN LIFE WITH MY BRAIN. Haha like seriously but like. It brings me so much glee and yet it's completely nonsensical la but HAHAHAHA okay I'm a bit crazy now.

Also someone just reminded me of something and gosh, why won't you come back to me, I wanna be useful, kanjiru mama beautiful, whoa ohhhhh. I should stop blogging with song lyrics lol people will get the wrong idea. But seriously, TIME. Tbqh there's only a few days but ugh. Impatience, I haz it.

09.02.2012

Crazy day of lectures!

Chem. I need to revise lol gonna read through chem notes this weekend so I actually UNDERSTAND the teacher. But tbqh I get most of it! I rush ahead of her when she goes through stuff that has answers. I'm super pissed how they don't have units tho like WHO UNDERSTANDS WHAT THOSE NUMBERS ARE, EXCUSE ME. Stoichiometry and molarity was like, MY BIGGEST STRENGTH and the only reason I passed chem in sec3 but rn I'm just like. What the fuck is a mole? kinda thing. Ahh. Jiayou Hui Xian.

Math. Um. Idk la now still revising stuff BUT ALREADY LAGGING, OOPS. Not meant for math lol. But I can figure graphs out! If I try REALLY, REALLY hard. Um. Evidently someone's going to be using her GC quite a lot.

Econs. STILL RELATING THINGS TO IDOLS. If I keep things up this way my life is going to. END. HAHAHAHA. Supply demand graphs, which are quite cool, but wondering what happens if you control supply like a bitch and let demand grow and you never satisfy the demand. Like, fuck equilibirum! Isn't that how De Beers basically works anyway. (Was it De Beers? I apologise beforehand should I be maligning any companies. Although: respect, nonetheless!) If demand keeps growing the price will keep going (oh yea rhyming) so you can just overcharge. That's also how concert tickets work guys lolol I'm not that analytical it's just that. IDOLS. BASICALLY: EVERYTHING IS FANDOM, OKAY.

Sim after that was quite... well surprisingly okay! Um my handling felt. Like. GOOD, FOR ONCE. I was so stunned by myself! Maybe it's because circuits are somewhat repetitive, but seriously. I remembered to rudder! ALREADY A HUGE SHOCK. I'm super unused to the R/T though, must work on that lol I forgot to R/T finals for the entire thing |:

Also another thing, I didn't mug that hard but still was okay HAHA.

Anyway I did my checks on my own perfectly HAHA okay yea not perfect-perfect but I didn't miss anything, and my taxiing on the sim is so much better now ide. And okay T/O was okay, crosswind was... well I never really know when to turn and I just like, agar it out on my own so I reach the right height at the right time and I can actually reduce power in time. Downwind is like, CRAZY BUSY but it's working out, and my major problem is base-finals-landing because um, MULTITASKING THE FUCK OUT, turning at exact angles, and reaching the right places. And landinggg.

Screwed my landing multiple times and De Witt let me sim for like 1.5 hours to get it right. (De Witt is hilarious though when he was with Faqrul I was DYING.) But anyway yea managed to incorporate a bunch of stuff people tell me, and watched the fuck out of that horizon and MANAGED TO LAND. Omg the feeling when you feel the plane touchdown and not bounce is like. WOW. Haven't done it REALLY REALLY yet but the satisfaction from the sim! Just. UGH WOW.

And Sze Yin was telling me about pride the other day and like. I felt it. Managing my S&L! Exactly 75kts during climbing/descending! Just. UGH. Never been so proud honestly. Haha okay praying I do it for flight tomorrow (TODAY ACTUALLY) as well ♥

10.02.2012

Why don't I get lecture nooootes. Haha Bio RA is kinda strange we had Ig Nobel presentations and sat in the Open Lab today. (IT'S TINY.) Also had a class celebration for the Jan/Feb babies!

THEN LUNCH. With Rosalinda Christina Shiying Jessie Weiqi! I THINK IT'S DAMN COOL HOW WE ALL KNOW EACH OTHER HAHAHA. Anyway ate at Pizza Hut and tried to play the phone-facing-down game which Cheese lost very easily LOLOL. Also talked alot of cock and were generally stupid and managed to keep Jessie back like 10min talking about HER HOUSE. Lololol.

Got home, SLEPT. After I tried to read Brave New World lol but I seriously can't with this book. (Js thanks for remembering heh.) We got someone to paint our ceilings apparently! And yea I woke up at like super late and got like FIVE TEXTS. Including one saying I'm flying tomorrow! I got it at like 1700 which was. ODD.

Also looked up in the sky tonight and the stars were just so stark, Orion was in full view and I didn't even have to strain to look or get accustomed to the darkness! The stars have been gorgeous lately and the weather amazing. Also I love how I can see the moon when I leave for school! It's just hanging there, and I walk West when I head for school so I can see it and when I turn the sky is orange and the Sun is behind me. Just, gorgeous. At SYFC the other day I saw an upward sunburst from behind a cloud. Just. Why is the sky so amazing? ♥

ANYWAY YEA. A day in my life. (Oh Arashi references all over.)

If you love me you will love Ohno painting, his hair his smile his haaands his art! Oh Ohno ♥

I AM GOING TO SLEEP AGAIN. Okay mug. THEN SLEEP.

NIGHTS EVERYBADEH.

2012-02-08T22:06:00.000-08:00

Was thinking about stuff and ended up a combination of confused and jubilant.

I have no doubt that this time I really am going down, down, in an earlier round. And yet I am pleased.

I just switched on my laptop so I could blog that lol I'm leaving in around 90min. Sim today, circuits D: D: Oh jiayou self.

Dancing through life, no need to tough it
when you can slough it off as I do
Nothing matters but knowing nothing matters
It's just life, so keep dancing through ♥

The awkward moment when someone's like "OH NEW BEST FRIENDS" when you barely know him/her... |:

2012-02-08T12:53:00.000-08:00

@pearl: she's not in my class though! She's with my platoonmates and her class is awesome tho so :D Btw HOW'S LIFE

It is 5am lol. I came back, tried to read my econs lecture notes, fell asleep every 5 minutes, so I went to sleep at 1000 and woke up at 0300 to do work HAHA. I'm already fucking with my sleep schedule. Guess who deserves a prize.

Also guys econs makes so much sense when I associate it with idols LOLOL. Idols are an industry after all, and basically I just keep equating things to idols, and I will rename the axes on the graphs in my head, AND EVERYTHING SUDDENLY MAKES SENSE. I disagree with some things though, but that's 'cos we haven't gone in depth yet. But it all makes sense if I think about it. Going to have to get used to the words they use because I associate them with other things, like ~capital~ not being in terms of cash but in terms of resources. Also what, the econs online lecture is 41 minutes? Evidently I need time for this. AND MORE COFFEE. I always need more coffee. As you can tell I kinda just drank coffee and the caffeine is setting in right about... NOW. I'm starting to feel jittery soon I'll be running up and down the streets screaming. Whoosh.

I am such a nerd lolol. (Y)

So. I FEEL LIKE PRANCING AROUND okay caffeine, SHUT UP. Stop damaging my inner bodily workings so I can blog about my day before 0520 when I told myself I would begin my econs lecture so that I may continue on to skim through my chem and math notes, then go and mug for sim. Oh yeah. Guess who's trying to be an overachieving nerd.

So today I had... NO LECTURES. AT ALL. Hit school early and sat around with my classmates. Okay did RIP first, realised that hey, I do know Wearnxin, and narrowed down 2 subjects to research on for RIP, which I am kind of pleased about. Also the topic we discovered was rather cool, can't wait to research on it when I get home tomorrow. I have sim 7 tomorrow though lol OOPS CIRCUITS but yea I should get home earlier than I did today!

So like today, half my class went to mug and the other half decided to sit around and play Truth or Dare, which became Dare or Double Dare. Went around traumatising Sec 1s and stealing sandwiches (WHICH we later returned, we're not heartless guys!!) and pissing off batchmates HAHA. Then we sat around RI telling ghost stories and talking about random stuff and being in general People Who Severely Need Lives. Idk, I much better like my class now. That wasn't good English, was it. I like my class much more now? Much better now? Ah fuck it.

CCA fest, got dragged by Auntie to help her recruit. Found out Chia CH's name ("jw what's your name because I kind of only know your initials" [He's a nother Joshua, the 4th one I know in this school]) and tried to give out flyers in vain. Everyone I wanted to give to already had it, and no one else would take it LOLOL. Also apparently Auntie was being highly efficient (and somewhat scary) and being all "DO YOU HAVE PERFECT EYESIGHT HERE, SIGN UP NOW NOW NOW". Lolol I love SYFC so much guys. Also apparently I must inform Raman that I have to go for COMPASS? Oh sigh COMPASS sounds fucking scary js. ):

Speaking of which: GUESS WHICH LOSER HAS NO CCA sigh sigh I'm going to end up doing service, which is cool in any case. The hours aren't long plus they're flexible enough, and helping people's always nice! It's not a bad choice la def. And maybe I'll try for some other stuff. Idk, I'm considering WG again but I really can't write ):

CLASS SNACK/LINNER ♥ I love 411 gosh miss them so much. AND THEIR CRAZINESS. And how many stars are there in the sky? And dancing and being in general really stupid. Oh 411 ♥ It's so... comfortable just sitting around with them, even if not engaged in conversation. (NONVERSATION.)

Also ate dinner with Michelle Jessie Celine! Speaking of which, Michelle doesn't read this but I hope things work out for her. It's still early, and I had Major Problems as well until today (and even now I still have Major Problems, oops inner demon peeking out and clawing at my skin from the insides again) so I hope things work out for her ♥ Also Jessie! I realised I take chem when you don't so I can study that with Michelle at least :D

ANYWAY at the food court I felt SUPER STALKED like there was this man and 2 women at the table next to us, and they were maybe 20+ 30, but the guy kept staring at me and I was like, glancing furtively back and forth. When I walked past the table I heard him saying like "hey hey do you know that girl" and then a few seconds later he basically shouted "OMG THAT'S HUI XIAN" and the 2 women were like "OMG OMG YES I RECOGNISE HER" and I was like, the fuck!? I went to the table and told Jessie Celine Michelle that "the guy at the table next to us keeps staring at me!!" and they were like "yea they're staring at you now" AND JUST. SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE. Plus I don't even recognise them! I was quite. Scared. I still am tbqh I'm a bit paranoid when it comes to being stalked (not like online that's perfectly fine but like, physically, actually stalked) so like. Ugh. CREEPY.

OKAY YEA going to finish up econs now LIKE A HARD WORKER and I'll get home today at about 1400, and mug for 2h in preparation for sim (tbh I'll be mugging in school too lol) and then head off for SYFC at 1600 :D HOPEFULLY I GET TO FLY THIS WEEKEND. The sky was gorrrrgeous yesterday. Especially in the evening! The blend of deep blue to bright orange in the West was fantastic and Venus was out so early ♥

OKAY BYE ♥

OH FUCK, AKANISHI JIN IS MARRYING KUROKI MEISA.

SOMETHING'S GOING TO BURN.

Omg I'm in so much shock now. What econs? Fuck econs. Omg. I'm just. WHAT? She's pregnant! WITH AKANISHI JIN'S BABY. WHAT.

I'm kind of just stunned omg I HOPE THEY'RE HAPPY AND I'M HAPPY FOR THEM, but what, what, ARE YOU KIDDING ME, AKANISHI JIN IS LIKE 27.

Whooooooooa.

Okay I'm breathing now. Seriously tho Nino can have a rumour with Nozomi and get the fuck shut down on him, and Akanishi Jin's getting married. Omg. What is air. Life doesn't make sense.

Something's burning. But anyway: HOPE THEY'RE HAPPY AND THEIR BABY IS GORGEOUS AS FUCK.

Haha fuck the econs online lecture is kinda boringgg. It's kind of funny though lolol so cute. HAHA IT JUST SAID THE EQUIVALENT OF "using utility instead of satisfaction makes you sound smart" LOLOL. The guy who recorded this must have felt so awk lol.

2012-02-07T02:36:00.001-08:00

Faltering

@pearl: BUT. INFERIORITY COMPLEX. She sings damn well though! Also you call her Rosy ah we call her Ross! AND YA FUCKING VIOLENT LOL.

@Zann: I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH. Screens cannot take the space so I must understate my excessive love for them ♥

Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot, can I please come down?

I don't really know what to blog about haha.

Civics was civics, didn't play the games we were supposed to play (blanket games? idk). Econs was... well everyone says it's boring but quite honestly I kind of like it. Maybe it's because I've been thinking about monehz for a while, and I just really like markets? Idk. It all seems to make sense. In theory of course, practical maybe not.

Bio was... idk I'm stressed haha. RIP is like RS part 2, and I'm totally not looking forward to it. I'm doing it with Wearnxin and Keith, both of whom I am not familiar with but oh well there's still time? Also we have some more homework. On protiens and the Ig Nobel awards. I do love Ig Nobel though, I just read it all and SO INTERESTING.

Chem was just. Ugh gonna fail chem this year.

Spent a lot of time with Jessie/Weiqi/Cheese/Rosalinda/Anabelle/Kibbs's class today! Like, they're super nice and I know so many of them and we just sang and danced and in general high-ed around and it felt amazing and I really like their class la (: It was crazy haha we ended up doing the batch dance and parodying Kpop and it was like, FUN. And they're super nice la basically haha and I feel. Idk I feel. HAPPY.

I'm a bit lsadkjfal;ksjd about stuff right now, and haha it's. Idk. Okay let's go back to my inner demon and my weapon. Usually people's inner demons cause others suffering, but mine is currently chewing away at my condition. And my weapons are... not sharpened, and not lethal enough for use. And like. It's like pulling a sledgehammer through water la. Usually it would be fucking amazing but this is the wrong context and it's rendered useless. So like. Yea.

I just don't like where I've been thrown right now lol.

Also I feel like I can now relate to other's experiences. Not a good thing, since they're the negative ones and the situations I swore to avoid. Sigh :/

Also House CIP is actually quite cool! Yea (: Haha kind of glad for what we're doing but I have no idea what to expect myself. But picking up litter is so like ughh especially if I don't know anyone soo. I'm happy? :D?

I have like, NOTHING TOMORROW BESIDES ASSEMBLY. I'm going to sleep haha or maybe mug if I really get booked for sim (AND I HOPE I DO I want to fly by this weekend) and yea. Do RIP. Which I am still super unenthu about.

It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes, and leap - it's time to try defying gravity ♥

Waiting for you to get back (to me).

Also omg I love What Is This Feeling it's so ridiculous. Elphaba's "BLOND" is so full of hatred and despair LOLOL I LOVE HER. And Glinda just going on and on and onnnn. HAHA. Also I think Glinda sounds a little like GLaDOS when she describes Elphaba LOL. Their voices are perfeccct. I love how it's so crazy and amazing but it's a song about LOATHING, TRULY, DEEPLY, LOATHING YOU~ MY WHOLE LIFE LONG!

Okay I'm gonna go mug HAHA gudbai ♥ Anyway LJ's down sooo. Heh.

2012-02-06T06:16:00.003-08:00

I can't decide who it is that's taking it too far.

@Jessie: I WILL. Today at training Mira told me Wicked was FANTASTIC and worth it and I AM SO GOING. Now to find someone to accompany me.

@Louy: Haha isn't the font like the same! IT'S TIME FOR A WEATHER FORECAST~ HAHA IT'S SO STUPID I LOVE IT.

So got classes today! Wore pinafore for the LAST TIME!!! I NEED TO STOP USING EXCLAMATION POINTS! But anyway yea, sat with my OG and became a nervous wreck.

I'm in 13SO3P, which is like, a really long class name o.o Had a mass smsing session with Celine Jessie Louy and Zhang to figure out our classes, and NO ONE IS IN MY CLASS. Okay not really I entered and saw Sophia, and Gloria was sauntering up! Anabelle (Koong) is in my class too, and a bunch of people I know who don't know me like Andrea and Amanda and Evan heh. But they all know each other so I feel quite, idk. Out. Like they're all from 401/402 kind of thing, and I'm from... 411 lol. Idek. And everyone in class seems super smart haha except for like. Me. :/

ANYWAY THE MOMENT OF A LIFETIME:

Limin: -stands- My name is Limin... and I like Jpop.
Everyone: What?
Limin: Jpop.
Me: Jpop?
Limin: Ya.
Me: ME TOO.
Limin/Me: -GRAB EACH OTHER'S ARMS AND SCREAM-
Everyone: ... O.O

HAHA I WAS LIKE SHAKING WHEN I LEFT THE CLASSROOM WITH HER and we were bounding all up and down the corridor and being like "GOSH, WHO DO YOU LIKE."

Me: Well I mostly listen to Arashi -
Limin: AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARASHI!!!!
Me: ARASHI OMG YOU TOO
Us: ASDLKJALDSKF;LAKJD;LFAKSDJF;OLKSAJ;FLKJAS;DLKJADLSDKJF

HAHAHAHA BASICALLY NEW BEST FRIENDS, OKAY. This is a once in a lifetime moment seriously HAHA SO FUCKING HAPPY :D

Anyway the timetable sucks I have the weirdest spaces haha can't wait for tutorials to fill up the spaces so I feel less like I am wasting my life away in school. On Wed I have to go to school at 0740 and sit around until ASSEMBLY. Like, whut. Sigh. I shall hit the library and sleep or something.

Let's just skip the talk on lectures and stuff because it's all uninteresting stuff HAHA. Anyway met with Jessie and tried to convince everyone that TO EAT WITH YOUR EX-CLASSMATES/PLATOONMATES IS THE WAY, DAMN IT, COME WITH US! ABANDON THEM, WE LOVE YOU MORE. HAHAHAHA IT FAILED but we managed to steal Weiqi, Cheese, and Shing! Ate at Pastamania which had a 30% student discount, CHEAP TTM. And then walked around and found Zhang!

After that Cheeshing went to the DFS at Far East and Jessie left to watch Chronicle, so me, Zhang, and Weiqi sat at Mac's and talked HAHA.

Headed for training and felt kinda sick, but wanted to meet Chew. BUT CHEW DIDN'T TURN UP. SIGH. OH CHEW HAHA. But anyway just spent time observing and stuff la so yea. Not a complete waste of my time, def not, and got time to talk to my Ds whom I haven't seen in a while (:

Ahhh back to not being able to decide who's taking it too far.

It's me haha.

Idk I've just gotten so so so insecure lately, and it's not like I'm usually brimming with confidence or anything, but like! Idk I feel like I'm not going to be able to accomplish anything and I should just give up now. And like, stuff happened today and I keep digging up old regrets and it's just so, so dumb. I keep asking myself if it was right to choose one thing over another when it is too fucking late to change anything anyway, but yeaaa. And anyway I'm just super worried for the near future and the distant future and I'm really unsure of myself la recently :/ And it's. A really bad time to be unsure of myself.

But anyway there's other stuff also la, like why am I even there, I don't belong there, and didn't I say I want out, why do I keep going back?

:/ I'm waiting for advice but it's going to take a while to come.

WELL IT'S TOO LATE NOW ANYWAY I'm just gonna have to learn to deal.

Don't give up Hui Xian. You still have time. It's kind of stupid to drop everything now.

AHHH okay I'm just like being super tired and peptalking myself and I'm really super tired, all the fucking time and idek. Ahhhh. HOW WILL I SURVIVE SCHOOL.

Also: average at best.

Okay gonna stop blogging for a while now and just chill for a moment I feel. Super drained.

I hope there is a baton pass in Lucky 7 that requires Nino to go in and have most of his face obscured, and Jun will enter and call him by Riisa's character and get ignored, and then he will be annoyed and whack Nino and then realise - WAIT, RIISA, DID YOU DO SOMETHING TO YOUR HAIR... YOU'RE NOT RIISA, ARE YOU. And Nino will be all WELL FUCK YOU and Riisa will come in, WHY ARE YOU HITTING MY BROTHER?

It would only be the most glorious.

Continuing with the Jun and Nino thing: ATTRACTIVE. Look at their eyeees. That focus! The look of concentration! WHICH EPISODE IS THIS I NEED IT. Also Nino's hair and the way it falls perfectly over his eyes. And Jun as usual, being a technique dancer, and Nino not givind a damn during rehearsals

Aiba is gorgeous.

Arashi is gorgeous. I love them THIIIIIIIIIIS much ♥

And ugh ugh the most heartwrenching part of Iwo Jima, and also my favourite part. When General Kuriyabashi tells Saigo about family and war, the contradiction in his promise, the irony in his conviction. I'm going to cry omg. ): Iwo Jimaaaa.

Omg Bleach is actually ending. O.O I don't catch up now buttt. Yea.

Note to self: listen to Wild at Heart! 07.03.2012

Ninki, gosh gosh LARUKU. Have I head Butterfly? The CM for it is HILARIOUS though. The rest is quite... though.

GUYS, FUCK ORICON GUESS WHAT? BILLBOARD CHARTS. AKANISHI JIN!!!!!!!! Okay I know the physical single market is down, BUT AKANISHI JIN GUYS. AKANISHI JIN! Also he's getting played in clubs! Not often, granted, BUT HE'S THERE. I AM SO EXCITED. HAHAHAHA and this isn't THAT big a deal, but oh gosh. SLOWLY SLOWLY SLOWLY. It may never happen but the chances certainly are bigger now.

This is a flawless post on the idols of Japan. It's just, a huge timeline and some assorted info. I LOVE IT. The coolest. There's a kpop one, interesting as well but I'm not as interested.

GUESS WHAT RUMOUR IS HILARIOUS. MEISA HAHAHA. Reminded of Celine HAHA. She doesn't really want Jin - JUST YAMASHITA. Seriously though girl looks amazinggg so not surprising that she gets it.

Also MIYAKE KEN. I know Oya Kana too! And lol AGENCIES KEEP QUIET. Ahhh I HOPE THEY'RE HAPPY ♥

ALSO GUYS NAKA RIISA MAY BE DATING, AHHHH. She's so sweet omg! Asano Tadanobu's a lot older but AS LONG AS THEY'RE HAPPY. So cute though :D WISHING THEM HAPPINESS, AS USUAL.

Okay not seeing how Beginner is not everyone's fave AKB million-seller BECAUSE IT SHOULD BE. Beginner, Kaze wa Fuiteru, Everyday Kachuusha, Sakura no Ki ni Narou, Flying Get, Ue Kara Mariko for me.

Also omg 48 family promo is MADNESS. Does Japan not get tired of seeing them everywhere? Or does it psychologically manipulate them into thinking they MUST BE THE BEST, OH LET ME BUY MORE SINGLES. Or something. IT COULD WORK.

And seriously AKB DOLLS. Tomochin's is so recognisable, they even got the lips. Perfectttt.

This poll is strange. By strange I mean it's atypical, which isn't a bad thing! But really? The results are unexpected.

Also um fans, RUDE. Gdi Tsumabuki Satoshi was so fucking gracious about it tho, claiming it his fault. Like, wooow. Major props for the guy for risking his rep for it and all.

And this is just cruel :/ I pray it was a surgery done for medical reasons and the dog later brought in to do this because it fit the role, but I highly doubt it :/

Oh gosh REMIOROMEN ON HIATUS. Guys I just know. HALF THE JAPANESE BANDS. But like yea! AHHH. I hope they'll be able to do their solo work though! And come back to do more amazing stuff (:

On the other hand: KOBUKURO IS BACK. BEST.

Also there's this really talented 16yo Swedish kid looking to debut as a Vkei artist and I saw GO FOR IT, his look really fits it too! And well yea the Vkei market isn't that big, it's niche, but seriously guys - some people aren't doing it for the money but for their love of the art, why don't we accept that and move on?

While we're at it: Lee Seunggi is debuting in Japan. He seems really sweet and humble tho! Not like the self-proclaimed Prince of Asia at least. Admitting that his Japanese isn't good and being a fan of Ayase Haruka! He sounds sweet la. I always knew this tho :D

DRAMASSS.

I ACTUALLY WANT TO WATCH THIS. Yang Gui Fei! And omg, Fan Bingbing, Wang Lee Hom, and Oguri Shun! PERFECTION. I hope Shun speaks flawless Chinese omg. I WILL WATCH THIS.

O-parts, which has Maruyama Ryuhei! The plot is kinda whatever and the name REALLY BAD. Probably won't watch this, short drama or not.

Also guys apparently Joker? Was like a preview for an actual movie. I WILL WATCH THIS.

Sawajiri Erika posts: never failing to be the best.

2012-02-05T05:33:00.001-08:00

Everyday

Me: You know what?
OGmates: What?
Me: 我很想睡觉.

STORY OF MY LIFE.

OKAY I tried to blog by days like I usually do when I forget to blog BUT I CAN'T I'm just going to go by topics!

01.02.2012 - 03.02.2012

ORIENTATION.

1) Houseishness.

HOUSE SPRIT IN RJ = SOMETHING I THINK WE ALWAYS WANTED TO ACHIEVE BUT NEVER DID. Maybe it's because we're J1s (the JC version of sec 1s), maybe it's because house comm this year is fantastic, but I LIKED IT. Like, to genuinely feel upset when you lose and to want to win not for yourself but for the better of the house! Not something I've felt before, not even in primary school.

House games were pretty amazing too! Way better than station games. Maybe it was because we were so pumped and we wanted to win, gdi, stop stealing our socks! Also: EXTREMELY VIOLENT. The more violent, the more fun. The newspaper ball game was kinda lame, but the ballons games! UGH I LOVE STEPPING ON BALLOONS. But I didn't step on any LOL I died first round immediately and second round I did a sort of dance around the hall? I grabbed this BB girl's arms 'cos she was reaching for my balloons, and bounced around on one foot in order to prevent her stepping on my balloon, and Naomi came in and started grabbing HAHA GLORIOUS. She was like "LET GO!!!" and I shouted "YOU FIRST" HAHA. And the encircling game, gosh. So many YOU AHD TO BE THERE MOMENTS but it was fun.

Second day games = VIOLENT TTM. The sock-stealing game LOL my whole OG took off our shoes to play and I kinda got a blister on the bottom of my foot as a result but. Fought over a sock with Sicheng and some other MR girl lol lots of shouting and screaming involved. And the pegs game, I WAS REALLY BAD AT IT and tbh didn't enjoy it that much, but yea was fun!

2) Batch things.

Batch dance: HILARIOUS BUT TERRIBLE. Did it with Nick and we were both okay with the moves haha and I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL NEVER ENDS, OH OH, WHOA OH OH, WHOA OH OH, WHOA OH OH, HEY! But like Nat said: "I CAN ONLY REMEMBER THE WALKING PART" HAHA. Super mad though and in the end I did do it, albeit half-heartedly throughout most of it. When we did it in the end EVERYONE WAS SO CONFUSED AND IT STARTED SO SUDDENLY LOL. My whole OG pretty much found their partners 'cos we were at the back end so we had freedom of movement, BUT NONE OF US KNEW WHAT TO DO HAHA. OH WELL.

Batch song: is so pretty! The school is too full of multi-talented people lol I don't belong here but yea (: I liked it!

Batch project: NEVER SAW THE END PRODUCT but my OG had lots of bonding time while we were at it and HOW MANY MEH MEHS JUMP OVER THE WALL? HAHA YEP.

3) Orientation things.

WELL THE SUN DANCE IS PERFECT. No one can disagree HAHA. Ended up doing it with OGmates on the 4th day and it is AMAZING, and our OG is super sporting about it haha even though it was SUPER DUMB.

SND is tbh kind of great, and of course they say our orientation dance is easy, because Single Ladies has one of the hardest dances OF ALL TIME! BUT IT WAS HILARIOUS, and the female dancers were great as well let's not discredit them. ALSO, ROLY POLY, ROLY ROLY POLY. I was the only one being excited in my OG! WHY IS THIS SO. I DON'T EVEN LIKE T-ARA.

And Storyline! MAYBE THIS SHOULD BE ANOTHER SECTION ALTOGETHER. I started off REALLY HATING IT, because of my major Raffles-specific embarrassment squick, but it wore off after that because well IT'S RAFFLES, WHY AM I EMBARRASSED FOR US. And also because the script gradually got better, but I still didn't like it. I'm not discrediting Raffles Players though, I believe it was because it was for Orientation. But it was hilarious, MISS CHINA IS THE BEST CHARACTER OF THEM ALL, and Puss and Dora shuffle SO WELL, god I am jealous. (Everyone pretends they can shuffle now, so I get super impressed when I see proper shuffling.) Also, eventually the pop culture references got to me so I was mildly impressed with the script. Mildly. Also omg I'm listening to For Good now and I WANT TO CRY. The acting was good, definitely (: Another thing:

Me: They're Raffles Players right?
Mel: Yea.
Me: WHY CAN THEY ALL DO PERFECT CARTWHEELS?
Mel: IN HEELS.
Me: EXACTLY.

Also: Istoria on fire. Prettyyyyyy.

4) BW12♥

Not an orientation person, and definitely not a socialisation person. I kept wanting to burst out into song but I DIDN'T DARE DO IT, which kind of exemplifies my discomfort around them. (Also: having a choir girl in my OG. Doesn't really make sense because I always sang around Emeline anyway, buttt.) But still, they were fun and super nice and great to speak with, and super super sporting about everything including dancing and singing and running around the MPH and dressing up as nerds for O-night. ♥

Met lots of new people and they were super nice and yea. So (: ♥

Also OG dinners ♥

Nat: Okay, how many mehmehs jump over the wall!
Everyone else: ONE!
Me, Shiying, Mun Lin: WHAT WHAT WHY?
Jesse: GUYS, MEHMEHS DON'T EXIST.

THE BEST.

SO THAT'S ALL FOR ORIENTATION. I think. Idk. I'm not extremely fond of it, but yea. Thanks for the memories? :D

04.02.2012

Sortie 8. Flew with Siva on Charlie.

In general: super nervous, and kind of bad mugging because I was super tired so my prep felt super lousy. My checks were okay but I kept missing FILER, Siva had to remind me (although I WAS CHECKING THE TIMER THIS TIME). My air exercise itself was awk and idk. My handling that day just felt super bad and seriously girl STOP CHASING INSTRUMENTS, now I'm talking to myself both first- and second-hand.

But seriously la! Also Siva kinda implied that I wasn't at the level suitable for BFC2, why am I still there. And well I know why, and I don't necessarily like it, but hey who am I to complain, I have 11 extra flights to improve. But I'm really fucking scared. But no, seriously, fuck I don't like it. Sigh :/

I don't really know what to do but I just have to get used to it. I'm super tempted to duct tape up everything except the altimeter, airspeed indicator, and HSI. And well the tachometer all that la BUT SERIOUSLY SIGH. I am so bad at this totally don't belong there.

Also: if I get kicked out HOW. Then I'll have no like, justifiable CCA sigh. Idek I'm just super fucking scared rn it used to be "okay I'm kinda bad" now I'm just. really bad and idk la. I kinda want to see my coursemates fly but unfortunately not possible.

On the other hand my theory isn't bad so. Just my application! But I can R/T to and from Bravo via o/h climb now, that's good.

Ahh just need to remember to check skid bar, and to know what to do BEFORE checking the skid bar, and YOU KNOW WHAT STOP LOOKING AT THE FUCKING SKID BAR THERE IS A SKY IT'S GORGEOUS WHY ARE YOU LOOKING IN.

(The sky was gorgeous though, above the white fluffy clouds there was a layer of thin clouds and I flew in between the layers, and since it was first wave the sun was still hanging East and the way it shone between the layers of clouds was just perfect.)

But ahhh. Just. :/ I'll try my best? But I don't know if my best is good enough. Sigh.

Anyway was supposed to head up tower that day, but there was a messup 'cos they changed the pass for the tower and tower decided to close so 2nd and 3rd wave people were screwed over lol. But apparently Sally DNCOed! Also Keith is on probation :/ Idek as in. We all worked damn hard la so. :/ I hope things go well for us.

Just. Fucking insecure rn, mostly. Jiayou Fish :/

After that went for my nephew's 满月 but felt super sick sigh. Nice to meet my extended family tho (:

05.02.2012

Was forced to go for some Christianity-promotion talk thingy, but yea. Saw Tao Zhe! Damn sad though he sang 找自己 and paused for the crowd to shout back "找自己!" AND NO ONE SHOUTED BACK. Aw man. But yea I liked his part! The rest I just. Texted LOL.

Went to pray RIGHT AFTER THAT HAHA and the smoke was unbearable 'cos 十四 so a lot of people. Tearing like mad throughout ide. But yea (: prayer!

Also I keep listening to For Good now omg the lyrics are gorgeous. And usually I don't get delusions about "wanting to meet someone just like that" but I want to meet someone that is the Glinda to my Elphaba.

For Good - Wicked the Musical

I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you

I heard it's said
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those
Who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return

Well I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

And it well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I've learnt from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
By being my friend

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind of the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
But then I guess we know there's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled from orbit
(Like a ship blown from its mooring)
As it passes a sun
(By a wind of the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by a skybird)
Halfway through the wood
(In a distant wood)
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better
And because I knew you
Because I knew you
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

♥

Honestly the books I want to read.

LOL OH FUCK YOU LARUKU YOU TROLLS

2012-02-03T07:55:00.000-08:00

To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me:

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown

♥ I really, really love this song. Oh gosh should I book tickets for Wicked? Like Shadman said: it's cheaper than buying tickets to New York lolol. Also they sang For Good at the end of Storyline today and I almost straight on started bawling ):

This is a nonsense post I'm going to post properly tomorrow. It's just that I switched on my laptop to talk to someone and I therefore feel the need to blog.

Guess what? I'm defying gravity tomorrow lolol. First wave flight. And we may go see a control tower after! This makes me happy.

FUCKING TIRED GONNA GO SLEEP NIGHTS.

2012-02-02T10:29:00.000-08:00

My god I'm so fucking tired all the fucking time.

2012-01-31T05:10:00.001-08:00

The (Shipped) Gold Standard was playing in my head all day today. I wanna scream "I love you" from the top of my lungs, but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me.

@Zann: Oh gosh oh gosh Momo ♥ And ahhh. Did you read it for a reading assignment? It takes all the fun out of it. Brave New World is also a dystopian world that has lots to do with psychology and physiology, which are some of my favourite things in books. Also it seems to involve a concept I've been pondering about recently (in an entirely fictional context, of course). I'll tell you what I think of it when I actually read it!

I like walking back from school: it gives me time to think. And a daily 15 minute walk! Along a highway, yes - not particularly healthy - but I'll take it.

So anyway I was thinking about stuff and it made me want to write. Desperately. It also made me want to do a million other things (none of which I shall mention) but let's ignore that. But my unmovable writer's block is still sitting in front of my face and blocking my view from other things. I suppose it's because I have a million things to do, and as many of my coursemates put it: flying is our top priority. It's just something I put all my focus on. And in spite of the frequent and unbearable bouts of anxiety I feel before and during flight, flying relaxes me. So that's my number one solace as of now. I don't know, I want to write. But more than that I want to fly. I spend more time looking at the sky than I do in front of a piece of blank paper now, and that somewhat disorients me.

Okay moving on from writing and more onto what I was thinking of that triggered the sudden urge to write: I guess everything I do has the same premise, and that mildly scares me, because the premise just slid out of my grasp. Not that it ever was in my grasp, but today it fully evaporated. Before this it was ever-so-slightly tangible, but just today it completely vanished and that scares me because it's been... the premise. And there's a lot of things I needed to do and say and now my chances are all gone, and I regret not having taken them.

But you know what? I'm listening to Defying Gravity now and it's kind of. How I am. How I want to be? Or rather: Still... describes how I am. And I will try defying gravity. And you can't pull me down.

So though I can't imagine how, I hope you're happy right now

Oh gosh I want to fling my arms out and belt this song at the top of my lungs. I think I'll try defying gravity, and you can't pull me down~

Ahhh Still.... The magical sad song of hope and happiness that is always the perfect song to describe my feelings.

On another entitrely separate note: I wonder why I do this to you when I am so entirely against it. Is it because we're related? Sometimes I wonder if I mean it, and I realise that I sort of do. But it's not that I'm being hard on you, am I? It's not what you show me you are - it's what you don't show me you aren't. I usually don't say things like "please prove me wrong" but there's no other way to say this, so please: please, prove me wrong. I don't want to be right, and you're the only person who can prove me wrong.

I'm sorry ):

Why am I not blogging about orientation? I feel like I should even though I totally don't want to. I basically figured out that orientation manages to push all my buttons, and is basically a cumulationg of Things That Make Me Uncomfortable and is it really any wonder that I hate orientation? Things that I hate: forced sociableness, pretenses, getting to know people, people getting to know me, enforced and unwanted physical contact, and EATING IN A CIRCLE ON THE FLOOR. Lolol my squicks are weird. Also majorest: SECOND-HAND EMBARASSMENT. Ugh. Ughhhh. Why am I going?

It's strange because I know a lot of people who really love orientation, but everything about it just makes me feel miserable. Maybe I'm a skeptic, maybe I'm just a bitch, but I really really dislike orientations of any kind and I'm sorry but yea. It's just. Not my thing ):

Okay I'm just going to! Do stuff, then fandom :D yea sounds like a plan. I shall stop talking to all the people I'm talking to by like 0030 so I can idk, maybe if I've actually fandommed by then I can watch something! Oh, sounds like a great plan. Or maybe I'll prance around my room singing "AND I'LL TRRRRRRYYYYYY DEFYYYYYYYYING GRAAAAAVITYYYYYYYY~" That also sounds like a great plan. Amazing tbh.

Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity, and you can't hold me down ♪

omg now I'm reconsidering getting tickets for Wicked. WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME.

It may have happened over half a year ago. Less, really. Maybe a quarter year ago.

But the effects are fucking scarring and I'm digging it up so I can think, and it's genuinely hard for me to handle myself right now. I can't hold myself together and I keep thinking this is so stupid (because it is) but I can't help it, it really scared me and that, obviously, was to your advantage.

And I hate how now everyone is using it, and they aren't even aware of how dire the effects are on myself. This isn't something which should happen to anyone, and in a sense, I'd rather it be me than anyone else. Especially because I know that if it hadn't been me, it would've been... I don't even want to think about it.

And it's just. I don't even know what to say about it. But I'm genuinely angry and upset now, why did I choose to think about this again? Oh, right, because all of you are forcing it to me again.

This is such an angsty post.

But basically? It's not funny guys, cut it. Because it seriously sucks and saying 'it hurts' sounds really immature sometimes, all the time, but it's the only way I can describe it and I just. This doesn't work out, okay?

:/ Fuck all of you.

In which I weakly fandom because, gdi, why did I dig up all that.

So like, 30 artists covered All You Need Is Love to raise money for Tohoku, and it's sort of like our newer, pop version of Home. Too many artists with too many different styles, and too much effort into switching up the song a little. I love these artists, and I adore its purpose but, the song's a little odd. It's not terrible though. Okay I just hit the part with the bunch of weird noises now it's bad. Okay yea dislike the ending, the rest is okay though.

Kuu has another top album but her sales are dipping crazy D: Apparently promos suck but she's had a lot of publicity for herself lately, and honestly is it able to cover the amount of work they put into it, inviting all these artists to feature and 17 PVs guys, 17. Hmmm. I'll see.

Lolol why is this so early. DSP Girls. I don't even know what DSP is doing anymore lol. Just read the comments. It'll be interesting to see how they do though, since they're debuting in Japan and Korea at the same time. Noted! Also: Prism. I get the feeling Avex girl groups are all the same LOL but maybe that's 'cos I always see E-girls, so I'll be watching for that too (:

OH GUYS NAKAI IS ACTING! As an autistic genius. Not genius per se, but great memory and deduction skills. Ahhh. I'd like to see Nakai try to pull this off, it'd be interesting. (Note to self: watch Marathon!) I'll probably catch this.

PVs! HA ONLY 2.

Fuyuzora - Matsushita Yuya
It's apparently a B-side but it has a PV? And omg SNOW. I once asked my mom "does it actually snow in Japan I never see snow in their dramas" and she was like "Japan snows they just don't like filming snow. Now, Korea likes filming snow. Every drama has snow." LOL I LOVE MY MOTHER. Also Yuya is so prettyyyyyy. Ahhh that chorus entry was nice. This is a boring PV lol but at least he's pretty? He looks a little like Jaejoong from some angles o.o The song's not bad! I like it. Okay the snow disappeared he's now in the streets with finely adjusted focus so you can see him and his very nice face but NOTHING ELSE LOL. It's like I walked into a disco with orange lights and took off my glasses. Omg his shoes are so cute. And there is still snow. Why does Japan not like filming snow? It looks pretty white. Not like their snow is grey so. If marketed right this boy could make it, not just as a singer but an idol. That may not be what he wants though and I respect that.

EveryBody JUMP!! - SUPER☆GiRLS
... Who? I suck at female idols. LOL okay they're very into this. Omg so cute HAHA I CAN'T. Their facessss. How many people are in this group, 12? Omg I want some of their hairstyles so much. LOL the jumping shots. SO HIGH HAHA. LOL AWK LEAPFROG SHOTS. Okay there is a lot of jumping in this haha it's quite cute! But they dance with GLEE AND ENJOYMENT in their expressions so! OH TAHT DANCE BREAK. It's quite good omg! For Jpop HAHA. Okay I have a Kinda Bias she sings the first part of the bridge! It's just. Her aura and her voice! HAHA. I AM SO QUICK WITH THIS.

And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free

2012-01-30T01:22:00.000-08:00

:/ It's been a crazy week for coursemates. Wishing the best for those who phased out; there's always RSAF. And for those still at sortie 4/5, work hard and don't lose hope! And well I don't think anyone else has done Sortie 6 yet, but. I hope everyone does well, now and in the future ♥

And it's not just been a crazy week because of recommendations: we've had ground school on Saturday, after which a bunch of us had sim and flights, and on Sunday at least 5 of us flew. De Witt said our course was really slow on Saturday, and I supposed he said it in jest but given the way they packed us in after that I'm not really sure.

In any case my coursemates are amaaazing and the past few months have been great because of them and all our crazy jokes and stupidity, and I truly, sincerely, wish them all the best.

Omg I haven't blogged in forever

28.01.2012

Groundschool, lunch, then SIM. CAI is the most. tiring. thing. ever. It's like a lecture by a COMPUTER. I mean that's how I study but! Plus that day I couldn't pause the audio lolol I was panicking like mad while I wrote sigh. I still don't know shorthand! ): Pre-flight brief by De Witt, then we went for lunch as a course at Jalan Kayu!

Came back for Stalling sim, and I misread the Sim debrief sheet so I didn't know I was supposed to do engine failure and engine fire in flight oops. I mugged engine fire on the ground and EFATO but yeaa. But it wasn't in the solo req, that was for my flight. Oops. But yea anyway just panicked a lot and the PPL guy who helped me with it was kinda pissed haha. Also my coursemate was fucking with the controls LOL he switched it to night and then I COULDN'T SEE ANYTHING HAHA but yeaaa. Did PFL, but FAILED DESPERATELY AT IT I couldn't round out properly then I floated, bounced, and crashed. Um. Ummmm.

Also I was practising with Sally because her flight was later that afternoon, and then another PPL guy came down and told me the PPL people (PPL people is my favourite thing to say lolol) were talking about how high-pitched I R/T. SIGH. THINGS THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE.

Yea came back and CRASHED. It was a long day sigh.

29.01.2012

Sortie 7! Tan SL, Oscar, 2nd wave.

So yea did stalling, SSR and incipient recovery. (I'm reaching the stage where I blog and no one knows what the fuck I'm talking about LOL.) So um. Well I CAN'T REMEMBER MUCH ANYMORE but for some reason I was super nervous although I was prepared, then I ended up screwing my checks SIGH. Also I was doing overhead climb and overhead rejoin, so I was a bit ada;adkjf;alkjfd;lakjf about my R/T but I MANAGED IT. She said my R/T was good except for some excessive information when I R/T lol.

Tan SL: -stuff abour R/T-... I mean, do you see that in the manual?
Me: ... Um. Actually. Ya.

But hmmm okay yea basically my airmanship was kinda off (kinda: understatement of the year) and the stalling itself, well I'M DAMN GOOD AT THE STALLING PART HAHAHA okay not really even then I can't maintain height perfectly and well I panic when the nose drops and I don't ~ease~ the control stick forward!

Oh oh with Tan SL's help I managed to get the hang of levelling off after a climb! Like, I kinda always sucked at it (climbing descending: MY WORST ENEMIES) but I managed to level off at the RIGHT HEIGHT. Um, ACHIEVEMENT MUCH.

Did engine fire in air too, which was quite okay! But the R/T I know for it changed a bit haha but okay I shall. COMMIT IT TO MEMORY.

Also okay I CAN'T REMEMBER MUCH ELSE I have notes in my phone somewhere but anyway I kinda thought I really, really sucked and I WOULD HAVE FAILED MYSELF, but Tan SL was super nice gosh. Ahhh. But yea I need to work on my own handling and be more of a chill pill! Plus I'm doing circuits soon AHH. AHH AHHH. Ya okay. PANIC.

OH FORGOT TO MENTION I TOOK OFF! HAHA AND THE STALL WARNING INSTANTLY CAME ON -LOSER TTM- Apparently the climb attitude someone showed me the other flight didn't work OTL. Also: AMAZING HORIZON YESTERDAY. It was practically cloudless! Maybe that's why lol all the attitudes I flew were super off 'cos I usually fly by haze line. Idk though ahhh.

Had to cancel all my weekday bookings (which ops cancelled for me of their own accord ide) so yea waiting for weekends now. Sighhh.

After my flight went to my cousin's house for ~house visitation~ and tbqh to gamble. HAHAHA. I lost money AGAIN but ah well it's all in fun anyway! I spent lots of time laughing la haha :D

30.01.2012

Went to the library! Borrowed
- Equal Rites - Terry Pratchett
- Wyrd Sisters - Terry Pratchett
- Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
- The Suicide Collectors - David Oppegaard

First 2 are discworld novels, Brave New World is a classic, and The Suicide Collectors, I think someone recommended it to me or sth. Idk I saw it and felt familiarity.

ALSO I finished The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy! Um, read it for leisure because it's funny and amazing, and IT IS. Lolol I can't even. The deadpan of the characters as they exchange insults and jests! The humour is ridiculous. In some sense it reminds me of Pratchett, and dear god I do love Pratchett. It's so whimsical, and improbable, and yet all the improbability is accounted for! Pop culture references, like the hamlet monkeys! AHH.

Basically: I LOVED IT. In the way I love Discworld, not because it's terribly stunning, but because it's fun and a great read, especially if I don't have too much time (:

I've been thinking of music again lately and grah I miss UVERworld like crazy, I should spam them soon.

Everyone go listen to Defying Gravity by the original Wicked cast. I REGRET NOT GOING TO SEE THEM ): Ahhhh they sound amazing I can't.

FANDOMING

Omg just saw this and LETTERS. LETTERS. Ughh need to rewatch this.

OH LOLOL VSA. Has Nino cut the terrible wardrobe? He's the only one in his colour, though. BUT LOLOL OHNO. JUN. HAHA IT'S SO AWK AND JUN. JUN'S FACE. I CAN'T. I fucking love these people ♥

This is also known as Aiba is perfect. JUN'S FACE ONLY MAKES IT BETTER.

Speaking of Jun's face. KOYUKI'S SMUGNESS TOO. Ahhhh ♥

And SHO. HIS DEADPAN. This is perfect.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOGM I SAW THIS AND SILENT SCREAMED UNTIL MY LUNGS FELT LIKE THEY WERE GOING TO FIT THEMSELVES THROUGH M WINDPIPE ARASHI omg. Omg. Oh. My. God. I fucking love them ;_; TEARS. 5 people, 5 Vs of arms, one giant bow, infinite gratitude, love, and humility.

God god why do people even ask why I love them? Is it not obvious. It's not even because they're perfect - because they're not - but it's because they know they're not perfect and they try so hard to help each other past that and to give us the best fucking performance we've ever seen, they want us to have fun and gosh. That's perfection in its own way. ♥

Omg okay there's too much fandom stuff I want to link to I'm going to stop now. But they really are perfect, in my mind's eye ;_;

I saw meta on my flist and omg I want to talk now. But ahhh.

alkfdjaldkjfa;lkasjdlfk.

I'M GOING OFF NOW GUDBAI.

When I'm in my ~zone~ to write, I really write smoothly. It goes on. A writer's block is like, idek. Fucking air. It barely exists.

Idek what happened to me. I can't find that zone anymore. And nothing satisfies me, I can always pick on something that I write until I give up entirely. And when I finally get satisfied with something, writer's block inevitably kicks in.

Where's that stupid zone, why won't you resurface so I can write like a normal person anymore.

Fuckkkk.

(Also an extra note: you really don't know what I mean haha. Feet on the ground, head in the skies.)

DIAMONDS, AND SAPPHIRES, AND YOU, OH MY!

THIS IS STUCK IN MY HEAD.

OMG CLAIRE DREW ME AS A MERMAID AGAIN AND IT LOOKS GLOOOOOORIOUS I LOVE HER ♥

Jpop artists I need to get the full discographies of:
- YUI
- Hamasaki Ayumi
- Koda Kumi
- Namie Amuro
- ayaka
- AKB48
- KAT-TUN
- NEWS
- Laruku
- SID
- 9nine
- Ito Yuna
- JUJU
- Nishino Kana
- Fukuyama Masaharu

Am I missing something? Something I care about of course. WILL COME BACK TO THIS.

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song

- Fall Out Boy [The (Shipped) Gold Standard]

I already talked about Nino's movie but GUYS FUCK I'M EXCITED. AHHH. ♥ Okay now I stop.

Also NazoDi gets an SP. All Arashi dramas get an SP, we get it. Oh Japan. But still. I shall form an impression after I watch NazoDi.

NINKI. AHH AYAKA I hope she sells like 500k. Also omg CHOTTO MATTE KUDASAI KEEPS PLAYING IN MY HEAD I've grown to seriously dislike it lol. Isn't that Wasain's enka single or sth? CN Blue hmm. Don't care much for them anymore. ... Never did.

So there's this thing on how Ayu's marriage is a hoax. Don't believe it. Girl doesn't need to resort to such things for promotions, her face, voice, and performances are more than enough. And I think her explanation for her divorce was very rational tbh. Sad, though. Still wishing them happiness!

HEY HEY FUKUYAMA RUMOUR. You know. I think it's somewhat sad that at the age of 43, his career could very easily be affected by whether or not he's a bachelor. I mean. He's 43! Give him a break. Idrk Fukiishi Kazue? OH SHE'S IN LUCKY 7... Okay wow shit she's done a lot with Arashi lolol even P.P.O.I. She seems popular enough. Also wow Amuse you be packin' o.o who's in Amuse anyway... OH. OH. WELL FUCK their talents have been seriously peaking this year. They have Miura, PERFUME, Yoshitaka Yuriko, Fukuyama... who all have been doing really well recently. ANYWAY WHATEVER, SO LONG AS EVERYONE'S HAPPY. And if Amuse is exercising their authority... well it's interesting :D

HEY GOLDEN DISC AWARDS. This needs space to talk about LOL. Anyway it's very predictable. Well it's based on sales after all and if you know me I hound sales like a police dog hounds drugs. Also, Japan you no Asian no more? HAHAHA. AKB cleared the awards, fucking boss :D AND I STILL DON'T LIKE AYAMAN JAPAN HAHA everytime I see their name the STUPID SONG PLAYS IN MY HEAD. Who is back number o.o I love how the best 3 Asian albums are all from the Korean artists who basically own even in Jpop. AND LOL AKB AND THE SINGLES. (Y) And JUJU! I am surprised. Plus there is no Nishino Kana! O:

Speaking of AKB: 2 members just got thrown out for having boyfriends. And as much as I can understand this rule, FUCK IT. Sigh. And it was all 'cos of social networking (apparently they posted photos on yfrog, to go up on their person twitters). Plus they really weren't careful, you don't just talk on the internet about something you don't want found. And tbqh everyone is on about how "you could say they're just friends if they were male/popular smh" well um. They could, but when they tweet about dating and having sex? Um. You could try. No one would buy that. This is on the level of Ohno's weed scandal, when it comes to evidence. Actually, kinda worse because it came from the idols themselves. And Ohno got away with it, yes, so I won't say more, but AKB's always been harsh on this aspect. Sigh. Stupid idol rules (which I unfortunately understand the purpose of ughhh).

In better AKB news: Akimoto Sayaka gets some recognition. She's being a flawfree columnist for Numero, which is apparently this big deal of a fashion magazine :D Awesooome :D

And: when suit companies use female idols for their ads. Maririn with her cropped hair and flawless stance work the look. The rest... meh. They should've kept the hair down, the juxtaposition would've been incredible and they would be dashing and gorgeous all at the same time. Also, it's interesting to use female idols for this, because the attract male attention. (Remember the AKB deal with Peach John, lolol the turnout, just.)

In which I learn that I am not migrating to Japan because movies are 1800yen a person. Which is... 27 bucks. A person. WELL. Anyway box office revenue is dropping, no one is surprised because nothing interesting appeared this year. Anyway I'm surprised at the drop for GANTZ 2, are we sure there were rumours of a GANTZ 3? Because wow that is a drop. I wouldn't go for it. I am so out of Japanese movies ide. I can't believe Kaiji 2 sold so well gosh. Why? Because of the manga? Because people watched Kaiji? Because of Fujiwara or Yoshitaka? I just. I don't. I need to watch Norwegian Wood and Boku to Tsuma no 1778 no Monogatari though.

Also PANDAS. Okay just, I saw it at first and was like, um. No? This is money for Tohoku, right? But apparently it's for Sendai, and tourism is always good, they have an economy to rebuild which will eventually fund Tohoku itself. Also: THE SCHOLARSHIP (: As far as I know reconstruction efforts are going well, so it's def time to think forward to help the economy.

HEY SHIGE'S BOOK. This has nothing to do with anything except the fact that I'D READ THAT, I'm glad he's selling well (waiting for reviews tbh) and Koyama is fantastic.

Apparently the Happiness girl is off on hiatus for studies. Well I hope she does well! I don't really follow Happiness much but I do like them (:

IU will debut in Japan, this post is WANKY AS FUCK AND I LOVE IT. She's doing Good Day. I knew it haha. We'll see. I think she'll do well though.

And more on Kpop: 2NE1 will be featured on m-flo's album, GREAT. Someone not Teddy nor will.i.am producing their music. (I haven't seen what will.i.am did with them tho.) Anyway hoping they get great music and Bom's voice is utilised to its fullest potential!

OH MY GOD you know Sadako 3D which I blogged about which had Ishihara Satomi and Seto Koji? YAMAMOTO YUSUKE AS AN EVIL DUDE. Omg he'd fit the role, so well. Omg. Scared D: BUT I WOULD LOVE TO. Sigh D:

JUST READ THIS POST. Post of the year honestly. I love Arama ♥

PVs

I HAVE SO MANY BACKLOGGED IDE. Finally getting them off lol.

GIVE ME FIVE! - AKB48
In which they are A BAND. Oh dear god I pray all my fave idols do this. (ARASHI. Sho can play keyboard. Aiba can play guitar. Nino will be on drums or bass, depending on which instrument Jun learns faster or wants to play. And Ohno will be lead vocals. GUYS THIS IS PERFECT.) ANYWAY. BABY BLOSSOM. LOL THEY'RE. SUCH A HUGE BAND. AND THEY HAVE. LIKE TROMBONES LOL MIICHAN. Acchan looks. oddish haha. YUUKO. LOL JURINA'S LIKE. DRUMMING THE AIR. This is so Jpop although they're a band. LOL TOMOCHIN'S INSTRUMENT. Well Maririn has a tambourine soooo. Yukirinnn. I wish they had a song with heavier bass so Yukirin would have to work those drums. And Yuuko! GORGEOUS. I dislike her hair though gosh. I love Yukirin's hair! HAHA JURINA. IS THAT HOW YOU PLAY? Ahh, Acchan centre. When's the next elections, I expect to see Yuuko top :D Acchan looks fuck tired. Ahhh so hardworking these girls ♥ That is my favourite AKB. WORKING THEIR ASSES OFF AKB. Tomochin's shakers are so fucking sparkly omg o.o Takamina is WORKNG IT. She looks super comfortable with it and SO HAPPY. Lol the choir girls are in the crowd. Are they even in this single? No one will ever know. Unless they can single out 16 diff voices LOL my max is 3, with difficulty. HAHA THE TROMBONE GIRLS ARE SO CUTE. I still wish this were more rock. AHH THAT ENDING WITH THE ARMS. Not as Scandal-esque as I'd like it. HI-5ING AT THE END LOLOLOL.

GuruGuru Curtain - Nogizaka46
Ahhh, AKB's one true rival. Produced by none other than AKB'S OWN PRODUCER. Akimotroll. Ahh. It's so typical LOL. AND LOL WHY ARE THEY SO LITERAL ABOUT THE CURTAINS. Lol okay it is. Slightly suggestive! Not very interesting, song-wise or PV-wise. Omg their outfits, what, is this the 60's. Omg this chord progression is so familiar. The excessive skirting, this is like Skirt, Hirari but more. Idk retro? And slow. I'm quite bored by this lol but they have time to get better. They're cute though, the song is cute. OMG HAHA THAT. STRANGE DANCE. OKAY. The bridge omg what's happening. I kinda wanna know what the lyrics say, from what I can make out it's o.o unique?

JOKER - D☆DATE
I ONCE WATCHED THEM AND WAS AWED. Omg there are guns and action HAHA. Seto Koji's voice is heavily manipulated, I know, I HAVE TETRA-FANG MUSIC. Okay they laid off the autotune. Omg it's super excessive here lol. HE LOOKS LIKE HYUNCHUL. It's an acting PV. Omg the female here is such a boss. Don't really like this song. What are they doing with the vocal manippp. The chorus is quite nice though! ALSO ARE THEY PLAYING POKER LOL. Omg haha one of them is super. Act. HAHA them lipsyncing the song is so odd when it sounds like it's sung by VOCALOIDS. Sigh. Omg one of them has a really smooth voice. Didn't dance in this one. The PV was okay la, idrk what was happening 'cos I don't recognise them, but the autotune is truly excessive here lol. Like I said: VOCALOIDS. Omg why is Seto screaming dude MY EARS. OKAY WAIT act cool guy is Ayaran (TRYING SO HARD) or sth.

2012 Spark - Porno Graffitti
It's the Phoenix Wright Live Action theme! Is this. Superhero-esque to be superhero-esque or is it just me. But omg OMG THE LASER LIGHTING IS ACTUALLY REALLY COOL HOLY SHIT. How does he play!? Omg OMG the vocalist putting his hand right under the laser and having it reflect off. :D I like this. Quite a cool PV! The song isn't bad! I love the vocalist's voice. The "SPECK" (LOLOL) in between verses is a bit annoying though. Omg I LOVE LASERS GUYS. You may not know this but lights and lasers? A FAVOURITE. So this is GREAT. JAMMING. Yea I like the song :D Did he say "I AM A SPARKLING MAN" or sth? Omg the guitar reflecting those lasers. I'm beginning to think this is like some parts CGI HAHA DAMN. Lucky you can feel strings on a guitar, omg those strobes. If this were a keyboard he were playing he'd have gone mad unless he has amazing muscle memory. Why does he say "SPECK" when he sings "SPARK" in the chorus lol.

Miss Mystery - BREAKERZ
Well I recognise DAIGO. Ahh it's a maze. WELL SINCE WHEN WAS DAIGO'S VOICE SO ATTRACTIVE. Omg the woman in the maze is so pale o.o Omg I LOVE DAIGO'S ACCESSORIES. That butterfly! And the overly-adorned hat! ALSO LOL HIS BANDMATES AND THE CAPES AND MASKS. I don't remember being this attracted to DAIGO's timbre, just his stupidity on variety! WHAT IS THIS FEELING. OH the guitarists are AKIHIDE and SHINPEI. I just dk which is which and why are you guys SHOUTING YOUR NAMES IN CAPS. Omg the woman just like, whispered LOL. AHH THE GUITAR SOLO IS QUITE SICK. The PV's effects are a bit weird lol I can't decide if this is supposed to look cool or the cameraman was just spasming. Ahhh the woman disappeared. I quite liked it! And DAIGO's timbre, mmmmm. I can deal with this. Not bad!

Sign - JUJU
I love this woman omg. Her voice! GOOSEBUMPS. Omg creepy. Talking about the PV lol the sad girl who just, idk, went through a breakup? Has the HOLOGRAM of her ex patting her or sth. Maybe he passed away actually idk. I associate 'aitakute' with Nishino Kana now, how successful. I thikn he's a ghost omg YES. The dog just sensed him! Omg I love things like this where they zoom in on these little things. AHH HE CAN'T GIVE WARMTH TO HER EVEN THOUGH SHE'S COLD ;_; Oh JUJU. Her voooice may I have it. The fake indoor snow is a bit weird though o.o She lost her boyf in the midst of odd statues! Oh no he's there. I love JUJU's gloves. If I can't have her voice can I just have her clothes lolol. Oh. A sketchpad. From him! His name is Gawagawa? what? AWW IT'S. A SKETCH OF HER. Omg I'm going to cry right. Omg it's a sketchpad OF SKETCHES OF HER. Omg the PV and the song meld really well it's making me want to cry. Talking about things that force me to tears and breaking it down causes the tears to stop lol. Ahhhh ): Omg. NO. DON'T GO AWAY. Omg. He faded away as the sun rose. The lighting in this is perfect omg. But. ;_; Ahhhh. This was amazing.

Tomodachi/Koibito - Moumoon
Omg I know Moumoon from some crazy song which is cute and adorable and ODD HAHA. SUNSHINE GIRL YES. Okay shit now it's stuck in my head HAHA. They kept performing this on end year shows in... 2010, somewhen then. Her shoes are so cute! The style is somewhat similar! Very cute and sort of like melodic chanting. I love her giant jacket gosh. OMG SO CUTE. Her shoes are like depicting these 2 children, one dressed in brown one in red! UM, ADORABLE. Ahhh are all their songs like this so whimsical and cute. Her guitarist gets so little camera time. Less than her shoes o.o LOL IS THAT FAKE SAKURA the sakura aren't in bloom yet! The PV is cute and the song is cute haha I somewhat like it. Omg haha I get the song title. She sang in English! So cute :D

Fukanzen Beautyfool Days - SuG
I had such a hard time typing that lol. Beautyfool? And Fukanzen isn't a word I've heard often. Lolol omg this PV is super LQ. What. OH okay it was just. Blur. Like really bad blur. Ahhh. SG is Oshare-kei, right? LOL IT SOUNDS. A BIT CHRISTMASSY. By a bit I mean VERY. Also the vocalist is like ROLLING ON THE GROUND. Ahhh SuG is such good 元気↑ music. WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THE 'BEAUTYFOOL' LOL TO MAKE IT HARD TO TYPE. The PV focuses a lot on the vocalist. And also THE LIGHTS HAHA. It's a little mad. Hey the guitarist looks a bit like Suhoon. THE VOCALIST LOOKS LIKE HE'S HAVING SO MUCH FUN THO, so smiley and great. Also is he playing the violin! Can he actually play!? Um. If yes, ATTRACTIVE. Omg was he trying to hang himself with Christmas lights? Eh shit I like the bridge. The amount of wardrobe changes he has in this PV is crazy LOL. He looks good with the glasses. It's good pumping up music la HAHA and it's super fun! Omg that skull. I quite like it.

Shouju, Futatabi - Nanba Shiho
How many PVs do I have lol. Omg. She sounds like Perfume. I was not expecting this. But not like Perfume in the... okay no she. She does sound like Perfume, slightly. Okay no they killed the autotune HAHA okay. I love the art director for this btw he directed VOICE and Fushizen na Girl! The colours are very pretty, and the angling is subtle but nice as well! Japan it's winter there right? What's with the sakura lol. I love how they angle things to make her look TINY. THE TINIEST. LOLOL. Omg lol this PV. So cute! The song's cute too but not really my style. OMG. I love it when they grab photos, put it in front of a scene, and it melds in perfectly! Her hair is a gorgeous shade of brown. Also why does she work yellow leggings.

Tristeze - JAMOSA feat. Naoto Inti Raymi
I don't even know anyone I'm watching now I think. Like, I know your name but what's the last thing you released again? IN FACT WHAT HAVE YOU RELEASED EVER. JAMOSA's voice is great though. Ah she's J-urban. Her harmony with Naoto isn't bad! Oh yes keep zooming in on the hands of those with instruments :Db It's not bad! The PV is simple, idk there's a boer or something but for her and her featured artist they're just in this place which is half-library hald-recording studio with a bunch of instrument-players and just singing. The lighting and colours are perfect though, and it's not even colouring just costuming and sets to create the effect. I don't think the PV was full it fades out strangely but okay!

TOKYO NIGHT - MiChi
I KNOW YOU BUT WHAT DID YOU RELEASE. I've def watched something from her before though. The excessive fandomming kinda does that to me. The night cityscape is GORGEOUS and the blurring effect is kinda cool! Her voice isn't bad! I like the timbre. Lol the repeatedly changing field of depth is now fucking with my head. Okay the more I see blurry lights the more my head hurts, but the song is TOKYO NIGHT after all. The PV at the chorus is a little odd lol too much staying in the same place. The bgm is super fast and pumpy but her voice is just melodic and smooth lol. I could dance to the instrumental but probably not with her voice, you know? But it's still nice! The PV was a bit mindfucky and kinda boring at times but the song's good.

Kitaomoi - miwa
Omg so cute! The kids and the heart-shaped balloons. Oh so many balloons. She's playing piano! It's not bad! Melodic and sweet. The balloons are so cute omg. Ahh the chorus was a bit of a change. Hmm the last word on the chorus sounded a bit off. I love the whole white/red style of this! And they balanced the amount of CO2:helium to get the balloons to float around and take super long to touch the ground or to stay suspended in the air, super cool! They make a really cool effect. Ahhh so cute and pretty! OMG THE DAHOWS THING IS SUPER COOL. Awwww. AWWWWW.

Eien - BENI
OKAY I KNOW BENI THOUGH HAHAHA. Ahh I quite like the song already. Omg the colours of this PV! She's so happy gosh. The lighting and the mutedness of it all, yet still vibrant and bright! Idek what words I'm using. OMG. SO CUTE. The heart made of petals with the ring! Omg her shoes. Want. A wedding veil over ~regular~ clothes! Ahhhh. The scenes with the car are getting awk LOL. She's putting on lipstick of another colour over her own lipstick. Omg the smoky lipstick looked good on her! I like this PV it's so whimsical and cute oh gosh. And the song itself is simple and quite nice! Ahhh the sunnnnn. That stretch of road is gorgeous btw.

I AM DONE HOW MANY WAS THIS. 13 HAHAHAHA. OKAY YAYYY BYEEE.

WATCHING AN OLD ANS CLIP. Fortune telling!

I LOVE THEM AND JANKEN. The best. HAHA oh Nino. Yes this job is suited for you. HAHA SHE AGREES. OFC. I don't need her to tell me that :D :D (WAS THIS SCRIPTED I hope this is so I can go on about OH JIMUSHO, USING TRICKS TO MAKE US LOVE OUR IDOLS AGAIN.) A person who will cherish his family and not divorce! HAHAHAHA. "HE IS ALREADY MARRIED". NINO'S REACTION, PRICELESS. Also he looks so pretty here ahh. OH HE WILL MEET THE ONE DESTINED FOR HIM THIS YEAR HAHA. HAHAHA HE THINKS HE'S HTE MOST POPULAR HERE. HIS FACE. TELLING EHR TO KEEP IT A SECRET, HIS FAAACE. HAHAHA HE DOESN'T SEEM TO HAVE FRIENDS. NINO'S FACE. I CAN'T. HAHAHAHA HE'S TOO COLD TO HAVE FRIENDS. HAHA. HAHAHAHAHAHA EVEN IF HE TRIES HE'LL STAY COLD. HAHA THAT DESCRIBES HIM THO, WANTING TO JUST BE AS HE IS.

OHHH SAKURAI? EXTREMELY HIGH-RANKED, EVEN OUTSIDE ENTERTAINMENT. HAHAHAHA SHO "I WANT IT TO BE IN ENTERTAINMENT!" WELL OF COURSE. HAHAHAHHAHA PLEASE CHERISH AND USE SAKURAI-SAN OKAY. HAHAHAHAHHA KAZE TRIO THINKING THEY'RE POPULAR. THEIR FACES. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. BUT SAKURAI IS THE TRUE POPULAR ONE. HIS FACE. AND HAHAHAHAHAHA OHNO NOT POPULAR AT ALL. HAHAHAHAHA.

HER NAME IS SAKANA-SAN, WHAT.

HAHA OH GOSH. I CAN'T. Ohno is super fucking popular though seriously! But I'd think he's the most humble of Arashi. Quite a feat, since they're all terribly humble. Even with Jun's haughty aura (he does have one lol it comes wth the Domyouji I think) he's still incredibly humble and he just, is full of gratitude. All of them are. So yea haha but ah well.

THIS WAS HILARIOUS THOUGH.

2012-01-27T08:12:00.000-08:00

I have this really intense urge to swear right now. And the image of Kazue, anorexic and roaming the streets with her foundation-caked face and bright red lipstick and blye eyeshadow, propositioning others is just stuck in my head. Fuck.

@pearl: OKAY :D

I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I'm just. Stunned. I think what worries me a lot - maybe the most - is that I am practically Kazue. She went crazy after a while, or was she not crazy, was she merely deluded, or was she aware she was lying to herself, the way I do sometimes, was she this was she that?

I'm just. Well. Fuck.

Okay I just want to address the way this book was written, aka the most scary, realistic way ever. It starts off with the main narrator, whom I refer to as 'Hirata Anon' because we all know her surname, but she never reveals her own name, and everyone else just conveniently forgets her name as well. So it's written like a conversation, only it is a monologue. However, she somewhat responds to you, slightly, she says things like "so you wonder why...?" and then responds to it. It is essentially, a conversation. After this, she passes you Yuriko's diaries, and continues her ramble, talks about Zhang's trial and also passes you his statement, lets you read Professor Kijima's letters to Mitsuru, talks a bit more, and shows you Kazue's diaries.

Now I've mentioned multiple times that Japanese mysteries work this way: tell you everything, including the crime, victim, and criminal, then subsequently fuck with your head. Well I've genuinely never seen it as well done as this. Anon tells you all about everyone, and talks about the case as if it's a done deal. She gives impressions, and these impressions stick because she's the main narrator. Then you read their diaries. Well.

Kazue herself was pretty easy to read, even from Anon's POV. But Yuriko. We're lead to think she's incredibly dim-witted and stupid, almost based solely on her grades, then we realise she's the biggest bitch on earth and she has plans, and while not the sort of plan I could ever imagine myself taking up, a plan nonetheless. She can think, and more than she is academically underperforming she is able to see the world as it is.

I read somewhere, in a fanfiction actually, that to hate something you've got to be able to love it a little. This is Anon to Yuriko. I have honestly never. Never what? I'm not really sure.

And even when Anon felt guilt for Kazue at the end, I couldn't. I was disgusted. How could someone have such a skewed image of themselves? How could someone be so proud, so narcissistic, so uncaring of others in the world? She lives in a world where only she exists, where she herself is the sole purpose. Disgusting. I hated her, I was incredulous at her stupidity, and yet maybe the reason I can't feel remorse or pity for her is because I see so much of myself in her. And god I hate the convergent points between me and her. And now, because I'm desperate for some self-assurance, I'm asking "am I really like her?" Well. Yes. She is the perfect picture of my wants and desires and how I am. It's disgusting.

I think I've talked too much about this. It's. Revealing, in a sense. Ughhh.

I think what's scary is Zhang's story. What do I believe? On characterisation, I can pick some of it out for myself, and through all their lies there is some truth to everything. You pick out - someone's jealous, she's going to lie - and you know. But did Zhang abscond from his family because he was found to be a murderer? Or did his sister push him to do it? Did he force his sister into prostitution, or was she lied to and stolen away? Did he push her into the ocean or did he try to save her? One thing's for sure: Zhang has a crazy sister complex, and is also a liar.

They never really concluded Kazue's case, and while I do wish I knew what happened to her, I can't say it annoys me, because there was no way she could've fit it in. It's what the characters themselves understand at the very end, and besides Kazue and her murderer, no one could know for sure. But I am almost sure it is Zhang. Almost. There is an air of uncertainty about this.

There's a lot of themes to this book: beauty and society, feminism, social classes, migration. I don't know where to begin to think about this book.

When there are people who live in brightness, there are people who live in the shadows they cast. There isn't exactly a line from the book I can quote, but that's the main gist for what Anon says at the end. She's lived in Yuriko's shadows, but she says she hasn't, just picked up the dregs of those living in shadows. It's strange, how until the end Anon is trying to justify herself, claiming things even though they've been refuted, especially when her reactions to Yurio are like - like that. In any case. That concept, that visualisation. I believe in it.

The book's main theme is social classes. Migrants are far, far below. The insiders (insiders in the school, locals in the context of the country) will always get further than the outsiders (including halfs), unless you have something far more powerful, something that can break past that barrier: money or looks. Talent? Doesn't quite cut it. You may bore a small hole in the barrier, but you can't quite achieve success. And then, another large barrier: being a woman. Let's talk Japanese society: still very, very sexist. I used one of their stats for my EYA essay last year, but I've forgotten it. But just from what I know, very sexist.

This 'review' isn't very coherent at all, really. I'm just. Kind of boggled, and it's a really, really long book. Speaking of which, the length. It was quite a bit to handle, but I think if I really read through it, it would reveal a lot about everyone. It's somewhat interesting to me that Kirino kind of hints that she is aware this is draggy through her characters ("I skimmed most of it", "writing about irrelevant"), but it made me feel like I had to read deeper into it. Was it me?

Okay I'm just going to give up because it was really long, I'm really tired, and I've had too much time relating myself to Kazue and Anon and hating myself for it. (I am a terrible combination of both, perhaps it is because they were similar. Which they were. Anon and her self-assurance that she never really cared anyway, she could be an outsider for all she was worth, and Mitsuru putting it to her like a slap in her face: no, you never were, you were just like Kazue except you were worse because you belittled her for being exactly like you.) Oh god I JUST KEEP BLOGGING. WHEN WILL I EVER STOP.

BUT YES I just. I wonder if I know a monster. I wonder if I'm a monster, given that I am Kazue and Anon combined. And if yes, when does it start to show? Do you know, are you aware when it happens? One thing I'm certain of: everyone has a monster. But whether the monster festers within you and crawls out of your skin and oozes out your pores is a different matter altogether. I'm shuddering. Shiiit.

Anything more? I can't blog anymore I'm tired as fuck lol I turned on this machine just to blog. I want it fresh it my head but it's already a blur. Oops.

Oh oh: kudos on Kirino for not throwing shade on sex workers. The characters react in shock and disapproval, yes, but as an author she doesn't really make it seem like being a sex worker is something wrong, it's pursued by people of all kinds for all sorts of reasons. Maybe hatred may be the core of this reason, maybe Hirata Anon is just fucked over. All these maybes.

Also Yurio wins creepiest character of the book. It's not that he has acute hearing, he predicted a phone call. He downright has sixth sense. And he cracked Anon, led her to her downfall. Speaking of creepy: the last line of the book, as Anon strains to see if her client is Zhang. He's in jail, yes, but still. Fuck.

Oh oh another thing haha. I think Kirino has a thing for arming yourself; Real World had it, Grotesque had it. Out, did Out have it? No, Out did not. But I have a weapon too. I'm well aware of this. You have to be aware of your weapon in order to be able to wield it effectively.

I'm never going to stop HAHA. But anyway, I liked Grotesque, more than Real World, but less than Out. But Out, Out was fantastic. It's going to be hard to top.

So yes GOING TO STOP NOW (:

I didn't do much today, just sat and read because my books are due tomorrow. I still have Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, which I'm going to read on the way to groundschool and in the hours between groundschool and SIM 6. Speaking of which I have to go memorise HASELL and how to recover from stalling now. Lolol I am revising it in my head, thank you nearly photographic memory :D♥

Okay okay but I had something that made me scream this afternoon I MUST TALK ABOUT: NINO'S NEW MOVIE. I was falsely excited by the Arama article because NINO? HOLLYWOOD? YES. YES. ALL THE YESES. ALL THE ROLES. JUST GIVE. But alas he is merely acting in a Japanese movie, BUT STILL WONDERFUL. It's by Higashino Keigo, AGAIN, seriously I'll never stop watching live action remakes of this guy's novels. Why can I never find your books?

IN ANY CASE: Set in 2017, it tells the story of a young brilliant scientist named Kagura Ryohei (Ninomiya), who works as a DNA specialist for the National Police Agency in the newly created underwater DNA data center. One day, he suddenly becomes the prime suspect in the murder case of the developer of the new DNA investigation system. Having no memory of what actually happened, Kagura ends up on the run from the police.

UM.
1) Nino the scientist.
2) Nino the DNA specialist (it will make my life to hear him refer to DNA as 'deoxyribonucleic acid' js. JUST ANOTHER OF MY STRANGE FANGIRL WANTS.)
3) NINO THE MURDERER?
4) NINO THE AMNESIAC PRIME SUSPECT OF MURDER.

IDEK WHY I'M SO EXCITED THIS IS ACTUALLY KINDA TYPICAL BUT GUYS. GUYS. GUYS. Omg Encore has to bring this in I'll watch it. FIVE TIMES. Also lolol Nino underwater? I'D WATCH IT.

Omg he's going to read up on DNA for this. Um. HOT. ads;lkjfl;skja;lskdjal;skj.

CAN I ALSO TALK ABOUT SOME CRAZY FANDOM RUMOUR HE WAS GOING TO BE IN A MOVIE ADAPTATION OF VITA SEXUALIS. IDE. OH FANDOM. YOU CRAZY. adksjlkja.

I AM SO EXCITED OMG. Can't wait for 2013 shit shit HAHA I AM REALLY EXCITED.

Also guys I'm now convinced I'm the fandom prophet lolol things I have predicted that have come true:
1) SHINee debut in Japan (the announcement was WEEKS after I predicted it)
2) NINO DANCING TO GEE. Although notably: not to spite his bandmates, not alone, and not in Korean.
3) Nino getting a movie

I'VE SAID A BUNCH OF OTHER CRAP THAT CAME TRUE THOUGH I just can't remember now but lolol I HOPE THIS TREND CONTINUES. My Inoue Mao drama can be next! I don't mind :D

This photoset ♥ Perfectly done, the last gif is just. The cherry on the cake, so to speak. Ahhh ♥ (Also: Nino pretending to be asleep!)

Okay gonna go mug now (lolol and I was laughing at the SAT people for mugging) and sleep! I SHALL. CATCH UP ON FANDOM AOTHER DAY LOL.

2012-01-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

@pearl: I MAY READ IT IF I CONJURE THE STRENGTH HAHA.

I am really, really scared by Grotesque right now and I daren't read Kazue's journal. It's scary how Nastuo can make me slowly realise things and get them to creep under my skin. When the... fuck I don't even know her name! The narrator, told Yurio that she looked just like Yuriko, and people always told her she was pretty like her sister. My skin crawled. I knew since Yuriko's diary that the story took on the form of the unreliable narrator style, but I wasn't aware of exactly what was unreliable, because she was still our sole narrator for most of it. But when Mitsuru came in and became the ultimate, ultimate bitch. Just, wow.

Also it's scary because I see a bit of... UGH WHY DON'T I KNOW YOUR NAME you are from now on Hirata Anon. Okay yea I see a bit of her in myself. It's. Kind of creepy. But we're so alike. Even the way we portray ourselves versus the way we act in private. It scares me.

I'm really, really scared. I don't want to see what Kazue says, about herself or about Hirata Anon or even Mitsuru. I'm scared as fuck. Oh gosh. I'll blog about the book in more detail another day, definitely, but for now I just don't want to proceed onto the next part of the book.

(Also: there are so many typoes in the book! I got so confused here and there sigh.)

Another thing: I just. I had this sudden realisation that I'm 17, which happens often, but I'm 17. One more year and I'll be 18, another 3 after that and I'll be 21, an adult, and yet. I don't really know how to say this, because I don't want to say that I'm living in a little fantasy of my own but I am. It's somewhat more than something just made in my mind, and now I'm beginning to sound like a schizophrenic. It's just. Something that's become increasingly tangible for me, and I think it's childish and stupid but I can't let it go. In a sense, it's part of me now. But it's oh so stupid. Sigh.

Okay I'm talking to people about really sad things and I have Niji open and I'm just. Calm down, Hui Xian. Composure. Omg he just hit the solo and my heart twisted oh god.

これからはちょっと
くらいの我が儘
いってもういいよ
でも私にだけよ

一言よ。

Niji is possibly the only Japanese song I really know all the lyrics to. Ahhh ♥

WENT OUT TODAY with Zhang Chew Jieliang to play pool! It was ridiculous LOL spent lots of time monodealing and polaying Bridge as well! I am. Super bad at everything but it was fun :D

WELL NOTHING MUCH TO SAY THERE IS THERE HAHAHA.

Oh now I'm listening to Hikki's First Love! And it's a gorgeous song. I heard it in Stand Up!! and it was the first time I actively searched for it, but it's genuinely one of Hikki's most famous songs and the moment I heard it I had this moment of "oh, ohmygod, THIS SONG" and I went to search it up. It's gorgeous.

Also Laruku is confirmed (OR RUMOURED NO ONE REALLY KNOWS) to be hitting SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM on 28.04.2012! Oh gosh guys I SERIOUSLY WANT TO GO DAMMIT.

I don't actually have much to blog about LOL. WELL. Okay for now :D

I have fanfic open, and also there's my 17 PVs from yesterday, and I'm early today so I SHALL WATCH SOMETHING. HURRAY :D

♥

Just saying it is on my bucket list to see a rainbow in flight.

And today the moon was in the West! I am so confused. Y u no in same familiar place, moon? It was gorgeous though, it was waxing and just a small slice of the moon we usually see (:

I.

Am going to start labelling my posts. For only important stuff, like fandom: general (the news thing I do all the time), fandom: arashi/UVERworld (the albums and variety shows and lives and such), reviews: books/movies/dramas, quotes (for EVERYTHING those blockquotey htmley things I always do), and maybe some other stuff. Oh I think I'll label my flights too in case I want to ~revise~. But yea. (:

Ahhh fuck. We worked so hard to keep this private.

All it takes is one person. I hate it when life goes all "you may have great plans but we'll fuck it for you." Fuck I'm genuinely upset why did you tell her that!?

It's a hard world out there. :/

(I'm genuinely reconsidering the things I've done, and while I can make no changes I'm just. I completely regret some of the things I've done and I don't understand why I let something so minor rule over my life at that moment. Fuck. Sorry.)

SMOSH'S DEATH NOTE PARODY IS PERFECT LOLOL I CAN ACTUALLY DRAW ALL THE PARALLELS WITH THE BOOK I LOVE IT. LOVE IT.

Oricon, since I got too lazy to check it myself idek what's going on anymore LOL. OH HEY DGNA GOT. 7TH. HAHA. 14k! I AM ACTUALLY RATHER PROUD :D Wow surprised at Kikkawa Yuu. Idols' albums are rarely popular though. And ahh, singles. Is Ikimono's sales dropping? Why wasn't I alerted of their PV though o.o

JIMUSHO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. Suddenly Jin and Meisa were at Disneyland, but with friends! Aww, now that the PHOTOGRAPHIC evidence is out, BACKPEDAL BACKPEDAL BACKPEDAL. You're so cute sometimes. NOT. HAHAHHAA. I evidently derive joy from the jimusho screwing up. So much for THIS IS ALL A PUBLICITY STUNT!!! Whose stunt is it now? Sweet Power, +1.

Ahhhhh I LOVE THESE. The white one is gorgeous, the red one is so cute and the blue one with the pink frills! PERFECT. The purple one is a little over though, but AHHH.

GUYS AKFG RELEASES ON ITUNES US. AKG? What are you guys now! BUT ANYWAY: EXCITE. GLOBALISATION GET.

PVs!

TOO MANY. I SWEAR.

Shoujo Traveller - 9nine.
PRACTICALLY TIME TO GET THEIR NAMES RIGHT ME THINKS. It's some. HIGH TECH THING LOL. I'm watching a like, weird version of it so there's a mad border it's DISTRACTING. Oh these girls. They've improved a lot in their dancing! Omg the border is SOME ANIME LOL. Omg I love their outfits. HAHA IT'S SUPER OUT OF SYNC TOO. The swiping to the side thing was cool! HEY I QUITE LIKE IT. The chorus! Omg the girl with goggles around her neck! HAHAHAHA THE ACTING COOL THING SO CUTE. Omg shit I really genuinely like them HAHA. HOW DO THEIR ARMS DO THAT FLIPPY THING I CAN'T. They have so much fun! But omg I like it. Their dancing's REALLY improved. They're in sync with each other and I don't get the overly jerky or trying-too-hard feeling I got from their debut. I like it. OMG THE. HAHA 5 PEOPLE IN A ROW AND WALK OFF ONE BY ONE THING. OMG HAHA THEY'RE NOW FIGHTING THEMSELVES THIS IS SO CUTE. HAHAHAHA DANCE-FIGHTING I CAN'T. I support white team for their outfits omg. SO PRETTY.HAHA THEY DRAWED. LOLOL WHITE TEAM'S PERPETUAL ARM BOBBING IS HILARIOUS. But omg I liked it :D

Roly Poly (Japanese Ver.) - T-ARA
I will never escape Kpop sigh. I can't bring myself to catch up on Kpop guys! Idec about my youtubers anymore. JPOP♥ Thank god this PV isn't like, 15min long. They're actually speaking Japanese! Most of them sound quite natural with this! HAHA THEY'RE SO 80'S. Um I kinda know Roly Poly ridiculously well so this is def gonna sound weird. HAHA YES IT IS but it translated quite well! If you didn't tell me I may not have known! Omg I LOVE THE DANCE. They kept "molla" D: HAHA OKAY THEY CHANGED THE NEXT ONE IT WAS QUITE WEIRD. The chorus is a little weird! They upped the background to 'fill in' the song I think. The bass is a little weird but I'm actually kinda okay with it! THIS MAKES ME WANT TO DANCE. Hey I'M REALLY HAPPY WITH THIS. T-ARA does well right? HAHAHA FUCK THEY DIDN'T CHANGE THE RAP AT ALL UNFORTUNATELY. But yea it translated surprisingly well! I love the stupid stage tho loool. I never actually WATCHED Roly Poly - fucking 15 min long PVs, I DON'T HAVE THE TIME FOR YOU okay I do but shhh - so I can't compare the quality, but song-wise Korean's definitely better but the Japanese wasn't bad :D

Katamoi Finally - SKE48
THIS IS THE. CONTROVERSIAL ONE HAHA. I only recognise like Matsui Jurina from this. Ahh she caught a lesbian couple kissing. HER FACE. Better kiss scene than in dramas, honestly LOLOL. AHH THEIR DANCING. SKE48's dancing is eons ahead of AKB, I personally think, but their voices lol they're high pitched here. Again. Was it them that stopped last PV? Or was that SDN. Too much 48. OKAY THAT WAS JUST BLATANT MOLESTATION YOU DON'T DO THAT NO MATTER YOUR GENDER. I like the choreo, they're spunky! WHAT WHY DID 2 CARS JUST CRASH LOL. The effect was kinda cool though, vaguely ethereal when they were caught in the headlights. The field scene is gorgeooous. HAHAHAHA they were in a club and were totally making sex eyes at each other. OHHH. IMPLICATIONS OF NOT-JUST-EYES. Haha tbh though besides the obvious fetishing (it is very fetishing lol) this is a form of publicity and can be interpreted to be an activist thing, so. Omg she just got lead on by Jurina HOW COULD YOU. HAHA THE SLEEPOVER. Hilarity. The rooftop thing is so dramatic I LOVE IT. OMG SPARKS oh OH MY GOD BITCH SLAPPING EACH OTHER IN THE RAIN. NO. NOOO. They actually put a lot into their dancing, THEY'RE ALL LIKE. PANTING AT THE END. Ahhhh. SKE why don't you have songs and voices I can get into? Okay I just. Don't know what happened. Don't like the song (sigh I'll never get into their voices) but the PV was okay, choreo was nice! (Tbh it's not the song it's their voices ): ): )

Koe ga Kasureru Kurai - SKE48 [Akagumi]
Is this some Kouhaku thing? Idek. It's the undergirls' PV I assume. ARE THEY VENDING MACHINE DRINKS. LOLOL SHIT THEY ARE? SERIOUS? Omg shit their voices are so deep in this! Omg. ... It's an analogy for Enjo Kousai I suspect. OKAY THERE ARE KIDS THOUGH BUT. The impression! Or maybe it's just need and helplessness and loneliness. Omg shit I liike this song better! Is the centre Rena? Idk I only know Jurina and Rena LOL. They're restocking! I kind of like the shots i nthe van, btw. It's cute and suits it HAHA. AWW SHE WAS POPULAR IN SUMMER. What drink is she lolol. OH I GET IT she's a summery drink, which is why she's in summer uniform while the rest are in winter clothing! OMG. SO MUCH LOGIC. And they're hot drinks except for her! HAHA THIS IS. SO CUTE. OH THEY'RE MAKING HER CHANGE BUT SHE'S REJECTING THEM. YES. BE YOURSELF. :D :D Okay I see the logic of this PV now! SHE'S. STILL. ABANDONED. ): OH restock guy took the uni from the trash and is giving it to her. WASN'T THIS ABOUT BEING YOURSELF. Or maybe it's about bullying lol. Or only accepting nice things from nice people. Idek. EVERYONE'S WATCHING HER TRANSFORM LOLOL THIS IS SUCH A STRANGE PV. SHE IS NOW CIDER! HAHAHAHAHA IDE. RESTOCK GUY BUYS HER! HAHAHAHAHAHA. WHAT THE FUCK. I liked THIS song though, their voices are so deep! I like it better. I think they sound better. THE PV IS LULZY BUT CUTE SO.

Hanikami Lollipop - SKE48 [Shirogumi]
Omg FRANCE. Avenue des Champs-Elysses! Okay the rustic setting, I'm already attracted! I absoltely love 48family PVs, this is something I've definitely mentioned. They speak English! Omg. Is that kid a ghost. His English is REALLY heavily accented. WOW. OH no he's just living in a black and white world! Also it's off 'cos they speak diff languages and understand each other. Also her bandmates are made of PHOTOS, even better. Ahh it's high pitched again but not as bad as Katamoi! OMG SO CUTE. THEIR OUTFITS! OMG. IT'S REALLY CUTE HAHA. OH she's going around bringing COLOUR TO EVERYONE'S LIVES :D LITERALLY HAHA. I love how hard Akimoto pushes Jurina and Reina. It's hilarious. Hey the rusticness of the setting is gone! SKE does suit the happy thing though, the way they dance! So much energy. THERE IS CONVERSATION BUT IT'S AWK HAHA like the song plays in the bg and it doesn't really match! Also Jurina is just STARING at people and they will colour HAHA IT'S ODD. The perm doesn't suit her face lol. Omg their dresses are so perfect for this PV I am just. Their formations! Ahhhh. I remember when we used AKB for FSD inspiration because they change formations incredibly well. They're all so smiley! I liked this haha it's popppy but it didn't make my ears hurt! The PV's kinda lame LOL but it's okay. OH. IT WAS. ALL A DREAM. LOLOL OKAY DOUBLY LAMED BUT YEAAA. OKAY.

Mask - Aqua Timez
OH it's the ED for Bleach lol. GUYS I LOVE AQUA TIMES OMG I don't catch up with them but they're so good. Omg the vocalist, I'll never get over his timbre, it's super unique, and the way he raps! His voice texture doesn't suit rapping, but he makes up for it with rhythm and speed. I love how they have a keyboardist instead of 2 guitarists! And that keyboardist is a SHE. They have a very unique band makeup in general la. Omg the PV. MAGNIFYING GLASSES, MIRRORS, AND TYPOGRAPHY. Okay way to spice up a PV without excessive CGI. But they do use CGI HAHA AND EXCESSIVELY AS WELL but that was a great touch, it made it interesting and strange to look at through something creative. Omg I love how everyone on the instrumentals is just HEADBANGING. Even the girl hunched over the keyboard YES IT LOOKS AWKWARD but she's into it. This instrimental solo felt a bit lacking but! Ahhh. The bridge. Aqua Timez is amaaaazing. OMG the drums are super pretty! They're deep blue fade to white, and it looks amazing! AHHH.

Subete E - Alice Nine
I like Alice Nine too! Omg the PV is kind of. His voice is so rich and deep but he has the face of. Of. A JAPANESE VKEI VOCALIST LOL and his mouth is barely open. But yea Alice Nine is great, their vocalist is great! Abd b/w PVs with them walking around buildings? Yea, I can appreciate, even if slightly boring. They don't give the vocalist excessive screen time too! Ahh it just kicked in. The covalist is Shou. AHH I can headbang to this. Admittedly I liked the feel of the slow intro better. And now they're just rocking in a room with the blue filteres turned to high. Omg they made the screen and song freeze in the middle of a line and IT WAS AWK AS FUCK was it intentional!? Omg Shou's smile is attractive. OMG HAHA THE GUITARIST JUST WINDMILLED HIS ARM. LIKE. TO PLAY. WHUT. Omg that. The instrumental solo. A bit too much going on, I think, but okay. I think Alice Nine's style is very distinctive... lol you can. Think of that as you wish. When I hear an Alice Nine song I'll know it's by them la. Ahh they're slowing down again. Ahh I like the instrumental solo here better. Not about the messiness or speed but about coordinated instruments filling in and around for each other. The drummer is ATTRACTIVE. I didn't LOVE LOVE this, but I liked it (:

OKAY I have like 11 more PVs to watch but I'm just going to go off now my father's kinda pissed oops. Apparently I don't manage my time as well as I think I do HAHA I was caught up doing stuff la but okay :D NEVER MIND THERE IS TOMORROW WHEN I AM SPENDING MY DAY AT HOME HURRAY :D

Okay so leaving now 11 PVs FOR TOMORROW. It's okay the news has been slow recently :D Dramas just started, music is still slow, so NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT LA BASICALLY. Not like December :D

I realise that if I use my 'fandom: Arashi' label for everything I post about Arashi, I might as well not do anything LOL BECAUSE ALL MY POSTS HAVE IT.

So Arashi just if I liveblogged something (note to self: 'fandom: music shows' tag, and Arashi's under that too) and if it's >3min, so a skit from AnShi? Yep! A clip from VSA? Probably not.

Also I'm torn because I pretty much listened to the whole of Japonesque but I don't want to have a reviews: music because she's under my general fandom post lol. And I feel like I'm ignoring all the music I find but HAHA. Idek. Maybe there should be a music heading. Like "music: album" BUT THEN THAT SCREWS WITH MY ARASHI STUFF. Also fandom: Arashi is gonna have a WHOLE LOT OF BULLSHIT UNDER IT LOL when I look for the album reviews I'm gonna die. fandom: Arashi music VS fandom: Arashi variety show? Idek.

I'll figure this out as I go along -nods head-.

2012-01-24T19:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAKURAI SHO ♥
I hope you continue onto life being the greatest person ever. Perhaps not the president of Japan - just the president of OVER ONE MILLION FANS' hearts. I don't have any gratuitous photos of you in my HDD, unfortunately, BUT I LOVE YOU VERY MUCHLY IN ANY CASE. I wish you amazingness and happiness and the ability to continue to do something you want to do and you studied to do and greatness and love and SPEAKING OF LOVE YOUR BANDMAAAATES and amazing rapping skills and songwriting and everything. I just read that you would like to learn more, and well firstly THAT IS REALLY HOT ): and secondly I hope you succeed in that as well and become the most scholarly of idols ♥

Happy 30th, Sho ♥

@Zann: OOPS I really suck at this haha. AND YEA HE'S HILARIOUS. I didn't even notice the dirty screen thing LOOOL.

@pearl: FLAWLESS. CROSSDRESSING, SHENANIGANS, AND IDOLS? FLAWLESS. Is it damn long though HAHA one chapter how many pages! I am. Not into manga lately ):

OMG YOU ARE THE CUTEST. (For once, I am not talking about someone 5000km away from me.) Actually she's within 40km of me HAHAHAHA but basically I HAVE REALLY NICE FRIENDS WHO DO STUPID THINGS FOR ME OKAY.

Just saying of all the irl people I admire, I perhaps admire you the most. I know lots of people who deserve admiration, yes, so this is odd - and perhaps a bad decision, because our interests lie in different places and as such, I presume, so do our talents and desired talents. And yet, oddly, we have one common interest, a huge overbearing one that takes up most of your life and all of mine. And while you berate yourself constantly for your lack of expertise in this matter, I would die to have the ability you do. So yes: you are my object of admiration AND THAT WOULD CREEP PEOPLE OUT but basically, I love what you can do and what I wish to do and one day hope to be as amazing as you are.

初二 was rather boring haha. My cousin-who-just-gave-birth didn't come, so we had 4 people to play mahjong, 5 people to play cards, BUT 5 KIDS TO TAKE CARE OF. Basically we ended up just poking the kids around HAHA and my cousins-whom-I-actually-call-cousins (I have a complex way of addressing my family) had to leave early because my cousin brother had to leave for OCS and so we ended up playing with children. Yutong SERIOUSLY DISLIKES ME JUST SAYING and I would never have known ut my dad has a way with children!

Just saying my dad's not at all close to the maternal side of my family, when he's there it's like when we're with the paternal side of ours. He doesn't meet his brothers and sisters frequently either, granted, but after all they're siblings :/

LET ME STOP TALKING ABOUT MY FAMILY.

FANDOM!

Okay this is going to be utter Nino spam because I searched something and came across ALL THESE ARTICLES.

From Nino's GANTZ wikia page: "Kazunari Ninomiya, often called Nino, is a Japanese idol, singer, songwriter, award-winning actor, television personality, seiyū and radio host." MY IDOL. Lolol I seriously can't what? WHAAAT? I forget he's a radio host sometimes, and even more that he's actually voice acted. Oh Ninomiya. Also just a thought: Nino's speaking voice gets on people's nerves, HOW DOES HE RADIO HOST. I mean I love his voice but it's. SQUEAKY |:

And why was I unaware that in Yasashii Jikan Nino acts as a person who inadvertently killed his mother! I AM WATCHING THAT. I am also going to buy a box of tissue to put next to my laptop lolol.

Guys guys want to read an article that covers several things I'm interested in, such as Nino, acting in Japan, idols in Japan, the Japanese industry in stark contrast to the American one, and OPINIONS? Please read this. I can't - THEY INTERVIEWED JULIE. Or someone did. JULIE. JULIE. UM. BIG DEAL. I was mildly surprised she could comment on Nino because you may know your talents but you don't need an intricate understanding of their abilities, their managers do, then I remembered she's CEO of Jstorm ==

Also straying to comment on Jimusho's inner workings: Kitagawa is over 80. And so is Mary. They're all active. And I'm sorry but they're not going to live forever (even if Japanese are somewhat famed for their ability to live past a century). So... what happens then? The obvious answer is Julie takes over, but what then? Julie's not young either. (Also rumours that Julie and Mary are fighting for presidency. Obviously the cash is tempting. They're both very talented in the art of pushing idols though, with Mary in charge of the actual JE and Julie in charge of Jstorm, both of which house some of the most popular idols evar, and I don't care who succeeds Johnny. But I just want to say: they're really, really old and they might have problems in the near future when it comes to succession, because of how they stick to family and have held the company under them for as long as the company has been. (Sound familiar? Think bigger than companies. Think COUNTRIES.)

ANYWAY just read it it is fabulous and tells me things about Nino I've never known. Some parts are lulzy - I almost spat milo out at "Jun Matsumoto, with his ripped abs" because Jun does not have ripped abs, and he wasn't a face until HanaDan, let's be very honest - but most of it is accurate and surprising. I like that they talk about talent VS looks in the idol world, although I argue that it is talent VS charisma because there are quite a number of not-handsome-yet-popular Johnnies that overflow with charisma. And they interview Nino, and he talks about Jdramas and exaggeration! Quote: "They [The Japanese] make movies with greater and greater emotion, and it's not realistic," Ninomiya says. "So if you make a movie [like 'Letters'] that is based on reality, some people will find it uninteresting. They will say I should have cried more in certain scenes." Ohhhh. Flawless man. Also, EXTREMELY RELEVANT! Japan, please do acting better.

And more on JUST NINO, WHO CARES ABOUT ACTUAL META: Nino's analytical approach when it comes to Japanese entertainment. Nino is the perfect idol, evidently. Okay my bias is showing HAHA but seriously! That is not a normal approach. But I suppose idols who take their job seriously do do it, and it adds to their eventual successes. And him on his grandfather, let me wibble and scream. I made a non-human noise when I read that ):

Also an interesting sentence: "Arashi members have all cultivated different personalities for their fans". Cultivated. Not just, they have different personalities! They're cultivated. I'm not picking on the diction here, because it is likely the most accurate representation of how idols are.

Huixian's favourites: TALKING IDOL META. Oh yeah.

I LISTEN TO THIS AND HANADAN FEELINGS. Also Hikki's range is crazy, the lowness she drops into in the verse VS the high, floaty voice she uses in the chorus. Wowwwww.

I'm going to catch up on fandom FOR REALSIES now :D GUDBAI.

I LOVE MEMES. Do I dare link? No. OOPS. HAHA.

Okay basically, ON NINO: Not a considerate man! Lolol. I love him for it, though. He's nice enough to appear professional and to be nice to people he wants to be nice to, he keeps up his image as an idol, and that's about it. KIND OF A JERK. I've said this any number of times. He's deathly situationally aware in spite of that, but he just. DOESN'T GIVE A DAMN. What I like about it is that he doesn't feel the need to be someone not himself. Of course, still an asshole.

Another thing, saw this link and realised it wasn't just a stroke of luck that they all bowed in increments on Kouhaku, took back my slight pissed off-ness at the higher end of the bow, and became kinda pissed. I mean. :/ It's for fun and all but BOWING IS NOT SOMETHING YOU JOKE ABOUT. It's kinda cute but seriouslyyy. I don't see why fandom doesn't take it seriously haha IS THIS BECAUSE I'M ASIAN :/ But I'm insulted, slightly. But it's all in fun, and I guess on their own shows it's okay, and at least on Kouhaku they all bowed really low in any case but still. :/ Sigh.

Also okay gonna have to link to this one, this thread. I am kinda tempted to watch this rn tbh. I don't think discomfort necessarily points to homophobia, of course, but. Oh sigh. Japan :/ I didn't think Ohno or Aiba would be like this though, Ohno because he's obviously spent time with Okama, and Aiba because WELL IT'S AIBA and you'd think Jun considerate enough to not be like this :/

But memes are always fun! I BURST OUT LAUGHING ALL THE TIME IN THAT MEME :D Also, on Arama. AND ON TUMBLR. Everywhere is full of hilarity :D

Drama ratings. Lucky 7's doing waaay better than NatsuNiji, but I am still filled with apprehension. Is a cast of eye candy enough to satisfy the Japanese audience? Also: gratuitous fighting scenes. BUT STILL: IS THAT ENOUGH.

FUCK GUYS THERE IS A SONYMUSICNETWORK CHANNEL.

THAT IS NOT AVAILABLE IN MY COUNTRY. AND IT HAS FULL PVs.

FUCK.

I just put on my RJ skirt to check how much to alter, and found out that if I'd bought a S, not only would it fit on my waist, I PROBABLY WOULD NOT ACTUALLY HAVE TO ALTER IT. |: My M ends right below the knees rn. Damn.

GUESS WHICH TOP JAPANESE BOY BAND HAS A NEW SINGLE?

Wild at Heart, release 07.03.2012. 1 B-side in LE, 2 in RE (ARE THEY ALL DIIFFERENT. If yes, theory: Arashi is doing less singles, so they do more per single. There is no way my theory is wrong.

This is the OP for Lucky 7, which sounds fine SO FAR. I should dl the drama so I can hear it. In fact I'm doing so as soon as I figure which comm I should head to :D

ALSO GUYS GUYS I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR THIS. SHO AND OOSHIMA YUUKO STAR IN A MINIDRAMA!

1) ARASHI x AKB
2) OOSHIMA YUUKO
3) SAKURAI SHO.

I CANNOT. I AM SUPER FUCKING EXCITED. And more for Yuuko then Sho because she is my AKB bias. This could only get better if it were a LARGER AKBxARASHI collab. THEY NEVER EVER TURN UP TOGETHER I AM SO PLEASED.

ALSO: HnA VIP ROOM WITH OOSHIMA YUUKO. NOW. I WANT HER TO MEET AIBA THEY WOULD BE AMAZING. I JUST. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH FUCKING EXCITE :D :D♥

Also omg I am so excited by this! It's a war drama! Usually I don't like war dramas, but after Letters I pretty much changed my mind and if this portrays the painful sad part of the war I AM GOING TO SINK MYSELF INTO THIS. WHY IS SHO NOT AN ENGLISH TEACHER? I would die to have him pick on students' pronunciations. as;ldkjf;alkjas. Hnnnngggg. BUT YUUKO IS ONE. WELL :D PERFECTION. ALSO LOL SHO'S HAIR. This is not the year for your hair, Sakurai.

AND THEIR SCHEDULES. I can't. This is crazy. How much did they pay for this drama? For the cast and the set alone... wow fuck. kasdj;flakj. I hope this reaps cash. Also I'm glad Yuuko's actually playing a larger role in this. Remember when Nino and Inoue Mao were in a drama SP together as a married couple and I was REALLY FUCKING EXCITED and then it turned out they barely had scenes together? Yea. Still haven't watched it though oops.

ALSO AMAZING POST. Definitely going to watch Strawberry Night! I was unaware Takeuchi was in it. And people say they like Renai Neet, so I may catch that too. SO THIS SEASON: Lucky 7, Strawberry Night, Renai Neet. :D Manageable.

GUYS NINKI IS EXCITING THIS WEEK. Why is B1A4 debuting here? BUT KUU. GALILEO GALILEI! Also wow, SKE is gonna reap cash. I'm impressed. Why haven't I heard KHJ's Japanese releases, BLASPHEMY. After School is releasing too. Where's Japanese BOY? WHY AM I SO OUT ): Also Yuya isn't doing well, it seems. D:

HEY HEY. AKB GETS CASH. I wish they would tell me how much the 48 family as a whole gets. Maybe this year, since the rest of the family is just recently getting popular. Google tells me AKB earned 264 million SGD. Cue me wanting the cash. Arashi's really fucking rich too. They could probably stop releasing albums and just release DVDs. DVDs are super ex and are super popular amongst Arashi fans (we know where their effort's at and we love them a lot and COULD YOU PUT IN THEIR BIRTHDAY SCENES IT WOULD SELL MORE) so they're more money-making, but cost is obvsly quite high. THEN AGAIN YOU REALISE FANS PAY FOR THE CONCERTS TOO. Ohhhh money.

Lolol love how Avex is considered an indies record label just because it's not in the overseas Big 3 (Sony Universal Warner). Didn't know Sony earned that much! I thought Avex got more tbh, then again Avex has few but successful artists, Sony has many but average artists (although they house sales gems like YUI as well). Just saying, if Arashi contributed to 5.1% of the overall industry, this means Jstorm took up at least 5.3% of the industry o.o And King Records as well. Wooow. (Guess who reads up a lot on the music industry in Japan? Yea. Me.)

LOLOL HILARIOUS RUMOUR. 1) DISCUSSIONS OF A GANTZ 3, 2) NINO AND MATSUKEN HATE EACH OTHER'S GUTS!!! Okay firstly, IF THERE'S A GANTZ 3, PLEASE SUCK ALL MY MONEY. HAVE IT ALL. HERE. JUST. TAKE ALL THE CASH. And secondly, I think the scary thing about Matsuken-Nino is that if they really hate each other, and they chose not to show it, NO ONE WOULD KNOW. Basically because they're both used to the industry, and both incredibly good actors. But I don't believe it really. CYZO. Also can you imagine, if Nino and Matsuken REALLY HATED EACH OTHER and everything was just a tease for the fans. IMAGINE. If behind all their on-screen cake-giving and shirt-with-other's-face-wearing they were all scowly and REALLY FUCKING MAD. A+++. So high school ide.

OH HEY JIN IS NUMBER ONE BUT NO ONE REALLY CARES HE'S DATING KUROKI MEISA!!!!! Okay no, let me chill. There is a competition which could get me tickets to New York and HIS CONCERT and I AM DYING TO GO omg BACKSTAGE PASSES but I can't do videos and it's probably during term but omgggg ;_;

TOKYO DISNEYLAND HOW CUUUUTE. But seriously omg I'D DIE IF THEY'RE DATING their babies would be gorgeous ;_; AND LOLOL JIMUSHO SAYS NO BUT HAY PHOTOS. Also that's a fuck of a claim, that Meisa's using it to promote her movie! YOU DON'T EXCLAIM TRADE SECRETS IN THE OPEN, JIMUSHO. But HAYYYY PHOTOS. HAHAHAHHAA. Anyway if they're together, YAY I HOPE THEIR RESPECTIVE AGENCIES DON'T GET IN THE WAY OF THEIR RELATIONSHIPS AND THEY ARE HAPPY TOGETHER, if not I HOPE THEY ARE HAPPY OTHERWISE (:

(Anyway js I was thinking if they really were just friends why doesn't Jimusho just claim that, not like they haven't done it before, then I thought of Ninozomi and was like, hey Nino's 28, he can make his own decisions, what if Jimusho was seriously serious and was going to let them date until they saw the backlash that happened through concert goods, social networking, and fandom clashes, and pulled back? Because that would suck. Like fuck. I mean. Arashi's almost 50% over 30, in fact after Aiba's birthday this year more than half of them would be 30. Don't let them not date, damn it. I don't understand fans, the bulk of Arashi fans are known to be MARRIED HOUSEWIVES, can't you let an idol go? Gdi.)

Rumour that Avex could bring DB5K BACK!
No one believes it tbh. I mean. At this point of time sometimes even the 5 themselves seem... estranged. And Avex? Seriously? Avex would do it, of course, as long as cash is involved Avex is in. (At this point of time I admit that Avex is a formidable force, they're incredibly good at marketing, but most of what they do is for money and they are not extremely talented at covering up their tracks. However I don't think they're evil - they're just a business.) But I don't think it's possible as of now, and if anyone gets them to comeback as 5, it's SM.

Guys guys this poll is hilarious. Seriously? The moment I saw SCANDAL I was like WELL PERHAPS NOT. Lolol seriously. I was just. Never mind. As much as I love some of them, they don't fit the titles ==

OH HEY FAVOURITE FEMALES. I AM SURPRISED BY NAKAGAWA SHOKO. And tbh Sasaki Nozomi, didn't you just lose half your fans or sth? It was women some more o.o She was in some MOST HATED thing HAHA. Obviously rhe people of Japan have flawless taste tbh. People I didn't expect like Amami Yuki! And Nakashima! Also OOSHIMA IS REIGNING QUEEN OH YEA. I don't get the talents to avoid list tho, WHAT'S WRONG WITH KUU ): I get Ueno Juri, but some of them. Matsushima Nanako? Miyazaki Aoi? Lolol why is Eita there. AND ASHIDA MANA!? I DON'T UNDERSTAND ):

Hey guys Concert special in remembrance of Tohoku! 6 hours for 10 artists is a lot though o.o But yea. MAY WATCH.

AKB48 Give Me Five SENBATSU GUYS GUYS THEY'RE A GIRL BAND! PLAYING. INSTRUMENTS. AHHHHHHHHHH. BABY BLOSSOM. Guys guys YUUKO CAN PLAY BASS ;_; PERFECT. Omg some of the instruments tho, looool. And gosh Yuuko looks flawfree in the covers, THOSE STOCKINGS. Perfection. Some instruments are really... odd lol. Also there are tons of AKB girls who can play instruments, they're just irrelevant. Oh sigh ):

In drama news, Proposal Daisuken will be remade by China and Korea. I NEED TO WATCH. PRODAI. OOPS.

Also, a cool joint East Asian movie, the plot is cliched but I LOVE IT they could do suspense well!

And not really news but I want to say Mayuyu's middle-age disguise? CONVINCING.

On manga. Quite an interesting read. I don't have much of an opinion on it - I'm too out of the scene to be able to make an honest, informed comment on it - but still. Rather interesting. I hope manga survives, though, it deserves to.

And on SOPA, kinda relevant to the manga thing? But not really, oops. But welll. I have nothing to say about SOPA anymore, it seems.

PVs~

I JUST SPENT LIKE. AN HOUR FINDING KUU'S PVs. DAMN. Japan you be deletin'.

Sun Burns Down - Akanishi Jin
CAN'T SAY I'M EXPECTING MUCH. Hope FF holds I have 30 PVs open. Omg lol the beat. It's not bad though. IS JIN A BURGLAR I HOPE HE IS. OH OH A FEDORA? Okay no. Beanie but with GLASSES, NOT SUNGLASSES. Oh gosh vast improvement, it's hot. YES JIN IS A BURGLAR THIS IS PERFECT HAHA. No wonder he's wearing glasses. LOL "MAKE LOVE UNTIL THE SUN BURNS DOWN". Why can't Jin dance in the mirrored room instead of bopping his head. OMG HE GOT RID OF THE GLASSES AND PUT ON A FEDORA, omg Jin. SHIT HE JUST. DID A 90DEGREE BACKWARD BOW WELL FUCK JIN. LOL WHY ARE THERE. IDK THE EGYPTIAN MUMMY THING NEXT TO HIM. Lyrically this is kinda bad haha but omg I WANT TO DANCE. Okay the girl finally has some interaction with him. OH. The powder which reveals lasers. OH HE'S DANCING. Sort of. LOL THAT. THAT. OH GOSH JIN. So cute. OMG HE JUST. GOT LET ALONE AND THE LASERS GOT TRIPPED HAHA. The PV doesn't seem... American to me? Like the feel. BUT HEY GUYS I SAW HIS GLORIOUS, GLORIOUS FACE. I like the PV better than Test Drive, kind of, but less scene-switchiness would be good. Also when I saw this I thought it was fake and loled but if he really said it... well there's a clearer translation below but YEA. I thought it was rather rude.

KODA KUMI SPAM STARTS NOW.

Lay Down
Omg LOL. Not a style I appreciate. The glow-in-the-dark makeup is trippy as fuck but really cool. OKAY I AM BOPPING THOUGH. DOES SHE POLE DANCE I HOPE SHE DOES. Ahh okay SINGING. Omg Kuu's nails, FOREVER. Okay I KIND OF LIKE THIS. SHE'S SUCH A SEXY BITCH. No other words to describe her. But I LOVE HER HAIR HERE. CROWD-SURFING. Omg even her nails glow in the dark. OKAY ALTHOUGH THIS ISN'T VERY WOW AND THE ENGLISH LYRICS ARE GENERIC AND NONSENSICAL, I KINDA LIKE THIS. Omg her nails though. Omg those glow in the dark balls are HER HAIR. Her eyeliner is so thick but she looks amnazing with it. OH KUU.

Everyday
HAHA THIS IS SO FUN AND CUTE COMPARED TO LAY DOWN. Omg HER HAIR. Whats the actual length of her hair? ALSO SCHOOLBOY OUTFIT. OMG THIS IS ADORABLE. It's a green screen PV, but it's cute and well done! This is such a stark contrast lol. AND SO CUTE. She's so cuuuute. OH GOSH FAKE THUNDERSTORMS. I like it! MAYBE I LIKE THE PV. IDK. IT'S SUPER CUTE. Lol Kuu's nails, EVEN WHEN IN SCHOOLBOY OUTFITS. I am beginning to realise that Kuu is a bias, even if I'm not like WOW OBSESSED with her. This is a good life decision :D Except that Kuu is a workaholic lol I'm going to have to catch up.

No Mans Land
I HAVE HIGH HOPES FOR THIS PV! The preview pics for it looked amazingggg. lkasdjlf;kajflakjdfa. Barren dystopia land. Oh gosh Kuu's outfit. And the song! WELL FUCK BUT I LIKE THIS. Kuu has a habit of repeating her words in a song, which I don't really like. Omg the hoarse whispering rap. Hot. HAHA HER NAILS. Kuu's English is surprisingly good for a Japanese tbh. Omg shit I love this it's so dramatic and angry. Dramatic music is like, MY FAVOURITE. Omg the broken compass. The visual is amazing though. She's so angry! AND YET SO PRETTY. Omg asteroids in the background. Omg. This is amazing. OMG DID KUU SUDDENLY MASTER TELEKINESIS. The "everybody put your hands like this" moment, her actions and the camerawork was boring. BUT OMG. The sudden transformation, and rainbow flares, PERFECTION.. Omg her outfit is AMAZING. I haven't even talked about her shoes yet which are AMAZINGGGG. The contrast between the bright and dark scenes are genuinely stark. I LIKE THIS.

All For You
Apparently she wrote this with FAN LETTERS. Amazing woman. Lolol I am recognising Kuu by her nails rn. I love this kind of PV! The in-the-studio-seemingly-raw kind :D OH IT IS RAW. The sound, it isn't cleaned up yet. PERFECTION. Can I have Kuu's fashion sense please guys she looks amazinggg. Her voice always surprises me, even though I know she's vocally impressive. She's not even trying that hard to work the camera and I am ENAMOURED. I don't know how Kuu works excessive eye makeup the way she does seriously, I know it's excessive but she looks SO GOOD. She genuinely looks like a star ♥ Omg I just. Found out this PV is 10min long HAHAHA. I get the feeling she's really into this song. AND HER SMILE IS SO PERFECT AND WIDE how did she get that FACE. Omg she really smiles with her eyes and her whole BODY. Aww that was a cute end :D Omg is that a message? I think the studio version is playing in the background. And Kuu's so appreciative of her staff I just. Omg WHAT'S SCROLLING IS FAN LETTERS SO CUTE. Omg I would die if a fan letter of mine got shown in this. DIE. This is adorable. ;u; I wonder: is there an actual studio version of this which doesn't sound so raw?

Love Technique
Lolol another cutesy one. HAHA IT'S SUPER CUTE OMG. Kuu's heels are all so steep I can't. HAHA SO CUTE. OMG SHE'S. A TEACHEROF THE LOVE TECHNIQUE IDE. HAHA. I don't like stuff like this but still! Point 1 is APOLOGISE BEFORE. Omg the chorus is just LOVE TECHNIQUE x 20 or sth. But omg the PV is seriously fucking ADORABLE. Why does she look amazing in anything from formal where to casual wear to fetish wear ide. Point 2 is BECOME A BIG BABY. HAHAHA point 1 was acceptable but WHAT IS POINT 2, EVEN. Omg this is so adorable though. HAHA SHE'S SUCH A KID WITH HER BOYFRIEND. SO CUTE.

BRAVE
I HAVE HIGH HOPES FOR THIS AS WELL it looks good :D I think I'm just attracted to muted colours. Omg the piano though. AND BACKWARD-MOVING CLOCKS. Actually just fluctuating clocks. I GET THE FEELING I'VE WATCHED THIS. Omg this is gorgeous and somewhat surreal. The clocks theme is fantastic. I like this song (: It's a ballad, but it's PERFECT. Omg they should have made the fountain's water go backwards. Her hair in this is gorgeous as well gosh can I have her stylist. Her emotive PVs are all nice to watch honestly. Actually most of her PVs are nice to watch, only Lay Down has been unimpressive but even then it was good. Lolol the headache was a bit too much. I need to search up lyrics for this. Omg she just o.o got on her knees. THE TREE. IS A SAKURA TREE. Awww ;_; How does she dare to touch her face with those nails? Even if you don't worry for the face you'd worry for the nails, right? Haha she's so dramatic. Omg the clocks all work now! Ahhh. Omg THERE IS A SINGLE SAKURA (: I love this PV.

You Are Not Alone (Acoustic)
Another ballady-type? ... Okay no? Okay I'm confused there's this crazy strong beat which reminds me of like, No More Pain, but acoustic guitar. OKAY HAHA it's a fun song, not really rocky nor ballady. Just bubbly. Omg idek what she's wearing but I WANT IT. Her hair is flawless and so longgg. OMG HER HAIR IS DIPDYED BLUE. (IF YOU CAN CALL DYING HALF THE HAIR 'DIPPING'.) And I love that her fans sing the first few words of the chorus with her! Or rather, THE WHOLE SONG, just that they practically fanchant those lines. This is the kind of, concert PV things. She's not at all looking at the camera, because she's singing to the audience and she's SO INTO IT. Omg her mike lol it's so blinged out. I love the feel of this song, it's lightly lifting and full of happiness. Oh Kuu. I just appluaded because I had the impression it was live LOLOL FOREVER DO THIS.

Escalate
I have high hopes for this as well! AND THERE IS A CHESS SCENE. Omg her hair. IN EVERY SVENE. I'm taken to this. This is the Kuu I know best tbh. Omg her makeup is this mad combi of Marilyn Monroe and gaga in one scene, and in another it's just. Idek CRAZINESS. Something Dara would dear tbh. Combine CL and Dara, maybe. I love the chess analogy omg. Her lashes! The mascara is BLONDE. I quite like this! The song I like better than Lay Down, and the PV too tbh but the outfits in this are questionable LOL. Omg I can't stand her makeup I LOVE IT.

Love Me Back (Album Version)
SPENT REALLY FUCKING LONG LOOKING FOR THIS. Omg is Kuu. LOL KNIVES. Is this a female mafia thing. OMG I THINK IT IS. Omg. Flawfree. OH NO. THEY ARE THE POLICE. LOL. Omg the Love Me Back logo is amazing. Kuu and her BAMF police squad. I love her eyeshadow here omg it matches her hair and her outfit so well. HAHAHA THE RUBBER DUCK. DIAMONDS, AND SAPPHIRE, AND YOU, OH MY! I can't stand her voice in this it hitches so perfectly. LOLOL THE PRISON GROPING SCENE. All those ALMOST-THERE HANDS. Is this different from the single version, I HAVE THE FEELING IT IS AND I LIKE THIS BETTER. Omg the almost-stabbing scene, SCARY. NOW THERE ARE NURSES. NOW SHE'S A NURSE. Lolol Kuu. OH SHE. KILLED THE NURSES OR STH. Omg is the guy. In. WELL. The most fetishiest of fetishy PVs, honestly LOL.

Slow feat. Omarion
PEOPLE ON ARAMA SAY THIS IS GOOD. Ahhh more drama :D OMG THIS IS SO SWEET. MARRIAGE. Oh it's. A dramatic love song, for lack of a better description. Why does EVERY eyeshadow colour work on her? Oh wow fuck Omarion's shoes are polished. I love Kuu's hat! And I like this. The PV. The chorus sets in and everyone but Omarion is in slow-mo. I'm glad Kuu isn't overshadowed by the artist she's featuring. The autotune is almost upsetting but given the context - slowing down time in a dystopia - it's perfect. I like this song gosh. Omarion rapping. I don't... really like his flow. Well. It's match with the instrumental isn't amazing sooo. I always wonder how Kuu manages with her English-speaking artists. They're sweet together though! Definitely works. APOCALYPTIC ENDING. It is great.

BOOM BOOM BOYS
LOLOL THIS. REMINDS ME OF AVRIL A LITTLE, THE START OF THE PV. Omg I can't stand her blue hair it looks kind of amazing. LOL WHAT DID THEY JUST. REVERSE A SPACE SHUTTLE TAKE OFF. Oh Kuu is so good at being the flirtatious promiscuous bitch in the club. HAHA THEY JUST. OVER-CENSORED HER FLIPPING OFF AT THE GUY WHO PAID HER ZERO NOTICE. There's. A LOT IN THIS PV IT DOESN'T NECESSAILY MAKE SENSE LIKE BUNNIES LOL. Omg what they're clowns in a toilet? ARE WE SEEING THINGS OVERHUNG KUU IS SEEING THAT MAKES MORE SENSE. Or maybe just. High Kuu. Nothing makes sense. OH. SHE GOT THE GUY HAHAHA. Omg the thing she put to her temple is a USB DRIVE. SHE JUST PUT IT TO THE GU'S HEAD. I'M SO CONFUSED LOL. When she wants to look like she's having fun I get the feeling SHE REALLY DOES. She's a little like Aiba in the sense that they both smile really easily and have fun! AND OMG THERE IS A USB HUB IN HER TEMPLE this is perfect.

SO NICE feat. MR. BLISTAH
... who the fuck? OMG IT'S THE PV HER AMAZING COVERS COME FROM. Omg the outfits, the set, HER HAIR, the accessories, they're all ridiculous. Also it's sexy. Oh Kuu. Someone once told me being a Geisha's all about being ridiculously seductive while exposing NONE OF YOUR SKIN. Well. Although she's not in geisha wear, just a really over-adorned kimono. It's revealing though. Oh Kuu. Eeeee. Mr. Blistah doesn't turn up at all! He just raps. Her dancing in this is awk though lol the huge belt doesn't help her. Oh gosh Kuu is good at what she does. This was. Good :D

VIP feat. T-PAIN.
IDEK WHY. OH. FUCK. THIS WAS THE SONG SHE PERFORMED AT MAMA! Omg I am irrationally excited now. HAHAHA. Lolol is T-PAIN that. Autotuned thing in the bg. Oh Kuu. Ohhhhh Kuu. Wait, people were saying Jpop thrives off cuteness again? UMMM. Lol some chick in the video was wearing this ridiculous dress idek how to describe it but it was super short fringe and transparent besides LOL. Oh okay I hear T-PAIN rapping. I love how they manage to make the most innoucous things sexy. Omg Kuu's bitch face is flawless. KUU IS FLAWLESS. Omg her FACE. FLAWLESS ENDING TBH. TRULY FLAWLESS OH GOSH.

Ai wo Tomenaide
I think I've seen this! I've heard it at the very least. I have this impression of it but then again Ai wo Tomenaide is like the name of every other Japanese song. Kuu's PVs are seriously aesthetically appealing. Even madeup to look pale and like she's just been crying she looks gorgeous. Omg her bone structure is gorgeous not just in her face! But like, her shoulders and shoulderblades and clavicles. Omg she has almost normal nails for once! Just terrible lengthened LOL. Okay now I can't stop staring at her bones haha her jawline's really pretty too. But it's a pretty song! And the male model must be really awk he's just not moving while she kinda devours him. And flames! Kuu is so into this. She does emoting in music well, but in her PVs she gets a bit exaggerated. O: HER BOYFRIEND IS FAIRY DUST. Or something haha. She's so sad ): I think she kinda ruins it by looking in the camera when she's all over her lover. But the clinginess suits. Oh Kuu ):

IN THE AIR
15TH HAHAHAHA. Omg. AWW I thought it was gonna be a sweet ballad but it's a cheery thing! HAHA. I feel mildly energised. (Good thing too omg this is a lot of PVs HAHA.) Omg I love this. And I always wanted one o those sweater things she wears there! THE CHORUS IS SO LIFTY. But enough beat for someone to be able to dance to it still. DOMESTIC KUUUU. She's so cute in this! And well I wanted to say un-star-like but with that makeup there's no way she can look as such, just! Her makeup always puts a lot of focus on her eyes and in this one the rest of her face has the bare look so it really stands out! I tink she's also wearing super circle lenses in this or sth her eyes are super innocent in this! AWWW SO CUTE. Omg the last chorus is perfect, they way they enter into it! SHE'S SO HAPPY AND IN LOVE HERE. SO CUUUTE.

KO-SO-KO-SO
Omg there are subs in the vid I have it's Viet and distracting LOL. Also, lesbian sex. I love how Kuu doesn't discriminate. She picks out random members of the audience to give lap dances to seriously LOL. The song's not bad! It's kind of sexy but not too much. It has a beat and melody! Ahhh love the bridge! Oh Kuu. She's so alluring I can't even. Her faaaaace. And the "ko-so-ko-so-to" thing is super catchy omg. HAHA SHE ENDED WITH "IT'S NOT OVER" ♥

Poppin' Love Cocktail
HAHA I LIKE THIS SOMEHOW. With the rapping guy. OMG FUCK THIS IS SO FUN. Omg she looks flawfree and SO STAR-LIKE. HAHA THE PV IS KINDA LAME THOUGH AND SO. SO. IDK. Who's the rapper guy HAHA. SHE'S DRIVING WITHOUT HANDS HAHAHA. THE PV IS SO LULZY HAHA. Omg the scenes with the typography!!! THEY ARE NOW. ON A TRAIN. I CAN'T. And Kuu has pink extensions! HAHA, THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS. HAHA "BABY GIRL WITH YOUR LIPS SO FLY" THIS IS. SO COMMON. BUT HE SAID HIS LIPS POP LIKE POPCORN WHEN HE THINKS OF HER OR STH IDEK WHO IS THIS RAPPER. HAHA SHE JUST PUSHED HIM INTO THE OCEAN I CANNOT. THIS IS SO CUTE. HAHAHA THEY'RE LIKE. THE AKIBA-KEI COUPLE OF MADNESS. SHE'S SITTING ON THE EDGE OF HER CONVERTIBLE NOW I CAN'T. HAHAHA. HAHAHA FUCK. HAHA THE RAP IS SO WEIRD. Omg I'm crazy but her long-sleeved mesh (? NOT MESH?) crop top is kinda AMAZING. I AM KINDA. IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG LOL. The whoa-ing at the end, SUPER FUN. OKAY THE RAPPER IS TEEDA.

OKAY OKAY this is a full album or something so PICKING FAVES: No Mans Land, So Nice, and Poppin' Love Cocktail 'cos I feel like I need to have one in each genre (: I don't have a ballad though but I really, really like Brave :D There wasn't anything I was severely disappointed with! ACTUALLY, NOTHING I WAS DISAPPOINTED WITH AT ALL REALLY. So yea! GOOD ALBUM :D :D

OKAY WAS GONNA WATCH MY LIKE... 17 OTHER PVs (LOL SAME NUMBER) BUT IT'S KINDA. EARLY IN THE MORNING. So I'll do that tomorrow, FINALLY clear my fandom stuff to catch up on, then I shall watch dramas and wait apprehensively for school to start :D

(OOPS FORGOT TO BLOG THIS I watched a bunch of stuff between fandomming and collecting Kuu PVs)

UVERworld covered MISIA! Tsutsumi Komu You ni.... I'm listening to the original now, and it's very cool and poppy, kinda R&Bish, it's not bad! HAHA I CAN'T SEE UVER DOING THIS THOUGH. Probably just a ~rendition~.

OKAY LISTENING TO THE COVER NOW. Omg that falsetto is giving me goosebumps. Definitely a rendition. OH LOL this is so cute. Haha they work the style! Takuya and whoaing never gets old. Okay I can hear the original in it but it's kind of slowed down and less dancey here. Something I expect to hear at some snazzy jazz club. Takuya shouldn't scream for those notes though. The chorus is kinda messy, but the instrumentals are greeeat. Omg that guitar thing, idek what it is but it was smooth. I love UVERworld, really. In act I'm somewhat crazy over them lol ♥ It sounds good though! Honest. Omg I thought Takuya was going to rap. Haha he's just going "NONONONONONOOOOOO" rn. His voice is good but he should keep it in range or open it more (he does sound a bit strained now that I'm focussing).

But it was good :D I love them ♥

OMG GUYS GUYS SMAP PERFORMED FOR THIS CNY SPECIAL ON DRAGON TV AND THEY SANG YOZORA NO MUKOU IN CHINESE! GUYS. I'M GOING TO CRY. Omg I LOVE THIS. Omg the lyrics. KIMUTAKU IS ON GUITAR. Kimutaku never fails to be perfect. I can't understand their lyrics without the subs though but omg the effort ;_; Omg I love the lyrics though they just have really bad pronunciation but omg I'M SO TOUCHED AND I'M NOT EVEN PART OF THE AUDIENCE. Kimutaku on GUITAR.

SMAP is so great honestly. Fucking legends. Not that great musically, but SO MUCH FUN TO WATCH. Omg if I made an idol group I'd make all the idols sit down and watch SMAP for 3 days straight and be like, "THIS IS YOUR LESSON ON STAGE PRESENCE."

OMG SEKAI HITOTSU DAKE NO HANA IN CHINESEEE. WITH A BUNCH OF. OTHER PEOPLE HAHAHAHA. BUT OMG. I get so touched when idols do this! Like it's ONE PERFORMANCE (or maybe a few if it's a concert) but they put in the effort to learn this! Oh Nakai. Omg I don't understand the lyrics they're singing. As in I'm reading it my Chinese is THAT bad. Omg omg Kusanagi's Chinese is FLAWLESS. Okay not really but I can somewhat understand him! Omg HAHA LULZY JAPANESE BALLAD DANCING. Idols will never escape from this. It's easy to see why Sekai ni Hitotsu Dake no Hana is one of the top-selling Japanese singles of all time (despite its release when physical sales were dropping too!), I heard it and got instantly attached to SMAP. Goro and Shingo's Japanese aren't as good, but still! It's the effort that counts for such performances (: I wonder if they performed this for a concert or something.

Omg Kalafina was in Singapore for a concert!? FUCK, WHY DID I NOT KNOW. They are so good omg. So much harmony.

2012-01-23T07:46:00.000-08:00

@pearl: I think in SIA we use 'London' instead of 'Lima' because of the malay thing! AND WELL ACTUALLY. I THOUGHT YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT ANOTHER MANGA AND I WAS GOING TO SAY YES I DID BUT APPARENTLY NOT. Is it good tho! I don't read manga much anymore ):

SO. Chinese New Year. 除夕 was spent at my paternal side, with... Idk we call it li peh in Hokkien, is he my 二舅 or something? OOPS. -BAD AT CHINESE- But anyway yea it was a rather... small affair. Somehow. Also my brother and I were awk ttm and we kind of rushed it. Went to my grandmother's house later, as always, and ate MORE HAHA. It's an us thing, we always eat a little with my paternal family and go back and be trash cans for my grandmother HAHA. But yea (:

初一, 拜年 at my paternal end. It was... boring oops. And I still can't recognise half of them! And we have like. Zero convergent interests :/ Welllll. Plus somehow very few people arrived this year? It was. Strange :/ Went to maternal side at the end of the day because I LIVE 6 FLOORS ABOVE MY GRANDMOTHER and yeaa. Watched a lot of stuff! My day was saturated with 古天乐 lololol :D

SO YEA. Chinese New Year in a nutshell: KINDA BORING.

Can't wait for tomorrow lol the only 拜年ing I'm gonna be doing is at my grandmother's HAHA there is also going to be poker cards involved :D And my grandmother will force us to clear CNY treats as per usual HAHAHA yep (: I shall be happy!

GOSH haven't fandommed in a while AGAIN HAHA gonna do it all today! Um I didn't 守岁 properly yesterday because I was REALLY FUCKING TIRED but yeaaa. Also I'm trying to figure out how to handle the MegaUpload thing because fandom's really taken a blow and we are, understandably, all afraid to upload now :/

Oh fuck some of the most comprehensive indexes just. Locked. And for good reason, too, but this is distressing as a fan :/ Honestly? It was already hard enough. Sigh.

BUT FOR NOW I WILL TUMBLR. Since SOPA IS DEAD. HAHAHAHHAHAA.

Omg I really can't with Niji, whenever I see something that reminds me of it - Nino in front of that piano, pinstripe vest over white T-shirt, red pants, necktie loose around his neck, eyes focussed on the piano behind the glasses, fingers dancing across the keyboard smooth yet jerky - I really just stop and wait for my heart to melt into a warm puddle and start to cry. It's almost instant. Niji? Cry. Awash with emotions. "好きだよ"　一言よ。 ('一言よ' has been in my MSN PM since I first found the lyrics to Niji, and no matter how much I adjust the rest of it '一言よ' stays.) I don't know if it's me that's impossible or Ninomiya fucking Kazunari.

I just. The way his shoulders are scrunched together in the first photo! His hnch shows, but not too pronounced to draw attention, just enough to make him look curled up and slightly insecure. And in spite of my obsession with Niji pianos (STILL FOREVER WANT CR40 CRYSTAL PIANO) I've never seen this one! This reminds me of the one he played Shougai Nani ga Atte mo Aisuru Hito e on, but I can't find the video where he played it oops. It looks like a SUITCASE tho, very classy.

Just, guh. Nino ;_; You know at a certain point of time I realised that when faced with such perfection my normal reaction would be ENVY because I am a bitch like that, but when it's Nino it's just admiration and I rarely think "WHY CAN'T I BE HIM", just "oh god HOW DO YOU EXIST" and arguably, that's because he's not the most talented person I could think of, but given his talents - he's a great lyricist, composer, song arranger, he plays piano, guitar, electric drums, he acts, he sings/dances (ALBEIT NOT AMAZINGLY) and does standing backflips (STANDING BACKFLIPS. My idol: 1, yours: NONE. So attractive ide), he's rich and situationally aware and why do I even like this person? HE IS FAR TOO PERFECT. Earth will implode from his existence. That was an incredibly long sentence, just to say. But gosh ): Ninoooo.

LET ME TALK ABOUT SHO FOR A MOMENT LOL. This is just a gorgeous shot. Look at them! All casual and leaning on fences and it is just dead pretty, okay? Eeee. ♥

Another gorgeous photo, an edit! The colours, so bright, and that is either a chapteh or a snitch, YOU CANNOT UNCONVINCE ME. He looks gorgeous here. Oh Sho. Is this because it's your month? Because you look more amazing by day.

ALSO I REALLY WANT TO JUST WATCH T.A.B.O.O. LIVE should I fuck the "WATCH ALL THE NEW CONCERTS WITHOUT SPOILERS!!" idea because I've already been spoilered like FUCK and I REALLY WANT TO SEE IT and I'm never going to see the concert in its entirety because I just have no time? WELL. MY FANGIRL INSTINCTS SAY YES.

Also Sho on piano, the way his fingers run up (down?) the piano in YTM will never not get to me.

Oh my god people need to stop I SEE NIJI EVERYWHERE my heart is doing little flipflops everywhere shit I FEEL THE TEARS. Ninooooo. What is with the sudden Niji onslaught though? I love it, but I don't understand it.

LET'S TALK ABOUT ARASHI PLAYING THE UMBRELLA GAME. From first look I knew Nino was going to win, it was instant! (Js: the strain of his tiny hand fully stretched under the umbrella, caught by the camera's upward angle from behind him. Hnnnngggggg.) BUT GUYS, PERFECTION. Jun is soooo noisy. And Ohno is perfectly balanced, THEN SHO DROPS HIS UMBRELLA. JUN RUNS, AND AIBA SPINS IN CIRCLES, AND OHNO JUST BASICALLY AMUSEDLY CONCEDES DEFEAT. OH SHO. And Nino, WHAT, SERIOUSLY? HAHAHHAHAHA. PERFECTION ♥

More Sho fail: BALLOOOOOONS. Oh gosh so pretty! Why were they on Shounen Club! Why was I unaware! BUT WATCH, EVERYONE LETS GO AND SHO LAGS. OH GOSH. Super attracted to the way Kaze trio's hands linger in the air after they let go.

JUNBA WHY ARE YOU PERFECT?

Also I FUCKING LOVE THE FANS. I didn't even notice anything at first, then - OH SHIT. OHHHH SHIT. ♥

GANTZ. GANTZ GANTZ GANTZ.

Um, ATTRACTIVE. And it's not because he's in that suit, or because of the blood (blood's attractive? Since when, Hui Xian. OH YES SINCE IT WAS ON NINO BECAUSE HE WAS FIGHTING FUCKING ALIENS.) but because right after, he's helped up by the staff, and he GRINS. Pained and blood-covered and GRINNING. Oh gosh. Here's another, with a more crazed look - Nino I continue to love you - and to show that I'm not just attracted to his FACE but the juxtaposition between set elements and his expression, Matsuken being equally lovable amongst the carnage.

ALSO A NON-JUXTAPOSED ONE: HERE.

OKAY I AM DONE WITH ARASHI FOR TODAY gosh I love them like crazy though. ♥. ♥♥♥.

Oh fandom. ♥

I KEEP ON LYING ABOUT GETTING IN TOUCH WITH FANDOM but I will do it tomorrow for sure when all my 拜年ing is DONE.

Also Lucky 7 is still underway but... :/ Oh fandom. We're just all distressed atm.

2012-01-21T02:05:00.000-08:00

GUYS THIS IS POST ONE THOUSAND. IS THIS REAL LIFE? OR IS IT JUST FANTASY?

Also lolol guys MY TAGBOARD: SUNNY LIKES MY BLOG. A+

@pearl: ALPHA BRAVO CHARLIE DELTA ECHO FOXTROT GOLF HOTEL INDIA JULIET KILO LIMA MIKE NOVEMBER OSCAR PAPA QUEBEC ROMEO SIERRA TANGO UNIFORM VICTOR WHISKEY X-RAY YANKEE ZOO. :Dv

THERE WAS A DOUBLE RAINBOW TODAY AND I DIDN'T SEE IT. Damn, all the "IT'S SO INTENSE! DOUBLE RAINBOW ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE SKY!"s I could have gotten in! But alas. We weren't meant to be ): Guys do you know exactly how much I love rainbows? A lot. ): Oh well. WE WEREN'T FATED. The sky was gorgeous after the rainbow though. Truly 雨过天晴 ♥

SO WELL I haven't blogged OOPS. Okay I shall. Go and blog. While I French braid? After? DIFFICULT DECISIONS. OKAY FRENCH BRAIDING WHILE I WATCH YOUTUBE VIDEOS HAHA.

OKAY HAHA BACK.

GUYS SOPA IS DEAD! Apparently our new rage is ACTA but ACTA's been around for... a few YEARS and it's been signed last year. I don't think anyone plans to put it into effect. I think the internet's proved it point, and also its brilliance. GOOD JOB, EVERYONE :D

This made me cry btw ;_; The internet is my life.

THIS IS ACTUALLY A WEBSITE. I LOVE THE INTERNET.

20.01.2012

Flight!

Omg Chasing Cars is playing on WMP let me just. Appreciate the song first gosh. This is one of my favourite songs! Death Note fandom brought this to me, and yea. It's gorgeous.

OKAY FLIGHT. Flew with Raman, Golf. I can't really remember much but my checks this time were fine! My R/T was... off. As in, Raman prompts me a lot but it's not really that I need it, it's just that he reacts fast and I don't and I have lag time to think... :/ And like he will prompt me and I'll get confused la and sigh it's not like I CAN'T DO IT I can! :/ DISAPPOINTING.

Also I keep chasing instruments sigh he scolded me like shit for it but oh well. And area boundariesss. In my defense there was too thick a cloud cover to see the fucking ground so :/ Also I kept missing the r.p. I was supposed to roll out to. He kept telling me "roll out to that cloud" though and I was like UM. The sky's kinda. FULL OF CLOUDS.

There was one climbing turn I accidentally turned to 30deg AOB and was like FUCK 'cos my plane started stalling, the warning went off and I was panicking and the speed dropped like crazy to like 60kts and I just. PANICKED. But I somehow managed to unstall la I don't even. I just tried to get desired airspeed and roll back to 15deg AOB and it worked la, so thank god for that.

But. Yea.

ANYWAY went out with Zhang and Chew after that! Bought RJ school u, then went to Sim Lim. GOT LOST MULTIPLE TIMES, then bought MS word for the cheap, glorious price of 159SGD.

Went to eat after that, somehow everyone decided that despite split gums and ulcers, TOM YAM WAS A GOOD IDEA. HAHAHAHA split a serving for 2 for 3 people :D

THEN WE WENT TO PLAY POOL. I SUCK AT IT HAHAHA but I AM A MASTER AT JUMPING BALLS. Just that I jump balls I'm supposed to hit. WELL. FUCK. But definitely fun :D :D

21.02.2012

GROUNDSCHOOL. And that is basically all! But haha guys NO ONE ELSE I CAN REALLY TALK TO ABOUT FLYING and I've been like! Idk calmed down about stuff. Apparently Brian overheard that I was recommended for BFC2 (!!!) and there was assurance that scores don't matter as much as some of the PPL guys want us to think they do.

Went out as a course for lunch at Jalan Kayu, around half of us turned up? THE PLACES ARE EXORBITANT AND RIDICULOUS AND I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE LOL BUT YEA. It was hilarious HAHA and yea :D

(ALSO JS: SEXIST JOKES ARE NOT FUNNY.)

I like talking to my coursemates la. (: Sometimes I just want to bitch about my flights (and my hands and my eyes and my mouth and my brain and why can't I do checks right what's wrong with my R/Ting why is the weather so terrible) and there really isn't anyone I can do it with besides coursemates (:

GOING TO BACKTRACK (hahaha, backtrack runway) FANDOM NOW. Tmr reunion dinner at paternal side! Sigh. I shall bring Grotesque to read on the bus (:

ALSO WORRYING: I killed my Firefox and can't kill my tabs! Fuck ): Will shut down later.

ALSO. I LOOOOOVE ARASHI♥

HAHA KUU IS RELEASING 9 PVs. HOW WILL I CATCH UP~ Also this is stuff I saved from like 2 days ago so after this I have another 3 days of fandom to catch up with lololol. And I'm too tired to watch PVs so. I SHALL WATCH 10 TOMORROW.

ORICON. Still boring. Also, Kyary Pamyu Pamyu doesn't sell as well as her view counts would predict. CAN SOMEONE RELEVANT PLEASE RELEASE.

ALSO GUYS, BEST SELLERS OF ALL TIME. Basically? YES. Sometimes I forget that AKB's really young and Arashi is LITERALLY TWICE THEIR AGE. And all the super old idols! Oh gosh. And Japanese baaaaands. Jrock: FOREVER MY FAVOURITE. I really don't know a lot of solo males though!

ALSO 2011 MILLION SELLERS. Hey RIAJ, could you get RIAA to NOT SUPPORT ANY INTERNET-DOOMING ACTS? Thanks. Oh AKB. If not for them the singles portion would be empty. ALBUMS THOUGH. They're all the current big acts heh.

SLIGHTLY RELEVANT: MAGAZINE COVERS. Though I must say, it's much easier for 48 girls to cover more magazine covers than, say, ONE SINGLE ACTRESS. Props to Takei. (Girl's been popular as of late.) ALSO LOLOL @ 7. TRIPLE TIE.

RUMOURS YES YES! Or. CONFIRMED THINGS.

So turns out Ayu never registered her marriage in Japan, and she filed for divorce. Okay these events occured the other way round but WHAT. I'm sad for them, but their marriage was quick, they had the barrier of language and distance, and they're both famous and Ayu's a famous workaholic. Plus the earthquake really affected her, and she really put in her all to help her country and the people in Japan. ): It sucks though, but I wish them both the best and that they find true happiness, always.

NOT A RUMOUR: Taguchi went shopping. Lolol you know tbqh I don't think she's at fault at all. If I saw a famous celebrity, WHO CARES WHERE I WORK I'd tweet it too. BUTTTT I wouldn't say mean things about him (HAHA "I COULDN'T CARE LESS, BUT IF IT WERE KAME...") nor tell people his expenditure! Tsk. Also js haha if Johnny decides he doesn't like BEAMS after this... I know Arashi is a huge supporter of BEAMS and endorses their clothes rather frequently, they go on concert and spout the brand North South East West. A lot of other Johnnys wear BEAMS too, I think Kame does too? If Jimusho decides to pull support... Although it can be argued that most JE fans are female, but still. Celebrity endorsement counts in Japan.

OMG GUYS IDRC WHO NAKAI MAY BE DATING I WISH YOU HAPPINESS BRO and the rest of your bandmates too! YOU'RE ALL GOING INTO YOUR 40'S. FUCK BEING AN IDOL AND FUCK THE RULES, GO FORTH AND FIND HAPPINESS (if that is what you wish) ♥ (Being pro-queer and more conscious I'm just. "WHAT IF THEY DON'T WANT TO, WELL THAT'S OKAY TOO" all the time now)

LET'S TALK AKB. There's too much AKB news! I always end up making a tab group for them sigh.

ANYWAY Aki-P is great at handling reporters. He's answered these probably a million times though. ALTHOUGH I MUST SAY THEY ARE... SEXUAL I still do believe this is not the basis of their group, and that IT'S A SUMMER PV what do you expect them to be wearing winter coats? And I do believe there is artistry in their work. And REGARDLESS OF EVERYONE their lyrics do have meaning. Also the U18 girls do get less skin exposure, so. I feel like! I must portray a better side of them! Exploitation is exploitation though, I will give that, but I don't (or maybe I just don't want to) believe that the girls do it against their will. A lot of them do gravure too, so I don't think it is against their will, and so long as they are comfortable, I'm fine with it.

BUT HEYYY he's hiring songwriters. Hurray? :D? Kitarie's writing for Not Yet!

OH SHE'S FROM NMB but yes solo. I heard her name alll the time though.

And Nogizaka46 is apparently doing stuff. They covered Aitakatta! ORIGINAL IS BETTER. The flow is better, and it's so much more energetic and fun. But this is... odd to my ears :/ Idk sigh. MONEY. Akimoto is PACKING.

HEY GUYS A PLASTIC POLL LOLOL. Don't see this much in Japan! I place my bet on Ayu HAHA NO MATTER WHAT SERIOUSLY. But they all look mostly natural tbqh! I don't see how Kame got plastic at all lol I have this strong belief that the most Johnnies do is their teeth because of the junior system: you follow the idols so long you'd know instantly and they have no time to recover from the scars before they have to backdance another senpai. Acchan looks THE SAME. She's been looking really good lately though. AND YEA JUST, EVERYONG IN GENERAL.

OH HEY GYS DEATH BLOG IS BACK lolol she has such a sad rep. Also CAN I JUST SAY THAT NOODOL CAFE IS AMAZING omg but the only idol of mine I can perceive doing this is like, idk from AKB? OR NAKAGAWA SHOKO LOL. And tbqh to have a ONCE-IN-A-LIFETIME MEETING WITH MY IDOL? FOR HER TO PREPARE ME CUP NOODLES? 12SGD is fucking peanuts.

Also lol people want Hatsune Miku to be on the Olympics Opening Ceremony. ABOVE SUPER JUNIOR. I CAN'T. AND JB AND 1D AND GAGA. OKAY, SOMEONE IS BRINGING IT. I CAN'T THO I HOPE EVERYONE WAS TROLLING.

OH HEY some movie award. I HAVE BEEN THE LEAST UP TO DATE. SO IDEK WHAT'S EVERYTHING. I seriously don't recognise a single name. Although: INOUE MAO ♥ Hey I DESPERATELY WANTED TO WATCH THAT MOVIE okay will find it :D

EVERYONE I LOVE PLAYS IN HISTORICAL DRAMAS. Hui Xian gets crushed because no1curr about historical dramas outside Japan. Oh well ):

THAT BE ALL. I HAVE 8 PVs LOGGED LOL OKAY TOMORROW before 团圆饭 or maybe after! :D

2012-01-19T21:51:00.000-08:00

Horrible Haiku:
FISH FEELS FUCKING FRUSTRATED.
Alliteration!

Sigh. Fuck. Also I just found out MU just got taken down. In its entirety. Fuck. This is not right.

Sigh. Okay I was just upset at myself at first but now I'm pissed at the American government. Sigh.

I will just listen to a lot of 風の向こうへ until I get less pissed. It worked until it started storming and I found out MU was down!

雨の向こうへ　風の向こうへ
旅は続いていく
今　君の向こうへ　そして僕の向こうへ
道は続いていく

GO FISH.

Also just saying when I sing this I do the exact same hand motions they do in the PV.

雨にも風にも負けずにあの痛みや焦り!!! FUCK YES. I WILL DO THIS.

ARASHI BRINGS ME A LOT OF GLEE.

Also guys I really dislike HTML5 WHY YOU REMOVE LE <FONT> TAG HTML5? ;_;

Ahhh fuck I'm really upset now sigh. FRUSTRATED. I know I'm not smart but I'm not that stupid right, fuck fuck fuck. ):

Okay okay I'm just going to stop. And be emo for a moment and maybe get lunch before I meet Zhang and Chew ):

Lolol Anonymous is perfect.

1) Set up fake MU site
2) Publicise like mad on all social networking sites especially Twitter and tumblr where fandom lies
3) Everyone clicks on it
4) Use fake MU site to launch DDoS attacks on ALL THE GOVERNMENTS AND ENTERTAINMENT COMPANIES!!!
5) ???
6) PROFIT!!

Okay OVERUSE OF MEMES BUT NOW IS THE TIME GUYS. Also it somewhat shows the breadth of MU, as well as the INFLUENCE OF THE INTERNET. Ofc it's gonna get A HELL LOT OF PEOPLE IN TROUBLE, but good job Anon. You deserve a prize.

THE INTERNET WILL PREVAIL.

2012-01-19T01:42:00.000-08:00

My inner demon is... selfishness. Yes.

@pearl: HOW DO I EXPLAIN. Okay there's this thing known as the NATO spelling alphabet, and it's a way of saying words to mean letters. It's used in radio-telephony to express letters to Air Traffic Control, to prevent confusion between similar sounding letters (e.g. 'b' and 'd'), so for example you would say 'Alpha' instead of 'A', 'Bravo' instead of 'B', etc. Each aircraft has a registration, which in SYFC is YFX (where 'X' represents any letter). So the aircraft I flew that day was registered as YFH, and we call it Hotel (the 'Yankee Foxtrot' part is in every SYFC plane) :D

Guys guys what if I cultivated my habit of clapping while laughing from Arashi. Oh god. That's a big list. Let's name them.
- Nino's face-rubbing in annoyance
- Nino's stupid salute (ALL THE TIME NOW)
- CLAPPING WHILE LAUGHING FROM ALL OF THEM.
NOT REALLY A BIG LIST BUT WHY DO I GET MY SOCIAL CUES FROM JAPANESE MALE IDOLS.

Do I want to blog about school? No. Not really. Oops :D But me and Celine talked a lot about intellectual stuff today like morality and death and stuff like that :D And that branched from Louy's riddle on seagull soup! Guys if you want to be confused and then mildly mindfucked google 'seagull soup'. Please don't do it if you're easily squicked!

Also I am reconsidering the things I've chosen out for JC as well :/

I have a 2nd wave flight tomorrow, turning and I AM DONE WITH BFC1 FLIGHTS :D Super happy about that hehe. But yea okay LAST CHANCE TO BE IMPRESSIVE FOR BFC1 I definitely have to get >5 for this or I'm going down (down, in an earlier round, sugar we're goin' down swinging). Sigh ):

Oh god why did I take so long to hear Sugar, We're Goin' Down? It's one of their most famous songs. Their lyrics are so amazing I just.

I'm just a notch in your bedpost but you're just a line in a song.

Also I don't know if it's me of just Patrick I CAN NEVER TELL WHAT HE'S SAYING UNTIL I LOOK UP THE LYRICS. Well.

Also I just switched up how I save images. Right now it's:
<Member's initials>_<where it's from>)<DESCRIPTION>
THE DESCRIPTION IS SUPER VAGUE but yea for example this Nino picture is labeled N_concert)Niji. I wanted to use a slash in lieu of the close bracket but fucking Microsoft says I can't (actually I know why it's in the programming but well SHUT UP OKAY). I don't actually know which concert it's from otherwise I would label it.

My hair is also in a French braid! It is rather ugly though lol. Oops. Oh well. Unrelated: cleared out my Hotmail inbox LOL YES :D I am the happiest.

MY BLOGGING IS SO ALL OVER THE PLACE tbqh I have nothing to blog about OH YES MY NAZODI EP 1 JUST FINISHED FUCK YEAH. HAHAHAHA FINAL-FUCKING-LY.

I'm just sitting here headbanging to Fall Out Boy tbh. And worrying about SOPA because of the blackout and media coverage which extends to DW and LJ and even certain comms I follow. ONTD did a blackout too. I can't really help, but it's still worrying. Also guys I know too much about the internet but guess where my passion lies!

OH YES we were talking about ~passions~ today and well. I don't think we're too young to have passions, certainly not, but I don't think it's the end of the world if we haven't found something we're passionate about; we are still young after all. But we don't need to have a passion for, say, science or business to consider it as a career option; there are thousands of careers in the world, hundreds of which we've never even encountered or considered, and these could be where our passions lie. We're still young, of course, and there's still time (:

What's 'passion' and 'inspiration' in Japanese? In Chinese they're 激情 and 灵感 respectively (I had to Google them because I forgot...) and the same word in French, and I'm not good enough in Japanese to discern which of the many synonyms are the right one. ひらめき (for 'inspiration') rings a bell though, but I'm sure there's Kanji for it yet I don't know which is right.

Anyway I wanted to check the translations for it because I wanted to see the characters. I'm reading Grotesque, and the narrator's grandfather is obsessed with inspration. He talks about the ideographs and asks someone about the etymology, so I wanted to see it for myself. But I can't find it. Well. And somehow, '灵感' doesn't strike me the way 'inspiration' does. 灵感 feels like... like 灵感, you know? Oh language and its subtle nuances. But inspiration gives me this wholesome feeling, like it doesn't have to be an idea but a concept, feeling inspired doesn't necessitate the beginnings of a plan or an idea but can be just... the feeling of being inspired.

'Passion' was just something I found for the fun of it. And I just googled a bunch of other words HAHA I'm crazy but. Languages and etymology are fascinating, and etymology is exciting enough when it's in letters but even more so when it's in ideographs. (What's it called? AH YES phonographic VS logographic? Although English is still logographic. Hmmm.)

ALSO guys guys I am going to try to learn shorthand so I will be the MOST efficient note-taker in JC :D :D GOOD LUCK SELF. But I have a natural talent for learning characters fast so :D (Not characters as in Chinese/Kanji, but in replacement of the roman alphabet. I'm mostly useless when it comes to Asian languages. That goes for Korean too lol. Today we saw a person with a 'Sunny' nametag on her bag and Celine started giggling straight away and I was all, UMMMM.)

And isn't this just the most charming photo of Jun? The camera! That ridiculous friendship-bracelet-keychain! HIS EYES. The fringe all over them! PERFECT.

And I've already blogged about this but I CAN'T STAND THEM they are perfect oh Sho I hope you feel loved ♥ Also can I just talk about how this is Amazing-with-a-capital-'A' because Nino would hate this and GUESS WHO DID IT ANYWAY? With such glee on his face, and we all know why too: 1) Because he looooves his stupid bandmates 2) because he looooves his stupid bandmates in more ways than one and 3) because he really, really loves his stupid bandmates. ALSO JUN. Such a trolllll. Being my stickler self - THEIR SALUTES ARE HIDEOUS. WRONG HANDS, AIMIYA. But gosh ♥ Also LOLOLOL DEM LEGS Aiba stop being so long and OHNO OH OHNO I can't say anything more. AND SHO'S POWDER PINK SUIT ONLY MAKES THIS BETTER. Oh Arashi. I love you a lot.

OH FUCK THAT RE(MARK)ABLE REMIX Arashi you can dance also the vaguely military-inspired dance moves and suits Arashi could you press my buttons anymore? Answer: NO. JUST GIVE ME. EVERYTHING. Also juniors with the water drums: THE BEST. EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM IS PERFECT.

I AM TO LEAVE FOR DINNER NOW, LE BYE.

Well. We're just not meant for this.

Also I thought Dreamwidth blacked out and had a tiny tinge of terror in my heart THEN IT DISAPPEARED WHEN I SAW THE 'CONTINUE TO DREAMWIDTH' LOL. :D

Today when I left for dinner, the sun had barely set so Eastward the sky was midnight blue, but Westward it was a deep electric blue. My brother asked "Where's Venus?" and I looked up, Eastward, saw that it was still relatively bright for night, and said it wasn't out yet, but when my eyes cast Westward I saw the bright spot in the sky and we said, together, "there it is." It's called the Evening Star for a reason.

I caught Orion today too :D It took me a few minutes of real staring at the sky but I caught it. ♥

Also my brother said that when he was young, he thought the stars were the tears of the sun. That's poetic, even if he doesn't get it.

HEY FANDOM hahahaha and I was just talking about stars!

FMA FANS. TRANSMUTATION CIRCLE. The best. ALSO BEST JOKE TO FOLLOW (Y) PURE PERFECTION.

OMG IS THIS REAL LIFE.

FUCK I LOVE FUJITSU idc what this is my next laptop omg it's perfect I have truly never. Okay no longer buying a phone WAITING FOR THIS. Omg it's amazing. Perfect. FUCKING FUJITSU Lifebook was one of the first with the tablet PCs too! UGH. INNOVATION MAXIMUM.

PLEASE MAKE IT FUJITSU and don't make it expensive UGHHH I'm usually EVER THE CRITIC especially when it comes to technology but NOTHING ABOUT THAT DOESN'T APPEAL TO ME ;_;

GUYS guess what Nino can play besides Dragon Quest.

Oh yea. Baseball. And it's fucking hot too. Mmmm. I can't say anything about the pitch but LOOK AT THOSE EYES and his smile, that glee! AND THAT BASEBALL BAT SWINGING. Oh yea. I love this man ♥

I am hyper impressed with the effort put into the ~PRESENT FOR SHO~ costume though. WOW. Eeeeee. ♥

Also watching the AnShi skit where Jun SAVES OHNO FROM SUICIDE and HAHAHAHA NINO. He runs up and is TRYING HARD NOT TO BURST INTO LAUGHTER, you can see it in his face his almost-grin his eyes, THEN HE HARDENS UP AND SAYS HIS LINE. LIKE THE BOSS HE IS. OHNO'S FUCKING FACE ALL THE TIME, HALF LAUGHING AND HALF TRYING TO ACT LIKE A SUICIDAL PERSON. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA I KEEP LAUGHING. They are ALL ABOUT TO BURST INTO A GRIN. And Sho is really into panting. Not that I mind. OHNO'S FACE HAHA SO BROKEN. I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THE MEMEBRS ARE SAYING BUT THIS IS HILARIOU AIBA SO EARNEST. HAHAHAHA FUCK THAT ENKA HAHA THIS IS PERFECT. OHNO'S FACE AT AIBA. Oh gosh Jun is GREAT at comedic effect and timing. THE WAY HE FLINGS HIMSELF AT THE CLIFF. Also what is he wearing HAHAHA I LOVE IT THOUGH. AWWWWWWWW ;_; ARASHI. WARMTH IN MY HEART. LOL OHNO'S DEADPAN. APPLAUSE. APPLAAAAUSE.

Omg Aiba's high-pitched laughter. AIBA I LOVE YOU.

SLEEPY.

I SHALL BLOG FANDOM (like ALL FANDOM) tomorrow after I get back from SYFC and uniform-buying because I have NOTHING TO DO :D

2012-01-17T05:30:00.000-08:00

Okay right, here's a scheme of work that would work out for everyone: just stop. You can choose what to stop, of course, I'm not a bitch, but I'd rather you stop well. Stopping. HAHA. This is not a logical statement. Well. Bunch-of-statement-fragments-that-make-up-a-somewhat-statement.

Oh wait, I forgot. I am a bitch. Or was. But I'm trying to change that, really.

Everyone please go listen to Back to December. The last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind: you gave me roses and I left them there to die.

(This is me, swallowing my pride, standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night.)

Sometimes I think about the choices I could have made and. I'm sorry. (I can't muster the strength to apologise for it now, but. Sigh.)

ALSO THAT WAS THE WRONG ANSWER sigh but thanks ):

Can I just immerse myself in fandom and disappear this was in general a rather bad day. I mean like. Let me just talk about how Nino is a reluctant brat who really, really loves his bandmates and how they're all idiots and Jun is such a tease and Aiba is ridiculous and this was all your idea wasn't it Aiba-chan (OH OOPS the honourific came out) and Ohno's just pliant (ALTHOUGH HE IS SECRETLY THE WORST) and oh Sho, oh Sho, isn't this wonderful and your bandmates love youuu happy 3rd decade soon ♥

It's so easyyyy. (Hey isn't this easy~ [I need to stop quoting Taylor Swift.]) Oh fandom.

16.01.2012

Um acad matters, Miss Chen is HILARIOUS she's ridiculous HAHA and counsellor's talk, OMG ONE OF THEM WAS HILARIOUS she seemed just so EXASPERATED SOMETIMES HAHA I CAN'T. But yea!

MBTI test after that! I got INFJ again, which is the same result Claire's test got for me. Sigh. Time-waster. But it was quite cool! Weiqi was ~applying what she learnt~. She's an ENTP. The Singaporean bulk is ISTJ, but we had like ZERO ISTJs and A BUNCH OF INFJs, and INFJ make up 1% of the population LOL. WE ARE UNICORNS, EVERYBADEH.

Anyway 'cos we ended early (1400!) I asked Weiqi if she wanted to go for training and she said she wanted to see FSD so we went! It was. Bloody hot HAHA. But yea it was... interesting I guess!

ALSO WEIQI.

Me: I swear I can get tan by flying lorh so near the sun.
Weiqi: Wait you actually fly?
Me: Um ya? SYFC?
Weiqi: THEY LET YOU FLY?
Me: WHAT DO YOU THINK I DO LOL.
Weiqi: IDK JUST THEORY AND SIM???

OH WEIQI.

17.01.2012

SNaPP. I serously hate the gender stereotypes. There are LITERALLY BILLIONS OF MALES AND FEMALES IN THE WORLD. Stop stereotyping us! Stop saying we're like this or like that or we act a certain way or like it when we act a certain way! I DON'T FUCKING CARE. Sigh. It's kind of. Really annoying. Maybe I'm just !!! but I think I've learnt a lot over the past few years and I just hate gender boudaries and associations and other bullshit. Sigh.

Also I really disagree with some of what they said but maybe that is because I am a hopeless romantic but seriously! Some things just left me flabberghasted. Like. What in the actual fuck?

ANYWAYS left for flight after that, TOOK THE WRONG TRAIN and ended up late sigh but apparently Raman was later lol he went for lunch, so yea it was. Okay? But my flight was. UGHH. I am super not used to Raman. To quote this PPL guy who was under Raman: "Must get used to his fighter style". Idk la he's! Demanding but definitely not a bad thing la. Also: flew Hotel. Again! (Juliet died 'cos of some error I HAVE NO FATE WITH FJ APPARENTLY.)

BUT GUESS WHO'S NOT GOING TO GET THEIR PPL ): Sigh I'm. Damn sure I'm going to fail already ahhhh ahhh ahhh okay. Chill. Sigh :/

Also js halfway through the flight while descending he did a 60 degree descending turn at a speed of 130+ knots and HOLY FUCK. WORST Gs EVER, AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS AWARE OF MY NASAL CAVITIES. Also the ear pressure! Like the nose pressure (WHAT) was just uncomfortable and the Gs disconcerting (felt like a giant's hand was trying to shove me through the floor of the plane) but the ear pressure. FUCKING PAIN. My god then I couldn't do Valsalva Maneuver until I landed I was like WELL FUCK THIS SHIT it was super. fucking. pain. It was only in my right ear but ARGH.

Also my flight just. Ugh the fuckiest. The horizon was fuzzy 'cos of cloud cover then I couldn't really select attitude right and I was just. ): And then just! MY HANDS. They has no control. (In more ways than one sigh.) And well not just climb/descend fucked up checks (hesitant and nervous and MISSING OUT ON THINGS also the aircon master didn't get turned on until we switched to PLA like. The worst.) and even worse SCREWED R/T LIKE MAD sigh I just. It's not that I can't do it but. :/ I really hate it when people fuck with my line of thought la and. Yea. Also I cut someone and well I was never really aware of it but someone cut my R/T during descend to downwind today and I was like WELL FUCK and ATC had to get to us later to figure out what happened sigh. Gonna keep out a conscious ear. Also I have this knack for picking the WORST TIMES to start my R/T the moment I'm about to push the button someone will start their R/T then I will be unceremoniously but unintentionally cut off. Sigh. And I really can't climb/descend! But I was better on the plane than in the sim. A GOOD THING but still suck. Ughhh.

Idk I think I was just. Off today but yea. My checks and R/T should be perfect by now and it's not like I have never done it I'VE DONE IT MULTIPLE TIMES and I can actually do it without a break in between but today it was just. Ugh. Terrible sigh :/

Oh after flight I saw Wairen in Ops Room, his flight hold 'cos of Cat 1. My flight was kinda chopped at the end but we managed everything while PLA put us on standby for rejoin la, but it was rushed! So yeaaa. ALso instructors talking about weather over radio. Just. HAHA.

Sigh sigh BUCK UP HUI XIAN ):

Also Raman's advice to me is to keep talking to myself to stay focussed, which is basically HOW I LIVE LIFE but it's kinda awk because I AM IN A PLANE AND WE ARE INTERCOMLY LINKED but yea.

When I came back and checked FB everyone was all "FUCKING HOT" and I was in Khatib in the middle of some army camp staring at the Cat 1 LOL JUST. YEA.

Okay I. Have to go now like seriously. Also I am upset as fuck because well I'm tired of being everyone's doorstop. But yea. Just. Oh god fuck.

Why is this like this.

2012-01-15T00:56:00.001-08:00

My brother is watching Jobs for Juniors and the kids are at SYFC and they know the plane better than I do OTL.

Hey you, of all the fucked up friendships and other-ships I've been in, this one is the most ridiculous, stupid, and fucked up. Well, this is fun. Well.

I'm supposed to be doing something now but I can't beat Solitaire and I am upset ): Lol I am the most immature ever. But no, not really, not just that. There's a bit too much involved in this little matter which I can't put into words. I'm a bit oversensitive but I've been tired of this for a while and just. I figured something had changed, but it hasn't. Sigh.

Okay let me do my stuff first! Or. Win Solitaire. OKAY HAHA I BEAT SOLITAIRE okay stuff-doing!

Okay yes okay done with some stuff COMPLETELY NOT ON OTHERS.

Okay shit now I have to go for dinner SIGH OKAY BYE BLOG.

Give me something that will haunt me when you're not around ♪

(And you have. Not just something, but everything.)

OMGOMG THIS IS AMAZINGGGGG. I HAVE WATCHED THIS SO MANY TIMES I CAN'T. I smsed like 5 people to watch it HAHA they're showing some art bites thing rn though it's about the Guzheng which is cool!

I wanted to complete my stuff but didn't receive my info yet sigh ): I MUST LIVEBLOG otherwise I sure hate myself for it one LOLOL. ;LKSDJ;FLKAJF;LAKSJ J STORM I SEE IT.

HAHA IT'S SO LQ I CAN'T. Inoue Maoooo HER FACE. I love the credits lol. AND THE PLACE it's really pretty this was probably really high budget for their time. 2008! ACTUALLY 4 YEARS AGO. They call it BOF the movie it's BOF FINAL DUDES.

INOUE MAO IS GOING TO SCREAM SOON. LOL JUN'S HAIR. OKAY SHE'S ON THE ROCK HAHAHAHA SO CUUUTE. I LOVE HER I LOVE MAKINO SHE'S CRAZY. Jun's RED SKINNIES. HAHAHAHA DOMYOUJI. DOMYOUJI. I CAN SEE IT LOLOL I JUST FEEL MAKINO'S SCREAM BUILDING UP.

HAHAHAHHAHAHA YESSSS HAHAHAHAHAHA THE FUCKING TRUCK. I love this so much omg. MASTER DOMYOUJI. He said 'watashi'! THIS IS SO AWK. HAHAHAHHAHA FUCK HIS LANGUAGE. HIS FUCKING FACE.

"That girl I mentioned is the girl of my dreams... MAKINO TSUKUSHI" CUE UNGLAM PHOTO AND MAKINO'S FUCKING FAAAACE HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAA I LOVE THIS LIKE CRAZY. HAHAHAHA HER SCREAM I LOOOOVE MAKINO. DOMYOUJI'S FUCKING FACE. THE COVER OF TIMES. AND FUCKING F4. HAHAHAHA MAKINOOOO. I LOVE HOW THEY TROLL EACH OTHER HAHAHAHA.

THE STATUEEE. ALSO I LOVE THEM THEY'RE CRAZY. LOL DOMYOUJI AND RUI. He's so sensitive! SECRETLY. LOLOL THOSE PHOTOS. MAKINO'S PUNCHING. LOLOL THE FUCKING PAPARAZZI. I LOVE HER FRIENDS LOLOL. MAKINO'S BROTHERRR. She's so flawless I can't.

OH DOMYOUJI. SO EXCITED. MOTHER-IN-LAW. "BECAUSE SHE'S THE WOMAN I CHOSE" PERFECTION PERFECTION I LOVE THIS.

THE CROWN. VENUS SMILE!!!! OH GOSH. It's gorgeoussss. The subs suck LOL. HAHAHA "LOVE CAN'T KEEP YOU ALIVE." "That's right, but without love the food is tasteless." I LOVE THE SCRIPT.

ALSO THE FUCKING TOKYO HYATT. HUUUGE. I'm sure it's the Hyatt. HAHA OH DOMYOUJI. Omg this is. Where they have AWKWARD ADORABLE CONVERSATIONS. Domyouji's JACKET. TSUKUSHI AND TSUKASA'S OPPOSING IDEALS LOLOLOLLLL. DOMYOUJI'S FUCKING FACE ALL THE TIME. HAHAH FUCK THE PRE-NATAL ANXIERT LINE HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. I CAN'T. DOMYOUJIIIII. I FUCKING LOVE EVERYONE. KISS.

OKAY NO THE THIEF. THIS SHOW EXCITES ME SO MUCH OMG. I'VE WATC HED IT FIVE TIMES.

THE HOT CHASE SCENE GO DOMYOUJI. How did Jun sing after this movie? All the screaming!

ALSO THE AMOUNT OF CASH THEIR FAMILY PAYED TO SET THIS UP. MATSUMOTO JUN: RUNNING GLAMLY SINCE GOKUSEN. ALSO FUCKING HOT HE JUMPED OVER THE ESCALATORRR. FLY DOMYOUJI FLY OVER TABLES. OH YES THE FIGHT. HAHAHAHA DOMYOUJIII. HE ALMOST GOT BURNT. The flaming shoe is AMAZING. dl;kjal;jal;kj DYING FISH ): OH GOD I'M SO PUMPED I CAN'T EVEN. Just a fight scene! GET IT DOMYOUJI. I KNOW THE WHOLE PLOT BUT STILL LOL. THE FUCKING THIEF AND HIS STUPID STANCE. THE CRANE!! HE FALLS OFF OMG. AND MAKINOOO. OMG DAMN COOL HE FALLS OFF THE CRANE AND THE HELICOPTER!!!

COMMERCIALS.

THE INTACT WINDOOOWS. AND ALL THE CORRIDORS. I LOVE THIS. Makino's screaming and panic! THIS MOVIE IS PERFECT. THE GRAVITY OF ALL THE STAFF AS THEY CLAIM NOTHING HAPPENED. DOMYOUJIII. CONSPIRACY IS RIGHT THO but omg Domyouji's TEMBER. And the RIGHT ON TIME Cristmas lights!

SHIZUKAAA ): ): ): WHY DIDN'T YOU INVITE RUI. SHIZUKA. RUI. ;_; This is the saddest ever omg FOREVER SHIP ;_; Hanazawa Rui why are you perfect? WHY IS THIS SERIES SO FULL OF PEOPLE WHO ARE PERFECT. My heart is going to break oh gosh HANAZAWA I WISH YOU TRUE LOVE ALTHOUGH YOU ARE FICTIONAL.

DOMYOUJI. His windows are HUGE. I want his hooouse. OH THE ;_; NO. NO. NOT THIS. I'M GOING TO CRY. INCLUDING MAKINO. DON'T DO THIS TO ME. Nothing's going to happen! AHHH. Also fucking hell blogger keeps hanging on me. And Soujiro is quite hot. AKIRA IS A YAKUZA MEMBER LET'S NOT LIE. Lolol basically. "You have nothing to do, Rui." RUI'S SALUTE. Someone give me an apple so I can cry now.

F4 WHY ARE YOU PERFECT.

Oh Makino ): HAHAHAHA NISHIDA IS SO OBVIOUSLY HIDING SOMETHING HIS SMILE. AND HAHAHAHAHAHA THE ROAD TRIP I CAN'T. I AM GIGGLING STUPIDLY NOW. DON'T DIE, GUYS. Okay I know they won't. Their road reminds me of the taxiway lol. DOMYOUJI HAHAHAHAHAHA. FUCH AN ASS. OH THE GUY. HE'S THEIR AN I REMEMBER OMG. I LOVE THIS HAHAHAHA HE LOOKS SO BIG AND MANLY THOUGH. MAKINO. MAKINO IS PERFECT. DOMYOUJI SPEAKING ENGLISH! EEEEEP. HAHAHA DOMYOUJI. "What...? NO. NO NO NO." JUN I APPLAUD YOUR ENGLISH SKILLS. APPLAUD. HAHA MAKINO'S SO CONFUSED. AN AUTOGRAPH. THIS SHOW IS PERFECT.

MAKINOxFOOD IS MY OTP. OTP. HAHAHAH

"After we get married, you could get so fat you won't even recognise yourself."
"What will you do then?"
"Well I think, no matter how at you get, you're still you. I don't care how fat or thin you are, I love you. AFTER ALL WHAT I LOVE IS NOT YOUR LOOKS, YOU KNOW THAT, RIGHT."
"So I'm just an ordinary girl to you?"
"In my eyes, you're the greatest woman in the world?"
"Which part makes me the greatest?"
"ALL OF YOU."

PERFECTION. PERFECTION.

HAHAHA THAT ROCK WHICH LOOKS LIKE DOMYOUJI HAHAHAHAH. THEY ARE SO PERFECT. PLAYING WITH THE CAR'S BEEPS. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MIND-READERS, I LOVE THEM THEY ARE PERFECT. And that horizon is GORGEOOOUS.

OH MY GOD. PERFECTIOOOON.

Commercials! I keep repeating myself but guys THEY ARE PERFECT. THIS MOVIE IS MY ONLY CANON. HAHAHAHAHHA PUSHING MAKINO DOWN WHY ARE THEY SO PERFECT? I love this place it's so quaint! MAKINO'S STINGINESS ALTHOUGH EVERYONE IS FUCKING RIIIIICH. HAHAHA "THIS IS AMAZING!" "It's nothing."

SHIGERUUUU. OMG. PLEASE JUMP ONTO DOMYOUJI AND BITE HIS EAR. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA HER REACTION. I LOVE HER SHE'S CRAZY. THE CRAZIEST. Shigeru is so whiny though gosh. OH. OH. THEY FOUND HIM. HAHA SUCH A HUGE SETUP. I BET EVEN THE AMERICAN DUDE WHO IS A DOMYOUJI FAN WAS PAID. BLACKJACK!

OH THE SCENE. DOMYOUJIII. Such a bastard. Please revert back to cute Domyouji tho. But ahh THE CASH. I love Makino. COME ON LET US NOT FIGHT UNNECESSARILY. Also he's no longer a bigshot in America! THE FOUNTAINS ARE GORGEOUS omg HanaDan Final had the BEST SETS.

"I'm not scared as long as I'm with you."
THEY ARE SO CUTE DOMYOUJI'S GRIN HE'S SO PLEASED. OHHH MUTUAL AWE AT THE FOUNTAINS. AHHH. THE MOST ADORABLE.

Every scene is so short HAHAHAHA DOMYOUJIIII. SQUEEZING ON ONE TINY SEAT. "I HAVE NINE LIVES LIKE A CAT" OKAY DOMYOUJI. HAHAHAH SHE'S LIKE THE "TWEED" "WEED!" HAHAHA I LOVE MAKINO. She's so cuuute. CUUUUTE. CUTEST.

Oh talking about his mother ): LOL DOMYOUJI'S FUCKING RING TONE. OHHH AKIRA! I BET HE'S IN THIS TOO. AHHH.

Domyouji is REALLY FUCKING RICH. OH THE BEDDD. LET'S SLEEP TOGETHER! OKAY DOMYOUJI. OKAY. KABURAGI YOU (LITERAL) COCKBLOCK LOL LOLOLOL DOMYOUJI HAHAHAHAHAHHA. THE COVER. HIS FAAACE. HIS FAAAAAACE. OKAY DOMYOUJI. OHHHH BETTING AT THE CASINOOO. Wow that CASH. Makino! She's so clearheaded about money. Oh she is young to marry actually! EVERYONE TELLING HER TO WAIT. NO MAKINO YOU TWO ARE PERFECT TOGETHER.

Commerciaaals. WHY DOES THIS SHOW EXCITE ME SO MUCH.

DOMYOUJI'S FUCKING FAAACE. Also: in norma clothes! Well, a V-neck. ARE THEY IN MATCHING OUTFITS. Domyouji's so sensitive sigh. ): DON'T GET ANGRY THIS IS WHAT THEY WANT. Okay not matching. DON'T BE ANGRY. LOL DOMYOUJI USING THE MATTRESS COVER AS A BLANKET. Also they are CRYING STOP FIGHTING GUYS ): HAHA "-FUCKING ANGRILY- ARE YOU STILL MAD AT ME."

LOLOL HIGH LIMIT. DOMYOUJI SPEAKING ENGLISH IS PERFECT. FOREVER PERFECT. OMG I REMEMBER THIS THE ROULETTE HAHA MAKINO WAS ALL -ONE COIN- AND DOMYOUJI WAS LIKE "WELL FUCK THAT." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING DOMYOUJI TSUKASA. MAKINO NOT UNDERSTANDING ANYTHING. NEITHER WILL I, MAKINO. I DON'T GET RICH PEOPLE EITHER.

"It's okay! We're destined to be together, we're bound to get married, we're meant to be together forever."

BEST CHEESEY ROMANCE MOVIE WITH THE BEST CHEESEY LINES.

OMG OMG THEY SEE HIM!!! I'M SHAKING. Jun your eyes are amazing omg. SHIT SHIT HE STEPS ON THE TABLE. AND MAKINO'S FACE! ALL GLEE AND HOPE. HAHA MAKINO SCREAMING IN JAPANESE. HAHAHAHAHA THE REWIND I CAN'T. THE BALL BOUNCING. MAKINO THE WEED. PERFECTION. HAHA PEOPLE PULLING HER OFF AND SHE PUSHING HIM INTO THE POOL MAKINO THE PERFECT ACCIDENTAL FIGHTER HAHAHAHA. SHE'S SO CONFUSED AND JAPANESE I LOVE HER.

F4! I JUST MADE AN INHUMANE NOISE. RUI AND HIS WHITE SHOES OH GOSH. YOU'RE NOT GONE@ "Makino~ AND THE APPLE!!!!!!! I LOVE F4 OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO CRY. THE MISSION OF THE F4: TO SAVE MAKINO. NO1CURR ABOUT DOMYOUJI, JUST MAAAKINOOO. DON'T CRY TSUKUSHI I'M GOING TO CRY TOO. NO. HAHAHA DOMYOUJI. YOU'RE SO FUCKING ANNOYING. OH MAKINO. HAHA DOMYOUJI. "HEY CRYING MAKES YOUR FACE LOOK EVEN FUNNIER." "WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT!" HAHAHAHA SO PROTECTIVE. "BECAUSE SHE'LL CATCH YOUR STUPIDITY." "THE THREE OF YOU LOOK AS STUPID AS EVER."

THEIR FUCKING PLANE. THE WEDDING GIFT IS CRAAAZY. OH DOMYOUJI.

Akira is so violent LOL MAKINO. Oh god Oguri Shun. HAHA WHY DO THEY ALL SPEAK THIS COMBINATION OF LANGUAGES. AND AKIRA HAS THE GRAND LAYOUT OF THE AUNCTION VENUE, BUT NO ONE SUSPECTS ANYTHING. HAHA MAKINO'S "ARIENAI" PERFECT. She's so cuuute. "Perhaps it's because Domyouji is too arrogant." "Perhaps so." HAHAHAHAHA.

"Let him know what happens when he aggravates F4"

HAHAHAH HITTING HIS HEAD ON THE PLANE'S CEILING.

THE THIEF. KABURAGI. Oh Domyouji's gonna doubt again STOP THIS ): Omfg the bids are crazy. !!! THE SMILE OF VENUS. 10 BILLION YEN OH MY GOD. Oh my god people who bid up intentionally are the WORST it's like fucking BRIDGE. THEY HAVE TO GET IT. Sigh FIGHTING AS USUAL. Omg they're just bigging crazy now. 60 BILLION YEN. WOW FUCK. FUUUCK. OMG MY FACE RN IS D8 Makino! Oh gosh I get her I can't do this! Marriage is so not worth it.

I love her outfit omg. Of course she's not happy 60 BILLION YEN FOR SOMETHING LIKE A WEDDING. It's not that she doesn't want it it's just that THIS IS A CRAZY SITUATION. HONGKONG.

THE THIEF THE THIEF! NO DON'T LET HIM GOOO! MAKINO. Have I mentioned how strong a character Makino is? Because she is STRONG. Her hair is also perpetually perfect. DOMYOUJI'S FACE. Rui ): EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS. It's such a fuck up of a situation to test their love with. IT'S STRONG, THOUGH. They're genuinely crazy for each other. Also omg F4 bond ;_; "YOU MUST'VE MISTAKEN IT." ;_; F4 BOND.

RUI AND STAIRCASES AND BOOKS. Perfeccct. Hanazawa never wanted to be rich, handsome, and popular, HE JUST WAS. And also: perfect. PERFECT. He's such a good liar though Oguri fucking Shun.

): THEY DIDN'T GET THE THIEF but they are on a posh boat how much did they spend on this movie!? Domyouji and his F4 bond ;_; Him and Rui are TRUE BROS OKAY. 60 billion yen being nothing is crazy omg. Makino is so intuitive but THEY'RE FRIENDS. F4 BOND. ): ): Lolol the Samsung. Ace product placement. NOW SHE'S UPSET. HE CAN'T TRUST HER BUT HE CAN'T TRUST THEM ;_; DOMYOUJI. MAKINO.

Sigh F4 bond I really can't take it they're all assholes and they always quarrel but THEY ARE TRULY FRIENDS, OKAY. APPLES AND ALL. ;_; Domyouji's SKINNIES, just saying. AHH DOMYOUJI he's so torn. IT'S SO HARD FOR ME NOT TO CRY OMG. HAHAHA BACKPEDAL BACKPEDAL. NO FIGHTING UGH. He's so VIOLENT.

Oh Domyouji-Rui. "Can I trust you?" ;_; ;_; "Because I trust you" ;_; ;_; ;______; "You said if anything happened, you're leaving everything to me, right?" Hanazawaaaaaa.

TSUKUSHIxFOOD. IN HONGKONG. STOP MAKING HER DOUBT YOU BASTARD KABURAGI. OH THIS IS WHERE SHE SHUTS HIM DOWN. RIGHT? Omg "One day I asked her what her dream was." THIS IS. WHAT HAPPENS. FORESHADOWING. AHHH. AHHHHHH. The subs SUCK. "I was never there in her plan for the future. So, I asked myself the same question, and it turns out my thoughts were occupoied by my work too, she had no place in my future. That was when I realised she's not the most important to me, and I wasn't the most important to her." ;_; ;_; I AM GOING TO CRY. I AM CRYING ACTUALLY. Also Shigeru is perfect ): MAKINO omg I want to hug her ;_;

YOU LOVE DOMYOUJI MAKINO.

I'm so emotional I can't BUT SERIOUSLY.

0km/h headwind!? DON'T LIE.

Lol the massage chair. Oh don't say you were with Kaburagi. This sucks ): It's not that they don't trust each other it's just a TERRIBLE SITUATION. Omg no no noooo. Oh fuck Domyouji's voice here tho. HAHAHAHAH THE INTERVENING WAITRESS. OF COURSE HE'S HAPPY TO aksjfa;lsdkj fucking crown.

"I want to know what your dream is."
"Eh?"
"What's your dream?"
"My dream is to..."

FUCKING TROLLS THEY JUST GOT. What's the word. ROOFIED. YES. BY THEIR OWN WAITRESS NO DON'T TAKE THE TIARAAAAAA UGH. ): Omg this is. MY FAVOURITE PART THE DESERTED ISLAND. Omg their plane's so flashy. BUT NOOO. AHHH.

SHE JUST WAKES UP ON A BEACH AND SITS UP AND NOT A GRAIN OF SAND IN HER HAIR JEALOUS. HAHAHAHA DOMYOUJI'S IDIOT GRIN. I love her clooothes. LOL HE'S UP. THE TIARA FUCK. THEY WILL LAST FOREVER, OKAY. ): MAKINO GETTING THE CONNECTION TO THE STONES. YOU WILL RETURN NO WORRIES. They figured the conspiracy out! THE LAST STOP IS NOT HEAVEN OR HELL EXCEPT THE HEAVEN ON EARTH WHICH IS WHEN YOU ARE NEXT TO EACH OTHER ): Their survival skills are impeccable esp Domyouji the RICHIE. HAHA FAIL FISHING. AND THE HELP OMG whenever I see that scene I just. UGHHHH. ;_; The tide is fucking high o.o HAHA MAKINO'S FACE. Gosh ;_; You'd never survive this with someone you didn't ABSOLUTELY LOVE l)l GRATUITOUS DOMYOUJI SWIMMING SCENES YES? Js the island is GORGEOUS. SERIOUSLY. What island is this I'm visiting it inhabited or not.

OMG SHE FELL. So soon! MAKINO. AND THE RAIN. OH GOSH. This scene sucks but it's my FAVOURITE SCENE. She's just shivering next to their fire and ;_; ;_; DON'T SAY THAT. Omg sobbing rn. "DON'T PUSH YOURSELF TOO HARD" "IF I DON'T I'LL DIE WON'T I!?" THAT FUCKING TIARA ;_; This is such a horrible premise for a movie tbh but UGH ;_; THEY'RE PERFECT.

): Don't say you're not meant for each other. YOU GUYS ARE PERFECT ):

"Because to me, I'm very sure I want to spend my life with you."

DON'T BE ANGSTY he just tripped and regained his balance without a single change in expression Matsumoto Jun you fucking BOSS. Also Domyouji is that facial hair. HE GOT A FISH! FINALLY LOL. ): ): ): THE NECKLACE guys I still want a replica omg.

OMG SHE LEFT. THIS IS THE SCENE WHERE SHE SPRAINS HER ANKLE I hate this scene but it's my FAVOURITE. THE FUCKING BEAR HAHAHAHA. I am amused LOL GET INTO STANCE, MAKINO. YOU CAN DO IT. OMG HER NECKLACE!!!! MAKINO. MAKINO. Why is their hair still perfect may I ask. MAKINO ): OMG YES. THE MUSIC LOL. GET INTO IT MAKINO BE THE FUCKING BOSS YOU ARE. SHE'S A FUCKING WEED. HAHAHAHA SHE JUST. SUCKER PUNCHED A BEAR THIS MOVIE IS SO LOLTASTIC HAHAHA BUT I LOVE HER. I LOVER MAKINO LIKE CRAZY. AWWW MEMORIES ;_; OMG THIS SONG THIS SONG! ;_; And oh gosh. OMG OMG THAT SCENE ;_; I'M GOING TO CRY AGAIN. THEIR KISSSSSSS AHHH. FUCK. THE MOST PERFECT. THE MOST. OH GOSH OH GOSH ): Oh god oh god ): ): DOMYOUJI. You guys are crazy YOU LOVE EACH OTHER ): THe necklace my heart omg. Domouji ):

"Makino. You're what's most important to me. Don't worry about those trivial things."
AND HE OBVIOUSLY CRAES BUT HE CAN'T, BECAUSE MAKINO IS WHAT MATTERS TRULY AND IT SUCKS TO NOT HAVE THE NECKLACE BUT HE REALLY HONESTLY JUST LOVES MAKINO oh god I can't.

HE FOUND IT. MY HEART IS BURSTING. FATE, GUYS, FATE. It's not great Makino IT'S FATE.

I just can't help but D'AWWWW at them they're PERFECT.

HAHAHA WHY DOES HE SHAVE THEY'RE CRAZY. AND CATCHING. OMG. HAHAHAHAHA THE TRAP HAHAHAHA. DOMYOUJI'S LAUGHTER HAHAHAHAHAHA. And shampooing hair THIS IS LIKE A RESORT LOL they're crazy AND PERFECT AND I LOVE THEM. YOU ARE MEANT TO BE.

SHE'S GONNA ASK FOR HIS DREAM AGAIN. A month!? AND YOU HAVE CLEAN CLOTHES AND WASHED HAIR how much shampoo did they bring. OMG HER GRADUATION SHIT! Oh gosh tey're so cute. SO CUTE. MY FAVOURITE. Gratuitous shirtless shots LOLOL.

I want to hug them lolol I CAN'T. THEY'RE SO CHEESEY AND CUTE.

THE DREAM THE DREAM.

"What's your dream?"
"-points- IT'S ALREADY COME TRUE."
"Eh?"
"I LOVE YOU."
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM.

PERFECTION INCARNATE. KISS. Haha okay no they kiss at the wedding BUT STILL. MY FAVOURITE. Omg they are SO IN LOVE I CANNOT. Omg omg HELP IS GOING TO COME. Her smile at her dream! HAHA THE FUCKING HELICOPTER AT SUCH AN IMPORTANT MOMENT. YES!!!!! HAHAHA MAKINO'S ADORABLE JAPGLISH. Omg I'd punch that bastard into the ocean idgaf what last stage you're bringing me to.

TOKYO FINALLY. Did Makino's hair get cut!? Okay South Island. Omg I CAN FEEL DOMYOUJI'S RAGE WELLING UP IN HIM. And we say Jun's a bad actor. And the fucking tiara! BREAK IT. THROW IT AWAY. FUCK YES DOMYOUJI. Okay haha I've been through this so I'm not in shock. But like seriously! Although I can see why, because they're both so oung and Domyouji so rash and OUCH THAT MUST HAVE HURT. It's understandable la honestly because they must PROVE THEY WILL HOLD OUT.

MAKINO'S FUCKING PARENTS LOLOL. But hoenstly they're the most insecure about this! It's really a different life for them and even though Makino's strong she needs to be a different kind of strong to be able to handle Domyouji and NO ONE WAS GONNA LET THEM GET HURT HONESTLY. DON'T KOWTOW TO HIM.

DOMYOUJI'S CONVICTION TO SPEND HIS LIFE WITH MAKINO AND HIS PROMISE TO HIS PARENTS. He's never had the parental love he (any child) deserved and I can understand that he's touched. He's kowtowed to them ;_;

Omg HAHA HIS SHIRT SAYS "DON'T TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO OR SHOULDN'T DO ASSHOLE" LOLOLOL.

HAHAHA I REMEMBER THE PUNCHING THIEF SCENE. Domyouji is GENUINELY A BETTER PERSON NOW ;_; He was a jerk throughout Season 2 but now he's genuinely NICE. NICE.

DOmyouji's bitch of a mother ): Please be less of a bitch, okay?

Oh DOMYOUJI. AND MAKINO. I love them like crazy. YES, MUTUAL TRUST. PLEASE HAS IT. Omg this movie is SO OLD. 2008 please HAHA. But still! OH DOMYOUJI'S SMILE. He's so GENUINELY HAPPY. And Makino is gorgeous and SO CUTE.

OH HIS MOTHER. I've learnt to be triggered by seeing them together, but she is actually OKAY now. ;_; OH GOSH ;_; I KEEP CRYING.

F4!!!!!!! HAHAHA EVERYONE IS IN THIS. OH F4 BOND. FOREVER. GO GO GO GET MARRIED. Okay I don't know if this happens yet but somewhen HAHA. AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH THE CEREMONY. Not a huge one but I think this is a perfect compromise between the two of them, because it's extravagant enough to be pretty and big but not too big that Makino will feel out of place (: AHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHH. I CAN'T. PURE FLAILING. Omg THAT STATUE I NEVER NOTICED HOW DID IT. SHIGERU ON PIANO! RUI THE PERSON THEY SAY VOWS TO omg this is so perfect ALL THEIR FRIENDS. Omg it's fucking GORGEOUS ;_; THE HYD SOUNDTRACK I LOVE ITTTT. Everytime I hear it I just, AHHHH EVERYTHING. OMEDETOU ♥ THE MOST GORGEOUS. THE BEST.

THEY ARE PERFECT OMG ;_; THE NECKLACEEEE this is a perfect dress HER NECKLACE also awkward sentence of the day Inous Mao has gorgeous shoulders. THE LIGHTS. THEY'RE SO CONFUSED. RUI THE BEST I love tou Rui I love everyone and everything. HAHAHAHAH "YOU TWO WON'T HEAR THE HYMNS OUT" they're so different yet so similar.

OH OH "EVERYTHING" OH GOSH I FORGOT THIS QUOTE BUT AHHH PERFECTION. PERFECTION. OH MAKINO. DOMYOUJI'S FUCKING FACE, AGAIN. Jun's eyebrows are really well-trimmed here HAHA. THE RINGSSS. Omg that is one fuck of a diamond. AND HER NAILS ARE GORGEOUS OMG.

YES KISS THE BRIDE OH GOD ♥ THE BEST. I LOVE THEM ;_; The way she bends so low to get that LONGASS VEIL over her head and their STARE AND GRINS AND GIGGLES AND aslk;djfl;aksjdf;lakdjfa;lfkja;dlkjf PERFECTIONNNNN. SO MUCH CHEMISTRY. THEIR GRINS THEY'RE SO HAPPY. MAKINO'S FACE WHEN HE PICKS HER UP, THE SLIGHT SHOCK. Omg they're perfeeeect. PERFECT. The petals are so fake.

CUE ONE LOVE. EEEEEEEEEEE!

HAHAHAHA SOUJIRO'S FACE. EVERYONE IS SUCCESSFUL AND AMAZINF AND AHHH. HE RUNS. JUST RUNS OBVIOUSLY PERFECT HAHAHAHAHA. AKIRA TRIES TO SAVE THE YAKUZA IN ENGLISH. RYU REMAINS PERFECT AND ANGELIC AND oh gosh his legs are so looong and ahh.

"In every flower, a storm brews. I guess this is life."

AND SOUTH ISLAND AGAIN! Omg I need to go there.

HER DREAM. HER DREAM. OMGOMGOMGOMG.

"Tell me something, am I still the most important person to you?"
"Ah? Of course you are, what are you talking about?"
"No matter what?"
"I said it at the wedding, but if you want to hear it again I'll say it again and againa."
"But all I want is to be your second most important one."
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing, because you'll be my second most important person."
"Oi. What are you talking about."
"WHEN YOU GROW UP DON'T DO THINGS LIKE YOUR FATHER DIDDDDD!"
"AH?"
"But you can have his CURLY CURLY PERM."
"EH?"
"My dream has already come true too."

DOMYOUJI'S FACE AHHH AHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FUCVKING LOVE THEM HAHAHAHAHA MATSUJUN'S "ARIENAI" I JUST I JUST OH GOSH PERFECT. PERFECTIOOON. I LOVE THEM. HE JUST PUTS HIS HEAD TO HER WOMB AND SCREEEEEEEEAMS AND AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHH PERFECTION. OMG. I AM SO HAPPY.

(HOW DID HE SING AFTER FILMING THIS MY THROAT HURTS FROM HEARING HIM)

LALALA, LALALA, LALALALALALALA, LALALALALALALALALALALA~ LOOOOOOVE. I LOVE THEM. THIS IS PERFECT.

Omg the end when the photo melds into the manga! AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. PER.FEC.TION.

Omg omg omg I LOVE HANADAN FINAL AHHH I AM SO HAPPY ;_; I LOVE YOU HANA YORI DANGO♥ AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH. MY GLEE.

I WILL BLOG ABOUT IRL IN A MOMENT BUT AHHH♥

OKAY ACTUALLY ALL I DID TODAY WAS SIM 5 but yea Goh CL took me instead of Mr. Hi! And guys I absolutely can't taxi on the sim sigh. Also I keep pushing the stupid fuel pump for nothing!

But anyway my MAJOR MAJOR PROBLEM IS
1) nervousness
2) LACK OF INITIATIVE.

Like I keep asking questions! STUPID QUESTIONS. And yea idk! Goh CL is quite, pressurising but he makes it so that I really know everything top to bottom which is good la! I kept screwing up though sigh ): As in! Yea it was kinda really bad.

Also I really really suck at climbing descending. I go into turns quite smoothly and I get better at it at every turn but I JUST SERIOUSLY SUCK AT CLIMBING DESCENDING idek why it's just. I think I have this complex when it comes to touching the throttle.

As in initiative is initiative. In NCC it's just raising your hand and stomping your foot and that was what we called ~initiative~ but in the pilot's seat it's about genuinely scary things like dropping your throttle to idle and having faith that your plane won't stall or sink and it's just scary to me la and. Yea. ): Sigh.

He made me fly downwind base finals to land, but I TOTALLY FAILED THERE descending turns are my ENEMY and I was so confused! Sigh ):

I just. REALLY SUCK. Sigh.

(I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU I mean I can but ugh. Also I hate the situation I'm in. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Good luck. Sigh.)

I'm beginning to associate Sparks Fly with a person who has NOTHING TO DO WITH IT just because of the like "give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around". ): sigh. Maybe I should've taken the chance that was shoved in my face, but fate said not to and I said not to and. If you'd tried again I would've said yes.

Can't believe I have school till 1730 tomorrow! I have lots to blog about but I keep forgetting - OH YES I have a flight on Tuesday, 1430. I have to RUN OFF after SNaPP idek if I should eat but I should so I'm going to rush a meal and rush off ): I must get the 1330 van which is the problem. Ugh ugh I AM JUST. GOING TO RUSH OFF AND GET A BUN ON THE WAY LOL.

AKB48 CHANNEL HAS SUBS YESSS globalisation get!!

I AM SUCH AN EMO KIA gonna sleep can't take it my sleep sched is FUCKED.

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@pearl: PLEASE PLEASE DO FEEL FREE TO SPAM MORE :D And it would've been more fun if you had come ;_; 我爱你!

OH MY GOD GUYS I FINALLY GOT MY SKINNIES!

Um okay yesterday HAHA well let's just skip the talks (although the KI talk was incredibly cool omg I am actually like 1% tempted to be in KI now?) and also my singing (THERE WAS A LOT OF SINGING) but anyway I WALKED HOME FROM GATE 13 THAT DAY -PRIDE- and surprisingly it took me 15min! Going to school via MRT takes me HALF AN HOUR GUYS. Totally walking from now on but it was REALLY FUCKING HOT HAHA but in the morning it should be okay!

CAN I TALK ABOUT MY EXTENSIVE SHOPPING TRIP NOW LOLOL. Um guys please be really proud of me I SPENT MORE THAN 50SGD IN ONE SHOPPING TRIP OKAY! AHH!! I was going to spend like 100 LOL but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

ANYWAYS I have gotten my skinnies! I went to this ridiculous store which sold ONLY JEANS and it was pretty LQish but IT SOLD ONLY JEANS GUYS, and like 80% skinnies? They also sold denim skirts and shorts but meh those were expensive. ANYWAY they have this set price throughout the store it's crazy! ANYWAYS I have my skinnies, dark denim AS USUAL haha I'm so boring BUT YES FINAL-FUCKING-LY.

Also I got fake-high-tops LOLOL WHAT. They were super cheap omg I can't stand it and COMFY LIKE MAD they're super soft and I love them! Idk if I can wear them to school tho I hope so! Anyway it's ~fake~ because the top is permanently folded down lol but damn cute also haha okay I'm going mad BUT YES. Anyway when I tried it the salesperson just kind of went like, "okay 20 bucks" and I was like "wh - WHAT" because I am NOT A COMPULSIVE BUYER and she grabbed it and ran to the counter and I panicked at my mother "UM SHOULD I BUY IT" and mom was like "do you want it" and I said "I LIKE IT BUT - " "THEN JUST BUY IT." My mother: the ultimate hindrance to my life-long resolution of not being a compulsive buyer.

Also got a shirt and shorts from NET! And UM THE SHIRT'S MEN'S SIZE SO YEA I'M SCREWED but idrc IT WAS GORGEOUS it's a heart shaped out of the sentence 'I love you' in a huge amount of languages! MY FAVOURITE THINGS: typography, languages, shape text blocks (lolwhut), hearts, and love! I saw it and was like OH MY GOD I HAVE TO HAVE IT. Just! EVERYTHING I LOVE, OKAY.

Did some filing today (okay this is somewhat a lie I filed like 10 worksheets lolol) and sang Lotus as I went about my daly activities! SINGING. IS THE BEST. Guys always sing, okay, because singing is A+! Also considering drawing on my current canvases and I want to just write quotes on them from like songs and people and stuff! Ahhh. Idk I' going crazy. CLOTHES-CRAZY HAHAHAHA.

Also I have Sim 5 tomorrow! HAHA GONNA DIE okay no la it's quite okay I already know the checks so I'm fine! But yea just! KINDA NERVOUS IS ALL haven't simmed in a while heh.

I also have to wake up early to rebook bookings because I CONVENIENTLY FORGOT TODAY HAHA WELL. Yep. That is my life sigh.

Omg guys let's talk fandom guys I was scrolling through tumblr and just NINO. NINOOOO. Also oh gosh Beautiful World is so catchy I can't help it. TO THE LIGHT TO THE LIGHT TO THE MORNING LIGHT~ THE BEST, OKAY.

Also I haven't fandommed in a while LOL I FEAR FOR THE CONTENT I MUST SIFT THROUGH.

Oh gosh NINO I LOVE YOU. This is the theme of my blog, okay. "20% real life, 20% other fandom, 60% "OH GOSH NINO WHY ARE YOU PERFECT".

Oh guys I really love this photoset. It looks so rustic! The lighting, the colours, NINO'S FACE. Um Nino's face is not a huge factor here just the muted feel of the photos! Though Nino's face is always a bonus. I want that white jacket.

Also someone explain to me WHY HAVE I NOT WATCHED FREETER. THE KINDA AWKWARD BUT MOSTLY REALLY CUTE CONFESSION. Have I mentioned how much I absolutely love kiss scenes oh gosh I'm going mad but yes! YES!!! Guys I am going to watch one episode later since it's too late (MIDNIGHT RN and I must fandom blog!) to watch FNS. I WILL NEVER WATCH FNS tomorrow I have to watch (and geng everyone to watch) HYD final! IT'S A MUST, OKAY.

Nino's eyeeeees. I need to stop this BUT GOSH. NINO. AND HIS FACE.

ALSO GUYS WHY DID I NEVER NOTICE THAT OHNO THROWS NINO'S HATE SUCCESSFULLY ONTO HIS HEAD IN KITTO DAIJOUBU!? BUT SRZ SKILLZ GUYS. Maybe 'cos I'm too distracted by Jun being ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS, Aiba jumping around, and SHO BEING A PLANE IN THE BACKGROUND. OH GOSH. I LOVE KITTO DAIJOUBE IT'S SO INSANE. I AM SO IMPRESSED. Also, NINO'S LACK OF HAIR.

Omg okay I'm just. GOING TO STOP, OKAY. I am too obsessed with Nino for my own good lolol.

Things I also love: ARASHI, AND ZEKKOUCHOU CHOU!!!! OKAY. Oh gosh I LOVE IT LIKE CRAZY I keep bopping and singing along! Also FIST PUMPING TO IT.

Things I also like a lot! SHO'S RAPPING. I really do like rapping, but something about Sho just! I love his empowering raps, not the OH I'M A FUCKING BADASS WATCH ME SPIT RHYMES FASTER THAN YOUR MIND CAN FOLLOW FO SHIZZLE kind, it's just that! Well I don't usually hear raps that aren't about angsty things or angry things, just plain happy and proud and just! Yes! Also he uses lulzy rap-language but WELL LET US IGNORE THAT haha his raps are genuinely empowering and they really make me feel happy :D Have I mentioned how his rap in Still... is one of my favourite things ever and the main reason I love the song? Whenever I hear it I must focus entirely on the rap because it's really gorgeous, and it's super meaningful to me ♥ Sho's not a speed rapper, he's a rhythm and flow rapper and I just really love that about him. I feel that his recent raps have been disappointing, maybe because of the new direction Arashi is pursuing and lack of... idk, proper communication? And synchrony between the backtrack and his raps. But I really love Sho's raps and NOTHING ABOUT THAT IS GOING TO CHANGE IN THE NEAR FUTURE.

OKAY GUYS. EVERY-OTHER-FANDOM TIME XOXO.

Um can I just buy all my clothes from Japan? BECAUSE EVERYTHING MY IDOLS WEAR. I bet it's like really ex tho BUT STILL.

I’m not inherently talented, but it would be a shame to look back on my life before I die and think, 'I wasn’t suited for this.' I’ll keep going at it until in the end I can say, 'I was meant for this.'

- Sakurai Sho [Switch 2007.05]

Fuck I closed my source. (Also I can't find the actual interview.)

Sorry, Sho, but you're really talented.

I'm not, though. And well. This is something nice (:

Oh Sho ♥ I haven't been a MAD CRAZY FAN of you for too long. Clearly something must be changed.

SO I'M DOWNLOADING NAZODI.

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

LARUKU IS COMING TO SINGAPORE.

LARUKU. L'ARC EN CIEL.

FUCK FUCK FUCK OMG I'm not that into Laruku but if they're coming, IN THE FLESH, I'm GOING. I DON'T CARE. FUCK! THE DATE'S NOT OUT YET BUT OMG I DON'T CARE. I CAN'T BREATHE OMG. OMGGG.

I mean I don't care that I don't know all their songs or anything, Laruku are genuinely FUCKING LEGENDS and gosh when was the last solo Japanese concert in Singapore? (Ignoring AKB48 they're special.)

ALSO KISUMAI MIGHT BE COMING? OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING. IS SINGAPORE RETURNING TO ITS TITLE OF THE SOUTH-EAST ASIAN OTAKU/JPOP LAND. PLEASE. PLEASE.

Ohmygod I'm going to start crying soon fuck I'm shaking oh god SHIT. oh my god genuinely so hard not to cry fuck fuck I CAN'T I REALLY HAVE TO GO. Omg I'm seriously dying over here I JUST.

Okay haha if I can get tickets below like idk 200 or sth I'll go which is NOT GOING TO HAPPEN but I JUST. Oh gosh. I'M. ;lasdkjfa;lskjf;lksaj. I'M NOT RICH LA SO plus I don't HAVE TO HAVE TO see them but LARUKU. IN SINGAPORE. After so long! Oh gosh gosh I SINCERELY HOPE THEY GET A FULL HOUSE. I think I'll wait for like a few days or weeks though because if the hardcore fans want tickets they deserve the best tickets.

Guys guys I can't believe it I live in a reality where I don't have to travel 5000km to see my idols omg I'm crying. Legends, fucking legends. They've been to America and all that, but oh gosh Singapore. I just absolutely can't oh gosh.

Omg I don't think there's anyone I know who can understand truly how much this means it's just a concert but IT'S A STEPPING STONE, OKAY.

I'm going crazy omg. NEXT STEP: SOMEONE I CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT, PLEASE?

a;dksjflakdjfa;dlkjfalkja ;LKSDJFA;LKSJAL;KJALKFJAD;LAJ.

Okay I am done. ksldajf;dkajs. -wibble- LARUKU.

LARUKU IN SINGAPORE. NEVER GETTING OVER THIS. Also lol this lulzy interviw I can't. "Fresher-faced than One Direction’s kid brothers" I CAN'T. Also them with Gaga! Propelling to worldwide fame y/y? AND WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE GAGA ):

NAKASHIMA MIKA HAS YOUTUBE but NOTHING IS AVAILABLE OUTSIDE JAPAN. Sigh. Sony why? Hopefully they open it up soon ): SO DUMB. I understand their rationale but THE INTERNET IS INTERNATIONAL USE IT.

Guys. Arashi gets paid 150mil yen per CM. That's. 2.5 million SGD. WHAT. THE. FUCK. Omg. And SMAP is just 30mil yen below that THE FUCK. Omg JOHNNY'S HOW MUCH DO YOU EARN FROM THIS. Plus they're CM kings, average of 10 CMs each last year, so that's... 25mil from CMs alone. As a group or as a member? DOESN'T MATTER. Fucking cash omg. Also LOL AT JGS. Not that big of a prince of Asia, yes bb? Also WHY DOES AKB EARN SO LOW. 33% of Arashi when they're at the same level!? Is it like average price per member, 'cos AKB only has like, 10 widely-recognised member so I'd understand. (JS I heard rumours that AU is dropping Arashi? And that their new single is called Start, releasing on 26.02.2011. Well I don't believe AU's dropping Arashi, they may not have been tops for CM ranking but 3rd against Docomo and Softbank is a very honourable position, and Arashi's really fucking good at pushing AU (even at concerts!) and it's really their loss to lose a group that holds such a monopoly on the market. When Softbank has SMAP and Docomo has AKB, Arashi's your best bet. I love AU CMs too, yes, but well TANGIBLE LOSS IS NOT MINE. Also don't believe Start lol RUMOURS ARE THE WORST ON THE WEB.) ALSO JUST SAYING 2 MIL FOR 30 SECONDS IS A LOT. And omg Miura and KENICHI, no idea they earned this much! Guess what shows popularity, guys.

Please read this article just to be impressed (and mildly disgusted) by the alliteration. DO IT. IT'S HILARIOUS.

HEY GUYS senbatsu is out and WELL. JKT48. Someone's workin' on the pushin'. What is SPECIAL GIRLS and some selection 6? Team B is so severely under-represented seriously. Arama has better ideas. Honestly? I'm sticking to my SDN-the-guinea-pigs conspiracy. WHILE WE ARE AT IT: YUUKO SHALL BE REIGNING QUEEN NEXT ELECTIONS. Mariko's been gaining popularity recently. The rest... familiar, yep. Yuuko is being pushed like crazy too though except she's already been pushed lol so no one's seeing it. But she's CM queen! And a popular actress! IT'S STRANGE. BUT OH YEAH ACCHAN PREPARE TO BE DETHRONED HAHAHA. No la. Wait for the wotas. ALSO THESE ARE ACTUALLY FUCKING COOL you can tell which gundam is who without the captions! Amaaaazing.

EVERYONG SHOULD WATCH LUCKY SEVEN. AMAZING RATINGS Y/Y? (I'm so business-minded lol, FUCK QUALITY JUST SHOW ME THE CASH.) I don't even know most of the rest of the titles lol I'm so lazyyy. And uninterested. Renai Neet has flawless queen Nakama Yukie though so might try it. If I ever get around to watching dramas. LOLOL OKAY HUNGRY! SOUNDS TERRIBLE NOT WATCHING.

Also Nozomi Sasaki's in the most beautiful faces again but I hate that list lol. Also Ebihara Yuri (WHO HAS A BEAUTIFUL PERSONALITY GOING BY THE QUOTE). But this list is. Well it's not legit because you can't have some people decide the PRETTIEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD so yea. But ah well! PROPS FOR HAVING ASIANS AT LEAST.

KAT-TUN HAS AN ANIME!? WHAT. WHAT.

Also IS A.B.C-Z'S DEBUT HALF-ASSED. Idk really but I just hope they do well because I like them! They're bubbly and cute and have so much fun and they're just really stupid and they make me happy! ALSO ROLLER BLADES. Let Johnny clear his junior stock if he wants to lol. They'll do well, people have been waiting for their arrival. At least I believe in it.

And an illustrated book from BREAKER'S AKIHIDE which is cool! I love it when artists and idols branch into fields not within their own spectrum (: Also the art is cute.

KI/OON CONCERT. Guys this is weird but Ki/oon is one of my FAVOURITE RECORD LABELS. A weird sentence, yes, but srzly! I also love gr8! HAHA I'm so weird omg I like record labels but yea I'm familiar with most of the Sony ones. BUT GOSH WOULD GO IF I COULD ;_;

Also this is just fucking cool haha idek anything about the drama JUST THE CLOUDS.

AND HEY GUYS an article on whitewashing, still an interesting read even if it's old news. Or so I believe.

PVs!

Chotto Matte Kudasai! - S/mileage
LOL THE SONG TITLE. Omg their clothes lol. OMG HAHA THEY LOOK SO HAPPY. Someone just graduated from S/mileage. LOLOL WTF THE SONG HAHAHAHA. THEY ARE RAINBOW-COLOURED. Also the song AND EVEN THE PV TBQH has a slightly retro feel to it. ALSO WHAT IS WITH THE SMASHED AGAINST GLASS THING HAHAHA. HAHA SOMEONE WAS OFF AT THE CHORUS. I can recognise the faces of some of them now HAHA maybe I should learn their names. THE CHOREO IS TERRIBLE LOL BUT OMG. THEY'RE SO HAPPY. HAHAHAHAHA FUCK I CAN'T. HAHAHAHA I JUST. IT'S FUN BUT LOL IT'S KINDA BAD TOO BUT OH GOSH. HAHAHA THE GIRL IN LIGHT BLUE KEEPS MISSING THE CHORUS she looks at the girl to her left before continuing HAHA. HAHAHA SO CUTE THOUGH. The bridge lol WHAT. LOLOL I LIKE THE GIRL IN PURPLE HAHAHA. HAHAHAHA THEIR HEADS WHEN THEY SING "CHOTTO MATTE KUDASAI".

PyokoPyoko Ultra - Momusu.
I. AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS I HEARD IT WAS TERRIBLE. ARE THEY CHICKS!? HAHA. OMG HAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT. HAHAHAH WHAAAT. OKAY YES THEY ARE LOL ALSO WHAT. WHAT. I'M SO CONFUSED WHAT PROGRAM DID THEY USE FOR THE SCENE WHERE THEY WALK THROUGH SOME FOREST. HAHAHAHA I CAN'T. The song's quite cute though! Is pyoko pyoko some bird call LOL. OMG WHAT. HAHA THE PV CONFUSES ME. But it's not terrible JUST STRANGE. LIKE SOMEONE CAME UP WITH 5 CONCEPTS AND WASN'T SURE WHAT TO DO WITH THEM SO JUST USED ALL OF THEM. IN ONE PV. Omg SERIOUSLY WHAT POGRAMME ARE THEY USING LOL. THE CHORUS IS GOOD THOUGH I LOVE IT. LOL WHAT DID THEY DO WITH THE LAST CHORUS THOUGH THE VOCAL EFFECTS HAHA. Omg someone's obviously the queen chick LOL. ALL THE FEATHERS. I CAN'T STAND THE CHA-AH-AH-AH THING IT SOUNDS LIKE A VIDEO GAME EFFECT HAHA WHEN YOU DO THE SUPER POWER. LOLOL THE CODE CHOREO. Anticlimactic ending LOL. I preferred the Shining Butterfly thing though? Although. Notably by DREAM Momusu and not Momusu. H!P confuses me.

Love Heaven - D☆Date
HATE TYPING THEIR NAME. I hate PVs that start silent too HAHA makes me turn my volume up. This guy looks a bit like Seto Koji o.o BUT NOT BAD it's catchy. OMG THEY'RE ACTUALLY IN SYNC HAHA. IT'S GOOD THOUGH. Omg that second half of the chorus though that may not be a good range for them. THEY HAVE A MISBALANCED V. Omg their dance and formations are good I'M IN SHOCK. I don't expect synchrony like this from anyone short of EXILE. Omg he just. CRUSHED AN APPLE. Also very カッコイイ (NO ENGLISH EQUIVALENT).　The dance break though don't like the music LOL dubstep. OMG SHIT THE FLIPPING THE GUY AND SLIDING THING WAS DAMN COOL. Okay the transition from bridge to chorus was awk. HAHA HAVING FUN WITH EFFECTS. I'm impressed! I don't think I've seen them before hmm. LOL THE ENGLISH AT THE END THOUGH. But ending formation is cool. I like this!
ETA: SETO KOJI CLONE WAS... SETO KOJI. I SUCK SORRY SETO D:

Silvia - amu
amu's apparently from Nico Nico. but I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HIM. Omg rock. LOL I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS FROM THE PREVIEW PIC ON THE VIDEO. Plus I know nothing about him? Oh he's so. Sensual with the mic HAHA. They keep doing partial shots of his face! But apparently he's never shown his face so. The lighting obscures it fairly well. His voice is good though, I like it. Smooth and powerful and he can scream smoothly! Js I hope that though he's gone major (? I presume?) he'll be able to stick to his musical roots. The guitar and bass in this is sick js. (I NEVER SAY SICK IN A POSITIVE CONTEXT.) Omg I'm so into the instrumental HAHA. This is why solo artists don't suit rock. Hey effective autotune, helloooo. Reminds me of GLaDOS when she was breaking down. And minimal too! I definitely like this.But if he's indies I'll be too tired to find out more LOL. I'M SO INTO THE MUSIC. Also he's very loooong :D I like it!

Just went on the UVERforum for the first time in months and it's dead. And gone. Maybe I should really join the Chinese site. Posts from 2008 were being bumped, I was just. Sigh.

The admin's changed, though, and I like her, she's one of the people who've been there since 2008 (when I started) but idk. UVERfandom's definitely changed, but I still love UVERworld like crazy but I've been so inactive in fandom after fandom... just. Withered away, in a sense.

It's not that UVERworld isn't popular - just not internationally. They're known, at the very most, for doing the theme song for a million animes (Bleach, D.Gray Man, Ao no Exorcist) but not enough for anyone to be a huge fan, as big as we are.

This is all very distressing.

WELL not watching Freeter I guess. I need sleep. Also NazoDi won't get into my HDD WHY IS THIS SO.

UM GUYS I'M BACK TO NINO.

EVERYTHING. THE COMMENTARY OMG. "HERE HAVE MY FACE" HAHAHAHHA I CAN'T. I CAN'T. ALSO THAT GIF OF NINO WITH THAT BABY IS MY FAVOURITE EVER. The kid just feeds him and POURS FOOD ALL OVER HIM and Nino TRIES TO CLEAN UP, SAYS IT'S DELICIOUS, AND MAKES WEIRD FACES AT THE KID. I CAN'T. BABY FOOD ALL OVER HIS FACE AND THE CARPET. I JUST. OH NINO.

YOU SAID YOU DON'T LIKE CHILDREN WELL THAT IS A DEMISE UPON THE WORLD (though seriously Ohmiya and kids? THE BEST. "GAHHH CHILDREN - OH GOD OKAY BEING A GREAT BABYSITTER BRB")

Also guys I HAVE A THING FOR NINO'S FACE. Not like you guys didn't know that. BUT HIS FACE. And his eyes! His eyyyes. Also Nino's moles. HIS FACE IN GENERAL?

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NOT COHERENT TODAY.

2012-01-12T07:34:00.000-08:00

Um guys I have the weirdest ever confession to make.

I'm kind of in Bio RA.

UM. UM. I DON'T. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS HAPPENED OKAY but omg it just did now I'm kind of torn and gosh I need to talk to someone stat! (Unfortunately everyone I know happens to be a genius and doesn't give me accurate information! I fully blame Juls and Wn for landing me in this state lol if not I wouldn't have signed up for some Raffles Academies and I also would not have been falsely assured that it's perfectly plausible to take up SYFC while in JC.)

Okay tbh I'm really okay with this but it is jarring because I am possibly the least smart person I know and you don't see non-smart people in RA! And it's ya oh gosh how am I al;sdjflkasjf;ljdas;lfkjdas okay. I really can't blog about this right but I know all the pros and cons of this and in the end I'm going to take it I know because I really really do like bio and it's such a waste if I don't, fate has given me a chance I might as well take it right? I mean like ): I'm so not-smart oh gosh okay I really need to stop talking and thinking about this I really go into a state of panic every time haha after the briefing I was just like FUCK FUCK FUCK and I had to put Niji on repeat and I still felt like my heart was going to leap out my throat and I should not be this nerve-wracked but I AM. NOT SMART.

Oh gosh I am going to hold the form until Monday so I can think about the fact that I ACTUALLY WENT FOR THE BIO RA PLACEMENT TEST AND SUBSEQUENTLY GOT IN to the point where I stop panicking. Okay I don't think it's going to work haha fuck I just described to Cheese the worst case scenario where all my grades drop because of my ~commitments~ I quit RA and get chopped from SYFC oh gosh. Oh gosh.

You see how I blogged yesterday about being an anxious person and how it was different from being a panicker? Yep. This is me being uselessly anxious tbqh. But oh gosh I never thought I'd be this kind of person in JC or in any other learning institution (this kind of person: someone with 2 CCAs and an RA or sth) so this is like. What am I doing with my life!? Ahhhh ): Okay. Be calm.

Omg I can't bring myself to blog rn HAHA okay wait wait.

Went to school today, I LEFT MY HOUSE AT 0700 LIKE A BOSS LOL. Saw Xenia at Marymount so we walked in together!

Me: SORRY I'M KIND OF HIGH.
Xenia: No you're just how you are all the time.

Went to MPH, sat around. Um TALKS. HAHA. That's the main gist but well there is a lot of scariness going on haha I AM KIND OF WORRIED FOR THE WORKLOAD like you know something's bad when even the teachers are all "THIS IS GOING TO BE BAD, THE WORST OKAY." Idk I have seniors and some of them seem well-adjusted and some seemed like they were on the verge of going mad. So yea I'm just. Going to pray I end up well-adjusted LOL.

Anyways it was rather... uneventful haha. Okay I shall talk about MY 6.4 OUTING INSTEAD :D

HAHA anyway reached Tanah Merah at like... 1715? LOL Claire came to fetch me, then got there and played murderer HAHA. And well DID A LOT OF STUPID THINGS LIKE TRIED TO PLAY CAPTAIN'S BALL ON THE ROAD AND ALMOST GOT RUN DOWN, then decided to play DOUBLE WHACKO ON THE ROOF. I can't stand us lol we're so amazing. It was kinda hilarious though!

Um tbh I'm really glad I went because I was kinda hesitant at first but it was really nice to see them after so long (FOUR YEARS GUYS) and I can stand around and pretend to be nostalgic about RGS with my classmates, but when you're talking about something that happened literally half a decade ago you suddenly realise that this is what the bittersweetness of memory is like. All the things we went through, so ridiculous and stupid! Gosh.

Also guys guys! THE BOYS ARE FUCKING TALL. Although I am still taller than some of them and I was the tallest girl there lolol. And the girls all look the same but WELL YUI FAI'S HAIR HAHAHA I was so stunned! (Qian Hui: ... OH MY GOD YOU'RE YUI FAI!? Omg throughout the entire day I was wondering HEY WHO IS THIS GUY omg you're YUI FAI!?) HAHA I JUST.

Also an amazing moment: while playing double whacko, Irene was whacking and we got into a frenzy of shouting and pointing, and she was running around like mad and Joel shouted GOT BOMB GOT BOMB!! and bent over with his arms over his head, AND IRENE COMPLIED. HAHAHHAHA. JUST. I COULDN'T.

We swapped and updated numbers so now I have their updated numbers :D♥ Planning to go out again soon! And I guess I'd really thought 4 years of never-speaking would have eroded our bonds, but just. Oh 6.4'07♥

And Sarah! Gosh I can't believe she's leaving, again, but. I'm happy for her, but at the same time ridiculously sad because gosh, why? But of course I'm happy for her and I love her and I wish her the best, the absolute best because I love Sarah ♥

Anyway it's been a long day, and I'm going to sleep now although my hair is still slightly damp. NIGHTS ♥

2012-01-11T01:16:00.001-08:00

FLIGHT DNCO SIGH.

Okay I totally woke up late ughhh then rushed out of the house and got to SYFC like, 8min late? OTL. FORTUNATELY (okay not really but given the circumstances and that we eventually took off) we had to hold take off 'cos of the weather (it was very drab and gray). Checked my stuff again, plane changed to Foxtrot 'cos Juliet had ome engine problem or something. (Also I think Foxtrot was suspicious people kept asking Raman how the plane was hurm.)

So after a while suddenly De Witt said "GO. GO FLY!" and the entire Ops Room cleared out HAHA then there was this general rush of activity as we all ran out to do checks. Aparently shortly after that Raman came out and said "WEATHER LIKE THAT HOW TO FLY" and went back in then we got called back LOL.

So yea we just hoboed around a bit more then again "GO FLY!" and there was another flurry of activity as we all went to do checks again lolol. But this time we could actually fly! Oh yeaaa.

Js I was number 5 for taxi and instantly I was like FUCK. I didn't even know how I managed lol but yea MADE IT IN THE END, JUST BARELY. Also I think Raman and Liew KP taxi very differently lol JUST SAYING. Like it's the same plane! How different can stepping on brakes be! APPARENTLY, VERY. But yea I was a bit uncomfortable at first but when I taxied back it was okay. Also when I R/Ted for taxi to Bravo Ground was like "WELL, BRAVO'S CLOSED." and I just blanked out confused so I requested Alpha instead although I SERIOUSLY DID NOT UNDERSTAND HOW I COULD CLIMB/DESCEND IN ALPHA. Plus there were like tons of planes going out today so yeaaa.

SO ANYWAY followed through take off, then after that when we were over Seletar Island I reached up to change frequency (Raman was flying most of it anyway) and Raman stopped me, then he R/Ted to ATC to land 'cos the weather sucked (too many clouds) and Bravo was closed so I couldn't do my air exercise.

WELL, FUCK.

Also ATC was fucking confused that day lol there was a lot of activity though I kept waiting for everyone to stop talking to I could R/T (plus I was trying to listen out lolol I AM LEARNING TO BE A CONSCIOUS PERSON) but they just rambled on and onnn. But yea they thought me and Raman were doing circuits and cleared us for circuits and Raman was like "I'M LANDING" and we were super close to the ground SO YEA.

For some strange reason Raman requested WHISKEY ONE (I was like WAIT WHAT SERIOUSLY!?) but yea it was to point out stuff to me and familiarise myself with the airfield layout and to let me practise taxiing! And yea taxiing back was not bad this round I think! But yea managed to make it back and there were no marshallers so we had to request one.

ANYWAY so summary of what I did lol: TOOK OFF, LANDED. Ide.

Also I screwed up my checks! I kept lagging in between and had to be prompted a lot sigh I lack initiative ): And I kept missing stuff my brain seriously cmi today. My R/T was off also 'cos of brain cmi-ing lol and also PANICKING. Haha fuck seriously ATC was super busy today so I just sat there waiting and became a ball of nerrrrves. Plus when unconventional things happen I just blank out so yea AHH.

Next flight must do WAY better >< Must call Ops again over the weekend book next week's flights in a confused manner haha and also HOPEFULLY FLYING ON FRIDAY. Although I'm going to have to literally RUN OUT OF RJ HAHA we end at 1515 I must reach SYFC by... 1550. HAHA FUCK the van comes at 1530 okay I'm going to cab (TAXI HAHAHA) there if I fly on Friday.

THE WORST PART IS THAT. The weather isn't even that bad haha by 3rd wave it was perfect so ya. Oh well ): (Also I have clocked a lot of hours for 4 flights lol oops.)

BUT YEA okay going to have to mug harder and BE LESS OF A NERVOUS WRECK.

OH ALSO RELEVANT. I broke my nail on the plane! Ide. I think it was when draining fuel I couldn't. Now my nails are all short ahhh ):

很想知道你近况我听人说还不如你对我讲
(GUESS WHO'S GOING ON AN AHMEI BINGE. Oh Ahmei you are flawfree.)

OH MY GOD GUYS GUYS F4 IS REUNITING FUCK OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD YES ABSOLUTELY YES OH GOSH GOSH AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH FUCK.

ALSO GUYS I am ridiculously sure that Arashi has worn the exact same outfits on some Music show! FNS LAST YEAR. YES. LOL OKAY MAYBE NOT THE SAME THE SAME BUT YA.

Firefox update makes it so that I have to type in my html on Blogger! WHY, FIREFOX ): Oh well I'll get used to NOT PRESSING CTR+I.

I was supposed to mug and clear my room today then I thought about how there was school tomorrow and was like "bitch, please. NO." HAHA SO YEA ON MY LAPTOP :D

Time isn't slipping away. It's. Gone. ):

ALSO ADORABLE AND AMAZING :D

JUST SAYING I dreamt I was with KARA yesterday lolol they were rehearsing Mister and Nicole forgot her lines or rather she mixed up the Korean and Japanese and we had to use the internet to search up the lyrics using Jessie's computer. (Jessie you appear a lot in my dreams js.)

I HAVE. STRANGE DREAMS.

Omg guys. SNaPP |:

Oricon continues to be boring. ): Though: Oricon loves DBSK! THEY ARE NOW KPOP GUYS. But were they very active? I thought KARA was more active.

GUYS TOKYO JIHEN IS DISBANDING MAI CREYS I didn't even get to fully appreciate them! Ughhh ;_; Shiina will still be around, of course, but I like the slightly rockish sound of Tokyo Jihen.

ALSO some movie award AKA MOVIES I WILL SAVE IN MY BRAIN AND WATCH EVENTUALLY :D

Matsui Sakiko's piano is actually really good! I like it. I HOPE SHE GETS A PIANO ALBUM. Piano is always amazing. And she's really good gosh :D♥

LOLOL I THOUGHT HOW LOW COULD THE RATINGS GET BUT APPARENTLY THE ANSWER IS NOT VERY. But yea taigas rate well! But gosh the cast is stellar. I'D WATCH IT AND I DISLIKE TAIGA. But apparently it was COMING OF AGE DAY so yea all is fine!

ALSO HEY NEW DRAMA AND I WOULD WATCH THIS IF IT'S REALISTIC. I just. Like the idea of managing idols okay and RIVALRY. OH GOOOSH.

PVs~

MILKY BUNNY'S ZURUI YO
WHO IS MILKY BUNNY? GOOD QUESTIONS. Also there is a moon! :D Omg the PV is gorgeous. Effects, sets, and lighting all combined. And she has bunny ears. Well. Hey her voice isn't bad. Oh gosh I love the PV it actually has a theme and isn't just PRETTY. And her makeup! Omg the video is super out of sync LOL. Her makeup makes her look like. A dead bride. In the sense that she's gorgeous but so pale and gaunt! But her makeup in the moon bunny scenes (!!!) makes her just look pretty. Oh gosh the reflected shadow!I quite like the song! Um I LOVE songs with dramatic strings so! And the PV's really pretty. I quite like this! Oh gosh I love the final chorus the layering of her voice so that there's 2 melody lines that actually work with each other. Omg her circle lenses though o.o

NMB48's Junjou U-19
I thought the U-19 was some undergirls thing? Idk if it is. They're doing the school concept like SERIOUSLY. Also it's a really short PV is this just a preview? OMG WHY IS THERE A CREEPY CLOWN O.O JUMPING OUT OF A CLOSET. WHAT. Omg the lights are psychedelic. Lolol their outfits though. I'd like it if it weren't gold. And it's all the same! Not like AKB's. AND SHIT THE MARCHING DAMN SYNC. Is this some circus theme! Idk if the PV LQ or the lighting REALLY SUCKS. Are the stuntspeople actually from NMB if yes I'm rather impressed. Wha when the lights are bar seriously cannot see ANYTHING. OH it's just. THIS SHORT O.O

GUYS OMG I JUST REALISED GOOD LUCK!! IS ABOUT FUCKING BEING A PILOT HAHAHAHA. GONNA WATCH IT :D

REMIND ME NTO TO WATCH FANVIDS THIS YEAR I always get inevitably engrossed in them and just ONE MORE VIDEO, ONE MORE oops it's 3am.

OMG. The (Shipped) Gold Standard.

I MAY HAVE FOUND ANOTHER FOB SONG I LOVE, BOTH MUSICALLY AND LYRICALLY. I also love Pretty in Punk js but it was an acquired love, musically. But the lyrics! Oh gosh.

I wanna scream 'I love you' from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song

Omg I feel. Inspired by this song and inspiration's a hard feeling to come by. Gosh.

ours has a good country feel! Like it's countryish enough, but not too much (e.g. Picture to Burn). She has such pretty lyrics I can't. I love Taylor's shots with her and her various boyfriends, they're always so cute! And gosh when she leaves waving to strangers! AND OKAY HER BOYF JUST CAME BACK FROM THE ARMY AND OH MY GOD ;_; Okay now I'm really sad gosh this is beautiful ;_; Oh Taylor Swift.

OMGOMG PERFECT.

I am going to sleep now SCHOOL I AWAIT YOU.

(I LIED. WELL. NOT SURPRISING.)

Also oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh of all the thoughts I have ever had about them I don't think this one ever existed but gosh. That is fabulous. The moment I heard it I saw it, because the little fucker is a panicker, just that he doesn't show it because he is a fucker. And I'm a panicker too, but well I never thought of it as a ~connection~ and more importantly I forgot how much this can control my life, and not just in the most banal of ways but it's literally an undercutting current throughout my life and I'm beginning to think my diction is gettin inaccurate. I'm really excited okay! Oh fuck. And while I am a panicker to the extreme degree and others most likely aren't so it's still a very relevant part of life.

Sometimes I forget that being a panicker doesn't necesitate that someone also must have low self-esteem and be constantly anxious. Anxiety is something I would think is altogether different from panicking; anxiety makes you think up horror stories before the first page even starts, panic makes you absorb reality in a sudden shock when you're at the climax. I'm panicky and anxiety-prone, which means that I am just a wreck, but most people are panickers or calm people, and sometimes I miss out on it because I'm too busy creating falsities in my head that never will happen.

Panicking. Which is honestly really fucking interesting. Fight or flight - it's a crazy part of our mind and while we always expound endlessly on other emotions, we never really look at panic. Maybe because it's such a fleeting moment and such a seemingly mundane moment in retrospect. But there's so much which panic causes - irrational decisions, hesitant action, mindless flailing - which can actually make it a ridiculously large (and perhaps overbearing) part of our lives.

Oh gosh. I'm just. AHHH.

I usually hate talking about anxiety and panic but someone just shed new light on the topic for me and just yes yes yes yes to all the meta.

2012-01-10T05:05:00.000-08:00

@pearl: PEARL. LET US MIGRATE TO FRANCE TOGETHER. Eh now I regret not taking H2 French leh HOW. This was not supposed to happen! (Then again if I took H2 French I'd have to let go of a subject and I WANT ALL THE SUBJECTS OKAY, ALL OF THEM.)

SO GUESS WHOSE FLIGHT GOT CANCELLED ):

I'm flying 2nd wave tomorrow. Was supposed to fly with Raman (!) today on Kilo, but ah well. Flyng Juliet tomorrow with Raman then. He's quite nice but idk I FELT PRESSURISED idk why but like before my flight I was seriously super nervous like QUAVERING IN MY SEAT AND UNABLE TO BREATHE PROPERLY nervous lolol when I was practising R/T I kept saying "SELETAR TOWER" JUST REPEATEDLY. Hui Xian demonstrates what it's like to be a nervous wreck, part 1249380123984. And well it's okay to be nervous but I really haven't reacted to having a flight this badly since like, my 1st 2 sorties? WELL. Also more on Raman: I get super flustered when he asks me questions and idk the answer to them lolol AHHHH.

So yea wasted a good 2h+ of my day at SYFC? I left my house at 1445 and got home at like 1730 lol ALMOST 3h. Sighhh.

ALSO went to OH today! BIGGER WASTE OF MY TIME I CAN'T. I walked past FIVE GATES to get to the first open one I just. WHAT. Sigh. RJ your Open House not open enough ;_; Joined the class halfway on some tour and guys WE MUST HAVE WEEKLY GATHERINGS TO PLAY UNO OKAY. HAHA also looked at performances and CCA booths! Um, I still have no CCA. Also all our seniors are scattered in various CCAs and they're all different because our CCA was THE LOSER CCA LOL. As much as I love us!

So yea um I am still going to join some club and pray that my life be good okay.

ALSO GUYS anyone wants to go to Singapore Airshow with me! SYFC is bringing some of us on the private days but well IT IS A FRIDAY AND SOME PEOPLE LIKE ME HAVE SCHOOL ): Sighhh.

Just saying I don't feel like school is coming soon at all? Maybe because um I HAVE A FLIGHT TOMORROW sigh.

And my brother sucks at math I'm resorting to kiddish techniques which involve using fucking PAPER MODELS sigh brother please ;_; Omg okay he still didn't get it I can't stand this fuck seriously!?

Also fuck I just got a sore throat sigh sigh how to R/T tomorrow ):

Okay I have had enough of being frustrated going off and gonna fandom and calm the fuck dooown.

Omg some fic writers really do deserve all the awards ;_; Gosh I really thought it would be bad but I'm so glad I gave it a shot.

Okay this is just terrible news why are people celebrating this!? I mean he's a douche but still. Gosh I wish they managed to stop him :/ (also it sounds suspicious but.)

IN FAR BETTER NEWS THIS IS THE COOLEST EVER OMG. How are they gonna fit all the voices though! BUT STILL :D

UM GUYS this drama sounds really cool but Fujiwara... I've really given up on him lol. But it sounds really cool.

PVs!

Kikkawa Yuu's Early Snow
I CAN NEVER ADD EXCLAMATION MARKS TO THE PV TITLES BECAUSE I WANT TO KNOW IF THEY ACTUALLY HAVE PUNCUTATION IN THE NAME. And omg HER RED NOSE :D But I don't like. The song. Lol her voice is too... yea. Also this is really late for a winter single! Especially one titled EARLY SNOW. It's very pretty though! I like the lighting and colouring in this one. She looks like my idea of a satisfied little Japanese girl with dreams and faith and love js HAHA. LOLOL THE CLOWN NOSE. So cuuuute. She is VERY IDOL. I can see people flailing and giffing every moment of this HAHA and it's very pretty! I don't really like this song though her voice is too nasal. Also Early Snow is a B-side with a PV!? O.O But it's not extremely high budget I think but the filters are def pretty! The PV has too much random scenery lol like it's just random! Pretty but no purpose. Omg the snowing part! FINALLY. It's. CGI snow though lol. But Kikkawa's convincing LOL the way she stares around herself in wonder. LOLOL HER FAACE.

Acid Black Cherry's Yes
This was some thing ABC did, they put up the full PV on their channel for a limited time for their fans or something. It's. Gone now. But I'm really skilled at internetting, okay. I like this! The little girl looks like a really young KojiHaru o.o People say ABC always comes up with the same old stuff but idk maybe I haven't heard too much! But this is a slower song and I like it! Omg she tied a red ribbon on his hair HAHA. Okay the girl closeup is really gaunt o.o Also how does he get his hair like that. I don't think the focus is spread well. Too much on the vocals. Okay the girl is a little skeletal even. I like songs like this though! Omg what's happening THE GIRL IS BEING TORN AWAY FROM THE VOCALIST D: They rock the classy look. Classy but still rocker. A good combination in all :D The girl's in white now! Oh gosh I LOVE ROCK BALLADS instrumental solo! They always have a good melody and amazing instrumentals to go with it and it's very emotionally-wrenching. Oh the girl got back! Okay idk how to describe what's happening but SO SWEET ;_; Omg I thought he disappeared lol LQ. OH it was. A. Not a dream but like! SHE WAS IN HOSPITAL. AHH. ;_;

the pillows's Trial
GUYS s's or s'. That is a lot of snow. And a very old looking parchment. LOL ARE THEY REALLY WEARING KNIT SWEATERS. OKAY FLAWFREE. The guitar... okay it almost got annoying! I quite like this. It's kind of soothing rock. And I swear I've heard this! I'm not tempted to keep watching the PV though hmmm. But they look into the music and I like the song! Ahh the solo isn't bad, it suits the rest of the song but isn't too slow or boring. THey keep reusing the "FILM HIM THROUGH THE WINDOW" thing, it was cool at first but got old fast. But I like the song!

CHIHIRO's Eien feat. Tarantula
What is J-urban exactly? And there's a story! Her voice is very stacatto o.o Okay main roles are this waiter and waitress and the waiter just got scolded lol. SO OBVIOUSLY IN LOVE. Idk I don't like the way she ends her sentences. AND TARANTULA'S HAT IS RIDICULOUS MAY I HAVE IT. Oh there is a COMPETITION. AND DECORATIVE COFFEE! LOLOL THIS IS TOO TYPICAL. I like the shots with CHIHIRO and Tarantula! It's simple but pretty. I KNEW TARANTULA WOULD RAP. But he sang too and their harmony wasn't bad! I don't think the rap goes well with the instru though. OH I don't think she's fully Japanese. Well. Now they're arguing. I WANT THAT GUY'S HAT I CAN'T. They're picking clothes? I'm so confused. I didn't see what the contest was for. There's some effects on the vocals that doesn't work :/ Oh she won I think. Maybe it was a job interview actually. She's happy and he's sad. OH. OR A SCHOLARSHIP. OH OH SHE'S A MODEL! Omg no wonder. She looks like a cross between like Takeuchi Yuko and Yoshitaka Yuriko or something LOL. Oh she went to buy coffee - OMG SO CUTE HE DECORATED THE COFFEE TO SHOWCASE HIS LOVE :D♥ CUTE. Song's not bad la, but not really my style...?

QUALITY POSTS.

OMFG THIS IS GORGEOUS omgomg THAT EDIT REALLY okay I will stop now.

The fact that there’s a tomorrow would make me happy.

- Ninomiya Kazunari [Popolo 11.2008]

source

I don't want my days to pass by just like that, I want to pass my days by really feeling every moment

- Matsumoto Jun [source unknown]

source

I live by the second quote. Literally. Not in a "I just saw this so I shall do so" way but in a "this has been my life motto for the past few months" way. Life is fascinating, we ought to look out and appreciate every moment of it and truly appreciate life for what it is.

And the first quote, it's pretty similar, right? Be happy about simple things - that are, in retrospect, not so simple after all.

Ugh I love these men like crazy. (OH HEY I called them men. I MEAN WELL THEY ARE MEN but because of fandom influence - most of fandom is older than them apparently - I get so used to calling them 'the boys'.)

ALSO GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT. I had this sudden revelation today that NINOMIYA FOREVER17 KAZUNARI IS ACTUALLY 29 THIS YEAR? BECAUSE IT'S 2012. AND NOT 2011. GUYS. THAT IS A BIG DEAL OKAY. HE IS ALMOST 30! Nino please look your age. (Don't feel the pressing need to act your age, though. I love you the way you are, YOU WERE BORN THIS WAY.)

ALSO RELEVANT: OHNO IS 32. WHAT.

2012-01-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

@Jessie: !! WOULD YOU. Well I can rely on wikipedia really! And I am still on an anti-downloading spree BUT MAYBE SOON ♥ JESSIE YOU ARE THE BEST THING~ THAT. ISN'T MINE. WELL.

@pearl: PEARL YOU ARE THE BEST. I WILL MEET YOU IN ONE OF THOSE TANKS SOME DAY SO YOU CAN CRACK THAT JOKE AT ME REPEATEDLY.

WOKE UP AT 0830 TO SMS CHEW LOLOLOL.

Left my house around 0940 HAHAHA AND STILL WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO REACHED ORCHARD ON TIME. My house owns everyone's ;D Waited around for Zhang and Chew and walked around! Wanted to eat ramen but it was too early LOL so we sat around and went to Bibi and Baba, only to find out that EVERYTHING WAS OUT OF STOCK. Ummmm.

SO YES ate lunch at the far east ramen place, then hoboed around ion, and went back to school to receive results!

Met Cheese in school, got my bag from her!

Me: ... It's a bag.
Cheese: Ya.
Me: Like seriously seriously a bag.
Cheese: Yup.
Me: Not a goodie bag? But a really bag?
Cheese: YUP.

LOLOLOL MY LIFE.

Got results! Just wanted to say right here: serious respect for all the people who took all 10 papers. I barely survived, and I took all of TWO PAPERS. Good on you guys -PATS BACK- (ALSO GUYS I am on the 6.4'07 facebook page and IRENE IS A GENIUSSSSS.)

So anyway, got an A2 for French and B3 for Chinese.

Me: I AM A SHAME TO THE CHINESE RACE.
Mom: YOU'RE CHINESE!?

PEOPLE I LOVE A LOT: MY MOM LOLOLOL.

ANYWAY AFTER THAT GOT THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE.

Mom: Are you coming back soon? Your cousin just gave birth.
Me: WHAT IN THE ACTAL FUCK!?!?

UM SO YA SUPER EXCITED! I mean I'm really kinda super close to my cousins so yea I was excited for her birth because she's my cousin, and also because GUYS GUYS IS BIRTH NOT MAGICAL AND MIRACULOUS AND ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS ABOUT LIFE? No? Okay ): So yea I was seriously super excited and obviously I had to go see her so I skipped out on class chalet to see her.

AND GOSH THE BABY WAS ADORABLEEEE he's so tiny! But apparently my mom says he's normal-sized haha BUT HIS HEAD IS AS BIG AS MY PAAALM. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE. lksdjflkjdla;kdjf -wibbles- Also he threatened to start crying multiple times but he didn't cry in the end! :D When Edwyn and Ezann came in they were all so fond and IT WAS JUST REALLY CUTE OKAY :D♥

ALSO I got gastric pains? Like I was already getting a little in school but it got worse and worse. It wasn't really bad though, just uncomfortable as fuckkk but yea. OH WELL I AM MUCH BETTER NOW.

WELL was considering blogging this in Chinese but SINCE I CANNOT SPEAK CHINESE. C'est okay. Peut-être tu pense que c'est le fin, mais il y aurait plus qui arrivent. Je ne sais pas exactement comment te dire, et il paraît que je n'ai pas le droit te dire au ce sujet, mais sache, au moins, que je te soutenir et je t'aime. ♥

THINGS I AM DOING TOMORROW:
- Open House? WHAT TIME.
- Bringing my bro home from school
- Mugging SYFC!
- SORTIE 5 AHHH CLIMBING DESCENDING ): ):

Idek how I'm going to squeeze all that into one day without something clashing LOL.

Also gosh why do you have the most darling quotes ever, that don't even have a discernible source and this I suspect is because it came from your brain, yourself, and I am infinitely jealous of that because I could only wish to string together sentences that others would want to quote. (There is also this major tiny problem that I haven't spoken to you in ages and probably never want to again, but gosh. I'd die for your literary ability.)

I REALISE I BLOG A LOT OF THINGS THAT COULD BE TERRIBLY MISINTERPRETED.

OH GOSH CAN I JUST TALK ABOUT TAYLOR SWIFT. HAHAHA.

And you stood there in front of me, just close enough to touch / Close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of

OKAY I TYPED OUT A PARAGRAPH WHICH VERY FANNISHLY BROKE DOWN THOSE 2 LINES AND IT COULD'VE BEEN A FUCKING LITERARY ESSAY BUT I DEEMED IT TOO FANNISH AND HOPELESSLY ROMANTIC TO PUBLISH ON MY BLOG. But basically I love that the line plays with the word 'close', because closeness could be physical or emotional, and I love that there is this ridiculous notion that telepathy is correlated to physical distance, and I love that there is this degree of closeness that could make you feel that the above ridiculous notion is actually not-so-ridiculous, and I love that although the ~protagonist~ is vulnerable and open and being mind-read by her partner she just stays there and makes no motion to move and leeaves herself unguarded and that is trust to the largest degree.

UM I JUST. REWROTE EVERYTHING I THOUGHT ABOUT but far less fannishly! I am. Still a hopeless romantic. Lolol my life. Guys if someone ever asks you if I'm a hopeless romantic WOULD YOUR ANSWER BE YES OR NO JW.

Oh gosh guys you know what I love a lot? TAYLOR SWIFT'S LYRICS. I always wonder to myself IS THIS A BAD DECISION then I go listen to a bunch of Taylor and decide NO THIS IS THE BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE.

ALSO MINE. Which is just beautiful as a song. Oh gosh have I mentioned I really, really like Mine? No? Okay I REALLY LOVE MINE LIKE CRAZY.

OKAY OKAY I AM GOING TO STOP NOW. ONWARDS TO FANDOM. ONWARDS TO BEING MORE FANNISH. HAHAHA I'M SO EXCITED GUYS BEING FUCKING FANNISH!

OMG GUYS MATSUKEN AND KOYUKI'S CHILD IS BORN!!! AHHHH. ALSO KOYUKI CONTINUES TO ACT. EVERYTHING IS PERFECT :D♥

OH HOHO DRAMA RATINGS DRAMA. LOLOL. NTV's on top WHICH IS SURPRISING TO ME. I thought Fuji TV would get it but NTV HAS KASEIFU NO MITA. Which is apparently really really good. BUT GUYS LONG VACATION OKAY.

Sasshi's a new soloist AND WELL. NOT REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS. What about my AKB power vocals! LISTEN TO THIS. TALENT IN AKB EXISTS, OKAY.

Also this. It's just wrong. I mean comfort women are a terrible thing, but you shouldn't have to do terrible things to try to make it right :/ I love the world but sometimes, really.

GOING TO WATCH PVs TOMORROW I THINK :D

Omg. You have no idea how long I've been waiting for this.

Thanks. Thanks.

We have the kind of fucked up relationship where we can't connect, where I won't let us connect, but. My train of thought is all screwed up right now I really can't.

Thanks. Gosh I'm a wreck right now but really thanks.

Don't worry and I will and I love you too and really. Don't worry. Not for me and not for yourself.

2012-01-07T23:25:00.000-08:00

Well. Someone's reached a new low. I applaud you. -slow clap- Honestly there is no need to worry to much for yourself right now, because if your goal is to remove judgement, it's too late. Everyone is judging you.

ANYWAY yesterday went for BBQ with my family at JURONG. HAHA damn far away and one of my cousins was taking forever to come because he apparently drove at 50km/h LOLOL. But yea just! DID RIDICULOUS THINGS WITH THE KIDS. Was put on toddler-sitting duty quite a lot of the time, and talked a lot with my rather smart (but also rather selfish) niece, who, in response to "moon!" said "MOONCAKE". It was rather enjoyable :D

ALSO people were flying kites because there was this huge open field in the middle of Jurong, and they kept the kites up at night. It was gorgeous. Because we were at Jurong, and there's a lot of aircraft around there, they have this regulation that you must put lights on your kites if you're flying them at night, and there was just this huge gathering of lights in the sky where the wind was blowing. Gorgeous (: Someone near us also let up this kite which made a lot of noise and attracted the attention of all the kids on the playground :D Unfortunately I didn't bring my own camera (BLAST MYSELF FOR FORGETTING) and my cousin's camera reallllly sucked, so I didn't get any photos ):

As it was cloudless early in the night, I spent a lot of time just gazing out at the sky. Didn't spot the Evening Star until the sky was dark, because the orientation of the night sky was very different from what I expected it to be. But I saw Orion again! And because I just talked to someone about stars the day before, I figured out where Sirius and Aldebaran were as well (: A while later the clouds rolled in and masked all the stars, but the moon's light gave it this halo, and if you stared close enough (and I always try to stare close enough) you could make out that the edge had a rainbow hue to it ♥

Also, today is 十五, which means the moon will be full tonight :D

I don't know if this is sensical but I think my new obsession is with things in the sky. Someone posted this on 188's Facebook page: "For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return." It's a quote from Leornado da Vinci and it just. I've always been oddly fascinated by the sky, but now even more so. I just. Yea.

I have a new resolution to bring my camera everywhere because the world is beautiful and I want to immortalise as much of it as possible. I've left the camera in my bag for the past few weeks already, but obviously it's not enough.

And I thought this to myself the other day: you are the sky and I'm grounded by my fears. Which is a nonsensical thought but not really. I don't have a lot of time left and I feel like I'm wasting it away and letting it slip past and. Well. I'm going to regret this in the end but I'd rather regret it this way than any other way. Don't get me wrong though, I'm crazy happy for you. It's just the selfish side of me speaking.

And I'm dying to know, is it killing you like it's killing me?

SO ANYWAYS. I finished The Colour of Magic yesterday!

It... wasn't as good as I expected it to be. I don't know why but I found it rather tedious to finish this book, and my brain felt like it was moving sluggishly all throughout it. Terry Pratchett is a fucking genius, and he is hilarious, but I guess the pace of my brain couldn't match up. He is honestly amazing though ("I assure you the thought never even crossed my mind, Lord." "Indeed? Then if I were you I'd sue my face for slander.")

Also Discworld is an incredible world.

But like I said: nothing really struck me about it. Reading Pratchett to me is mostly for entertainment, and I suppose I was difficult to entertain with my mental slothing and general bitterness recently.

IN ANY CASE. I didn't love it, but it was definitely enjoyable! I may have been a bitch to entertain but Pratchett still made me laugh out loud too much.

I've read The Light Fantastic but I can't seem to remember any of it! I may borrow it again since I still have some time and now I appreciate the nuances of Discworld better. It's a fascinating world, definitely :D I shall set about reading all of it!

I recently renewed Grotesque and the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. Groteque is going to take forever to finish, so I may not borrow another book. I didn't renew In The Miso Soup, because well. I wasn't really interested, oops, and also because I see it on the shelves all the time anyway, I figured it'll be easy enough to find. So yea I shan't borrow anything!

It's a shame really. I spent so much time not on books these few weeks. ): I need to read more.

I JUST CHALLENGED MYSELF TO READ 50 BOOKS THIS YEAR ON GOODREADS LOL \O/ It might be crazy but! Also I read a startling amount over the holidays, tbqh, given that I haven't read a lot recently. I like the BOOKNERD!me, really.

UM GUYS THIS IS INAPPROPRIATE BUT I JUST FOUND OUT NAKA RIISA IS GOING ON VS ARASHI? Oh. OH. LUCKY 7 TEAM. That is perfect. EVERYTHING IS PERFECT. THE WORLD IS PERFECT. Japan obviously loves me and wants me to be happy, all the time. Thank you Japan ♥

OKAY NOW I SHALL ESCAPSE AND UPDATE MYSELF ON THE ONGOINGS OF JAPANESE MUSIC AND MEDIA. GUDBAI.

思い出ずっとずっと忘れない空ふたりが離れていっても!

RABU SHO SUITO.

Um guys I am possibly the least size-conscious person I know but I just found out that my size is no longer "the smallest size you stock, please".

FORTUNATELY THAT COULD ACTUALLY BE A GOOD THING.

IN SHOPPING NEWS: Finally got my tanks, BUT I AM STILL LOOKING FOR MY SKINNIES.

ETA: CLOTHES AND THINGS I NEED/WANT
- MY SKINNIES. Or superskinnies. ORRR jeggings. Or maybe just leggings.
- SHOES. Covered shoes!
- A thin belt!

UM THAT IS ALL whoosh yayyy.

Omg gorgeous acoustic cover of Sparks Fly.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I MANAGED TO NOT MENTION THIS but I have a flight on 4th wave this Tuesday!

I AM A FAN AND I WILL BE FANNISH.

So basically, Johnny's shrine visiting! This is basicaly some HUUUGE Johnny's tradition and it's super cool haha ALL THE FANS THO. And Arashi at 0350, seriously!? ALSO LOLOL, MARY KITAGAWA HAS A NEW FAVOURITE GUYS ;D

LUCKY SEVEN CM. OMG GUYS I AM SO PUMPED FOR THIS DRAMA IDE. LOLOL JUN'S APPLICATION PHOTO. HAHA JUN'S FACE EVERYWHERE. He is such a boss lol. Omg everyone's FACES. OKAY ARASHI'S SONG GETS MORE HAMMY. WHY IS THERE BOXING. LOL JUN JYST GOT OWNED. OKAY THIS IS AMAZING I LOVE THIS. JUN CONTINUES TO MANAGE TO LOOK GOOD RUNNING. ALSO HE IS IN BED WITH SOMEONE. MATSUJUN I LOVE YOU LIKE BURNING ♥

ALSO IS IT WRONG FOR ME TO WANT TO SEE KAT-TUN GET HORRIBLY TREATED ON CAMERA :D

Ai Texas MINI PREVIEW OF MINI PREVIEWS... Did they just let us hear YamaP raw? LOL. And um. Doesn't sound like it's going to suit the funeral parlour drama. UMMM. HAHA. Also ACCHAN'S WHINING VOICE. NOT A GOOD SOUND.

Shoujo Traveler (9nine's new single) is AMAZING AND FLAWLESS. IT SOUNDS LIKE IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT I AM EXCITED. Okay if I am bowled over by this next single I'm memorising their names and becoming a huge stan. SO MUCH SPUNK.

OKAY OKAY ON TO THINGS THAT ARE ACTUALLY NEWSISH TYPE STUFFS WHICH INTERESTS ME NOT JUST IN THE PURELY GRATUITIOUS, FANNISH WAY.

HEY GUYS RIAJ TOP 100! DIGITAL FUCKING SALES. Lol MaruMori kids owning da charts. But this list is so vastly different from Oricon's! THE IMPACT OF THE DIGITAL SCENE. Uemura Kana and Ikimono be earnin', seriously. Omg why is POI POI POI POI POI POI PO PII these LOL. Omg I am tempted to translate the full list (I READ JAPANESE SO FAST NOW GUYS). Tbqh WHO IS SONAR POCKET |: HEY UVERworld IS 60 :D You only get one song through digital though.

LOLOL THIS POST. It's not even a trend! Oh Philly D. He kinda blew it up I think. But I must say some of the photos are gorgeous.

ALSO THERE IS THIS POST oh I love Arama wank. But seriously though. CANNOT WAIT FOR THE FULL THING TO COME OUT. Some of the points made are super stupid though LOL but I must say musically Japan's taste is diverse as fuck you could come up with any old shit and there's a possibility of it selling. (POINT IN CASE: AYAMAN JAPAN. I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND.) And yep everything else LOL IDE. The Kpop expert has a lot of bullshit too though and WHY MATSUKO DELUXE I get that he's famous rn but seriously! HE DOESN'T HAVE ANY LINK.

OH HEY GUYS ~CELINE~ IS APPARENTLY WRONG. LOLOL Jin and Pi are apparently still ~best friends~ HAHA.

Also PRINCESS PRINCESS MAKES A COMEBACK. ALL COMEBACKS ARE FLAWLESS OF COURSE AND YESSS :D

Um okay srzly I read this and didn't know how to feel about it? Like, well, he may have been a great personality on stage but do we really want someone who perpetuates such actions (not the yakuza but THE ABUSE) to be in the limelight? :/ I'd say stay off the camera. AND GET HELP AND STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE UGH.

BACK TO HAPPY THINGS LIKE AKB48. YUUKO'S ABOUT TO BECOME REIGNING QUEEN, BITCHES. GROVEL WHILE THERE IS STILL TIME. Mariko's Mixi numbers be MAD though.

Also there is this poll and it stunned me because WOW, AKB48 AND SURPRISINGLY NO JOHNNIES ON THE FEMALE SIDE. Takamina would be HILARIOUS tho.

AN INTERESTING POST. LGBT in Japan! But Matsuko Deluxe isn't actually transgender, he's just a very enthusiastic crossdresser. And well I'd say the situation's similar to most of Asia: we're just not receptive to the idea that queerness exists. I pray these things change soon of course, for the good of the queer people who deserve to not be judged based merely off their sexuality (:

MES PVS♥

Ayabie's Merry Go Round -Life-!
A lot of record labels have youtube, actually. Just. Not the ones we want LOL.I WANT TO HEADBANG BUT I AM EATING A BISCUIT. I love the set they're playing in front of gosh it's a little plain but TYPOGRAPHY IS MY FAVOURITE. It doesn't sound that bad but I'm not like WOW IN LOVE WITH IT. The PV is confusing - omg. WHAT. HAHA THE PV IS CONFUSING. Omg the instrumental is crazy though HEADBANGING. Okay everything confuses me lol. The vocalist is kinda cute HAHA. OKAY SOMEONE JUST GOT SHOT AT BUT IT WAS ONLY STREAMERS! HAHAHAHA WHAT.

Dream Momusu's SHINING BUTTERFLY.
THIS HAD BETTER HAVE SAID SHINING BUTTERFLIES. OMG THEIR DRESSES. I love them omg. But I assume that that will be all the butterflies I will see o.o Lol the camerawork is... I like their voices though. And omg the bells in the instrumental are beautiful. Omg there is a very squeaky person amongst them o.o But I like it! It's kinda, dramatic and epic lol. I love the way they pronounce butterfly! And omg the slits in their dresses all angled so that when the camera is at leg-level their legs are shown off rather gorgeously. Also there is SLAPPING AND FIGHTING WHAT WHAT. Some faces are familiar but I can't put a name to it. Also I quite like Dream Momusu tbqh! Omg this person's boots are GORGEOUS they flare above the knee to sllow for walking it's damn pretty! Okay there is a girl who is super fierce I like her. HAHA POURING DRINKS ON A GIFT. This is rather lulzy lol.

TOTALFAT's Good Bye, Good Luck
LOLOL IKR THEIR BAND NAME. OH. Is this. Graduation themed? There's blackboards. Ah yes it says something like 毕业 on the board I think. OH I QUITE LIKE THE SOUND. It's rockish but bubblegum at the same time. Also the PV LOL it's just this bunch of HIGH SCHOOL STEREOTYPES AND RIDICULOUS THINGS. It's a bit early for graduation songs though, right? OMG THE DRUMMER IS SO INTO IT LOL. LOLOL THE PV IS RIDICULOUS. Omg that solo lolol. Brb headbanging :D It doesn't really FEEL graduationy but I guess it's 'cos it's a rock song heh. LOLOL THE ENDING.

BLANKETS. They be comfortable.

LOLOL I'M TALKING CRAP okay going now to be up and EARLY to receive my imminent F9s. Goodnight world!

(LOL YEA I'M REALLY NOT WORRIED AT ALL. Why? WHY! I'm going to get F9s and break down and cry tomorrow.)

2012-01-06T07:38:00.000-08:00

I saw Venus and Orion tonight! ♥ The sky is cloudless.

SPEAKING OF THE SKY. Guess who touched it today! It wasn't as cloudless in the morning though, but gosh some of the clouds were crazy magnificent. There was this one which looked like a giant cat's paw threatening to bat me out of the sky.

ANYWAY flew Hotel today, and I was super nervous haha. Flew with Tan SK, which... Sim sth sth OOPS found for me. He was super nice (although I couldn't find his sticker) and yeaa (:

Okay I screwed up a bit at the start, I totally blanked out when I got to starting checks I was just like "SHIT" and I was sitting in the plane, power on, CANOPY OPENED and just being like SHIT SHIT SHITTT. HAHA FUCK then suddenly I was like OH MY GOD CANOPY, then STROBE LIGHTS, then I managed it! Also my engine failed to start because I didn't prime it enough sigh, but yea managed to taxi to Yankee right! But oh my god my R/T. I was dying haha fuck Tan SK was like "R/T now" and I was like NOW? I'M TAXIING!!! but yea did it anyway and IT IS MANAGEABLE, JUST THAT I VEERED OFF THE YELLOW LINE. HAHA. UHHHH.

I TOOK OFF GUYS! I TOOK OFF! AHHHH okay haha guys no. Also I mis-pressed the button to restart the timer and was like FUCK when I realised it wasn't keeping time in flight. BUT ANYWAY I was super nervous so I didn't rotate in time but I followed him through! He told me to do it next sortie UM GUYS. EXCITE.

ANYWAY so yea oh my god departure was killing me. He just told me to do everything, then I flaps up too early, then my navigation was REALLY SHAKY but I managed to R/T quite successfully! I screwed up my routing over Alpha though (also CLOUDS where be my landmarks under thy white fluffiness) but managed to R/T myself into Bravo without any major mishap! But yea I was panicking like crap for departure I was just like sitting there "OKAY AIRCON MASTER FLAPS OH MY GOD PASSING 400 FEET AHHHH" lkdjhfkjlsadhfkjsah.

Also my Ops Normal call, I screwed up once because I wasn't thinking, then I screwed up the call for passing 4000ft at rejoin SIGH SIGH SIGH. But yea when I got back Ops Room the FI who helped me call Tan SK said my R/T was good! I WAS. PLEASED. Also didn't get to do most of the rejoin calls because we did some strange thing and yea I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT HAPPENED but we wandered above the runway aimlessly quite a bit and my flight was 1.3 hours which is super loooong. But yea.

THE SUN WAS FUCKING BRIGHT JUST SAYING I swear you can get tanned flying.

ANYWAY air exercise itself was okay but I still have a tendency to chase instruments! Grrr. But I'm getting better at trimming and holding attitude although I can't fly straight very well! Ahhh sigh. Also I CANNOT DIVIDE ATTENTION. Did a bit of climbing descending but lolol that one I need practise confirm.

But anyway yea it was quite a cool flight! I was REALLY NERVOUS but maybe not REALLY FUCKING NERVOUS. Yeaa.

ALSO GUYS I SAW SIR LESTER LEE HAHA I walked into Ops after my flight to collect my file and then I looked up and HOLY - OH - OH MY GOD! But obvsly he didn't recognise me! So yea I just grabbed my file and ran. Saw him again in briefing room but yea HAHA I was just glaring and being like OHGODSIR HAHAHHA.

The way you move is like a full-on rainstorm, and I'm a house of cards.
(Maybe this should be a thing: separate each subject of blogging with Taylor Swift lyrics!)

SO anyway got the JIP schedule and sigh some days are just a waste of time. Like I end at 0855 on one day and start at 0855 for another like whut. Also I highlighted everything I must go for! GUESS WHO'S EFFICIENT.

Okay just noting the waves I can book a day ): This is confusinggg.

12.01.2012: NONE
13.01.2012: 4th
14.01.2012: all
15.01.2012: all
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16.01.2012: 2nd, 3rd, 4th
17.01.2012: 3rd, 4th
18.01.2012: NONE
19.01.2012: 3rd, 4th
20.01.2012: ???? I'M JUST GOING TO BOOK ALL.

Lolol if I were Ops I'd hate me. Also the question of SHOULD I CANCEL A LOT OF BOOKINGS OR REFIX MINE BECAUSE THEY ARE TECHNICALLY NOT FIXED SIGH. Gonna call them in a flurry of panic later!

GUYS I CANNOT STOP QUOTING SPARKS FLY. DROP EVERYTHING NOW, MEET ME IN THE POURING RAIN, KISS ME ON THE SIDEWALK, TAKE AWAY THE PAIN! 'COS IIIIII SEEEEEE SPAAAARKS FLYYYYY WHENEVER YOU SMILE! GET ME WITH THOSE GREEN EYES, BABY, AS THE LIGHTS GO DOWN. GIVE ME SOMETHING THAT WILL HAUNT ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND! 'COS IIIII SEEEE SPAAARKS FLYYYY WHENEVER YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~ SMILE.

I'm on my guard for the rest of the world but with you, I know it's no good ♥

(OKAY GUYS THIS IS APPARENTLY BECOMING A THING.)

Re(mark)able is one of my favourites. The way they sing it! That crazy dance where they're all in a row! FIRE BABY FIRE! They are literally dripping sweat and hey, now it's not just figuratively hot but literally too! ARASHI'S LIFE 終わらない. THIS IS FABULOUS GUYS I'M REALLY HIGH NOW. Oh gosh I REALLY LOVE THIS. The way they glide slowly down on those, I don't know, BOX THINGIES and rap too quickly to be coherent, adlkjdlkasj I LOVE IT A LOT.

Also lolol the comment on this gif is THE BEST. I saw it the moment I read it :D

AND WELL BEAUTIFUL WORLD CONCERT LOOKS LIKE IT'S GOING TO BE NOT ONLY AMAZING BUT THE BEST, OKAY GUYS, THE BEST. I love Arashi.

I LOVE ARASHI♥

I'm fucking high OKAY GOING OFF BYE.

Omg should I join the fanproject for Sho's birthday D: The chances of them seeing it are super little though (it's strange because the easiest way fans can 'contact' Arashi is through the STAFF on their VARIETY SHOWS) but omg ):

SHOOOOO.

REMINDER TO SELF: Transcribe the SNSD article in Lifestyle.

SHOULD I. I liked it! I enjoyed reading it. I was nodding away at some things and it may not have been the best researched article but it makes relevant points. And it says things I ALREADY KNOW but in a nicer manner! And idk la I just liked it. It's not only about SNSD too, you can apply it to any idol group and it's an interesting thing.

Just saying guys my ideal group size is 3 to 6. It makes for easy remembrance and not too in your face, but enough variety so people won't get bored and will be able to find someone to connect to.

Js again lol Arashi has a good mix of characters. Ohno the quiet, talented one, Sho the smart one, Jun the ~ideal boyfriend~ (IDEK LOL BUT HE IS), Aiba the crazy happy one, Nino the trolling nerd. It's a good palette to work off, definitely.

ALSO TO EXPOUND ON JUN THE IDEAL BOYFRIEND: he's nice, he's sweet, he's good-looking (enough) and he gives off tsundere vibes. ALSO HE IS REALLY NICE. And he cooks! Um guys I can go on forever about how nice Jun is, okay.

UM GUYS.

GUYS THIS IS IMPORTANT.

CERN IS 95% SURE THE HIGGS BOSON PARTICLE DOES NOT EXIST. UM THIS IS A REALLY BIG DEAL OKAY HALF OF THE THEORIES ABOUT EXISTENCE HINGES ON ITS EXISTENCE.

HAHAHAHA FUCK. If I were taking Physics next year I'd just throw my hands up and quit rn LOLOL. "Okay class, we're going to learn about this particle which doesn't exist. And a bunch of theories, which because of the absence of this particle, that are all debunked."

But yea I'm honestly in shock! I mean I know they never found it but to say it doesn't exist! UM, WOWWWW.

ALSO LOL THAT SCIENTIST. "WE'LL NEVER BE UNEMPLOYED."

(Js I have no idea what the Higgs Boson actually does, I just know that scientifically WE EXIST BECAUSE IT DOES. Or something similar. GUYS THEY BUILT THE FUCKING LHC TO FIND THIS THING. THE FUCKING LARGE HADRON COLLIDER. Just saying I am highly interested in the LHC lolol.)

IN WHICH HUI XIAN DEMONSTRATES THAT SHE IS A NERD. I don't even like Physics guys.

知足。

我认为我需要告诉您这真的不是你的错。我从小就责备您们和抱怨着一切，但这不是您们的错，而是自己不懂得知足，以及过于好胜。

Circumstance need not be limiting; the web of choice is boundless.

When people have lousy usernames I judge their fic before I read it. But I just read something gorgeous and which tugged at my heartstrings in a way I haven't let fic in a while (I wasn't going to let this one, but its words were insistent) and. Ahhhhh.

♥

HEY HEY, ACTUAL KOUHAKU RATINGS ARE OUT! Although, notably, not in a line graph! Also Arashi is not in the top 5, turns out. And oh gosh I can't NYC's ratings above Ayu's? THIS IS A LIE. But seriously lol the first half ratings are all so disappointing compared to the second half. (Shiina Ringo: QUEEN OF FIRST HALF.) THE SECOND HALF IS ALSO VERY EXCITING :D AYAKA IS A QUEEEN. And Wada Akiko too! And MATSUDA SEIKO, BITCHES. Also EXILE is far more popular than I give them credit for O: They be sellin'. AND THE RELEASE OF THE RESULTS, GLEEE. AKAGUMI♥

ALSO UM GUYS BEST RUMOUR EVERRR HAHAHAHA DYING I CAN'T. THE COMMENTS. HILARIOUS. JS THE BABY THING. DYING. Also omg the comments HAHAHAH I FUCKING LOVE ARAMA. Also omg if she's only good at French WHAT IS SHE TRYING TO TEACH IN JAPAN LOL. Can't speak Japanese, can't speak English, AND TRYING TO BE A TEACHER IN JAPAN. OMG THE COMMENTS I'M CRYING. Apparently someone on the hate meme wrote it but SERIOUSLY I LOVE THE HATE MEME. It's an amazing one lol it's so full of trolls and genuine hate.

Oh my god I also love how the comments are making all these obsucre references to previous tabloids that make me read and laugh first, then re-read it, go OHHHHHH and laugh AGAIN. HAHAHAHHAA. I LOVE ARAMA. Arama you're fucky at times but SOMETIMES YOU ARE GREAT.

YOSHIKI IS COMPOSING THE GOLDEN GLOBES THEME!!! !!!! UM, THAT IS GREAT. LIKE, REALLY. Idek what to say except GREAAAT :D

Um guys Johnny's Jimusho is kinda amazing. And well. An entertainment agency can go a long way o.o OKAY YEA FIRSTLY this is really really great and I appreciate that they're doing this. But GUYS WE'RE TALKING ABOUT JIMUSHO I ALWAYS NEED TO RAG. But yea I'm really somewhat in shock at the breadth of Jimusho's influence. Also the comments. Japan loves their idols, definitely, and well I figured at some point it has to STOP but well no. SMAP is treated like diplomats, Arashi's face is on JAL's planes, the earth continues to rotate about its axis. Living in a country where idol-culture is honestly weak, I'm just. Kind of overwhelmed by this.

But alas, Arashi and Gaga fail to make KDDI have the BEST commercials. EXCEPT THEY DO. JUST THAT THE STUPID SOFTBANK DOG IS AMAZING. Also relevant: SMAP. AND AYA UETO. No matter how popular Arashi and/or Gaga get they can't beat out those people (and animals). Also who does Docomo have again? Um yes guys I do invest myself heavily in the CMs of phone companies. Also while Arashi's CMs are very aesthetically pleasing, no1curr. I WANT HILARIOUS CMs LIKE THE ONE WITH OTOU-SAN COMPLIMENTING AYU OR STH LOL.

WELL YAMASHITA. He's getting a single release for his drama. Sigh. Before NEWS. Also I can't see this being appropriate LOL. Will YamaP release a soul-wrenching single about the ephemerality of life? OR AN AUTOTUNED SONG THAT IS SUBTLY ABOUT MAKING OUT AND SEX. LOLOL. I can't see this working out.

ALSO AKIRA LIVE ACTION MAY NOT BE, EVERYONE CHEERS.

And are we surprised anymore? If yes I strongly suggest you GETTING YOUR GAME ON. Although I want to know who's sold the most units, inclusive of albums. And I want that chart to include solo artists too. Like Hikki who is apparently QUEEN OF ALBUM SALES.

Annnnd I haven't watched dramas in a while. Don't know a single actor in this poll. Well except Kase Ryo WHO IS KING. And AKB members. And Takei Emi who is gorgeous but I don't really care for. Ummmm. WELL. Someone needs to start watching dramas again.

Also idk what's with but smh, apparently expressing concern is bitchy now? I mean well yes it's a little too much maybe, but seriouslyyy. Although it does suck to be in the ring of fire; being used to it's good but it's better if you never had to be used to it I guess? In any case that's a lot of aftershocks, and as usual, hoping the survivors of the quake are doing well and reconstruction efforts are going well ♥

HEY A PV! Tbh it's quite slow now because no one wants to release at the start of the year. (Japan has generally 3 areas of the year where a lot of singles are released around a certain theme: March/April for graduation or starting school, Augustish for SUMMERRR and December for Christmas and winter. [I'M PROBABLY MISSING SOME.] No one cares for January lol. But also: good time to try to get #1 on the charts!)

ANYWAY TiA's Koisuru Kimochi♡!
I... have no idea who she is. Holy shit that's a lot of CGI glitter though. Also PONYCANYON HAS A YOUTUBE!? Well I never liked Pony Canyon BUT SERIOUSLY? I'm confused is she a solo or... okay yes she's solo. It's quite a cute song! I quite like it but it doesn't stand out a lot. Also she looks like an underdressed flight attendant LOL. The PV's pretty but a bit over lol she looks like she's standing in front of radioactive neon auroras and someone bought a photoshop glitter brush and decided the best way to employ it was to spam the brush. The song's not bad though! I like it. But there are better ways to use green screens and CGI! Definitely.

JW who does Pony Canyon have that isn't a flop. OHFUCK AYA UETO. But Aya Ueto's singing career is whateva. They have aiko though! And ohmyod Farenheit (in Japan) and FLAME and Lead. UM. Oh and Sexy Zone but I knew this. What!? THEY HAD ALL OF WFL. I thought they were RIVALS. And Yamada Yuu! UMMM. I really don't like them though LOL idk IT'S JUST THEIR NAME. And the fact that they're not exactly WOOOOW. Apparently they're one of the ~tops~ though and yea well tbqh I see a lot of familiar names (from ANIME OPENINGS THOUGH which I have decided is a good way to be well known but far from an achievement) so yea. But yea idk it's just. They rub me the wrong way. Also do they have a contract with KHR or something lol they have Ueto, LM.C, SuG, CHERRYBLOSSOM, D-51, +PLUS o.o

HOW DO YOU TYPE ディ!!!

ETA: ディ. An 'x' denotes a small character. Works for ぁぃぅぇぉ which is good.

切りとったメロディー繰り返した忘れないように
言葉よりも大切なものここにはあるから ♥

2012-01-05T05:41:00.000-08:00

Sortie 4 tomorrow ;sdklfj;salkjf. Actually I've gotten numbed to the initial panic that comes, I'm much calmer and now I just go "oh okay". Which is good! First wave though sigh TOO EARLY. Oh well jiayou Hui Xian ): ALL CHECKS LEH haha okay well. I memorised le soooo. Also REJOOOOIN must mug from Bravo MAKE SURE I KNOW IT LIKE THE BACK OF MY HAND.

Well okay I've never read the translation for Caramel Song and. I'm going to cry fuck. Well. That's another Nino solo (although not a solo) that's going to make me cry oh gosh. (Um also I MISS YOU LIKE BURNING.)

Hmm training today. (Js I've gone out of the house 2 times this week and I'm going again on Friday and THE WEEKEND SIGH.) Well I don't really know what to say. Talked a lot to Jessie! Also started calling the Bs Bs and the Cs Cs and WE ARE NOW PART Es, GUYS. Everytime I told Jessie "your Cs" I paused because Jessie always had Bs and I keep saying "my Cs" oops. But yeaaa. Learning to recognise the juniors part by part! Yeaaa.

Anyway I really have nothing to say that I haven't already said to them ~privately~ so yea.

Also sigh can you just not be fucking rude. It's okay to be rude to us but not to them okay. Just. I'm not even angry I'm just tired.

OKAY gonna mug for flight tomorrow. HOPING THINGS GO WELL and the weather is perfect because it has been the whole week and I REALLY WANT TO FLY IN AMAZING WEATHER AGAIN. BYE GUYS.

Doko ni Demo Aru Uta lyrics

Well yes Sho, I can't let goooooo.

This was everything I was trying to escape why am I doing this again?

Okay I just found out why. Ugh.

Also someone just pointed out something to me and it just. Kind of lodged in my throat and my heart and I don't know what to say anymore. But can you please come online so I can apologise for being stupid and rash and irrational I'm sorry.

Remember when I asked if you had any regrets.

Vous regrettez rien, quand je regret tous.

OKAY HUI XIAN stop being immature.

Sigh it's been a long day. And I can't get myself to do anything which is REALLY BAD sigh.

OKAY I will chill though.

2012-01-03T23:27:00.000-08:00

SO Akanishi's new single is called "Sun Burns Down". UM, I APOLOGISE FOR JUDGING SONGS BY A NAME BUT I LOVE IT ALREADY. Although I expect it to be a autotuned dance song (it's produced by The Stereotypes, who produce for Far East Movement, although they did do Somebody to Love too but still) I AM JUST EXCITED OKAY.

24.01.2012 MV release!

Also js let me introduce you people to the difficult, difficult world that is ticket-scalping, aka the Reason Why Japanese Concerts Sell Out In 5 Minutes (on Average).

Say you need quick money. In a few weeks, this huge singer, say, Miyavi, is going to have a concert. Tickets start selling in 2 days. What do you do? Park yourself next to a phone, the INSTANT tickets start selling, PICK UP THE PHONE AND BUY AS FUCK MANY TICKETS AS THEY WILL LET YOU. And after that, hang up, call again, BUY SOME MORE. You can do this via internet and via physical buying too I'm sure, but anyway not the problem. JUST FUCKING BUY.

After you've bought every single available ticket for say, 5000 yen (this is like 75SGD I'm sure tickets cost way more) SELL THEM. Sell them online and offline and EVERYWHERE. Sell it for 7000 yen or something JUST SELL. And trust me you will make FUCK LOT OF MONEY.

So anyway. That's why tickets in Japan sell out so fast. Selling out in an hour is considered failing in Japan lol because NOT EVEN THE SCALPERS WANT YOUR TICKETS. (And scalpers ALWAYS buy tickets. They bought 2NE1 tickets and sold them for like 5 bucks online or something because they were desperate.) So yeaaa. WELL. THE MORE YOU KNOW.

UM SO I WATCHED HnA EPISODE 125, 2 HOUR SPECIAL YESTERDAY.

And Arashi/Jimusho/HnA is FUCK RICH. They rented out Marui Annex, which is AS BIG AS FUCKING KOKURITSU. I mean sure, Arashi has actually performed at Kokuritsu-Kokuritsu but! Even Arashi themselves! They were like "... We rented this place out!?" It has 60 over stores. And it's ALL MEN'S CLOTHING. (Just saying: I love how in Japan, they place an emphasis on male fashion as well. Internationally it seems like fashion is a ~female~ thing, but in Japan guys get judged just as easily for not looking their best at all times.) I was just stunned.

Also FUCKING DISNEY CHARACTERS, OKAY. Um, I just. After I watched their Disney Sea VTR, I had this sudden realisation that Arashi are INTERNATIONAL IDOLS WHO ARE LOVED FOR WHAT THEY DO. You don't just get to perform at Tokyo Disneyland for being a successful artist, it's something you'll only get to do if you are to some extent loved nationally. And they managed it. I honestly couldn't.

Also js Mickey Mouse is amazing, he is literall able to do anything because they just have to change who's in the suit. He can be a dancer, a singer, a drummer, anything the moment they swap roles.

OKAY WAIT I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT THINGS I REMEMBER LOLOL.

1) SAKURAI SHO AND HIS CONFIDENCE AND VERBAL-ISM. I love how '-ism's are something Sho really subscribes to, js. And it was a TERRIBLE DECISION but I was absolutely dying. "People from Ecuador!? MAYBE THEY'LL LIKE THIS. They'll see this and go "wow - great cycling gap!" I COULDN'T. Also VERBAL's dedication to supporting Sho in his FASHION REVOLUTION. Nino: HE'S NOTHING MORE THAN A DOTING PARENT. HE SERIOUSLY WENT ALL OUT.

2) AIBA-LENGTH PANTS. Oh gosh "the look I pull of well, ne?" YES AIBA. Just saying I honestly hate 3/4 pants because they make you look REALLY SHORT but it totally works on Aiba! ALSO HIS DISABILITY TO SEW. But he looked amazing in his clothes. ALSO FINALLY BREAKING THE STREAK. GUESS WHO'S PROUD OF KAZE TRIO. Also LOLOL SHO BEING MISTAKEN FOR AIBA BECAUSE OF THE AIBA-LENGTH PANTS. "STOP GIVING ME A BAD REPUTATION!" PEOPLE I LOVE: AIBA.

3) Ohno! OH GOSH he was sketching an outfit, and he ADDED FOLDS. Ohno Satoshi ;_; Also Nino being the BIGGEST FUCKING TROLL and grabbing his sketchpad and pulling out all sorts of clothes at him! "IF YOU KEEP ON SEARCHING, IT WILL COME TO YOU". OH OHNO. But well it seemed kind of gaudy and flashy but he looked good in it! I suspect it's the effect of his tan. SPEAKING OF HIS TAN. HIS FISHING. "When it tugs, the feeling is the best!" HAHAHAHAHA GOSH, ALSO HIS KANSAI DIALECT WHEN HE SEES THE FISH. Ohno NEVER STOP BEING AMAZING. ALSO AT THE START HAHAHA. "YOU HAVE IT!? OH NO SHOOTING'S ENDING TOO SOON."

4) MATSUMOTO JUN'S SHOOT BECOMING JOUNETSU TAIRIKU I WAS DYING. The caption came up and then they TOTALLY WENT ALL OUT AND MADE IT DOCUMENTARY STYLE LOLOL. Also HIS CHEATING. AND HIS APOLOGY. I WAS DYING. "Well. Let's get some tea." -LONG EMO BOUT- Staff: Shall we get going? Jun: ...After I finish this. ARE YOU AWARE OF HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU JUN? IT IS THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS MUCH. FINALLY NO LONGER 5TH!!!

5) NINOMIYA KAZUNARI THE ULTIMATE TROOOOOLL. Also he has a specific way for dealing with everyone. With Sho it had to be sneaky, with Aiba he just hung around him and Aiba was OBLIVIOUS THAT AIRHEAD ("I'll be going off! Won't you be lonely?"), helping Ohno in order to get his gameplan on, and BUYING EVERY FUCKING THING JUN BOUGHT WHICH WAS THE WHOLE STORE UNTIL HE GOT TO THE MANNEQUIN. ALSO NINO LOL "EMPEROR!? OUR EMPEROR? YOU'RE NOT KIDDING RIGHT. OKAY THIS IS ABSOLUTELY IT." Nino is my favourite calculative bastard ;D ALSO HE IS A HUMAN ONION. And and "Now that I'm next to Jun I feel like I've screwed it -gestures at pants-" LOLOL OH NINO.

6) VERBAL AND DR. NISHIKAWA BEING ON OPPOSITE ENDS OF THE SPECTRUM LOL. (Othello: Verbal, what's your theme for today? Dr. Nishikawa: I HATE THIS. Verbal: My theme for today is the style that Dr. Nishikawa absolutely hates.) And Yoshitaka being the cutest oh gosh! When I saw her I SQUEALED. AND HER IMPRESSION OF SHO'S HEAD. Also all the judges and "Nino you're not going to do it" and getting ABSOLUTELY SMASHED AND COMPLETELY STUNNED BEYOND BELIEF WHEN HE WON WITH ALMOST HALF THE VOTES. CRYING. I CANNOT. EVERYONE'S FACE. EVEN NINO WAS CONVINCED HE'D LOSE. And Jun walking off coolly like everyone suggested he did! NOT A HINT OF SURPRISE ACROSS HIS FACE. Also when Sho lost HIS FACE HAHAHAHA. 1/14 of Nino's votes! DYING.

7) ARASHI AND DISNEYYY. Tbqh they were rather awk but it was SO CUTE. Also when they started performing and they just slid back into their comfort zone because THIS IS WHAT THEY DO. Also omg omg the guest's impression of them! I WAS SCREAMING WITH THE STUDIO AUDIENCE OKAY. HAHAHAHAHA IT WAS SUCH AN AWESOME VIDEO WITH ALL THE PERFECT SONGS.

8) I ACTUALLY KNOW THE JAPANESE VERSION OF WHEN YOU WISH UPON A STAR BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL LOL. Guess who I blame ;D BUT SO CUTE. Oh Aiba. AIBA. AIBA IS THE BEST. Throughout the the whole episode I was just "OH AIBA. OH AIBA. YOU ARE PERFECT. OH AIBA." ♥

OKAY OKAY I think that is all but oh gosh I LOVE ARASHI SO MUCH. Also because I have time to watch something before I go for dinner (which if I'm not wrong is going to be the same as lunch sigh) I'm going to watch HnA with Yoshitaka Yuriko! I REFUSE TO LIVEBLOG LOL tbh it takes less time to liveblog but I am too busy flailing when it comes to HnA! Okay yes :D

THINGS I HAVE DONE: ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Also every time I look up at the sky and see the sun shining down FULL FORCE I just want to flyyy.

OKAY OKAY GOING TO UPDATE FANDOM THEN I SHALL WATCH HnA! Today when I get home I'm spamming end year music shows since I have FINALLY heard Meikyuu Love Song :D

HEY HEY KOUHAKU RATINGS. Well okay some of them. SMAP IS FOREVER A LEGEND ♥ Seriously that gap though! Proud of Arashi too ♥ And EXILE's really grown in popularity this year I think! Steadily climbing (: Also LOLOL GAGA AND YUZU I love Yuzu their lives are so great, not just voally but performance-wise too! And gosh Ashida Mana. I am rather surprised SJJD did better than KARA though O: And that AKB did terribly but they were first half, so. JUST SAYING THE AKAI-SHIRO GAP FOR FIRST HALF IS TERRIBLE LOL. Also Shiina isn't there but QUEEN. WAITING FOR THE POST WITH THE LINE GRAPH SO I CAN BREAK IT DOWN AND BE MATHY -geek glasses on-

Jin's cover is hilarious though lol. BUT HEY GUYS GUESS WHO'S FACE I SEEEE :D♥

And Mayuyu's drama. Well. HANNAH MONTANA THE SECOND except she is 38 years old on one end? MAYUYU AS 38YO. That's a transformation I have to see. WAIT WHAT TAKAHASHI HITOMI ACTS!? Also she looks like a fucking barbie doll I'm not even kidding o.o It's. Creepy. But yeaaa. Not very interested :/

Until the Blouse is buttoned up PV from BIGMAMA. (Such a slow news day! And ony 1 PV.)
Lolol idek what to expect the son title. Oh gosh I love the sound though. Omg it's. In English. Okay it's actually hard for me to understand him LOL. OH gosh the PV is cute. OMG. THERE ARE GIANT DANCING CLOTHES LOL. Does their band include the violinist! 'Cos that's cool. And lolol it's a very bizarre PV. Omg I kept hearing "Until the blouse is buttoned up" as "under the plastic mountain ah" WHAT. Would've been better in Japanese LOL. I like the sound though! He just said "stupid girl"? LOL WHAT? THE DANCING CLOTHES ARE QUITE CREEPY THOUGH. Haha so much glee :D

UM OMG GUYS GLAY COVERED LOVE SO SWEET. Well I shouldn't be surprised Love so Sweet is one of the most famous Japanese songs ever 'cos of HanaDan, but STILL. (Note: domestically, and also not sales-wise!) Also lolol their instrumental is PERFECT. Their lead vocalist is so FULL OF GLEE and his voice doesn't really suit my image of it but he sounds good! Also I see his backdancers subsrcibe to obscure and bflashy Adidas, I approve.

SO NINO HAS STARTED PUNCTUATING HIS 2-FINGERED SALUTES WITH A WINK.

Js I do the 2-finger salute all the time now. Can I also have a photoset of that LOL.

OMG YOSHITAKA IS SO WEIRD I LOVE HER. Also Aiba totally fits her ~perfect guy~ image! And oh god SHE'S SO WEIRD SHE WAS THE BEST. Also she totally picked Nino for the PUBLICITY but it was kinda very obvious that she was very comfortable around him! Like she kept looking over at him so adorable gosh ♥ And can tell that variety shows aren't within her comfort zone so yea she was reassured :D ALSO PERFECT CHEMISTRY they said 人間ドラマ at the exact same time!

ALSO GUYS AIBA AND THE ARM THING I LOVED IT HE DOES THIS ALL THE FUCKING TIME HAHAHAHAHHAHA AIBAAAAAAA. Also Ohno was GOLD this episode. AND SHO'S CLOTHES, I CAN'T. ABSOLUTE BEST HAHAHAHHAHHA. And Jun chatting her up with her WHY WHY thing OH GOSH.

MANNEQUIN 5.

GUYS I JUST REALISED THAT PANTS BEYONG THE ANKLE ACTUALLY MAKE AIBA'S LEGS LOOK SHORTER. I DON'T. WHAT. AIBA DON'T BE A FASHION ANOMALY. Not short though (BECAUSE AIBA IS LOOONG), just shorter.

ALSO GUYS THE CONDITIONS FOR THIS PARKA THEME ARE SO SEVERE LOL OH SHO. FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE NATION-WIDE DEMISE OF ALL ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS! But this one looks good! Tbh I never hated double parka HAHA but yea this looks WAY better.

THE JUDGES ARE SUCH FUCKING TROLLS LOL. "CAN-BADGE! PUT IT IN THE CENTRE. YES, SERIOUSLY." sdlkfj;aslkh LOOOL. AND AIBA AND JUN WERE ALL "WHAT? HERE? SERIOUSLY? REALLY?" NO BOYS NO LOL.

Js my choices would be Jun/Aiba/Nino/Sho/Ohno/Fujimoto/Shouji. They all look good today! But Ohno a little plain. And I can't stand the leopard prints lol. I wouldn't like Jun's jacket usually (hate leather) but it looks very clean and it suits him! And I'm iffy about Nino because I dislike the parka on its own but it clashes with the pea coat! But idk it looks. VERY WARM LOL idek man but I like practicality! Well. THE STRING ON SHO'S IS REALLY UNSTYLISH THOUGH.

HAHA FUCKING FUJIMOTO. "Your CD sales are good... BUT NOT YOUR CLOTHES, EH?" LOLOLOL.

Anyway the judges mostly made the same choices I did! Hehe well. I think Japanese fashion and MYYYY fashion aren't on overly different tangents, so! (I think they may be because I watch too many Japanese shows. I probably would side-eye men in V-necks if not for that.)

CANNOT BELIEVE OHNO LOST. But then again AYAMO picked so I can see why LOL. BUT STILL AHHHH.

FOR DREAM~

Well I believe the word to aptly sum up all my feelings is "FUCK".

You know what. Ads annoy the fuck out of me. Which is why I appreciate that tumblr and dreamwidth don't have them.

I understand ad revenue is important, I truly do. I don't mind if they're on the sides and they don't interfere with my content on the relevant page, such as on Facebook and on Twitter (where ads don't appear so long as I don't follow them).

You know what ads annoy me?

FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL AND YOUTUBE.

Livejournal: there's this stupid shampoo ad which not only pops up and fills the page, but MAKES NOISE. And more recently, there's the Nokia Lumia ad which will pop up, BLACK THE ENTIRE SCREEN, and make you have to 'x' it. And conveniently, the 'x' is right next to where the ad is, so you will more likely than not roll over the ad again, and have it pop up again. Also, there are too many ads which block content on journals.

Youtube: VIDEO-ADS BEFORE VIDEOS. I used to hit Youtube every few minutes but now I can go days without going on, BECAUSE OF THOSE FUCKING ADS. I don't mind the Canon ad, because after 5 seconds it gives me the option to skip. Annoying, yes, but at least bearable. BUT THERE ARE ACTUALLY 30 SECOND ADS THAT DON'T LET ME SKIP. What the fuck!? And I don't even get to mute the ad, which is an option even Youku and Tudou will give.

The infuriuating thing about this is that it's not like Youtube doesn't make enough off ad revenue without the video-ads, and for heaven's sake Youtube is under fucking Google. But they won't stop it! They won't even give me the goddamn option to mute it! Youtube's not a tiny fresh new company dying to stay afloat, it's fucking Youtube. Livejournal I'm near giving up on, there's just been so many things they've been doing wrong for a while and the ads are just being frustrating. The main draw of everything LJ is also now on Dreamwidth, so fuck that. (Also the main draws of LJ, js, are the ability to choose to lock your posts to selected, filtered people, and the extensive communities. We won't find a replacement for those communities just yet, but FOR EVERYTHING ELSE, THERE'S DREAMWIDTH.)

But anyway. Yes.

FUCK YOU ADS.

I miss you guys ): I guess it's partially my fault - there's so many mediums through which we could have continued communications, but I just didn't subscribe to them - but I never talk to you anymore, because I'm busy, because you no longer go where we used to hang, but. I miss you like crazy. Ahhhh.

(Well "I miss you like crazy" happens to be 5 words I can apply to a lot of people in my life. Like you. And you. And gosh it's not even that I don't see you it's that I won't initiate conversation and you simply don't given enough of a fuck to initiate conversation. Heyyyy.)

ANYWAY GUESS WHO IS ALSO REGRETTING DECISIONS. Well well. Evidently I should have protested and took my time and seriously fucking stopped you guys from making choices for me (for them) but well. That's too late now. (Hey dear I'm sorry I didn't listen to you. I should've known.)

UM OKAY FUCKING AMUSED LOL JESSIE'S MSN VIRUS JUST TRIED TO CHAT ME UP.

Oh hi you are delusional as fuck.

DAEGUKNAMAH RELEASING KOREAN ALBUM THIS YEAR! AHHH! YES. Their Korean stuff is so much better than their Japanese releases I'm sorry (SONY, WATCHING YOU).

I have a tiny packet of peanut M&M's and 3/5, 60%, of them are blue! Blue M&M's are my favourite.

Also I realised I'm taller than my fridge. Either I shot up mysteriously in the past 24 hours, or I'm really slow.

SO Michele Bachmann is apparently going to quite the presidential race. And I don't know much about politics, but I know Michele Bachmann can be kinda nice (she raised like 20 over foster children?) but also kind of A MEGA BITCH ("OHHH, WE FIX HOMOSEXUALITY!") so yea.

Honestly? Good on her. Good job for lasting that long, too.

Um. I just found recent, good fic. Like really, really good. In a sense I've had fic that made me ~emotional~ before but never in this way and this is really, really good.

I WAS SUPPOSED TO WATCH BOTH NTV AND FNS TONIGHT BUT LOOKS LIKE I'LL ONLY FINISH NTV. Blame the best fic writer evar for showing me some of the best fic evar.

But seriously! Gosh AMAZING.

WELL. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.

I AM NOT IN A RIGHT MOOD NOW.

Private browsing: the fastest way to temporarily clear internet caches so you can sign into other accounts and sign back in without worry.

If you need me - or just, if you need someone, anyone at all.

I'm here.

(It worries me like crazy because the last time this happened you were... just. Really broken. And I may not necessarily be able to fix you but. If you need someone to talk to. I'm here.)

WELL GUESS WHO IS CHARMING AND ALSO THE MC FOR NTV BEST ARTIST

I PROMISE NOT TO LIVEBLOG UNTIL ARASHI COMES ON.

OKAY THERE IS THIS RIDICULOUSLY ADORABLE CM WITH MUKAI AND ASHIDA MANA PROMOTING PRINTERS AHHH.

Okay see I didn't know HSJ had a rapper! Don't really like jis voice texture though but hmm. ALSO YAMADA RYOUSUKE'S GLARES FROM RIGHT UNDER HIS OVERLY-LONG BANGS. MMMMM. The choreo for Over is terrible lol they can't sing right.

TAKKI AND TSUBASA HAVE A HUGE MALE AUDIENCE. also omg they have fanchants LOL "TAKKI!" Yume Monogatari (?) was a catchy as fuck song though :D Okay I am pretty much liveblogging RN. At least I didn't liveblog the CMs! Heartful Voice is a pretty song :D

FUCK I ALMOST DROPPED MY MILO WHEN KAIBUTSU-KUN APPEARED. SHO'S FACE. Also lolol KAT-TN's lulzy car CM is... LULZY. -now also liveblogging CMs-

EXILE AND FAIRIES. AWESOME :D Well not EXILE. J SOUL BROTHERS. But pretty much the same thing lol oops. (THey're part of EXILE iirc?)

WOW J Soul has 75% females O: I'd expect more males 'cos they're rather fierce. Then again there are fewer idol fanboys than there are fangirls in generaal. FIGHTERS is not bad. There's very little focus on the dancers though hhmmm. Omg I'm confused some people just came up rapping WAIT. Omg who's part of this group and who isn't LOL.

HAHA SHIT I heard the CM sound for Nintendo and jolted up but it's Kirby LOL. LOL JAPANESE CMs ARE THE BEST.

The VTR for Fairies. They certainly seem very capable but I don't think anything's really impressed me so far. And their fan bulk is 10-19 girls o.o I can see why though! I'd strive to be like them if I were the kind. HERO. Okay if this is live I'm impressed their voices are very easily filling the place. The dance is kinda disappointing for a dance group I guess, which is why I never really stanned them. One of them looks like the girl from Okto Knockout! Hmmm not bad.

I ALWAYS GET EXCITED WHEN THEY REVEAL THE NEXT BEST ARTIST. TOKIO!!!! OH ONLY ONE THIS TIME? HAHAHA. LOL okay the camerawork SUCKS but I should be used to this. I love their clothes js! It's like flashy enough to be idol but normal enough for people to walk around the street in. Lolol I don't think it's possible to have <50% female fans js. OHH SAROFUNE! I LOVE THIS SONG LIKE CRAZY. I love how they're an IDOL BAND. Lolol how do the fans all know EVERY group's fan-actions? Oh gosh the pianist :D What is AMBITIOUS JAPAN! lol haven't heard that one. OH apparently all of the band sings here and there :D I do like this song but not THAT MUCH. Also I feel sad that I only know Nagase here lol. TOKIO's not a BIG DEAL in terms of being AMAZING AND POPULAR!!! but because they are senpai, so. Miageta Ryuusei! I like this song. (js if I don't know idol names I liveblog a LOT less because I don't want to keep saying "THE DUDE IN THE HAT" or sth)

FUCK OMG KAT-TUN CAME ON AND I JUST YELPED. They're with the MaruMori kid lol Fuku I think! But omg their clothing is HIDEOUS. Oh my god my embarassing yelp when KAT-TIN came on I pray that my mother is still asleep.

Omg this woman in a CM has the creepiest contacts they have rings around her irises o.o Like., a ring of bright dots. CREEPY. OMG IS THAT INOUE MAO SHE PLAYS THE MOST RANDOM ROLE IN THIS CM HAHAHA WTF. Also EITA'S FACE.

HIRAI KEN GUYS!!!!! OH he's at another studio O: HIRAI KEN. Omg his speaking voice is amazing. WOW even Hirai has like ard 65% female fans o.o EEEK. Omg he sings the first part a capella and it's just. fascinating. I find it amazing how his singing voice is so different from his speaking voice. And his range is insane, he goes into a female pitch like, half the time? Allow me to be just stunned by Hirai Ken. Also he pretty much put the whole mike in his mouth just now but okay he is an emotional and amazinggg singer. Also he has crazy dimples o.o

KAT-TUN! FUCK HAHA I flailed so hard I knocked the breath out of myself. ALSO UEDA'S WEARING A HOOD. LOL WHY IS KAIBUTSU-KUN PLAYING DRUMS. WHAT. WHAT. He didn't even get to speak HAHA I'M SO CONFUSED. Does he sing Kai Kai Kai!

LOLOL KANJANI. HAHAHAHA. WHAT IS WITH NTV TODAY. Oh FUKU. He's so enthusiastic! Kame and Sho bending down to meet his height! OH FUKU IS IN KAME'S DEMON DRAMA. HE'S SO CUTE. Awwwwwww. Omg I would be a perfect studio audience I laugh on cue even when I don't understand what they're saying. I can't stand their outfits lol what's with the black and white faux fur (that is so faux it is like LOOSE THREADS.)

WOW KAT-TUN'S ALMOST 50% 10-19 GIRLS WOWWW. Well I. Fall under that category. Um. AHHH THEY'RE SINGING KEEP THE FAITH! JUST FLAILED. OH KAME. Oh gosh this is crazy attractive. HAHA. KAME'S FUCKING FACE. Omg who's scartchy voice is that fucking hot. I love the lyrics lol. TOO BUSY JAMMING TO LIVEBLOG. KAMEEE. BIRTH! Lol can't stand Ueda's hoodie. Koki's hair would usually look terrible but it's just barely okay 'cos it's him. Kameeee. OH GOSH KAME AND KOKI AND KAME'S GRIN. I actually really like Nakamaru's voice js. OH Ueda took off the hood. Very ICONIQ, his look (SEE WHAT I DID THERE). LOLOL KAT-TUN CAN'T DANCE. As much as I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THENM. Endearing but lousy HAHA. AT least they can sing! Somewhat. I love the way Kame chooses to tilt his mike. Uedaaaa. I just want to talk about Taguchi's hair, because it is not usual BUT IT IS GOOD. AND FUKUUUUU. KAME'S FOND GRIN. OH he's singing? HAHA MARU MARU MORI MORI. Of course. LOLOL THE WHOLE FUCKING AUDIENCE KNOWS IT. KAT-TUN KNOWS IT! HAHAHAHAHAH SO CUTE KAT-TUN OMG. AND FUKUUUU. Oh gosh., I CAN'T STAND IT KAT-TUIN SERIOUSLY KNOWS EVERY STEP HAHA. Oh gosh this is so cute. AHHHH. HAHAHAHA I AM LAUGHING INCOHERENTLY SO CUUTE.

OMG KAIBUTSU-KUN HAHA HIS FAAACE. Kaibutsu is fucking long to type js. HAHAHHA. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. He looks like such a kid although THIS MAN IS THIRTY ONE. OHNO'S FAAACE. AHHH SHO ASKED HIM SOMETHING LIKE "WHAT ARTIST DO HUMANS LIKE?" AND OHNO SAID "HUMANS? ARASHI." "WHICH MEMBER?" "UM, OHNO!" KAIBUTSU-KUN. OHNO SATOSHI BIGGEST TROLL LOLOLOL. HE'S SINGING! HAHAHAHAHA PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW WHERE THE STAGE IS I FUCKING LOVE OHNO.

HAHAHAHA HIS FAAACE. Omg LITTLE GIRLS IN KAIBUTSU CAPS AND SHIRTS. OHNO'S FACE! AND FUKU KNOWS THE DANCE TOO LOL. WHY DO I KNOW THIS SONG LOL I HEARD IT LIKE 2 TIMES. OKAY THIS IS FUN TO SING ALONG TO EVEN IF IT'S A SONG FOR A KID'S SHOW. HAHAHAHAHAHA HIS FUCKING FAAAACE. I LOVE OHNO. Also Fuku-kun bows SO LOW AHHHH ♥

DREAM MORNING MUSUME! OMG. I JUST KEEP GETTING FANGIREL ATTACKS HAHAH. OMG SO CUTE. Shit I love this song. EVERYONE IS REALLY INTO THIS. THE*PEACE. Omg their rap :D OMG SASHAYING ALL THE WAY TO THE EMCEES. THIS IS A PERFECT SONG. Renai Revolution 2! Okay they have PERFECT SONGS to hype up everyone oh gosh. I was never into H!P but THIS IS AMAZING. Also omg this may be a bad choice but I LOVE THEIR CLOTHES. LOVE Machine. I guess one of the things about them is that they were REALLY FUCKING FAMOUS in their day so EVERYONE KNOWS THEIR SONGS. Practically the whole audience is female js and they are SO INTO IT. OMG I CANNOT CLAP IT IS 3AM BUT AHHH.

AKB48!!! And well SKE48 but AKB!!!! Oh gosh their dresses! As in AKB's lol SKE's is too loli for my tastes.

YUZU!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD. THEY ARE SO GOING TO BRING IT. And Nishino Kana! OMG WHAT IS SHE WEARING. Also lol the tie on the Yuzu guy is terrible. (I keep forgetting their names! They're terribly long.) (ALso so much for not liveblogging.)

Oh gosh excited Yuzu's lives are AMAZING. They have 70% females too! REALLY. Their MUSIC is good so! OMG I love this song! I can't remember its name in romaji though. Omg his voice just resounded. Have I mentioned I LOVE THIS SONG okay it's called Eikou no Takehashi HAHA. I LOVE THIS SOOOOONG. They are so into it omg. OMG THEY LOOK READY TO JAM. SHOU GOSH. I love the meld of their voices, they're so different but they harmonise PERFECTLY. Gosh I love their voices and their music and their lives. I don't follow them closely but whenever I see somethingand catch them in it my heart just swells. (Jw do they use alcohol swabs on those mikes.) Their lead vocal looks so HAPPY and at peace all the tme :D

Nishino Kana! Oh she gets a VTR. I kind of hope she sings Aitakutex2 lolol. Have I mentioned that I don't love her speaking voice? I blogged extensively about it once lol she was on HnA. OMG THE AMOUNT OF BODY GLITTER SHE'S USING O.O WOW she has a large male fanbase! Like slightly under 50%. Quite shocked although I've met a fanboy of hers because it's girls that tend to get drawn by her lyrics. SHE'S SINGING AITAKUTEx2! YES. Her singing voice is so mature compared to her speaking one gosh. Her makeup also has sheen lol lucky the lights not too strong she'd be gleaming. I LOVE THE CHORUS OF THIS SONG whenever it hits I just have to dramatically sing along. Ahh she's singing Tatoe Donna Ni.... Guys this is fucking hard I'm learning to read hiragana and kanji fast lol. Hey I haven't heard this! I like it. It's still quite her but I think it sounds a bit different from what she usually sings! Omg she just hit a note I didn't think she could. (She has a good range, just that it was really out there and Nishino has a habit of going very breathy at very high notes. I've said this before too!) Omg her eyes are huuuuge and she looks so emotional ♥

KANJANI8!!!!!!!!! HEY DUDES. Oh gosh I still don't know all of them but! Because of tumblr I love them A LOT, OKAY. OH THEY WERE ON 24H TV :D Also js I love Ohkura and am instantly attracted to him and his face but I CANNOT RECOGNISE HIM. He's just the one I find myself attracted to LOL. PLAY INSTRUMENTS PLEASE. Lolol I love how Johnnys attract so many in the 35-49 age range. No instruments D: LOLOL OMG. Monzai Beat? I can't. Read. OH GOSH THEIR FACES. HAHAHA YOKO'S FAAACE. I always get very shocked by their 7-ness LOL. OH GOSH just realised all their clothes say "FIGHT INFINITY" in diff fonts :D. MAYBE IT'S MONJAI IDK. Ahh they're all just crazily spunning around the stage! :D. Okay I can't read this at all. Museki Hero? SOMETHING SIMILAR MAYBE. THEY'RE SO FUN TO WATCH I CAN SEE WHY PEOPLE LOVE THEM. I love Japan's emphasis on HOW FUN ARE THE IDOLS TO WATCH?? because I love HAVING FUN WATCHING IDOLS:D

PERFUME!!!!

PORNO GRAFFITTI! AND AIKO!!! Omg I will never not hate Porno Graffitti's name. LOL GETTING CONFUSED AT WHERE TO STAND. Aiko's makeup is gorgeous omg. It makes her look super different but she looks good. Js I used to not like aiko's voice but after the Msute where she was crying at Kuwata Keisuke's comeback I just got a lot of respect for her la :D Also her song there was AMAZINGGG.

WELP. Porno Graffitti: STILL <50% MALES. Haneuma Rider. I am really fucking bad at this lol. Omg the vocalist is flinging a handkerchief around. SOME PEOPLE IN THE AUDIENCE HAVE ONE. LOL THIS IS A THING IN JAPAN THOUGH, THE HANDKERCHIEFS, BUT I AM STILL SURPRISED HAHA :D HYPING UP THE CROWD! Oh gosh so rockstar. Ageha Chou! His voice control's really good btw! I mean, as expected, but yea! Plus he's shouting so much! I love the instrumemtal in this gosh. LOLOL OKAY JAPANESE KNOW ALLL THE FANACTIONS. Or something. PERHAPS THEY JUST GET CUES REALLY FAST. He's out of breath gosh! OH HE'S INTRODUCING THEIR WINTER SONG :D Yuki no Iro! Pretty song nameee. Omg the guitarist has 2 guitars on him, one acoustic/classsic (SORRY CANNOT TELL) and one electric o.o Okay this is cool he reaches higher and lower here and there and he sounds fantastic both ways. Oh gosh an electric guitar solo YES was waiting for one. Ahh I like it. I love slow guitar solos. Amazingggg.

OH I SEE. EXILE NOW. Okay oops SO WHAT IS J SOUL BROTHERS??? ARE THEY NOT PART OF EXILE? LIKE A SUBUNIT.

Omg the Fujitsu CM I WANT A FUJITSU SO MUCH.

Aiko has... WOW >75% females o.o Zutto. Oh gosh what song made me think she has a lousy timbre she sounds amazing. And I love her ear monitors js. They're always so pretty! And she just held a note for the LONGEST. Omg she just. Hit crazy high notes, like falsettoed and went straight back to her normal pitch. Oh gosh she looks like she's about to cry. HAHAHAHA SUDDENLY A POPPY SONG. BOYFRIEND. Omg her voice sounds amazing here though. SHE'S SHAKING AND CLAPPING HANDS WITH FANS OMG I WOULD DIE. SHE'S SO CUTE HAHA. Tbh I think it's better to move from ballad → poppy song then the other way because you showcase vocals and hype people up so they remember you for that, but don't get bored! And her outfit is DARLING. SHE'S SO CUTE OMG SHE'S JUST PRANCING BACK TO THE MAINSTAGE. And she just KCIKS AROUND LOL. OMG THEY JUST SHOT LIKE, STREAMERS OUT. (When you know you're a bigshot: people dirty the stages for you.) Omg does she have NEVER-ENDING BREATH. I am clapping with only the heels of my hands now.

OH HELLO FUKUYAMA MASAHARU.

PERFUUUUUME!!!!!!!!!!!! YESSSS. AND SAITO KAZUYOSHI. PERFUUUUUUME. I love love love Kashiyuka's dress gosh. Ohh their ear monitors are gorgeous too.

OH MY GOD PERFUME HAS >50% MALES! LIKE JUST BARELY. OMG. LET ME BE IN SHOCK. THEY'RE SINGING POLYRHYTHM! Omg THIS IS FABULOUS. I LOVE THIS SONG LIKE CRAZYYY. LOLO A~CHAN IS SO HIGH. Aww they didn't do the part with ACTUAL polyrhythm though. LASER BEEEEAM. Like I said: WANTED TO SEE THIS LIVE. Eeek love the lasers in the performance. Oh gosh I never really like Perfume's songs like the VOICES but I love the funness and their PERFORMANCES NEVER FAIL. Omg the floor how did they survive standing on that and dancing I feel nauseous. I want Kashiyuka's WHOLE OUTFIT including the cuff thing. Also Nocchi's belt LOL. SO CUTE THE ENDING AHHH.

Saito Kazuyoshi! Tbqh I don't know him... OH HE SANG THE OP FOR KAISEFU NO MITA. Omg I'm being stunned by Matsushima Nanako's acting just from the teaser they're showing. Also she looks a bit like UEE! AWW he just said Matsushima's pretty :D Lolol he's mostly female fans too. Pefume broke it! I'm stil in shock. Yasashiku Naritai. (Sometimes I can read the hiragana but I don't kow when a word starts/ends lol.) It sounds good! Definitely in a style I like. Also he has a rather typical rocker look lol. I like it! :D Omg the guitar outro :D Love it.

IKIMONOOOOOOO! Omg I couldn't type properly FLAILING SO HARD. They're in the G-studio place too. Omg her smile is SO WIDE. Is she really tall or are her bandmates short? But she usually looks shorter lol. Hmm around, 65% females. ARIGATOUUUU oh gosh I love this song. It's fucking sad though omg. I'm going to cry before she finishes. Okay ya I'm crying gosh. Also idk why but I think the singer looks a bit older ): She has smile lines! But yeaa. Are they performing Joyful next? Since. They haven't released anything. Nope Waratte Nainda. Her voice! Eeeek. TO be able to steal that and keep it in my own voicebox LOL. -awkward sentence of the day- HAHA SHE JUST GAVE THIS GREAT SMILE AND EEEEK. When her eyes get real big it gets a bit creepy :/ Maybe she's wearing circle lenses. OMG OMG Aruite Ikou ♥ Her voice is mad versatile. Gosh her voooooooice.. Her eyes ;_;

AKB48!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO THERE HAVE BEEN NO CMs FOR A WHLE LOL. Omg what is Tomochin's hair who did that may I ask. I LOVE THEIR DRESSES! They changed but oh my god they're SUPER PRETTY. Also each girl has slightly different details on their dress! And Yuuko's acting as their spokesperson of the day O: Js when they show the data it's creepy because there's a bunch of girls just GLARING at laptops. HEY THAY HAVE >50% TOO! Just barely but omg I thought they had less! OH WELL. SKE's coming... to do HebiRote. OMG KAZE WA FUUITEIRU. Fuck I LOVE THIS SONG. Omg it's like this perfect thing HAHA it's badass but just plain CLASSY. Not so much badass as it is just fierce. YUUKO'S FAACE. Takamina's voice is perfect omg. The senbatsu for this is damn big I see unfamiliar faces which means it's around 20 o.o Omg SKE just. FADED IN. LIKE SERIOUSLY the light kinda shone on them? I don't know this song. Pareo wa Emerald? OH I KNOW IT. They're vert spunky though! What I liked about them. Unfortunately what I didn't like about them was their voices and well that's. Not changed much. The stage is too limiting. LOL YUUKO. Okay fetish outfit much but YEAAA. HEBIROTE GUYS!!!!!! I WILL NO LONGER LIVEBLOG I NEED TO DANCE. Omg Acchan looks gorgeous with the haaair. And forever love Yuuko's little dance :D ALSO LOL THE EMCEES ARE SURROUNDED. Okay I can liveblog during the verses. Oh gosh I LOVE THIS SONG LIKE CRAZY. THE EMCEES ARE DOING WOTAGEI HAHA. I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCHHHH. I LOVE ACCHAN AND YUUKO'S LINES. Acchan should smile more she's super pretty! MORE STREAMERS. HEAVYYYY ROTATIOOOOOOOOON ♥ ♥ ♥ I LOVE THIS SONOOOOONG.

HAHAHAHAHHAHA ARASHI AND THEY ARE FUCKING LIKE. HOLDING OHNO UP HAHAHAHHA. AIBA. NINO LOOKS LIKE HE'S DYING. HAHAHA AND SHO LOOKS EMBARRASSED I LOVE MY FAVOURITE IDOLS.

FFUKUYAMA MASAHARU! AND FUCK I JUST ALMOST DISJOINTED MY RIGHT ARM WHEN I PUNCHED THE AIR OUCH FUUUCK. I love Fukuyama Masaharuuuu. HAHA as expected, bulk is 35-49 females. He is FUCKING GOOD though. Kazoku ni Naru You. Omg the way he plays guitar! It's not like the notes are super impressive but it's just the languid way he plays and the movement of his fingers. Also HIS VOICE. And his EYES. I can see why Japan is so obsessed with him gosh. I mean he's like twice my age PLUS A BIT MORE and I think he's fantastic. The lasers a bit de don't suit the mood though. Omg can the way someone plays a guitar usually be this attractive? Well actually yes but it's not just the playing it's his fingersss. Okay js a bit crazy-talk here but when he looks into the camera I feel like he's really staring into my soul. Oh gosh FEATHERS. They usually do confetti but feathers is a great idea for this. It totally fits the song and the light way they flutter down is perfect. Does he perform only one full song? ): He deserves to perform a million gosh.

EXILE! I keep staring at the CD covers when they show the next performer to figure out who else hasn't appeared. LOL SO MANY PEOPLE. Because they're ALL so tall they look bigger than AKB tbqh! And tbqh EXILE is hilarious bt I never see them much haha. WELL EXILE has a larger male fan base (~17%?) then I expected LOL. RISING SUN AND TI AMO! OH MY GOD YESSS. JAMMING ALREADY. Oh gosh their vocalists are REALLY GOOD THOUGH and their dancers amazing as well! They're always amazing to watch omg you get amazing vocals and a great dance performance so! Even as someone who is generally not attracted to dancers I just love the way they dance. Their movements are so fluid! AND THEY ALWAYS LOOK SO HAPPY :D Also I like how the cameramen never favour the singers over the dancers, they just film EVERYONE. Omg their BEAT. AHH I love when their dancers sing along :D AHHH I LOVE RISING SUNNN. TI AMO OH GOSH I fucking LOVE Ti Amo. This was the song that got me into them in the first place! This and the song about lips name of which I can never remember. Something Kuchibiru. Gosh from far away the dances look super fluid and smooth but when they zoom in you can really see there's a lot of energy being put into it to achieve the look. Like swans. I love this sooooong. TI AMO. AHHH love that part. Gosh when they do the "hey" at the end together. Those breathy notes gooosh.

HAHAHAHA FUCKING ARASHIIII. HAHAHAHA THEIR FACES SO STONE. AIBA IS SIR STAMFORD RAFFLES. THE EMCEES: HEY WHAT'S HAPPENING? LOLOLOL.

FINALLY CMs. Omg I'm taking a 10min break it's been almost 3h already HAHA FUCK. And throughout I've been flailing nonstop and BLOGGING HAHAHAHA okay okay LET ME RELAX.

OKAY COMING BACKKK.

Namie's ads for Kose are amazinggg. Like it's just her singing but she's dead pretty and SO IS HER VOICE so it works. Omg there is a HPxAKB CM and I LOVE IT LOL. Oh gosh EVERYTHING AKB48 WEARS, I WANT IT IN MY CLOSET RIGHT NOW. Also lol no the CMs are pretty long. Oh okay not really.

ARASHI? ARASHI? I THINK IT IS. GUYS OMG I'M SO EXCITED AHHH. Haha Sho just talked about how it's 3h long. YES, VERY LONG. EEEEEK. LARUKU! HAHAHA OKAY NOT ARASHI (I was expecting it 'cos the banners on the sides all said "ARASHI MEDLEY!!") but omg I'm pleased with this as well. ALso that HAIR. It's really cool omg. Did the guy announcing the data change...? And wow they're still! Above 50% for femaes. Omg I NEED TO STOP INJURING MYSELF FLAILING. HONEYYY. Oh fuck the vocalist's LOOK. And his voice. ANd dslkjfas;lkjflaksjf. HAHA HOLY SHIT THE LIGHTS BUT I LOVE THIS. Omg this guy has a HOT PINK GUITAR, I APPROVE OF HIS CHOICES. JAMMING SO HARD. Hey he just! WINKED AT THE CAMERA. But haha Jrock was into fanservice practically before idols. MORE STREAMERS. Omg I love the streamers from this show they seriously EXPLODE like they fly all over. Oh gosh I love this. ALso guys. I want the vocalist's clothes. Um. I am making really bad fashion decisions today aren't I. CHASE! Oh god that VOICE. I just shuddered eeek. THE GUITAR. GOSH LARUKU. OH GOSH THE CHORUS. Um the guy's VOICE GUYS. Um guys Jrock is like, my personal musical roots okay it's how I ended up falling in love with the GENRES OF MY LIFE in the first place! THE VOICE.

ARASHI! SHO LEFT HAHA I'M SURE NOW. HAHA THE POOR EMCEE. "I'M ALONE." FLAILINGGG. I JUST JUMPED OUT OF MY SEAT AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHH FUCK CMs NOW? FUCKING TROLLS HAHAHAHA. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. Oh my god I am THIS EXCITED SERIOUSLY.

:D :D :D ♥

Also strangely I haven't seen a single Arashi CM? ANd lol they are like CM almost-kings so!

EEEEK. ARASHI ♥ Um I want. Jun's jacket. AND NINO'S SHOES LOL IT'S LIKE SOMEONE POURED GLITTER OVER IT. Haha their talk is so weird. JUN JUST. PLAYED WITH OHNO'S EAR RANDOMLY GOSH LOVE THEM. Also why do they get the non-handheld mike? SO. Many. FANS. (SO MUCH MONEHZ.) Omg there is so much hidden glitter in their clothes the light catches and their clothes GLEAM LOL. Esp Nino (HIS SHOES AND SHIRT) and Aiba (JACKET) and ALL THEIR BUTTONS AND BROOCHES-THAT-ARE-ON-THEIR-TIES. Their talk session is SUPER LONG LOL. Nino's collar has. DETAILING. It looks like something from British India tbqh. Aiba's mike is of o.o Can't hear him. Also their hand positins. So poliiite. HAHA they're making ALL OF THEM TALK ONE BY ONE. This is. Kinda awk tbh. I get the vague impression they're getting paid for this. Like NTV. Getting paid. Or for FUCKING PUBLICITY which well is great on both ends but well a bit overbearing.

Omg omgomg AHHHHH.

WHAT THE FUCK THEY JUST WENT TO CMs. AGAIN. Seriously! Oh NOW I see an Arashi-Nintendo CM! Obviously someone's getting good money. I see JGS too lol. AND LOTTE FITS! OMG IT WAS A DIFF CM BUT AHH LOTTE FITS! AHHHH I AM GLEEFUL NOW.

EKK NTV IS BACK ON. Omg I AM. SO EXCITED. MONSTER! I JUST SCREAMED SHIT. OMG OMG I MISS THIS. Oh gosh oh gosh. OHNO. Oh god. My heart HAHA I feel like a new fan. Omg Nino's mike is...? LOL JUN'S "WE ARE". Okay no nothing wrong with his mike I thought it fell off O.O Omg the floor-screen is amazing. Well I feel like saying this is obvsly NOT LIVE but well let's not be mean HAHA. Aibaaaaa. MONSTAHHHHH. I guess they're doing this again 'cos of Kaibutsu 3D movie! Which is. QUITE A GOOD CALL TBH. Esp since Kaibutsu-kun came on. LOVE RAINBOW! OKAY NOW I'M JUST CONFUSED BUT THEY ONLY HAD 2 SINGLES THIS YEAR AND AIBA OKAY KEEP HYPING THEM UP. HAHAHA NOW THEY GET HANDHELD MIKES? UM. LOL. JUNTOSHI. Oh gosh OHNO'S FACE. I FEEL LIKE I'VE WATCHED THIS. SOMETHING VERY SIMILAR HAPPENED LAST YEAR'S NTV BEST ARTIST LOL. HAHAHAHA ACTUALLY TBH ALMOST THE EXACT SAME THING BUT AH WWELL. OH GOSH. JUUUUN. Nino moves so much and HE IS SO HUNCHED HE IS A LITTLE OLD MAN. Omg. HAHA THEY KEEP SHOUTING RANDOM WORDS. AND MORE CMs. Is this all they're doing NO RIGHT THEY DO MEIKYUU I'M VERY SURE OF IT. Omg Arashi ALONE took up like SUPER LONG. 3 CMs in between already that's MAD. Haha NTV is obviously pushing them. I love them and they COMPLETELY STOLE THE SHOW LAST NTV, but well THIS IS A LITTLE TOO MUCH. I'm kinda uncomfortable with this really.

YES MEIKYUU! OMG OMG I HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS LIVE. AHHHHH. Oh gosh. NTV has terrible camerawork though. Omg they're echoing. Not in the resounding way but the TECHNICAL ERROR way HAHA. OH GOSH HAHAHA I LOVE SAKUMIYA THE WAY THEY FOOL AROUND. And Sho's eyes on the camera, OBVSLY WAITING FOR IT. Also jw do they say AHHH OKAY LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT THEY JUST GOT ON ONE KNEE AND WELL IDK. AND THEY JUST LIKE PUT THEIR HANDS TOGETHER I CAN'T THINK. Omg this is REALLY VERY BUTLERLY. Seishoku oh gosh SO CUTE. And okay the live, Sho is very obviously centre! OMG THE TWIRL AT THE END, AIBA DOES IT WONDERFULLY. Omg the lighting just made Matsumiya look VERY PALE. THE KNEE THING IS SERIOUSLY. FANSERVICE TTM LOL. The confetti is damn excessive LOL from far away it looks black. OH GOOOSH I LOVE THEM. AHHHHHHHH. HAHA SO SHO GOES BACK TO EMCEE (SWEATING) AND THE REST OF ARASHI STAND AWKWARDLY AND SMILE. Omg Sho is seriously sweating like crazy haha oh Arashi, I LOVE YOU. SAYONARA♥ I LOVE THEM.

ANYWAY WHAT I WANTED TO ASK: Do they say "TATOE BA!" that way to sound like "That's forever" ON PURPOSE BECAUSE I ALWAYS MISHEAR IT AS THAT.

ANYWAY YES. 3 HOURS! Felt longer tbh HAHA I think Arashi's part got dragged on WAY TOO FUCKING LONG. Is that why in the middle there were no CMs? SO THEY COULD PILE IT ALL UP AND WAIT FOR ARASHI TO COME ON. Sigh. I think that somewhat affected my enjoyment of this! But ahh I STILL ENJOYED IT. YEA. It was very hyping! YES :D :D

OKAY I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW. Tomorrow: FNS! AND MSSL, IF POSSIBLE. (LIKE IF I DON'T GET DISTRACTED BY FIC. WHICH I WILL.)

Also just deleted NTV 'cos I watched it and HEY 20GB OF SPACE CLEARED.

2012-01-03T05:16:00.001-08:00

Um guys. I am going to make it my life motto to link 2011jstorm EVERYWHERE until the videos get taken down. Or until Jstorm comes out with an official message. Because I want to know LOL. UM MEAN yea but. Anyway it's highly unlikely, but the pseudo-officialness is seriously working fandom's kinda panicky about it.

But the highest PV quality is 360p. UM. Well it would be good for preventing downloads though. But guys I can make a list of reason why it's fake. If they did something like that, obviously the main point would be to promote, right? Okay missing a bunch of things: links to J-net, Jstorm's official site, and on every video a description of the single and its release date and price. There's also the problem of the SUPER LOW QUALITY, and the fact that they released Zekkouchou Chou!!!!

ALSO HAHA PWNT THE BIRTH PV HAS A FAN LOGO ON THE CORNER. Oh I love uploaders and their watermarks. I mean no I hate them but SOMEONE'S GOING TO HAVE A FIELD DAY BEING PISSED.

The uploads are also not in any particular order. Latest PV from every Jstorm artist? Makes sense, almost, but not at all because why would you do that when Miageta Ryuusei is so old. And WHY WOULD YOU UPLOAD ZEKKOUCHOU CHOU!!!!? ALSO HAHA THEY'RE MISSING HSJ WELL.

Anyway this is still hilarious. I love their dedication to making this as real as possible lol. Waiting for JStorm to come down on this. (Also tiny fact: Why Jstorm That is a fucking weird place to start, as popular as Arashi is. If I were J&A, I'd either go straight to J&A, or have it individually for every group [especially due to the longevity of the groups, it'd save on organisation]. Obviously that's how Sony does too, but we must realise any of Sony's labels has more artists than the whole J&A.)

ANYWAY I sincerely hope J&A realises that IT'S TIME TO ACCEPT GLOBALISATION. Um seriously look at fucking PON PON PON. Arashi could totally do that with Kitto Daijoubu lol. And honestly! Even if they don't go viral it would help people stumble upon them and they could seriously extend their reach! Why go for an e-mail system (which most new fans don't know how to access anyway) when you can use Youtube! And Tackey Channel for the whole Johnnys just wouldn't garner fans the way something as public and available like Youtube would. Plus if fans would flood it enough to bring them to the front page of Youtube (AKB fans have achieved that) it would just get attention.

JAPAN Y U NO GLOBALISE??? I get that they get enough cash from the domestic market BUT HEY J&A THAT IS NOT HOW YOU THINK. You don't want some cash. YOU WANT ALL THE CASH. AMIRITE. HAHA now I'm going crazy but ughhh I get so emotional about Johnny and the way they manage idols by saying "WELL LET'S ONLY PROMOTE LOCALLY" okay guys I'm gonna stop now.

Just saying my brother got a survey on Chinese and one of the questions was, "when you need help in Chinese, who is the first person you go to for help?" [translated] And the first option is NOT your parents and NOT your siblings, it's YOUR GRANDPARENTS. HAHAHAHAHA I CAN'T. Is our standard of Chinese this sad.

Also my mother and my brother are FUCKING NOISY ugh I can never relax when I'm in the same room and my brother's (pretending to be) doing homework I just rage and get angry and become unable to focus ugh. I'm blasting music as loud as possible rn to drown them out. I'm going to die in JC this is why I only do work after midnight guys because FINALLY THERE IS FUCKING SILENCE.

I am losing my Solitaire skillz ;_;

Anyway today went for CCAO! UM JS GUYS I tied my hair in French braids for FIFTEEN HOURS and I took them off and my curls were fucking glorious and they lasted... FOR 2 HOURS. I can't D: Also I have apparently lost ALL MY BOBBY PINS??? This is incredibly sad.

So yes met Cheese and hoboed around! Met Yunzhen there hehe and just sat around and wanted to play sim but couldn't because 1) no one knew Jallene's password and 2) IT DECIDED TO FLAT JUST AS JALLENE ARRIVED LOL. But anyway well. It was. Rather boring. But yea hehe at least we went back!

GOT TO TALK TO CHEESE ABOUT ~things~ HOHO ;D

Also omg first training is fucking soon dudes I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO LEAVE MY HOUSE THIS WEEK SIGH. But okay ):

Um omg seriously brother and mother are FUCKING NOISYYYY omg I seriously cannot calm down. Ugh BREATHE FISH. Like ya la I love my family but omg. So. much. fucking. noise. Ugh this is why I hate it when school starts I'm going to banish my brother from my room or move my laptop elsewhere or demand he gets a new room by the end of this year I swear. Perhaps after I file away my stuff I'll move my laptop to my study and reclaim my fan (WHICH IS MINE) from my parents' room (which has an aircon anyway UM) so yea. They were just writing a JOURNAL ENTRY and filling in a fucking PERSONAL PARTICULARS FORM and were making more noise than my music player on the loudest volume below my pain threshold wtf.

Okay yes I generally don't blog about this (obvsly not because I am TRYING NOT TO TEAR MY HAIR OUT AND DO WORK WHEN THEY'RE THIS NOISY) but yea. Ughhh. I mean like ikr I'm fucking noisy too but at least not when people are trying to get stuff done tyvm sigh.

OKAY OKAY GONNA STOP BEING MAD.

Okay anyway yesterday I found this FANTASTIC GIF (idk where it is now lol) of Arashi with their hands as 'V's and bowing after a concert and ALL THE EXPLOSIONS FROM MY HEART. Is there a photoset of that on tumblr I DEMAND ONE. Lolol I will watch all the concerts and make it myself one day.

UM also omg this post is the most disjointed ever perhaps because I AM RAGEY but anyway I just want to say that um guys. Well. Sexual assualt is not funny, okay? And neither is any kind of assault. And neither (well shouldn't be using 'neither' anymore) is abuse. And abuse comes in all forms, and beyond verbal and physical abuse there is psychological abuse. All these things are not funny and please don't be shamey and bitchy because that will make me really, really dislike you.

Um okay this is just a coagulation of things I've wanted to say for a while now but please don't like, idk. Fuck around with me. Because of certain things I've been like, exposed to and stuff, and also because I am me, I've gotten ridiculously triggery in the past year (I mean 2011) and well. Yes. And also I get easily angry because CAN YOU JUST SHAME do you even understand what you're saying??

And internalised misogyny does NOT make you a better more able person who is considerate of yourself and others there is a line between self-respect and BEING A BITCH and well. Okay.

Okay guys my rage is over.

Also I love this nail polish.

MOOD SWINGS WHOOO.

GUDBAI.

WELL guess who's perfect.

(Hint: if you guessed a scrawny, pale, Japanese idol whose name starts with 'N' and ends with 'inomiya' WELL YOU MAY JUST BE RIGHT.)

Also tumblr is laggy today.

SO I ONCE SAID I DIDN'T LIKE TOOKU MADE THAT MUCH but omg I am singing along anyway. HEY! HEY! TOOKU MADE~

Also AIBA ♥

Um I'm just. Blogging a lot LOL.

OKAY SO IN ROCK THIS THEY SAY "BELIEVER" BUT THEY'RE JAPANESE AND THUS SAY "BELIEBER" LOLOL.

OMG NOT NEWS SO NOT GONNA POST WITH THE NEWS BUT BEST FUCKING POST EVER OMG DYING I saw it and in spite of myself LAUGHED OUT LOUD. HOLY SHIT.

FUCK I SERIOUSLY CAN'T. ALL THE COMMENTS. Also Nino oh gosh I LOVE YOU. Also the fact that Changmin is so far behind. Omg I want them next to each other now. Also omg crying. I am going to read this whole post everytime I'm upset. Seriously guys, Arashi is short, grass is green, water is wet, etc.

ALSO GUYS THIS GIF I CANNOT. FROM WATANABE TO NINO IT JUST SINKS LIKE. UM HAHAHA FUCK.

Okay shouldn't be laughing so hard the whole of Arashi is taller than me (LOL FUCK OUCH THEY'RE REALLY SHORT) but OH MY GOD.

Haha some people there seriously butthurt though but LOL I CAN'T. Oh my god.

Haha fuck oh gosh. Okay calming down now BUT SERIOUSLY WHEN I SAW THE POST I WAS LIKE HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

Also js! Um yes it's true that the emphasis on height (and. well. aesthetic quality?) seems to be greater in S. Korea? Also people calling Jjong short when he is A FUCKING GIANT okay well 173cm but that's like Jessie's height? Idk lol in Japan no1curr about how tall idols are, but Japanese are also one of the shortest people worldwide LOL.

OKAY I WILL STOP BLOGGING ABOUT HEIGHT. Anyway I need to seriously think about how I am shorter than all of Arashi again LOL okay only by like, 3cm! But still. NOT SOMETHING I REALISED.

HEY GUYS. I just found out something important about group dynamics that has been governing the way I think about them for a while!

Genius :D♥

When translations are weird and you have to wonder if it's the translator or the original D8

Um guys Nino is fucking calculative and I absolutely love that about him. Also he has had zero solo activities this year (well except his endorsement of Nintendo which was apparently HIS WHOLE YEAR but that wasn't solo either) but he basically goes all out to promote um say EVERYONE. His mental list of their activities for the previous year (and this) is impressive.

Um also speaking of no solo activities I STILL WANT A SOLO CONCERT FROM HIM.

MAY I FEEL LIED TO the animation dance was from Kouhaku! Um Kouhaku DOWNLOAD PLEASE nowonder it felt Disneyish!

WELL I AM SUDDENLY MADE AWARE THAT THERE IS A KISS SCENE IN FREETER.

Okay I'm too overexcited today HAHA I LOVE THE WORLD.

(HAHA IT IS A FUCKING AWKWARD KISS THOUGH he kinda grabs Karina who doesn't move and then HE TURNS HIS HEAD BUT SHE'S NOT MOVING SO HE MOVES BACK LOLOLOL.)

Tumblr: the land of spoilers and of making me want to watch EVERYTHING.

So in Kiroii Namida Nino adjusts Sho's tie. Lolol was it Sho's graduation when he ran all the way to Nino's to get his tie tied? ♥ PEOPLE I LOVE.

(LONGEST POST EVER)

Just watched Arashi's New Year Message, UM GUYS they are adorable also lol the message thing is always just a thing for them to say hi to their fans and then PROMOTE and last year for Christmas they all had a bunch of stuff and this year it was one each and most things I was unaware of! OOPS. Um bad fan ttm HAHA. But yea :D

Also Nino has nothing lined up for next year yet too! Um guys. MOVIE. I don't really want a drama it's too much for me to watch LOL but yes hopefully with a flawless actress! Eeeeee.

Um just read the last part. I just. Had this. Very. Like. Difficult realisation that I was the ~Makino~ to someone's ~Domyouji~ and I'm just using tildes to like lighten the situation and also to emphasise that it is not the same kind of relationship, tbh far from it, but the feeling of needing to be there for someone because you're the only one that person has left, in spite of being... hmm. Abused may not be the right word here, but I'll stick with it for now. In spite of being abused. And ending up being the one hurt.

Hmmm. Okay there is this sudden understanding of what people are saying. I feel enlightened.

WELL turns out Japan's okay! Like it was 7.0 offshore, but highest 4.0 inland and they all just. Watched TV LOL. That's good :D But still earthquake on New Year's = D:

RED TEAM WON! INOUE MAO IS FLAWLESS! WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED! AHHH I'm really really super proud of Akagumi but they so deserved it! With AKB's and Ashida's popularity and AYAKA'S COMEBACK ♥♥♥ and SO MANY FLAWLESS QUEENS I AM HONESTLY NOT SURPRISED AHHH. SO. PROUD :D :D I LOVE AKAGUMI AND I HAVEN'T EVEN WATCHED THIS.

Also ratings! Well, not as good as I wanted but AT LEAST IT WAS >40%! THAT IS SOMETHING TO SAY. And gosh I love how Fukushima's ratings were super high because it was for them after all ;_; The first half ratings tho! ALSO OMG THE OLD RATINGS. 80%! THAT IS MAD. But ahhh I CONTINUE TO LOVE KOUHAKU FOREVER ♥

CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH IT. I heard Ayaka's performance was superb although Arashi's was... well. Not very amazing! But guys the picture on my blog is from Kouhaku and the moment I see it I will tear. And I haven't even seen spoilers for Furusato yet ;_;

GUYS GUYS. CLASSIER LIKE NONE OF THEM HOES HAHAHAHAHA OH MY GODDD. Everything's so typical though (although sincerely bad choices! But I looked at some and realised the reason they were so bad was because EVERYTHING ELSE WAS WORSE except in some cases oh stans.) BUT I LOVE THE ARAMA AWARDS HAHA DYING. I was laughing and clapping and saying YES YES YES!! at the screen the whole time LOL.

APOPA AWARDS, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS? But well I agree with most of the poll (GTFO MY TV!! HAHAHAH) BUT GUYS, ARAMA WON DOUCHEBAG OF THE YEAR. I CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW PROUD I AM HAHAHAHA ALSO TWITTER WHORE OF THE YEAR LOOOL. THIS IS THE BEST.

GUYS.

ARASHI IS DOING 24H TV
I CANNOT
I NEVER WATCHED THIS BUT OMG I SERIOUSLY CANNOT I LOVE THIS I WANT THEM TO DO IT OH GOSH OH GOSH AHHH. OH GOSH. I just, I really can't 24h tv basically embodies EVERYTHING I LOVE ABOUT THEM because they're just truly truly amazing individuals. There was this confession about how they saved lives, and just. They help us achieve dreams and let us believe in something and sometimes I really think people don't really know how much I love, love, love Arashi because I don't lie when I say they're something I truly believe in and something that's made parts of my life, and my life not just my fandom life, and even when I don't blog about them I actively think about them and they keep me going on sometimes and I need to stop this terrible sentence full of run-ons. But oh gosh. Oh gosh. I am going to watch this and WEEP. ;_;

ALSO LOL THAT FIRST COMMENT I CANNOT.

UM AYAKA'S COMEBACK! OMG OMG SHOULD I WATCH IT NOW WELL THE ANSWER IS YES.

Omg so excited. Piano! also greenery. (When did they film this lol isn't it winter?) Oh gosh I had to flail for a moment HER VOICE. It's exactly like I remember it. Also it's a very pretty song oh gosh her vooooice. Omg everytime she hits a fuller or higher note goosebumps suddenly explode all up my arms and I have to shudder for a moment. And the PV's pretty too! OH AYAKA. HOW DID I LIVE WITHOUT YOU. Omg omg she's so pretty and her VOICE it's amazing. She's so... emotionally strong and expressive in her music. Omg I love the PV it's pretty but it's just. Amazing somewhere. AHH the way she sings, I can't. The 2nd pre-chorus, where they just show Ayaka in all her fabulousness and the way she explodes I just. Omg how does she change pitch so effortlessly oh gosh. The PV's actually sort of meaningful! Oh gosh she's amazing. AYAKA. I love this song omg it's really mad and dramatic, but I think it's amazing and suits her voice, and she just does it with so much control and emotion. Also yea it's dramatic but I think it just lets her showcase her emotional side which she is BEST at so yea (:

LOLOL ninki last week was pathetic but then again it's the last to first week of the new year! Also HSJ is going to own.

LOLOL I LOVE THIS. Um whoever those people were, BAD DECISIONS THOUGH. Talking loudly drunk in a public area? Tsk. Also LOLOL I LOVE KITAGAWA KEIKO. Get it gurlll. She has so many haters for being obviously classy though HAHA

Also omg this rumour which got dispelled like the day after. WELL. Anyway I hope they're happy! Whatever they're doing :D

HEY GUYS Yamada Takayuki's getting married! Oh I like how it's a quiet affair :D Congratulations to him! Oh wow he has a kid? Didn't know that.

UM so I don't know S/mileage much but I know Maeda Yuuka somehow and she's GRADUATING D: Oh gosh where is she going? There be no news ): Hope she does great or happy-making things in the future!

I NEVER FIGURED OUT WHY JOHNNIES DON'T GO ON CDTV UNTIL THIS. Ofc, JOHNNY'S COUNTDOWN. But seriously ahhhh. I kinda wanna see Jin and Yamapi? I don't. Really watch CDTV countdown lol. ):

HSJ ASIA TOUR ;sklafj;daslkjf;sljd THAILAND. Okay js for the past few years Johnnys have cancelled their Thailand leg, and understandably so but. Seriously? It's also the closest performance to Singapore ): Sigh.

ALSO YABU KOTA GETS INTO WASEDA WOOTS HAHA SERIOUSLY I AM HAPPY. Waseda's like, one of the top too so! Since when was Tegoshi on leave from Waseda though o.o Although I can understand. OH apparently he's doing the same thing Tego is!

Also Japan's love of HanaDan will NEVER END. GOKUSEN IS THE BEST THOUGH. I absolutely fell in love with Sawada Shin. IT IS THE BEST. LOL WHY IS V NO ARASHI EVEN THERE> I hope he blows me away with Lucky 7 oh gosh ♥

I just want to say Meisa's covers for UNLOCKED are gorgeous. Even if the font is questionable. That's how all Meisa covers work though == I wish Meisa could get people who work her aesthetic better seriously! As in, she's so pretty and she's a model so that is ARGUABLY her main draw, so ): (ALSO she is amazingly nice and super sweet and THE FIERCEST EVER.)

ALSO WHY WAS I NOT AWARE THAT SHOW LUO IS RELEASING IN JAPAN.

Um js the Ace Attorney live action LOOKS LIKE IT'S GOING TO BE HILARIOUS, Nariyama's hair! Also Takumi Saito's LOLOL. I just. I'm not going to watch but HAHAHAHA LOOK AT IT.

Japan's highest grossing films! SURPRISE, GANTZ IS 2ND HIGHEST GROSSING DOMESTIC. GANTZ 2 didn't do as well though. Nothing in this really interests me :/ I can't rememeber what movies were released this year! OH YES SP. Haha. Yeaaa. May watch some?

GUYS IF YOU WANT TO LEARN ABOUT BARBIES. And Licca, which is ADORABLE. Oh gosh. I love crazy concepts which no one accepts that become reality and FUCKING FLAWLESS :D

PVs♥

NYC's Wonderful Cupid
OH HEY NAKAYAMA PUSH YUMA HAS A SOLO. Sigh. Oh well but Chinen can't sing and Yamada is the face of HSJ so I'll let this sliiiide. Oh gosh so cute. If I didn't know better I'd think this were a girl group PV LOL. OMG IS IT STOP MOTION. Okay no it isn't. Omg I can recognise the NYC voices. Chinen's voice o.o Oh Yuma has quite a smooth voice. Not bad. I dislike his makeup here. (LOL I want to say his face but he's been looking rather good lately.) THIS IS. SUCH A NURSERY RHYME. The PV is cute though! Green screen done right. Are Yamada's eyes blue!? Also omg Chinen. I just. I love him he's adorable (personality-wise) but HE SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO SING ): This song is boring I'm bored. Nursery rhymes shouldn't last 3min. Also lol the live had better have lulzy dancing or I'm gonna be REALLY bored. Y'know what I shall listen to Yuma's solo. Will NYC ever break their image! Yamada doesn't even suit the image anymore. Like I said he fulfills the idol formula amazingly. Also the way he looks at the camera lol doesn't suit this at all. WHA FUCK THE B-SIDE QUALITY SUCKS omg okay not listening I have a headache now ouch.

OKAY ALL OF SDN'S PVs.

Kudoki Nagara Azabu Juban 'duet' with Mino Monta
Omg everything eludes me. The title LOL. I love the colouring of the video! AKB's videos always have really nice colouring. Also omg the PV looks quite epic. OMG THE SONG HAHAHAHA. THE STYLE. It's like, Taiwan Chacha? Omg I love it already this is a style I pretty much grew up with. Omg it's like a show choir HAHA but their voices! So much better here. I think I've mentioned my ~problem~ with their vocals before. Also the guy's voice suits this. OH I definitely prefer their vocals here. LOLOL this is super show choir though. Omg I want one of their skirts but idk who. Eeek AKB PVs rarely disappoint. OMG LOL DID I JUST HEAR THE LYRICS RIGHT? OH LOL THE GUY'S FACE. Their voices are rather deep here! I like. HAHAHA okay some parts of this are very... yes. I think the chemistry between the girls and Mino Monta is a bit lacking though. LOLOL THE END.

UNDERGIRLS B: CACHACA DE JIHAKU SURU
... What? I can't pronounce that LOL. Omg the intro of the PB is cool. OMG THEY'RE IN PANTS HAHA I'M SHOCKED. Eeek I love the spotlight thing. Oh gosh I love the makeup in this. Although the dance is. Questionable. Hey this isn't as in-your-face-ly sexy as most SDN PVs. Okay are the solo shots filmed with fisheye!? Omg there's. words. Okay it says SDN48 == But it's a cool set! OH CLASSY. HAHA. Oh the cane dance was quite cool, but would've been better with more practise. Is there a fight? Haha the names again I feel sad or undergirls sometimes. OH THE PISTOLS. I like their voices SO MUCH MORE in this PV. I only their first 3 singles were like this I would'be paif more attention. OMG THE ENDING. How ballerina of them. Oh I LIKE THIS THOUGH. SDN can totally do more than just sexy. This is plain cool okay. I really wish Akimoto didn't decide to mass graduate them ): Oh gosh the thing with the hands.

UNDERGIRLS A: Gamjatan Bojou
They like filming snow - OH THIS IS IN A SNOWY PLACE. In Korea? LOL OKAY. Oh I like the sound of this too. Like the music. Their voices too! UGH this range is perfect for them why did Akimoto force them up for GAGAGA and all that. But their dresses are hdeous I'm sorry. Oh gosh they're so classy. I actually really like this! LOLOL DOMESTICITY. Oh gosh oh gosh I really like this one. I even like the choreo! Quite a first. The domestic scenes escape me though. THERE'S A GIRL HERE WHO LOOKS LIKE A GROWN UP ACCHAN. LOLOL IS THERE A DANCE BATTLE. Okay obvsly SDN loses though LOL I mean I like the choreo better here but it's still pretty basic and they're super uncoordinated. I think 48 family's PVs are made interesting not just by the fact that there is production quality but also because THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE TO STARE AT. The blonde girl in this kinda scares me though her hair and the clown-eye!

Konya wa Karasawagi - Tokyo Jihen
OMG I LOVE IT ALREADY. Also raining money. Oh gosh lol the PV. Omg I love Shiina's voice here. Oh gosh I like this. Also the PV is super intriguing. SHIINA WITH A RIDLE. Also omg it's a murder. Also they introduce them by having them SIGN CONTRACTS I CANNOT. I can't read their names though. Omg I love the clothes here, and the way they gather and all look coolly at the camera. Her coise is flawless here. LOLOL I LOVE THE MURDER THING. Also their band has a pianist! I like this sound omg it's kinda retro-modern IF THAT EVEN MAKES SENSE. Hey they have 2 vocalists? -not very knowledgeable of TOkyo Jihen- Shiina works the mike like a fucking queen. Oh gosh the PV. The entire look and feel of it is perfect. I love Shiina's voice here omg it's really rocker. OH RETRO-ROCK? YES SOMERHING IKE THAT. Beaucoup de bruit pour rien... omg. I love this :D Omg I remember Tokyo Jihen, they had the ramen song (Noudouteki Sanpunkan) and I thought it was weird HAHA OOPS. Okay I still do think it's weird though her voice is kind of amazing though. I do like it when the band joins in though!

Konna Watashi de Yokattara - Kikkawa Yuu
OMG so cute haha. Oh the song is quite cool. Why do I know her btw? OH GOD SHE'S FROM MOMUSU. Umn I super don't follow H!P lol. Does she say atashi or watashi? Oh gosh the dance is quite cute. Also using herself as backdancers LOL. I like this it's kinda bouncy and cute! Omg her voice just reached really low and I like dit. ALSO PLAYING WITH PUPPETS LOL SO CUTE. Ahh she's super pretty when she smiles. Omg the puppets! She should smile more it suits her! And it completely changes her look lol. A bit like Yoshitaka in that sense? Also the dance, because she's in 3 and the style and the effects, reminds me of Perfume. Oh I like the bridge! Okay no not the pitch though. I can't tell if she's straining or it's autotune. Omg I love the film roll thing HAHA. Also oh gosh her thighs are fucking skinny HAHA OKAY YES RANDOM. Oh I like this! I like her voice when it dips low haha. Also her face is like a mix of a lot of my fave actresses HAHA IDEK.

Jammin' the Empire - lecca
Hopefully this is a full version otherwise I won't waste time watching the full one. Omg the PV is creepy. What was that blur thing! OMG. I'M SCARED. Oh omg THERE IS A WOLF-HEADED DOCTOR OR STH? OKAY FEAR HAHA. I liked something from lecca iirc. Hmm. Well idk this song isn't a style I particularly like. Also the PV is actually REALLY CREEPY. She's like. Being a test subject. Also the screens around her. Idk what it is about this song I don't like I think it's the meld of her voice with the instrumental. OH I like the chorus better. LOLOL OKAY NOW THE DOCTORS (?) BE DANCING. Oh the other doctor was a monkey. Okay now the PV. Makes me feel high. Omg the rap. I like the rap! Her voice suits it omg. OH she's escaping her sort-of-bodybag. SHIT IT'S SHORT VERSION IT ENDED. Omg it was from avexnetwork SHOULD'VE KNOWN |: Okay nvm wil watch both anyway. It's 4min long seh o.o

INFORMER - lecca
Okay far less creepy HAHA. Oh gosh I love her lipstick and how it stands out from the black and white. I like this! Omg she eels a bit like CL HAHA. Like her FUCK ALL attitude. Omg with her sunglasses you could tell me she's CL and I'd accept that o.o Oh gosh her earrings are red too! Okay I like this song better. And the PV's colouring is quite cool and she knows how to work the camera definitely. Can I have her hair btw. Can she actually dance? Like she dances here and there but not throughout and not with her backdancers. OMG THE FIGHT SCENE WITH HERSELF> Okay short but cool! Omg I just realised she's saying "INFORMER" but it sounds like. "EAT BURGER" LOL.

YAMASHITA YOUR CHINESE. OMG HE'S ACTUALLY. IMPROMPTU CHINESE? Okay okay it's scripted I THINK but OH MY GOD. Um. Um.

Have I ever spoken about how I love people who speak more than one language? OKAY GRANTED to consider this 'speaking another language' my definition of 'speak' is going to have to be FUCKING BROAD but omg I completely accept this.

Okay I don't really want to watch this I just want to watch him perform SEISHUN AMIGOOOO. Also Shanghai Chinese sounds the BEST. OH YES HE'S. HAHAHA TEACHING SEISHUN AMIGO. THEY DO THIS ALL THE TIME THOUGH AHHH. Okay he's back to Japanese! OMG I UNDERSTAND HIM HAHA. The translator is so awk and far away! Oh gosh I like that Yamashita is polite ♥

SEISHUN AMIGOOO. No Kame though ): Okay I'm not gonna liveblog just ham BUHBYE. UM THERE ARE SUBS THOUGH. HAHAHA JS. Also him singing Kame's lines don't feel right oops. Also the stage is super empty w/o juniors LOL. Okay tbqh if I didn't like Seishun Amigo this much, I'd be fucking bored because this is. Well he's just walking around singing it haha. I'd still be thrilled if I were there though! Also it is super awk to dance it alone so yea I'll give him that.

OH MY GOD BACKDANCERS JUST ENTERRED FOR DAITE SENORITA. OKAY NOW HE'S HYPING UP THE CROWD A LITTLE. Yamashita I love you but maybe you're not ready to go solo just yet. Like he's pretty and all but he doesn't command the stage well. Then again this is his first solo and OH GOSH HE SMILED. Okay yes his first solo stage since the NEWS breakup omg he just asked 你们爱我吗 OKAY ANYWAY. Omg he's SMILING. OKAY OKAY now he's on his knees. UM I CANNOT BLOG COHERENTLY. askd;j;alsdkjf. Okay anyway yea he's done solos, but not on stage and not without HAVING NEWS. Yep. His smile tho oh my godd. OKAY ANYWAY yea. I hope he improves though! I mean. I never wanted to see him go solo but he's here already, so. I might as well wish he does well.

WTF MY MSSL HAS NO AUDIO.

ETA: I got it back! Must disable and re-enable the audio track sigh.

MEIKYUU LOVE SONG SINGLE

1. Meikyuu Love Song
FUCKING EXCITE. Okay let's go! Is that. Ticktocking. OMG. I love it already HAHA. It's like! HAPPY. MAPLESTORYISH HAHAHAHA. Bad description but. Omg someone's voice is dead smooth in this oh gosh ♥ This makes me HAPPY HAHA. The pre-chorus is amazing also I want to play drums. Oh gosh. The chorus is a little... disappointing? But it's still nice! HAHA I like it. I can see it fitting NazoDi! Which is tbqh VERY IMPORTANT. Oh gosh I love the overdrama in the last few lines. UM. WHAT IF I SAID THE SMOOTH VOICE WAS JUN'S. Haha he didn't have the nasalness! Aiba's :D Um Nino's voice is amazing here too. OMG I COULDN'T TELL WHEN IT SWITCHED TO OHNO SHIT. Sho's voice doesn't really suit this but well he's the centre for the single! Omg I am still bouncing away HAHA. I can't see how the PV will fit tbh! Omg that wind instrument in the background, I love it. Oh gosh the bridge I love it. Does Sho not get a solo in the bridge! Ohno's voice is fucking silk I swear. WOW Sho didn't! That's. Awkward. Then again Sho's voice didn't suit the song but still. He's the centre!!! Oh gosh I love the structure of the chorus even if it's not as exciting as I expected. The instrumental to this sounds GLORIOUS.

2. together, forever
This could be a ballad or a DANCE SONG. HAHAHAHAH FUCK I WAS RIGHT. It's very techno LOL. Oh haha is Arashi going to get over the techno stage I HOPE SO. Okay the melding of voices for the first line is o.o Oh gosh I like the 2nd stanza though. Is that kaze trio? OMG AIBA'S VOICE. Nino's and Aiba's voices are very clear here. HAHA THE CHORUS IS SO HAPPY. Omg Aiba sounds amazing in this. OH GOSH THE "TOGETHER! FOREVER!" HAHA ♥ Oh I like this HAHA. OHNO'S VOICE CONTINUES TO BE SILK. Aiba's solo lines was too overlayered his voice is PERFECT here. Jun's not so. Actually everyone's is overlayered here. Sho's also. And Nino gets. Nothing. LOL. I CAN'T STAND HOW HAPPY THE CHORUS IS. Oh they switched for the chorus! Like there was the main chorus and the background whispers, they switched roles. I'm following Aiba's voice here he sounds PERFECT. Lol Nino's solo isn't in the bridge either. Hmm I liked his voice here too though. Or what I could hear of it. AIBA'S IN THIS IS PERFECT THOUGH. Gosh ♥ I quite like this!

3. Utakata
I am expecting a happy song. HAHA okay it's quite happy but it has. A style underlying it I can't pick it out. IT FEELS A BIT LIKE. THE SDN PVs I WATCHED TODAY THOUGH. YES YES YES. Oh gosh they picked great harmonies for this. Okay the pre-chorus was a bit weird and the chorus is a little strange? Omg did they just sing "HOHOHOHO". The instrument they use is o.o Omg Nino's voice haha. It suits. Sho's too! Aiba's not so much this one, Jun's also. They all get their moments here. EXCEPT OHNO WHERE EVERY MOMENT IS HIS. Hmm I don't like this as much. Feels rather unmemorable really. OMGOMGOMGOMG SAKURAP! Fuck I was just thinking about how there hasn't been a really good one lately. Hey this was not bad! JUST TERRIBLY SHORT ): Aiba's solo! And his harmony with Nino. Perfection omg. Well. Aiba's voice suits the bridge :D And it's the instrumental. There's a lot of... noise which doesn't match. Which is weird :/

4. wanna be
Omg shit I love it. I hope they do it well though it's not something Arashi would do. Omg I can imagine UVERworld playing the intro. FUCK OKAY this is good. Um omg this is great. OMG THE CHORUS HAHA. Okay haha what's with the random beeping in the back? Ohno omg. The verses are kinda. Amazing. Shoooo. Oh gosh Nino. I'm so prone to his voice lately. Aiba's doesn't really suit this song, WHICH IS STRANGE because Aiba has a rocker voice sometimes but. Hmmm. Omg who. Gasped there. The pseudo-metal is GREAT HAHA. The guitar solo LOL. There is no bridge! But um I LIKE IT. Wow this one's really short 30s less than the rest. THE AMOUNT OF GUITAR. Um please perform this live and have Nino and Aiba jam at each other on electric guitars.

5. Kienu Omoi
BALLAD? Okay yes. Haha finallyyyyy. Omg Nino's voice. SHUDDERING. In its awesome, I mean, that can be interpreted badly. Aiba sounds amazing here too gosh. Omg Nino's voice fits ballads perectly this is amazing. OKAY THE INSTRUMENTAL. The chorus is kinda NOT-A-BALLAD THOUGH. Sho's very near his very good range! Also did they. Scratch the instrumental. That's awk. And Jun sounds... okayish. This is quite strange to me because it starts with a solo line and that's not how Arashi usually works! They have a practically set system. Hmm I don't really like it leh. The chorus is off to me :/ I assumed there would be a bridge... OH yes Ohno. Haha they had a half-chorus before the bridge. Idk I just can't feel the chorus! The verses are pretty though.

OKAY OKAY OVERALL...
Hmmm. An okay single but not very memorable! If there's anything I'll remember it's wanna be. Um I wanted to say I expected it to be rockish or metal but I DIDN'T SAY IT BECAUSE I COULDN'T IMAGINE IT, THEN THEY DID IT. LOL. Also I can enjoy this but not like WOW OH GOSH WOW kinda thing. HAHA FUCK I DON'T MAKE SENSE but yeaaa. Hmmm. Okay single I suppose.

MEIKYUU LOVE SONG PV.
Oh gosh puzzle. HAHA okay I love the colouring AND THE SET. Omg it's gorgeous. OHNO. THE WAY HE ENTERS ALL 'YES!' NINO. AIBA! AND HIS HAAAND. JUN'S LACK OF RESOLVE LOL. SHO. HAHA SO CUTE. ADVENTURES OF PUZZLE STORM? Also the freezing at the start, didn't like it. Made me think my video was jamming. Also Sakumniya are gorgeoooous. OH GOSH AIBA TOSSING THE DICE. HAHA THEY ARE PIECES IN A BOARD GAME. BICYCLE? Oh gosh. HAHAHAHAHAHA AIBA OH GOD. WHAT IS THIS. Oh gosh sitting on DIE. Sho's hair is terrible though. LOLOL GETTING A BATSU. HAHAHAHA JUN FIGHTING A SKELETON. OH MY GOD. I CAN'T STAND THIS. Okay NINO IS GORGEOUS. So is Jun actually. ESCAPE! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA WHAT THE FUCK. They were running away and SHO CAOSTED PAST ON A CHAIR. Omg AIBA IS THE BEST. Oh Nino can I take you home. HAHAH THEY'RE SO OVERDRAMATIC. SKIP A TURN. Omg CAT EARS HAHAHAHAHA. ARASHI'S FACES AT OHNO. HAHA I CANNOT. OMG. SONG. SONG. HAHAHAHAHHAHA FUCK THEY'RE JUST. STARING AND SINGING. Also I just realised Aiba is wearing like A LOT OF FLORALS. OMG DOING THE PAINFUL SQUATS HAHA. HEY THEY ARE AT. TEA TIME. Omg how are they drinking. OMG. THIS PV IS PERFECT HAHAHA. Oh gosh Nino is GORGEOUS. LOLOL NOW IT JUST SAYS 'NINO' AND THERE'S 5 OF NINO. NINO'S FUCKING FACE. AND THE CAT EARED HIM LOL. Oh gosh why do I ALWAYS want Nino's clothes. OH SHO AND YOUR HANDS. Omg they got 1! HAHA. Oh gosh adorable. HAHAHAHAH THE FUCKING CIRCLE. Oh my god. EEEEEE THE END! AHHH. I SHOULD NOT ENJOY THIS AS MUCH AS I DO.

UM TBQH, LOVED IT. The song was a bit slow but the PV was gorgeous. I love the muted colouring, and the set was just plain beautiful gosh the rustic look, the colours, the puzzle pieces and clockwork gears everywhere. And um NINO WAS GORGEOUS. It was his skin when muted and his hair and my penchant for Nino's clothes lol.

ALSO IT IS DORKY AND RIDICULOUS. And I loved the batsu parts! Um what's batsu in - PUNISHMENT GAMES YES. It's like, the ESSENCE of Arashi HAHA. AND IT IS JUST RIDICULOUS. Especially when Sho and Aiba coasted past on a chair and a bike respectively I WAS JUST. CRYING. OH GOSH.

I AM WATCHING THIS AGAIN.

Omg Aiba's clothes are seriously just TERRIBLE what is that getup LOL. But he looks okay in the sweater! BUT THE FLORAL THING.

ALSO GOSH I CHEER WITH THEM WHEN THEY GET THE '1'. Seriously though! How many times must they have filmed that one moment. ALSO JUST WONDERING why didn't they use Sho instead of Nino for the 4 clones thing? I mean they don't always have a clear centre for the singles even with dramas! I think it may be to make up for Nino's lack of activity for the YEAR but I think in general Nino's done enough since 2010 for it to carry forward (was GANTZ 2 not released last year? No? IT WAS.) SO YES QUESTIONS.

Oh gosh there's so much to watch but it's LATE. Also I have 2h left so obvsly this is the perfect chance for me to watch my 2h special of HnA so THAT IS WHAT I SHALL DO.

Also this post is not as long as I expected it to be. THIS MUST BE REMEDIED.

OMG I LOVED IT WILL BLOG TMR didn't liveblog but MY MOTHER'S WAKING UP IN 20MIN LOL OKAY BYE.

2012-01-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHA I ACTUALLY HAD TO USE D:/ TO STORE KOUHAKU. Fucking big file you guys and I HAVE MSSL AND FNS AND NTV BEST ARTIST TO WATCH.

Also I trimmed my fringe. MYSELF. AHHH it looks somewhat terrible but well so did it before I trimmed it.

@pearl: PWNT

@Jessie: YOU GUYS KNOW! At least Celine does! Me and Jerm is Fishaine :D Don't worry they're all terrible.

Um speaking of Japan, they had a 7.0 richter earthquake on 01.01.2012 and ): I just. ): This is a horrible start to the new year and I hope they're well.

SLEEPOVER.

Oh gosh I just. Got to Jessie's with Weiqi slightly past 1600, and Celine was late because she was WATCHING GAYO DAEJUN and Chew was unwell! Played Band Hero HAHA and then went to eat at Pastamania, AGAIN. Went back and played MONODEAL HAHAHA. Guys I love Monodeal!!!

After that we went to watch Gayo Daejun and counted down in GMT +7 LOLOL. Um halfway through during the half hour commercial the user streamed Kouhaku and I WAS DYING, OKAY, DYING. Oh gosh Inoue Mao's dress was so low-key though tsk I thought someone would've at least desgined something amazing! We counted down in GMT +8 later too LOL and shooke each other's hands going "HAPPY NEW YEAR, HAPPY NEW YEAR!" HAHAHAHA. I love us :D

Also: COUNT DOWNING. ;dsfjas;kdljfa;l. HILARIOUS.

Um we were supposed to ~sleep~ after that but UM. WHO SLEEPS AT A SLEEPOVER. Played a variety of games like MONODEAL ( :D :D), Taboo (which me and Jessie owned EVERYONE at because of amazing telepathy. Also the moment Jessie 'um's and flails, "SUPER JUNIOR!" Corn: "IN A FARM, UM, YELLOW, YOU, YOU THREW IT AT THAT PERSON!!!"), Pictionary which I can't remember who won BUT WHEN ME AND CHEW WERE A TEAM LOL. We were stuck at the start and Weiqi and Jessie were almost there then "WE'RE MAKING A COMEBACK" then when Weiqi and Jessie kept bouncing back we moved 3/4 OF THE BOARD LOLOL. UM I can't remember what else we played while Jessie was awake. OH YES BRIDGE AND DAIDEE AND CHEAT HAHAHAHA.

OH YES. FAIL CAMWHORED HAHAHHAHA. WELL GUYS.

Then Jessie went to sleep at like 5AM HAHAHHA while the rest of us played Cluedo and UNO. UNO WAS OUR FUCKING FAVOURITE HAHAHAHAHA me and Celine reshuffled the deck TWICE before we finished one game LOL. We are the absolute best :D

'Woke up' at 0830, meaning Jessie woke up and Celine woke up from her half hour nap and Weiqi refused to wake up LOL. Managed to get Weiqi up in the end, then we went to have breakfast at Mac's and KTVed! Um, js I felt damn bad at Kbox because of the lights and my depth percetion went all screwed HAHA and I guess that kinda destroyer my ~experience~ but yea! Oh well it was fun!

SAW JERMAINE ON THE WAY BACK. :D♥ Hehe super surprised! But yea :D I love her! HEHE.

OKAY YES that was! My new year LOL. Went back home and MISSED MY STATION BECAUSE I SLEPT PAST IT. Then I got home, and did chores (mopped my room, my parents', and the living room) and FOUND A DEAD LIZARD BODY EW EW EW EW EW ): Then went to nap and was supposed to wake up because my cousins were treating their family and mine and my grandma to a new year's dinner or sth but slept through it, woke up once at 11:11, then went back to sleep and woke up this morning around 0900.

My uncle from my paternal side came over, we went for lunch together, then we got back, I read The Colour of Magic and trimmed my fringe! AND NOW I BE BLOGGING.

Um guys guys RED TEAM WON KOUHAKU! FUCK YES AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. Also I didn't want to be spoilered for Kouhaku but since I saw that I was like LOL FUCK IT. EEK. I KNEW RED TEAM WOULD WIN. So proud of them ;_;

AS WE ARE STILL ON KOUHAKU. Someone please explain to me their pants LOL. I love it when they're in colour, YES, BUT THIS IS MOST INAPPROPRIATE LOL. But ahhh. SO CUTE. Oh Aiba, putting himself at the right height to talk to the MaruMori kids ♥

OH FUCK okay going to PASIR RIS FOR DINNER with my extended family um. OKAY GOING TO COME BACK AND BLOG MORE.

Okay before I go:

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I love these boys so. so. so. much. Seeing my idols do 90degree bows is one of my favourites and just. Ugh. These boys ♥ Ever so eternally grateful. And Jun. He's just, ughhh. I LOVE THESE BOYS LIKE CRAZY, OKAY ♥

Omg someone buy me Cl's tank omg. Also Park Bom's top and ALL THEIR SHOOOOES. But omg I desperately want her tank but I can't seem to find it .

My hair is in 2 French braids because I want it to curl! Um, VAIN TODAY. But my left side is tighter than my right side it's gonna come out uneven LOL but yea.

Uhhh guys best confession ever LOL. I just. LOL. Um if it's true though, DEAD AS WELL. Best scandal evar but okay that would seriously damage Arashi's reputation SO HOPE NOT.

Also omg Zekkouchou Chou!!!! IS ONLY MY ABSOLUTE FAVOURITE. I hear Ohno starting and everyone joining in and I'm like YES and then they start singing and I WOULD SCREAM THE LYRICS ALONG IF I KNEW THEM. LALALALA! (OR RATHER RARARARA. I LOVE JAPAN.) I SHOUT ZEKKOUCHOU - CHOU! WITH THEM THO BUT GET SAD BECAUSE THE SONG ENDS.

GUYS LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO THE BIGGEST MINDFUCK EVER.

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED PRODUCTIVITY WHILE YOU HAD IT.

SHAKE IT SHAKE IT, SHAKE IT THAT BODEHHHH. Um I should not enjoy this song so much BUT I DO, I HOPE JUN PERFORMS IT LIVE.

Oh my god this guys THE TIMING IS IMPECCABLE and oh gosh it is fucking cool I LOVE THE PART WHERE THEY GRAB THE ICONS, AND WHEN THEY KICK THE FUCKING SLANTED RECTANGLES AND OH MY GOD can I please have this in 3d oh my god FUCKING COOL was it an actual screen or was it CGed in later DOESN'T MATTER their positioning is perfect and their timing and oh my god coolest ever BOYS. I LOVE YOU.

AHHHH FUCKING SLAPPED MY OWN FACE WHEN I SAW SHO. KIRIN COMMERCIALS ARE THE BEST AND OH MY GOD SHO FINALLY GOT RID OF HIS CONTRACT WITH CIDER!!! Well I mean. ENDED. BUT. AHHH FUCKING LOVE KIRIN. Also NINO AND HIS ELECTRIC GUITAR um that is only the hottest, okay. AND 5NIN KIRIN CMs AHHH. Ohmygod Jun in the chair and Aiba with his GIANT MEAL and Ohno YOGAING and Nino's grin when he strums and SHO'S FUCKING FACE WHEN HE APPEARS FROM BEHIND THE BOOK. This is only the best. I LOVE THIS.

OKAY OKAY mass fandomming brb I HAVEN'T DONE THIS IN 2 DAYS GONNA BE ONE LONG POST.

The awkward moment when I realise that I am really unable to function the moment Doko ni Demo Aru Uta comes on. Lol. I might as well just 'brb' everyone on MSN and sob for a moment.

UNRELATED: I am an INFJ and it is tbh highly accurate lol. Well.

Well fuck. It was my baby now you're trying to steal it from me I shouldn't have told you in the first place should I.

It was my fucking baby god you dk how long I spent on it and now you're just. Trying to snatch it from me. And plus udek the true nature of it I had to readjust it (in a terrible way moreover) and just.

UGH STOP DOING THIS |:

Sigh just let me. Pick at it and bemoan my stupidity.

Haha fuck I'm so upset rn I don't even. I think I'm going to avoid contact for a while just hole up and yea. Think. And write. Like a madwoman.

TURNS OUT THERE WAS FIC I HADN'T READ YET FROM THE MOST FANTASTIC EXCHANGE EVER guess who's gonna ROT TONIIIIGHT.

(Okay just really need to FORGET THAT UGH.)

Also my HnA WON'T DOWNLOAD HURM.

I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR AGES OMG PUT ON REPEAT.

2011-12-30T20:26:00.000-08:00

2011 → 2012

New year, new beginnings. And not just because it's a new year, but because there's JC next year, and it's been a year where I've... lost, a lot of things. It honestly felt like the longest year of my life, I don't even remember things that happened only recently, and NCC felt like it was ages ago, in fact, 411 feels like it was ages ago. But it... just happened. Wow.

2011 has been a crazy year, I've met a lot of people, lost a lot of people, I've left some of the things that have been the biggest constants in my life for the past few years. And in some ways I really think it's been an amazing year. Thks fr th mmrs, 2011 ♥ (And that is one of the many things I have discovered in 2011.)

2011 in sections of my life that mattered.

1) NCC.

I put 'academia' first, thinking it was the biggest part of my life, then I realised that that was a lie. It was... our last year of NCC. I've said it before, but putting the word 'last' in front of something doesn't necessarily make it more important. What important was that this year, Jermaine and I together groomed our next batch of leaders (: It's been crazy, but it's been wonderful. Thank you Part Cs (: Remember: we trust you, we believe in you, and you guys are going to be amazing. It's going to be hard, but it's going to be worth it, and you are more than you think you are. And I'm not saying this because I always do, but I always say it because I believe it.

There's not going to be any more NCC, which would be a shock, but it's been a few months and I guess I've been numbed to the fact that NCC is no longer. I don't miss NCC, and I would miss hanging out with my platoonmates and just being crazy, but that implies that I no longer do that, and that's a lie. We may not have the adhesive that is NCC to stick us together, but we have the longer-lasting, far more amazing adhesive known as 'friendship'. Guess what matters (:

So. It's the last year of NCC. Which isn't important. It's the year where I continued to love my platoon, learnt to love another platoon, and made memories worth keeping. That's important (:

Also being a ~*leader*~ has made me realise what leadership truly means, and I just want to thank all our previous seniors, specifically Stephania Jingwen Julie Eewen and Sophia, Stephania, Jingwen, Julie, and Eewen for being amazing A/PSes who put up with all our bullshit; Julie, Eewen, and Sophia for sticking with us way past their NCC days. And also - sorry, for being a jerk and kind of a bitch and being the worst possible junior. And thanks for putting up with that, too.

It's been a long ride, but it's been worth it. ♥ I can't put it all into words, but NCC, thanks for everything. Platoonmates, juniors, seniors, thank you too (: ♥

2) Academia

Academia. I think this year I truly found where my strengths lie, and I've been able to expound on them more. I'm nowhere near smart, but I've improved a lot since sec 1, and there's something that's very important to me: I learnt to learn. I learnt that there's a lot more to being smart than just being academically excellent, and while I always knew this I suppose I never inculcated that fact into my life. And now that I truly, truly know this, living's a lot more worth it, learning's a lot more enjoyable, and education is a lot less tiring. Honestly I still don't agree with our system, but I think about it and I don't think there's any solutions I can offer. Problems, I have plenty, solutions, I have none. And that's another thing I learnt - give solutions, not problems. Complaints don't make the world progress half as quickly as solutions do.

Well... that's. All I have to say really. It really took up a huge portion of my life, though, worrying about grades and working for them. Being happy for my near-perfect grades (they're perfect to me at least) and being disappointed with my not-so-perfect ones. And I think at the end of it all I am proud of myself, for working hard and doing okay-well and in the end understanding and appreciating learning (:

And if I could talk about learning there is so. much. more. I've really learnt to appreciate languages, and that has guided me in the learning of them. I am still only barely fluent in English, but grades show that my Chinese and French has improved tremendously, and my understanding and increased patience when it comes to Japanese has shown similar results (although I still barely understand it). I used to rush a lot with my languages, but now I'm far more patient with them, and it's gone from interest to honest passion and I like that. I've also gone back to books! Which is by all means great. I went from reading a book every 2 days to none at all between P6 and sec 1, and now I'm back to a few books a week (: And it's glorious, to be sucked so freely into prose and just live outside my own world for a while.

Learning, in the purely living sense and in no way to do with smarts. I've learnt to appreciate life and to be open-minded. My main 2 mottos are now 看得开 and 知足, which are fantastic mottos to live by if I do say so myself. I don't think I've become overly positive, but I am definitely more appreciative of the infinite possibilities that is life and I've definitely become less negative. (Less negative and more positive are not the same things!) And I'd like to believe that I've become a better person over the years as well, but that may be wishful thinking.

3) People who know I exist

Platoonmates: thanks for putting up with me, and being great people. We've been through a lot and we'll go through more together. I love you people, and we're more than what we think we are ♥ This year has been tough, with the sudden thrust of leadership upon us, but I think we'll all agree that we came out of it okay, and we're proud of ourselves. We've accomplished more than we thought we ever could, not just this year but in all the previous ones as well, and that, obviously, makes me proud (: Also special shoutout to the people whom I've worked with very closely over the past year, namely Vicheese, Jessceline, Shiying/Weiqi (GET A PAIRING NAME DAMMIT), and my darling favourite Jermaine ♥♥♥

AB4: quoth myself, "I guess one of the scariest things about taking over is the fact that suddenly, your mindset has to advance from "for the platoon" to "for the unit" in the span of one day." And I still agree with that. But we believe in you. Work hard, and as Jermaine has put it very aptly on Twitter, make us proud (: We've watched you guys through your (arguably) toughest and most eventful year, and you guys have grown a lot from January to now, and we have no doubts at all that you guys will do an amazing job leading the unit (: Thanks for teaching me and Jermaine much much more than we ever taught you, and for being receptive of us, and for being the best juniors ever (:

Classmates: things I regret but won't say: not having taken the time to really, really get to know some of my classmates. I don't know if it was RAM, but I feel like I never did take the time to really get to know everyone, and this year I've been able to really talk to everyone and I really think our class is amazing (: I can really talk to just about anyone in the class about anything, and I think that's special in its own (: Thanks to our class chairs who have beared with us throughout everything as well, and have worked hard at bringing us closer together!

French classmates: BECAUSE WE REALLY ARE JUST ANOTHER BUNCH ALTOGETHER. Je vous aimez! C'est triste que nous ne aprendrons plus le français, oui? Merci pour étudier et pour réclamer avec moi, et encore, JE VOUS AIMEZ ♥

I... have more to say but I daren't. Hmmm.

To put it gently, for myself and for others, I've lost a lot of people this year due to the fact that friendships are dynamic things that have many factors influencing them. Some of them I'm glad to be rid of, and some of them I miss terribly. But really: good riddance to the worst, and I miss you terribly to the best. It's somewhat disappointing that I've lost more important people than I have insignificant ones, but that is the road of life.

4) Music. (Aka, people who don't know I exist)

To want to thank Taylor Swift for the year is kind of a strange and somewhat terrible decision HAHA but I do. Her music's helped me cope this year, and I can always relate to her lyrics, and I'm glad I've found her. I will continue to listen to Mine at least once a day (: Taylor Swift has been my go-to comfort music, my peaceful music, my music to listen to when I need some kind of hope injected in my life or when I want hope to level with mine. And that's all sorts of crazy but. Yes.

Also, Fall Out Boy. I still always listen to (Coffee's for Closers) all the time. And also Pretty in Punk because I am constantly quoting one line from it. I still don't really enjoy most of their music, but when something strikes a chord with me (not just in the musical sense) it strikes hard and clings onto me (:

I've been listening to a lot of English pop recently, namely OneRepublic, Lady Gaga, Rihanna, P!nk, Nicki Minaj, Alex Day, Tom Milsom. And I guess it's always good to deversify my choices!

I am debating with myself whether I should throw fandom under the music section but that is, musically, a bad choice. Oops. Wait I have more though!

Park Bom. Which people may tell me is a fandom thing and not a musical thing, but I guess what's special about Bom is that she touched me musically first. I don't remember the ~moment~ I fell in love with her, which is strange because with all my other major biases I have a specific moment. And well I always talk about how 2NE1 has immature songs ("they have lonely and ugly, they just need stupid and they'll cover the full spectrum of emotions for the average angsty teenager") but perhaps that's why I can relate. Ugly is still, always forever my jam. And I don't know how Bom fits in here but I am excessively proud of her because I truly believe she's one of those idols with the lowest self-esteem ever and I'm proud that she's standing on stage and singing her lungs out, doing what she wants to do, and I suppose that's what made me fall in love with her in a crazy way even I myself don't understand.

Also I am forever upset that I never caught up properly with UVERworld although this has been (I believe) their best year in terms of sales. I am also severely disappointed in fandom, but I guess because I'm in such a big fandom now (Arashi) that I see how UVERfandom lacks. ): I will do it within the next week PROMISE.

Music's played a big part of my life this year! I've just. Been able to relate and connect more to music, I think, and that. Is wonderful (:

5) Fandom! (Aka people who don't know I exist, Part 2.)

Oh gosh there's just. So many aspects to fandom now! I've definitely dropped in involvement from last year, just on the catching up aspect. And now I just barely follow one main fandom, and I just catch up briefly on the rest. Well. Haha.

I've talked a lot about the social networking aspect of fandom lately, especially with ~THE GREAT DREAMWIDTH MOVE OF 2011~, so I won't expound more on that (:

In any case, whether or not I catch up, one thing stays constant: the boys bring me great joy and I don't think I'll ever let them go. Now matter how shitty fandom is. The other day I was checking one of my concert files, and I fastforwarded right to the point in concert where they stand together as 5, join hands together, and raise them up, 4 Vs between 5 boys, and smile at the crowd, gratitude and joy shining off their faces and I just sat, enthralled for a moment, and started to tear. Because these boys are amazing.

I think my non-existent connection to the boys has deepened recently, which may be a bad thing, but I don't actually mind at all. Well. Let's just say fandom is an escape from a lot of terrible things in my life, and I like it that way. (:

2011 in a nutshell: I've grown and I've learnt and I'm still ridiculous but I'm happy (:

My resolutions of last year:
→ don't get too stressed
→ don't panic too much
→ if I do, keep holding on and don't crack yet
→ breaking all my bad habits
→ improving in character
→ passing O's
→ ORD and graduate happy

First 3: compared to last year, done and done. I've been remarkably well this year, compared to last year, I think. And that's wonderful (: I think I've become a better person! Perhaps not to everyone else but. Ah well. I haven't stopped leg-shaking yet, but today is the day I shall swear to. And passing O's, welp. I'll find out in a week or so. And yes, I did ORD and graduate relatively happy, thanks for asking (:

Resolutions'12!
→ remember that life is a miracle, no matter what happens
→ appreciate existence
→ stay happy :D
→ become a better person!
→ learn
→ work hard
→ STOP LEG-SHAKING.
→ get into PPL course at least

That... should be all. (I fully intend to get a PPL get a PPL, but. I like starting small.)

Hey 2011. Thanks for being relatively good to me. Maybe it's because you felt SO LONG I forgot all the bad parts, but hey. That's not a bad substitute ;D

2012, BE GOOD TO ME. And more importantly, be good to my family and to my friends (: I hope JC doesn't suck and I hope I continue to stick close with the friends I have now (:

Js, the sky is gorgeous today.

2011-12-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

@pearl:

@sorethroat: HAHA DO YOU HAVE A SORE THROAT. And HAHA OKAY next time we print the lyrics in romaji okay :D!

15.01.2011: HANA YORI DANGO FINAL ON OKTO MUST WATCH. Again HEHE. 10pm!

Also haha PLANS WITH PLATOONMATES FOR TOMORROW SO EXCITING ♥ I'm missing Ayu's Countdown livestream and Kouhaku (which I intended to livestream) AND JOHNNY'S COUNTDOWN (IF IT EXISTS) for you guys okay HAHA. But yea WILL BE WORTH IT :D Can't believe we're going to camp in a 24/7 fast-food restaurant tomorrow LOL.

TODAY... I slept for damn long and was sick lol :/ And um got scolded a lot for waking up late and subsequently for being sick and not wanting to do anything? Um. I'm a lot less ragey now then I was when I woke up this afternoon but yea sigh. Couldn't speak properly the whole day! Hmmm. Yeaa. ):

Um was on tumblr and saw stuff about HanaDan and... I'm going to confess I really, really forgot what happened in the start of HanaDan. Like, maybe I just decided to shut it out of my brain, or I haven't watched HanaDan in ages, no seriously, but. Obviously it's problematic. I'm going to say that it's not wrong for Makino to have fallen in love with him though, because although Domyouji is a huge fucking jerk (and seriously okay reading about what happened is now convincing me that he is MORE THAN THAT), I still think that people accept that people change. And Makino did that. I read a secret once, somewhere, probably ljsecret, that someone forgave her rapist and is now married to him, and I don't think it's wrong at all. Because, um, well, it isn't. It takes a big heart, but I do think it's possible to fall in love with someone who has once abused you and/or is abusing you. (Love The Way You Lie, people?)

I don't think it's fucked that people fall in love with people who once tortured and abused them, both physically and mentally. Because that's not what's fucked, at least not in my opinion. What's fucked is that people could actually abuse others in the first place. Yes.

And, um, rape culture. Well. Makino being able to forgive her rapist may be seen as rape culture, yes. I can't say anything about that. But I just. Idk it happens. As much as it sucks.

I can't believe I've forgotten it's happened in the series though. Maybe because I wasn't as affected by this when I was younger. Now I'm far more aware and also very triggery so yea. Um I felt super uncomfortable reading about it, js.

ALSO because I have honestly forgotten about the trigger-scenes, I will continue to watch HYD final. In my headcanon, HanaDan only starts after Domyouji becomes less of a prick.

Also I just found out vomit is also something which is trigger-warned about? Um. That is. VERY GOOD tbqh (guys looking at puke makes me puke. Instantaneously.)

HEY GUYS turns out Sakumiya in Japanese is known as 'magnet pair' (磁石さん) because they are N AND S. NORTH AND SOUTH. Um guys that is really fucking cute. Is it not? MAGNETS.

Also relevant: DON'T DO THIS!!. I CAN'T. JUN. THE WAY HE JUST LAUNCHES HIMSELF AT THE CLIFF AND SCREAMS AHHH. Also Ohno's FACE. He's just SECONDS away from grinning. Oh Arashi.

THIS MAN. I RESPECT HIM.

Um also I keep hearing about how amazing the episode of Himitsu with Nino stealing EVERYONE'S OUTFITS is, so I'm going to watch it ;D Right after I
1) Fandom
2) Hear and watch Meikyuu!
3) WATCH MSSL

:D today shall be a fandom-filled day.

JUST FOUND OUT THE HnA IS A 2 HOUR SPECIAL WITH DISNEY CHARACTERS. UM, A+.

Omg I volunteer myself. READILY. Oh my fucking god.

lkdsjfl;kajl;kdj;fla !!!!!!!!!!!

LOL UM NOW I'M GONNA GIVE SOME KID TUITION TOMORROW? AWK haha okay yea then. Not gonna watch MSSL then sigh. BUT OKAY.

HEYY Johnny's Countdown exists. There was a CM for it! But WHO'S HOSTING IT?????

Akanishi Jin in Anan! UM, I LOVE ANAN. Anan can actually do pretty and subtly sexy right (although their subtly sexy is sometimes shit seriously photographers!) but ughhhh beautiful man. Also what shampoo does he use lol. Omg some comments are HILARIOUS.

Also lolol Yamapi hit Shanghai! Um I thought he did it without Jimusho knowing and was all BYE BYE YOUR CAREER but turns out no. Well. If Johnny hits Taiwan though! I mean they have the Taiwanese Johnny's group but no1curr tbqh. DID HE SING SEISHUN TO AMIGO I HOPE HE DID. And um best photo ever YAMAPI SMILING. I have such a thing for Yamapi's smiles BUT HE NEVER DOES ):

Um terrible news tbqh. I don't want to talk about it but ughhh. UGH. What the fuck was he telling that girl. Gdi how is that not knowing what you did. And yes fuck he's famous but ugh. UGH. Okay he says he didn't say that to the girl though but ugh. Hope the girl's getting help, and honestly I'm glad she reported it because rape is such a terrible thing and in Japan it's severely overlooked.

GUYS. MOST PUNNY TITLE EVER. But yea like I said, I'M PROUD OF NADESHIKO JAPAN, and they totally deserve it!

More on Kouhaku: JKT48 will backdance AKB48! UM APPARENTLY AKB NOW HAS 92 MEMBERS!? "A total of 210 members of the 48 family will be on the Kohaku stage, performing and showing their support for Japan."

AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS WOW BUT NO, FUCKING NYC LOL. THEY WILL BE JOINED BY 244 JUNIORS. WOW. OKAY. Also lololol it will be fucking Shounen Club as long as they're on stage.

Kouhaku's stage please hold xoxo. How will they all fit backstage!?

Js Johnny doesn't hate AKB. They don't share the same schemes or target audiences! They're just. 2 separate companies that so similar things, but don't really hate each other because THERE IS NO POINT TO.

Hahahaha idegaf about Japan Record Awards but yes, AKB deserved it, and more importantly FAIRIES. I don't love them but they're quite okay! And tbh deserved it 200times more than 2NE1. Who everyone said had won the award. Perhaps not!

ALSO LOLOL SKE MEMBERS SPOTTED AT SEXY ZONE HANDSHAKE. A+. Everyone's responses LOOOL. Oh I love Arama ♥

JAPAN FINALLY GETS WIFI IN ONE FORM OR OTHER. Guys I seriously though Japan had wifi everywhere then MY SHOCK when someone said NO, THEY JUST ALL HAVE DATA PLANS. Well that's a good choice too but SERIOUSLY. I AM PLEASE BY THIS. It's still limited though but ah well!

Idoling!'s MAMORE!!! PV! (TOO. MANY. EXCLAMATION POINTS.)
I've watched something from Idoling! I believe. But not memorable. Omg I jacked up my volume 'cos the front was silent but they were mouthing words! THEN IT BLASTED. I like this song! THEY'RE ALSO CAGED. Oh I definitely like this. The partial-group shots were awk though. Lolol I don't like the, non-dance shots oops. They're very big! I didn't know this lol. Omg they're under PONY CANYON. Um, I don't really like Pony Canyon lol. The song's nice! Every girl group should do fierce songs they're fabulous :D (Also it demonstrates versatility and a side of your idol you don't get to see :D It also attracts fans who don't like the cutesy style!) Um it's still. Very cutesy though. As ong as they don't dance they're being cutesy okay no wonder I felt the non-dance shots were weird. Omg some of them look so doll-like it's creepy. OH the end to the dance was quite cool :D

I love JE secrets but I WISH I KNEW ALL THE SOURCE PICTURES. There is this Arashi picture where they are ALL IN FLANNEL and I love it. I'm strange. Shh.

TO THE LIGHT TO THE LIGHT TO THE MORNING LIIIIIGHT~ (WHOA!)

UM MY JAM.

HEY GUYS. I HAVE NOTHING SCHEDULED FOR NEXT WEEK! FABULOUS. Don't ask me out next week xoxo I WILL NOT GO. Thank you! I intend to use that time to REALLY CATCH UP WITH FANDOM (UVERworld I'M SORRY ;_; Also SPEC and Freeter and everything I said I'd watch and OHOKU AND KOKUHAKU ugh) and also FINALLY FINISH CLEANING MY STUDY. My brother's going to school so I'm going to have lots of alone time and I INTEND TO USE IT.